Title: After
Author: Xehra xehra1hotmail.com Fandom: Star Wars
Rating: G
Summary: Obi-Wan angsts about Anakin
Author's note: elvie challenged me, and so I wrote. This is for you darl, in all its unbeta'd glory.
I did not choose this unforgiving desert planet for my exile, but the boy had roots here, and family. Of sorts.
The Clone Wars ended and Anakin turned his back on the way of the light forever. My soul seemed stuck in limbo and I felt lost and utterly alone.
I had tried to teach my pupil how to live with the seemingly limitless power that was his gift, and his curse. But it had all gone wrong and he was lost to me; my friends and fellow Jedi were gone.
I was selfish, Qui-Gon would have been disappointed. I hated myself for failing and long did I dwell on what had happened and what I might have done to prevent it.
Then one day perfect clarity came and I felt for the first time in my life that I was truly attuned to the Will of the Force. What must be, must be; and would happen however I tried to fight it.
And so I waited, and watched. Luke grew and I carried out my lonely vigil, ever alert for the catalyst I knew would come.
I did not think it would arrive in the form of a droid.
Author: Xehra xehra1hotmail.com Fandom: Star Wars
Rating: G
Summary: Obi-Wan angsts about Anakin
Author's note: elvie challenged me, and so I wrote. This is for you darl, in all its unbeta'd glory.
I did not choose this unforgiving desert planet for my exile, but the boy had roots here, and family. Of sorts.
The Clone Wars ended and Anakin turned his back on the way of the light forever. My soul seemed stuck in limbo and I felt lost and utterly alone.
I had tried to teach my pupil how to live with the seemingly limitless power that was his gift, and his curse. But it had all gone wrong and he was lost to me; my friends and fellow Jedi were gone.
I was selfish, Qui-Gon would have been disappointed. I hated myself for failing and long did I dwell on what had happened and what I might have done to prevent it.
Then one day perfect clarity came and I felt for the first time in my life that I was truly attuned to the Will of the Force. What must be, must be; and would happen however I tried to fight it.
And so I waited, and watched. Luke grew and I carried out my lonely vigil, ever alert for the catalyst I knew would come.
I did not think it would arrive in the form of a droid.