Late Night Love: Heart's Desire
Author: Stephie P. a.k.a thesilentsenshi/kirameki
Contact: thesilentsenshihotmail.com; http:thesilentsenshi.livejournal.com
Pairings: Legolas/Erestor
Rating: R/NC-17
Summary: Erestor is haunted by his night with Legolas. The prince wants
to continue their affair. When insomnia hits once again, will Erestor
be able to fight his desires. Does he even want to? Sequel to Late
Night Library Tryst.
Disclaimer: The lovely elves don't belong to me, though I wish they did.
Warnings: None really. Unless you consider slash bad...
Notes: Part four. More angsty-ness and misunderstandings unfold. Gosh, I'm so cruel to them. X3
Also note that some of what was in the last part is repeated. So, I
hope you don't feel it's too much of a cheat. =x We see the episode in
the clearing through Erestor's eyes. So the only thing different is
Erestor's thoughts and actions for the most part. I know, it was kinda
cheap, but I didn't know how to fit both Erestor's thoughts and
Legolas' in the last chapter without confusing the hell out of
everyone(or at least myself… --;).
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Part IV. Misunderstandings
Elrohir embraced his friend, smiling. "I'm happy for you. Have you told him?"
Legolas shook his head, and swallowed hard. "How can I? He's been avoiding me like the plague ever since... I must have disappointed him in some way." Legolas said sadly. The twins frowned at him.
"What is this?! It's not like you to act like this my friend. When you want something you've always gone after it. Why would you not do likewise in this matter?" Elladan spoke harshly, trying to get his friend to realize what he had to do.
"But, I don't wish to force something on him that he doesn't want."
"How do you know he doesn't want it?" Elrohir asked softly, rubbing his friends back soothingly.
"There's no sign he even remembers what happened that night, let alone wants to continue it!" Legolas looked like he would break into tears at any moment.
The twins looked at him and smiled. "My friend, no one forgets a night spent with you."
Legolas smiled at them in return. "Thanks, but still... This is Erestor we're talking about. I mean, he's older than all of us, why would he want to be with a spoiled young prince like me who hasn't done anything with their life yet?"
"I think you're just being too hard on yourself. Erestor never was one to judge a person by age or experience. You know that as well as I." Elladan reminded him.
"Are you going to give up just like that, without a fight... without even trying?" Elrohir asked.
Legolas smiled at them. "You're right. It's not like me to just give up. I am a spoiled prince after all."
The twins grin broadly "We're with you always. If you need anything, don't hesitate to ask."
"Thanks, but... I think this is something I have to do on my own."
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Erestor was on an errand for Elrond, walking past the clearing when he heard the sound of laughter. He stopped abruptly. He recognized that voice! But, what would Legolas be doing here? 'I should go, I wouldn't want to intrude...' Yet he didn't move. The voices were still too far away to hear, and he was torn with whether he should continue on his way, or go check on what the prince was doing. He took a tentative step forward, but his curiosity got the better of him. He turned and walked toward the clearing. Now he could hear two other voices with the prince, he recognized them as well. Elladan and Elrohir, Elrond's sons and at one time his pupils.
He moved silently until he could see clearly into the clearing. His breath caught when he saw the prince, leaning against a tree, a smile on his face. He rolled his eyes at something the twins said.
"If you must know, I couldn't sleep, so I went to the library for some late night reading."
"So, who were you with?" Elrohir asked slyly.
Erestor was shocked. They were speaking of that night, he just knew it. 'Please don't tell them,' He pleaded.
"What makes you think I was with anyone?"
Erestor sighed in relief.
"Come, my friend. As we said before, we know you well. Who was it?" Elladan pressed.
"Ooh! I know! It was that cute young servant that's been following you around ever since you arrived last week!" Elrohir guessed.
"What? Who are you talking about? What servant?" Legolas demanded.
Ignoring him, the twins continued with their list of various Elves currently residing in their father's halls who had their eye on the youngest prince of Mirkwood.
Erestor was shocked. He knew that there were many who sought the prince's favor, but he hadn't quite come to terms with it. 'And he chose me that night,' Erestor thought, hope kindling in his breast. 'He could have had anyone he wanted, yet he chose me.'
Legolas shook his head. "Nay, why do you even want to know?"
"You've always told us about your lover's before." Elladan observed.
Legolas just shook his head, refusing to answer.
Suddenly Erestor saw Elrohir straddle the prince, who made no move to stop him. Erestor's heart ached at the sight of the prince with someone else, but he knew this was a very real possibility. But did it really have to be with his former students?
"Roh, what do you think you're doing?"
"I'm detaining you from escaping. You will not be leaving this clearing without telling us who you were with that night."
Legolas didn't do or say anything, just sat there looking at the twin in his lap.
"Brother! He's not talking! I swear, Legolas I won't move until you talk." Elrohir swore.
Elladan grinned at his twin. "Mayhap he doesn't want you to move."
"Well, I'm not complaining," Elrohir said suggestively, "I'm perfectly happy where I am." He leaned down, his full weight on the prince, his hands on his chest.
"So, you won't move until I tell you?" Legolas sighed. "Very well, then. But you can't tell a soul! It was..." Legolas took a deep breath, "...Erestor."
The twins jaws dropped and they stared at him in shock.
Erestor closed his eyes, pain engulfing him. 'He told them, why did he tell them?' Erestor's heart was hurting so much.
"Erestor? Our Erestor?!"
"Is there any other?" The prince said softly.
"Oh valar, how did you manage to pull that off?! I don't think Erestor's been with anyone in centuries! You are a genius my friend." Elrohir exclaimed.
'How true he is,' Erestor thought sadly.
Legolas smiled grimly.
"Talk about a conquest! You actually managed to seduce the cold icy Erestor." Elladan whistled appreciatively.
In those few moment's Erestor's heart shattered, his world crashing down around him. Without staying to hear any more, he turned and fled back to the Last Homely House, tears streaming down his pale cheeks.
Once safely ensconced in his bedchamber Erestor collapsed on his bed. His sobs wracked his body harshly. He felt his heart bleeding in his breast. He'd never felt pain so intense in his entire life. The grief clutched at his heart and squeezed. He gasped in pain.
He'd fooled himself. Despite his warnings to himself he had hoped that the prince had felt some small amount of affection for him. The tiniest morsel would have sustained him. But instead, he realized the beauty of that night was on his part alone. To the prince he was just another conquest. A plaything that could easily be thrown out and replaced.
Why had Legolas told the twins about him? Why did he have to hurt him so? How could he ever look at the twins again without seeing them intimately with the prince in his mind? Maybe he should leave the Last Homely House, if he survived this excruciating pain at all.
His heart grew cold and closed itself off. He had been hurt too many times, he would never entrust it to anyone again. Wiping his tear streaked cheeks and wet eyes he looked around the room. On the table beside the bed he spotted the clear blue stone. His hand shaking, he reached out to touch it. Picking it up he gazed at it longingly. Why did the prince give it to him? Was it supposed to be payment for what they'd done that night? He clutched the stone tightly, Tears once again rolling in rivers down his pale cheeks. He felt so dirty, so used. His body was shaking in its pain. He barely noticed his chamber door open and close.
"Erestor?" It was Elrond. "Valar, what has happened?" Elrond said rushing to his side.
Erestor sniffled before turning red-rimmed eyes to his lord. "Lord Elrond?"
"Aye, it's me. What has happened?"
"Legolas... he..." Erestor couldn't say what he felt and buried his head in his friends comforting embrace.
"So it was the prince then? I feared as much." Elrond spoke, rubbing his advisors back soothingly. "What did he do? Did he hurt you in any way?"
Erestor shook his head. "I just realized how hopeless my love for him was. It hurts so much. How do I stop the pain?" Erestor pleaded.
"I'm sorry my friend but there's nothing I can do to cure such ailments. I can make you a special tea to help you get some rest if you'd like?"
Erestor nodded hesitantly. "Aye, I think I will have need of it."
Elrond disentangled himself from the advisor's grasp and left, soon returning with a steaming mug of tea. "Here this should help. You should feel better on the morrow. You can have the rest of today and tomorrow off from your duties. I think I can handle things while you're gone. Just don't do anything drastic, my friend. Imladris needs you."
Erestor nodded. "I understand. I will try to forget him, or at least bury my feelings for him. They will only serve as a distraction."
"Good. Now get some rest. I will check on you in the morning."
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Don't kill me for doing this to Erestor. It was necessary, I swear! =x He'll be rewarded for his endurance. And don't blame Legolas. The poor elf has no clue Erestor overheard them or what Erestor would make of it… --;
Next chapter is the morning after, btw. XD Legolas finally gets the courage to tell Erestor, and well… Erestor's not in any condition to listen… =3 Though Chapter 5 is done… Chapter 6 is still up in the air. My muse needs to be kicked into motion. Think you guys can help? :x
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Review Responses:
Fuji: Hey! Glad you opened your horizons. I'm not gay, nor a male for that matter. XD I dunno, call it an obssession. I do have friends who are though (comes with going to an art school I guess). I still have to get back to the Sam stories, but my muse has obviously been occupied lately. =3 There won't be any parts that should make you uncomfortable til chapter 9. Even then, I have editted it for ff.net so it won't be the entire scene. Mostly it's just relationship(or lack thereof) issues. Hope you continue to read it. I'm honored to be your first slash fic, though I hope I've done the genre justice. XD
kawaiishinichan: I've grown to love this pairing as well. At first I only tried it because it was something different, y'know. XD Now, it's one of my faves, and a small pwp oneshot has grown to a huge series. Go fig. Funny how muses work.
Trustingfriendship: Thanks. Actually, by writing
this I myself am growing fond of this pairing. It was never a favorite,
I just wanted to try a challenge. It's amazing how things work out
sometimes.
Minuial: X3 Yeah, poor Erestor. He's not having
much luck. He's just so easy to pick on. XD I'm bad I know. I love
writing the twins. Oh and as for my 'Comfort & Callings', it was
fun as a challenge, but I think I'll stay away from elaborate
threesomes for a while yet. I'll leave that to you. =3 btw, I can't
wait for your next chapter. nudge nudge XD
Dark Angel: He needs
some more cuddles I think. --; I feel so bad for putting him through
this. I wouldn't give him anything he couldn't handle though. He's
tough and won't be broken that easily. Wait til you see Legolas next
chapter. I find a thoroughly confused Legolas is endearing. XD