A/n: hey is me. feelin a bit blue at moment
Kai: Great here we go again!
Me: what?
Max: she's crying... again.
Me: Am not! Anyway Kai who invited u?
Kai: Tyler did...
Tyler: TATTLE-TALE
Chapter 8: Tyler... not pleased.
Emily looked at Tyler she was impressed. The girls were watching a soppy movie and so far Tyler hadn't cried once. Emily however wasn't doing as well. "He left her at the alter." Said Tyler astounded. "Men are jerks." "I agree." Sniffed Emily. The door went. The girls didn't look up. Hilary wavered in the doorway staring at her daughter. She couldn't take this. Her eyes stung painfully. 'Not again. Please god not again.' She thought sadly. Emily suddenly noticed her. She noticed her pale face, her tears, her 'ready to faint' expression. "Tyler I'll be two minutes okay." She whispered. Tyler gave a small nod evidently not listening.
"What's wrong Hil? It's something bad isn't it?" asked Emily sitting her down in the kitchen. "Em," she choked her breathing sharp. Her hand slid subconsciously to her stomach which was slightly swollen. "What's wrong?" asked Emily pushing a cup of tea towards Hilary. Hilary pushed it back. "I can't." she whispered. She looked at the calendar. It all added up. The day she'd got back with Tyson, about two months ago. 'no.' she told herself. 'you can't have done this to yourself again Hilary' "Hilary is it terminal, hereditary, what please tell me." Said Emily stressed out. She put her hand on her stomach. Emily had just felt the baby kick. Her's and Max's baby. Their unborn child that he'd left her with. Hilary sighed. She clutched her stomach. She bit her lip so hard it bled. The pain. She deserved it. Now she was going to have to deal with a lot more pain. More pain than the first time she'd left more pain than the day Tyson had left. The pain of carrying his child. But at least last time she'd been able to fool herself that he still had feelings for her. This time she couldn't. she didn't know if she could cope with this pain.
Max wrote a note to Emily. A proper letter this time. Not just a note and money. He was writing his thoughts. They flowed from the pen the second he thought them. Not one word did he need cross out. He wanted her to know how he felt. 'Dearest, Dearest Em.
I know you hate me, it's been 8 weeks no contact except a few scrawled letters. This is my fault I fooled myself into believing you loved me. I guess this is goodbye. I never thought we'd ever split up. I see you in the streets sometimes I'm careful not to meet your gaze. It hurts Emily. Really hurts. I feel my heart rip in two when I see you and our child. Our child. I know I have responsibilities with him. I am not shedding these. I know I should be by your side. But I can't. Your silence that day said more than words could. I know you don't love me we don't have to pretend that you do. But baby has to know that, that daddy loves him and mummy whatever. Okay Emily. I really love you and I always will do. I guess you must think the lowest of me, leaving like that, but I had good reason. Once again I'm not leaving an address. Guess that's why I liked you, I'm mysterious and so are you. But I suppose opposites attract rather than people who have everything in common. Love you until my dying day Max.' he was about to put it through the door of the flat when it opened.
Kai looked at him in disgust. "Give this to Em," "She's not here." He muttered. "She hasn't left?" he asked astounded. No she couldn't have. "She's babysitting Tyler, post it at her address." He gave Max the address. He turned to leave but Kai pulled him back. "You hurt her again you won't just have to deal with her and that kid, you'll have to put up with me." He said. He let him go.
Hilary traced the markings on the table with her finger. A baby. A new baby. Tyler's brother or sister. Tyson's child. Her child. Her second child. How would Tyler react? Oh no. this was all her fault. She gave a sob which broke the silence in the room. Emily watched her tearing herself up inside. She knew something was wrong. Was she ill? Was she dying? Only Hilary knew and at the moment she wasn't telling all Emily could do was stand there and watch her. Watch her cry. Watch her weep. Watch her sob. The door went. "Answer it." Whispered Hilary. Emily went to the door. An envelope was on the doormat. She picked it up. 'to Emily.' She shrugged. Great just what she needed. Max bugging her. She went back to the kitchen. Hilary was stood with a knife in her hand. At first Emily thought she was about to kill herself but no. She had a lemon in her hand. She was cutting her lemon into slices. Emily thought this was slightly weird. Hilary squeezed the lemon juice into a glass and drank it. Emily felt sick how could she do that. 'Sour.' Hilary thought. It had been sour last time. Nothing had changed. By the way Emily was looking at her she knew Emily was going through the phase of sweet. She threw the knife into the washing up with a splash.
"What's wrong?" asked Hilary. "Max," she muttered tossing the note onto the table. "You going to open it?" "Maybe later," she said. Hilary sighed and averted her eyes from her friend. She stared out the window straight into the sky. Blue. Blue. That's how she felt. Blue. No maybe red. Red. Angry. Angry at herself. At Tyson. At the baby. She didn't know what she felt. She was confused. How was she supposed to feel? She was totally shocked. Shock. Shock didn't have a colour. "What's wrong Hilary what did the doctor say?" "Emily... I've... I'm..." she stumbled. "Films finished." Said Tyler hopping onto the counter. "So how'd your appointment go?" Hilary looked her daughter in the eye. How could she lie to her. "Not well." "Care to tell?" "Not yet, later I will I promise, when I've sorted my head out okay babe promise." She kissed her daughter on the forehead and left the room. Emily sighed. "No idea." She said as Tyler shot her a glance that said 'do you know something'
Tyler walked with Emily back to the flat. "Need a word with Tyson anyway." She muttered. Emily noticed she didn't call him dad. Emily went to her's and Max's room, well her room now. And read the note Max had sent. "Oi Tyson visitor!" yelled Ray. Tyson came through grudgingly. Tyler felt out of place to the extreme. "Oh, Tyler." "Yes Tyler!" she snapped. "You know what you've done to her!" she glared. He didn't answer. "She's depressed again so depressed she's ill she won't tell me what's wrong but I KNOW she's ill, anyone looking at her knows she's ill, all because of you." "Me?" "YES YOU, YOU LEFT THAT MORNING YOU COULD HAVE TOLD HER FIRST!" she screamed. She sniffed back her tears. She didn't want to show him she was crying. Never. He wasn't worth her tears. Or her mothers. "I left for a reason!" snapped Tyson. Ray was standing to one side as ref. incase things became nasty. Mariah sat on the sofa totally non-plussed by the events. "WHAT REASON, YOU DON'T LOVE HER YOU NEVER DID!" she screamed. "Tyler," he whispered. "YOU LEAD US ON LEAD HER ON LEAD ME ON! I WISH YOU COULD SEE WHAT YOU DID TO HER!" she said her breathing heavy.
"I DIDN'T LEAD HER ON WE MADE A MISTAKE!" "YEAH YOU GOT HER PREGNANT I WAS THE MISTAKE!" her face suddenly fell. "She never wanted me, I was just there. She had a heart, so she didn't get rid of me, maybe she should have done, then you wouldn't have broken it." She turned and left. Tyson did the same only he went in a different direction. "She just say Hilary's sick?" Ray asked Emily who came into the room light as air. "Yeah." Mariah said. "What's up with you? You haven't been this happy since... well since ever!" "Read this!" she thrust the note under Mariah's nose. "It doesn't make sense Em." She said. "I mean he loves you, you don't love him... he's the one that left." Emily bit her lip. "That's my fault, you see the night he left well... he asked me to marry him." "Way to go Em!" Ray said. Mariah glared. It was then Ray realised that Max had been absent for 8 weeks. "Thing is, I was 3 months pregnant, 5 months now, I thought... I thought he wanted to marry me because I was carrying his child, I wanted to take things slowly. I didn't want him to marry me just because I was stupid enough to get pregnant." "Takes two to tango." Muttered Kenny from the corner. Emily nodded slightly.
"I didn't want him to feel he was being forced to marry me... I freaked out, I said no, he thought... he thought I didn't love him." "Yeah but..." "But he loves me, he's seen me in the streets, he's still close by... I just need to keep my eyes peeled!" "And you're willing to take him back after all he's put you through, you're 5 months pregnant Em!" "So, he wants this kid so do I!" "I'm getting married in 3 ½ months please don't be down then okay you're important!" "Oh charming!" Emily said rolling her eyes.
Hilary paced the room. Tyler wasn't back yet. Had she ran away? Tyson had been right, she was a terrible mother. And now she was going through it all again. A new baby. It required a lot of responsibility. Responsibility she hadn't had the last time around being only a child herself at the time. She'd make a better job this time. She didn't think Tyler had ever hated her. No Tyler hadn't even hated her when she'd found out who her father was. But now. Now was different. She was going to keep it. That she had decided. Tyler would be a bit of a problem at first but... but she'd calm down. As for Tyson. That she hadn't decided yet. She could either, leave and not tell Tyson, tell Tyson and then leave, stay and tell Tyson, stay and not tell Tyson or just let fate take it's course. She didn't know which was worse. The door went. Tyler flung herself onto the sofa in a bit of a huff.
"Where've you been love?" asked Hilary sitting down next to her only daughter. Now she'd had a bit of time to mull it over things didn't seem that bad. There wasn't a day that went by she regretted having Tyler. She was her pride and joy. And two was okay but a new baby would really liven things up. Although her life didn't really need livening up at the moment as she already had enough drama to make coronation street jealous. "Walked Em home," she muttered. "And..." "There's no and... I walked her home." "I always know when there's an and I'm your mother." "THERE'S NO AND!" she screamed. Hilary was taken aback by her shouting. She hadn't expected that. Her hand slid onto her stomach. Was her next chance going to end up like this? Tyler's brown eyes glittered with tears. "I'm so sorry mum." She whispered. She seemed scared of herself of what she'd said. "It's alright baby. It's alright." She whispered hugging her daughter. Tyler sniffed.
"Being pregnant sucks!" Moaned Emily as she felt the baby writhe. "Aww so sweet." Said Mariah watching Emily squirm. "He's in a hurry to see the world this one." She said rubbing her stomach. "So now it's a he?" she inquired. "What?" "You said he. It's a he?" "I didn't say he and I don't know." "Oh Em's having a boy Em's having a boy." She sang. "And if I am?" "What about boys?" asked Tyson entering the room. "Emily just slipped up she's having a baby boy aren't you em?" "I don't know yet I didn't want to ask." Kai took the scan from her hands. He didn't have much medical expertise but he knew what sex the baby was from the picture. He gave a small smile. "What?" "You really want to know?" he asked. "Oh no you don't I'm not having everyone else know whether I'm having a boy or a girl before I do!" she said snatching the picture from Kai and shoving it in her bag. Kai smirked. He knew.
Hilary silently debated whether to tell her daughter her news. She had no clue. No. no. not yet. Not now. She'd give it a little while. Hilary felt guilty. Guilty that she was lying to her daughter. Guilty that she'd done this to them. She smiled slightly. She knew she shouldn't. but this time she was prepared and had a friend that she knew would help her through it and she felt a little hyper, giddy, excited. She was having a new kid. Screw Tyson he wasn't there last time.
The next day leaving Emily with Tyler she went out shopping. She had some spare cash and felt like treating the baby to some clothes or something. She saw someone outside the local mothercare. A male someone. A male someone with blonde hair and blue eyes. "Max!" she called. He jumped 6ft. she had a small smile on her face. "H...Hilary!" he said. She wrapped his arms around his neck. "It's been so long Max!" she said smiling. "You're doing well..." "You're not," she said. "Ah, you er... heard about that." He said releasing her. They absently walked around the shops. "How could I not!" "So you've met Emily? What dya think of her?" "She's my friend and babysitter." "Tyler's just like you." "That a good thing?" she asked. "Well let's hope your kid is not too much like Em and not too much like you, two of you guys will be murder." "How's she holdin' up?" "Alright, considering."
"You hold it against me?" he asked guiltily. "What happens between you and Emily isn't my business and I'm not going to pry all I'm saying is she loves you a ton." "Gee for a person who doesn't pry you sure say a lot." He said laughing. It had been ages since this had happened. She'd had a casual chat with a male. "What do you think about this?" she asked holding a white baby-grow up. "I don't think it'll fit you Hilary." "Not for me!" she said furiously. "Who?" she raised her eyebrows suggestively. "You're never... congratulations!" he said swinging his friend around. "Max!" she said giggling. "Don't tell anyone." She said. "Who have I got to tell they all abandoned me." "I'm just saying if you see ty in the street don't say 'congrats' or whatever!" she said. "Like I would Hil..." "I can't believe you left em you know." "It was her descision..."
"Not what she says." "So she's told you her side of the story did anyone think to tell you mine?" "Pardon..." "Did she tell you that she refused to marry me?" "Max I..." "Forget it, it doesn't matter." He said distractedly. Hilary picked up a rattle and decided on buying it. "I'm sorry." "I said forget it." "Do you want to come back to mine for a cup of tea or something?" she asked hopefully. "Don't know," "Come off it!" "Alright!" he said. They walked home both chatting idly.
Hilary felt nervous as she unlocked the door. She bit her lip. Would Max kill her if he knew it was a trap? Would Emily thump her? Oh well. Gotta see. "Home!" she called. There was a muffled, 'hey', from the other room. Hilary ran upstairs and hid the baby's stuff under her bed. She came down and brought Max into the kitchen. "Why'd you leave Tyson?" he blurted suddenly. "Same reason you left Emily, I thought he didn't want me." "You were wrong." "And you're not?" she asked raising her eyebrows. "She told me..." "When did I say that?" asked an icy voice. Hilary sighed. "Emily," she warned. "Hilary!" he snapped. "I can't believe you brought me here when she was here!" "YOU GIVE ME ALL THIS RUBBISH ABOUT ME NOT LOVING YOU!" Emily screamed "AND YOU'RE THE ONE WHO LEFT!" her hormones were all over the place. "YOU SHOULDN'T HAVE BLEW ME OFF SO ROUGHLY!" he yelled. "YOU SHOULDN'T HAVE PROPOSED THEN!" "I PROPOSED COZ I LOVE YOU!" he argued. She suddenly went silent. "I had it all planned, then you said you were pregnant, I was so happy," he said biting his lip. "Then you said you wanted to get rid of it, I was heartbroken sure but I would have stood by you, then you're keeping it, so I ask you what I was going to ask anyway, you go all haywire and scream your head off!" "I didn't scream." She said.
"I didn't propose to you because you're pregnant Em," he said. "Ah," Hilary said, "I take it you two want to be alone." "No I'm leaving anyway." Max said he took off without a backward glance. Emily looked shocked. "DON'T JUST STAND THERE GO AFTER HIM!" Hilary ordered. Emily nodded and ran off.
"Where were you for so long?" asked Tyler surveying her mother. "Talking with Max, doing a bit of shopping." "Shopping for what?" "Stuff." She said. Her stomach churned. 12 01 pm. This was so not fair. She ran to the bathroom and threw up. You're not supposed to get morning sickness after 12! "MUM!" Ty screeched "I THOUGHT YOU WENT TO THE DOCTORS FOR THIS!" "I did love." Said Hilary sadly. "then why aren't you better?" asked ty holding her mothers hair out of the way. "There's no cure ty," "No..." she whispered. "No now don't get upset it's not as bad as you think." "Are you dying?" "Am I hell!"
Emily had lost him. She kicked the ground absently. Why she bothered to chase after him anyway. She shouldn't bother. Her stomach gave a jolt. Baby kicking again. Just what she needed.
"Tyler love." She said. "Yeah." "You know how we moved here only recently..." "Yeah." "How do you feel about moving again?" "MUM!" she cried. "you said it was the last time! I have friends here! I have school!!!" she cried. "Ok, ok we won't move." "If you want to we will but is it because of dad?" "Partially," "Is it because you're sick? Is it this place making you sick?" "No love," "Then why aren't you getting better?" "You know how daddy stayed over a few weeks ago." "Yeah... so." "Well mummy and daddy made a very big decision."
"MUM I'M NOT A BABY QUIT TALKING LIKE I'M 3!" "Sorry babe all I'm saying is..." "What?" "Do you like being an only child..." "It's alright wh... MUM!" she said in shock. Hilary hung her head. "I'm pregnant." "NO!" she said. "NO!" she looked devastated. She scrambled up and ran off. She didn't know where she was headed. She loved her mum and would help her through anything but, but this baby, it was her dad's... she may end up hating it. Dad had wrecked her life once and now he'd done it again! She rang the doorbell on the apartment.
"Hey." Kenny said. "is Tyson in?" she asked her fists clenched and her eyes narrowed. "Yeah hold on a minute." He said he let her in.
"Hey ty." "YOU!" she screamed "DO YOU KNOW WHAT YOU'VE DONE!" "Didn't she do this yesterday?" muttered Mariah to ray. "Probably." He said turning up the volume on the telly set. "What have I done this time I haven't been near you in two months!" "THAT'S JUST IT!!!" she screamed hopelessly. "YOU WRECKED OUR LIVES ONCE THEN YOU GO AND DO IT ALL OVER AGAIN!" she cried. "What do you mean?" Tyler slapped him with a sickening crack she was in tears she turned to leave but Kai blocked her. "Ty, you want to talk to me about it?" "No." she said hopefully. He sighed.
"Come on kid I'll take you home, we can't have you killing Tyson, as much as we all want to." He said grabbing his coat. He led her through the streets silently her sobs the only noise emanating from the two. Tyler tried to open the door. "Locked." She muttered. Kai shrugged. "She in?" "Yes she's definitely in she wouldn't go anywhere... not with me in this state." She said firmly. "Stand back." He said. He grabbed his blade and launched it at the door. The door swung open. "did ya damage the lock?" Hilary asked curiously from the sofa. "No," Kai stated simply. "Hey baby." She whispered to her daughter tears threatening to spill. "I'm not your baby any more am I!" she yelled and took off upstairs. "TY!" she called. She heard the resounding door slam that signalled for her to stop trying. "Thanks for walking her home Kai." She said with a sigh. "Hilary what did she mean by 'I'm not your baby any more am I'?" "The fact that I'm a hopeless mum might have something to do with it." "You're not a hopeless mum!" he said sighing. He sat down as she paced the room.
"Tyson says I am." She stated. "Tyson doesn't know what it's like to be a dad." Said Kai. "And you do?" Kai nodded slowly. "You're kidding me?" "No... 5 year old Thomas..." "So where is he..." she asked shocked by the news. "With his mum." "Oh?" "Well his mum and I we didn't really get on well together with a baby," "So you left?" "We decided it was better for Thomas I still see him a bit but not much." "Well in that case we're both hopeless parents then." "We both tried our best." He warned. "Yeah but I'm a 28 single mother of two what am I supposed to do..." "Two?" he asked. She suddenly noticed her slip up. Tyson's room mate aswell. She winced and bit her lip. "Hilary?" he asked. "Yes ok!" she said furiously. "That's why Tyler isn't talking to me or her dad, that's why me and Tyson have had no contact in ages!" she said. He still looked slightly puzzled.
"So, you're pregnant?" "Yeah." "Great! Two screaming banshees just what I need." She clouted him over the head with a cushion. He laughed. "So," "So you and Tyler aren't talking because you and her dad split up because..." "Because I'm a total slapper?" she suggested. "Oh so it IS Tyson's baby?" "yeah." "That's why Tyler slapped Tyson." "She what?" "Don't get your knickers in a knot hil, it doesn't solve anything and it makes you walk funny, she didn't hurt him." "Yes well, that child is too much like her dad for her own good."
"What about your new one? What if she's like her dad too?" he asked her seriously. "Confident aren't ya?" she asked curiously. "What do you mean?" "Huh?" "I mean you say it's a girl." "Oh well let me rephrase that if your next child is like Tyson what will you do?" "Cry probably," "Now where will that get you?" "The thing is I don't think I'm going to give it a chance to become like Tyson." "what?" "I mean Ty doesn't want me to keep this baby." "After all that rubbish you gave Emily about not aborting?" "I never said I was going to abort I'm just sayin I'm keepin my options open okay?" "So how many people know?" "You, Tyler Max and my doctor... I'm going to have to tell em or she'll kill me!" "Hm, you think it's wise to be bragging before you have the baby or abort if that is the case?" "I never said abortion! I'm just saying, you know what it's like being away from your son what does he feel?" "I don't really know he's sort of like isolated from the rest of the world when I'm not there but when I am he's amazing he's this sparky little kid with tons of energy."
Hilary sighed. What could she do? She had three options. 1: Abort which went against all of the her morals 2: Adopt possibly forcing her innocent baby into a solitary life of isolation never knowing his or her parents... 3:... keep the baby and face her moody teenager. Tyler wouldn't be happy. Tyson wouldn't be happy. Would she be happy?
A/n: dum dum dum!!! Is Hilary going to keep the child? What about the Emily Max thing? Is Kai being Nice? Will the authoress ever stop asking herself questions? Find out next time on 2nd chance.
Chapter 8: Tyler... not pleased.
Emily looked at Tyler she was impressed. The girls were watching a soppy movie and so far Tyler hadn't cried once. Emily however wasn't doing as well. "He left her at the alter." Said Tyler astounded. "Men are jerks." "I agree." Sniffed Emily. The door went. The girls didn't look up. Hilary wavered in the doorway staring at her daughter. She couldn't take this. Her eyes stung painfully. 'Not again. Please god not again.' She thought sadly. Emily suddenly noticed her. She noticed her pale face, her tears, her 'ready to faint' expression. "Tyler I'll be two minutes okay." She whispered. Tyler gave a small nod evidently not listening.
"What's wrong Hil? It's something bad isn't it?" asked Emily sitting her down in the kitchen. "Em," she choked her breathing sharp. Her hand slid subconsciously to her stomach which was slightly swollen. "What's wrong?" asked Emily pushing a cup of tea towards Hilary. Hilary pushed it back. "I can't." she whispered. She looked at the calendar. It all added up. The day she'd got back with Tyson, about two months ago. 'no.' she told herself. 'you can't have done this to yourself again Hilary' "Hilary is it terminal, hereditary, what please tell me." Said Emily stressed out. She put her hand on her stomach. Emily had just felt the baby kick. Her's and Max's baby. Their unborn child that he'd left her with. Hilary sighed. She clutched her stomach. She bit her lip so hard it bled. The pain. She deserved it. Now she was going to have to deal with a lot more pain. More pain than the first time she'd left more pain than the day Tyson had left. The pain of carrying his child. But at least last time she'd been able to fool herself that he still had feelings for her. This time she couldn't. she didn't know if she could cope with this pain.
Max wrote a note to Emily. A proper letter this time. Not just a note and money. He was writing his thoughts. They flowed from the pen the second he thought them. Not one word did he need cross out. He wanted her to know how he felt. 'Dearest, Dearest Em.
I know you hate me, it's been 8 weeks no contact except a few scrawled letters. This is my fault I fooled myself into believing you loved me. I guess this is goodbye. I never thought we'd ever split up. I see you in the streets sometimes I'm careful not to meet your gaze. It hurts Emily. Really hurts. I feel my heart rip in two when I see you and our child. Our child. I know I have responsibilities with him. I am not shedding these. I know I should be by your side. But I can't. Your silence that day said more than words could. I know you don't love me we don't have to pretend that you do. But baby has to know that, that daddy loves him and mummy whatever. Okay Emily. I really love you and I always will do. I guess you must think the lowest of me, leaving like that, but I had good reason. Once again I'm not leaving an address. Guess that's why I liked you, I'm mysterious and so are you. But I suppose opposites attract rather than people who have everything in common. Love you until my dying day Max.' he was about to put it through the door of the flat when it opened.
Kai looked at him in disgust. "Give this to Em," "She's not here." He muttered. "She hasn't left?" he asked astounded. No she couldn't have. "She's babysitting Tyler, post it at her address." He gave Max the address. He turned to leave but Kai pulled him back. "You hurt her again you won't just have to deal with her and that kid, you'll have to put up with me." He said. He let him go.
Hilary traced the markings on the table with her finger. A baby. A new baby. Tyler's brother or sister. Tyson's child. Her child. Her second child. How would Tyler react? Oh no. this was all her fault. She gave a sob which broke the silence in the room. Emily watched her tearing herself up inside. She knew something was wrong. Was she ill? Was she dying? Only Hilary knew and at the moment she wasn't telling all Emily could do was stand there and watch her. Watch her cry. Watch her weep. Watch her sob. The door went. "Answer it." Whispered Hilary. Emily went to the door. An envelope was on the doormat. She picked it up. 'to Emily.' She shrugged. Great just what she needed. Max bugging her. She went back to the kitchen. Hilary was stood with a knife in her hand. At first Emily thought she was about to kill herself but no. She had a lemon in her hand. She was cutting her lemon into slices. Emily thought this was slightly weird. Hilary squeezed the lemon juice into a glass and drank it. Emily felt sick how could she do that. 'Sour.' Hilary thought. It had been sour last time. Nothing had changed. By the way Emily was looking at her she knew Emily was going through the phase of sweet. She threw the knife into the washing up with a splash.
"What's wrong?" asked Hilary. "Max," she muttered tossing the note onto the table. "You going to open it?" "Maybe later," she said. Hilary sighed and averted her eyes from her friend. She stared out the window straight into the sky. Blue. Blue. That's how she felt. Blue. No maybe red. Red. Angry. Angry at herself. At Tyson. At the baby. She didn't know what she felt. She was confused. How was she supposed to feel? She was totally shocked. Shock. Shock didn't have a colour. "What's wrong Hilary what did the doctor say?" "Emily... I've... I'm..." she stumbled. "Films finished." Said Tyler hopping onto the counter. "So how'd your appointment go?" Hilary looked her daughter in the eye. How could she lie to her. "Not well." "Care to tell?" "Not yet, later I will I promise, when I've sorted my head out okay babe promise." She kissed her daughter on the forehead and left the room. Emily sighed. "No idea." She said as Tyler shot her a glance that said 'do you know something'
Tyler walked with Emily back to the flat. "Need a word with Tyson anyway." She muttered. Emily noticed she didn't call him dad. Emily went to her's and Max's room, well her room now. And read the note Max had sent. "Oi Tyson visitor!" yelled Ray. Tyson came through grudgingly. Tyler felt out of place to the extreme. "Oh, Tyler." "Yes Tyler!" she snapped. "You know what you've done to her!" she glared. He didn't answer. "She's depressed again so depressed she's ill she won't tell me what's wrong but I KNOW she's ill, anyone looking at her knows she's ill, all because of you." "Me?" "YES YOU, YOU LEFT THAT MORNING YOU COULD HAVE TOLD HER FIRST!" she screamed. She sniffed back her tears. She didn't want to show him she was crying. Never. He wasn't worth her tears. Or her mothers. "I left for a reason!" snapped Tyson. Ray was standing to one side as ref. incase things became nasty. Mariah sat on the sofa totally non-plussed by the events. "WHAT REASON, YOU DON'T LOVE HER YOU NEVER DID!" she screamed. "Tyler," he whispered. "YOU LEAD US ON LEAD HER ON LEAD ME ON! I WISH YOU COULD SEE WHAT YOU DID TO HER!" she said her breathing heavy.
"I DIDN'T LEAD HER ON WE MADE A MISTAKE!" "YEAH YOU GOT HER PREGNANT I WAS THE MISTAKE!" her face suddenly fell. "She never wanted me, I was just there. She had a heart, so she didn't get rid of me, maybe she should have done, then you wouldn't have broken it." She turned and left. Tyson did the same only he went in a different direction. "She just say Hilary's sick?" Ray asked Emily who came into the room light as air. "Yeah." Mariah said. "What's up with you? You haven't been this happy since... well since ever!" "Read this!" she thrust the note under Mariah's nose. "It doesn't make sense Em." She said. "I mean he loves you, you don't love him... he's the one that left." Emily bit her lip. "That's my fault, you see the night he left well... he asked me to marry him." "Way to go Em!" Ray said. Mariah glared. It was then Ray realised that Max had been absent for 8 weeks. "Thing is, I was 3 months pregnant, 5 months now, I thought... I thought he wanted to marry me because I was carrying his child, I wanted to take things slowly. I didn't want him to marry me just because I was stupid enough to get pregnant." "Takes two to tango." Muttered Kenny from the corner. Emily nodded slightly.
"I didn't want him to feel he was being forced to marry me... I freaked out, I said no, he thought... he thought I didn't love him." "Yeah but..." "But he loves me, he's seen me in the streets, he's still close by... I just need to keep my eyes peeled!" "And you're willing to take him back after all he's put you through, you're 5 months pregnant Em!" "So, he wants this kid so do I!" "I'm getting married in 3 ½ months please don't be down then okay you're important!" "Oh charming!" Emily said rolling her eyes.
Hilary paced the room. Tyler wasn't back yet. Had she ran away? Tyson had been right, she was a terrible mother. And now she was going through it all again. A new baby. It required a lot of responsibility. Responsibility she hadn't had the last time around being only a child herself at the time. She'd make a better job this time. She didn't think Tyler had ever hated her. No Tyler hadn't even hated her when she'd found out who her father was. But now. Now was different. She was going to keep it. That she had decided. Tyler would be a bit of a problem at first but... but she'd calm down. As for Tyson. That she hadn't decided yet. She could either, leave and not tell Tyson, tell Tyson and then leave, stay and tell Tyson, stay and not tell Tyson or just let fate take it's course. She didn't know which was worse. The door went. Tyler flung herself onto the sofa in a bit of a huff.
"Where've you been love?" asked Hilary sitting down next to her only daughter. Now she'd had a bit of time to mull it over things didn't seem that bad. There wasn't a day that went by she regretted having Tyler. She was her pride and joy. And two was okay but a new baby would really liven things up. Although her life didn't really need livening up at the moment as she already had enough drama to make coronation street jealous. "Walked Em home," she muttered. "And..." "There's no and... I walked her home." "I always know when there's an and I'm your mother." "THERE'S NO AND!" she screamed. Hilary was taken aback by her shouting. She hadn't expected that. Her hand slid onto her stomach. Was her next chance going to end up like this? Tyler's brown eyes glittered with tears. "I'm so sorry mum." She whispered. She seemed scared of herself of what she'd said. "It's alright baby. It's alright." She whispered hugging her daughter. Tyler sniffed.
"Being pregnant sucks!" Moaned Emily as she felt the baby writhe. "Aww so sweet." Said Mariah watching Emily squirm. "He's in a hurry to see the world this one." She said rubbing her stomach. "So now it's a he?" she inquired. "What?" "You said he. It's a he?" "I didn't say he and I don't know." "Oh Em's having a boy Em's having a boy." She sang. "And if I am?" "What about boys?" asked Tyson entering the room. "Emily just slipped up she's having a baby boy aren't you em?" "I don't know yet I didn't want to ask." Kai took the scan from her hands. He didn't have much medical expertise but he knew what sex the baby was from the picture. He gave a small smile. "What?" "You really want to know?" he asked. "Oh no you don't I'm not having everyone else know whether I'm having a boy or a girl before I do!" she said snatching the picture from Kai and shoving it in her bag. Kai smirked. He knew.
Hilary silently debated whether to tell her daughter her news. She had no clue. No. no. not yet. Not now. She'd give it a little while. Hilary felt guilty. Guilty that she was lying to her daughter. Guilty that she'd done this to them. She smiled slightly. She knew she shouldn't. but this time she was prepared and had a friend that she knew would help her through it and she felt a little hyper, giddy, excited. She was having a new kid. Screw Tyson he wasn't there last time.
The next day leaving Emily with Tyler she went out shopping. She had some spare cash and felt like treating the baby to some clothes or something. She saw someone outside the local mothercare. A male someone. A male someone with blonde hair and blue eyes. "Max!" she called. He jumped 6ft. she had a small smile on her face. "H...Hilary!" he said. She wrapped his arms around his neck. "It's been so long Max!" she said smiling. "You're doing well..." "You're not," she said. "Ah, you er... heard about that." He said releasing her. They absently walked around the shops. "How could I not!" "So you've met Emily? What dya think of her?" "She's my friend and babysitter." "Tyler's just like you." "That a good thing?" she asked. "Well let's hope your kid is not too much like Em and not too much like you, two of you guys will be murder." "How's she holdin' up?" "Alright, considering."
"You hold it against me?" he asked guiltily. "What happens between you and Emily isn't my business and I'm not going to pry all I'm saying is she loves you a ton." "Gee for a person who doesn't pry you sure say a lot." He said laughing. It had been ages since this had happened. She'd had a casual chat with a male. "What do you think about this?" she asked holding a white baby-grow up. "I don't think it'll fit you Hilary." "Not for me!" she said furiously. "Who?" she raised her eyebrows suggestively. "You're never... congratulations!" he said swinging his friend around. "Max!" she said giggling. "Don't tell anyone." She said. "Who have I got to tell they all abandoned me." "I'm just saying if you see ty in the street don't say 'congrats' or whatever!" she said. "Like I would Hil..." "I can't believe you left em you know." "It was her descision..."
"Not what she says." "So she's told you her side of the story did anyone think to tell you mine?" "Pardon..." "Did she tell you that she refused to marry me?" "Max I..." "Forget it, it doesn't matter." He said distractedly. Hilary picked up a rattle and decided on buying it. "I'm sorry." "I said forget it." "Do you want to come back to mine for a cup of tea or something?" she asked hopefully. "Don't know," "Come off it!" "Alright!" he said. They walked home both chatting idly.
Hilary felt nervous as she unlocked the door. She bit her lip. Would Max kill her if he knew it was a trap? Would Emily thump her? Oh well. Gotta see. "Home!" she called. There was a muffled, 'hey', from the other room. Hilary ran upstairs and hid the baby's stuff under her bed. She came down and brought Max into the kitchen. "Why'd you leave Tyson?" he blurted suddenly. "Same reason you left Emily, I thought he didn't want me." "You were wrong." "And you're not?" she asked raising her eyebrows. "She told me..." "When did I say that?" asked an icy voice. Hilary sighed. "Emily," she warned. "Hilary!" he snapped. "I can't believe you brought me here when she was here!" "YOU GIVE ME ALL THIS RUBBISH ABOUT ME NOT LOVING YOU!" Emily screamed "AND YOU'RE THE ONE WHO LEFT!" her hormones were all over the place. "YOU SHOULDN'T HAVE BLEW ME OFF SO ROUGHLY!" he yelled. "YOU SHOULDN'T HAVE PROPOSED THEN!" "I PROPOSED COZ I LOVE YOU!" he argued. She suddenly went silent. "I had it all planned, then you said you were pregnant, I was so happy," he said biting his lip. "Then you said you wanted to get rid of it, I was heartbroken sure but I would have stood by you, then you're keeping it, so I ask you what I was going to ask anyway, you go all haywire and scream your head off!" "I didn't scream." She said.
"I didn't propose to you because you're pregnant Em," he said. "Ah," Hilary said, "I take it you two want to be alone." "No I'm leaving anyway." Max said he took off without a backward glance. Emily looked shocked. "DON'T JUST STAND THERE GO AFTER HIM!" Hilary ordered. Emily nodded and ran off.
"Where were you for so long?" asked Tyler surveying her mother. "Talking with Max, doing a bit of shopping." "Shopping for what?" "Stuff." She said. Her stomach churned. 12 01 pm. This was so not fair. She ran to the bathroom and threw up. You're not supposed to get morning sickness after 12! "MUM!" Ty screeched "I THOUGHT YOU WENT TO THE DOCTORS FOR THIS!" "I did love." Said Hilary sadly. "then why aren't you better?" asked ty holding her mothers hair out of the way. "There's no cure ty," "No..." she whispered. "No now don't get upset it's not as bad as you think." "Are you dying?" "Am I hell!"
Emily had lost him. She kicked the ground absently. Why she bothered to chase after him anyway. She shouldn't bother. Her stomach gave a jolt. Baby kicking again. Just what she needed.
"Tyler love." She said. "Yeah." "You know how we moved here only recently..." "Yeah." "How do you feel about moving again?" "MUM!" she cried. "you said it was the last time! I have friends here! I have school!!!" she cried. "Ok, ok we won't move." "If you want to we will but is it because of dad?" "Partially," "Is it because you're sick? Is it this place making you sick?" "No love," "Then why aren't you getting better?" "You know how daddy stayed over a few weeks ago." "Yeah... so." "Well mummy and daddy made a very big decision."
"MUM I'M NOT A BABY QUIT TALKING LIKE I'M 3!" "Sorry babe all I'm saying is..." "What?" "Do you like being an only child..." "It's alright wh... MUM!" she said in shock. Hilary hung her head. "I'm pregnant." "NO!" she said. "NO!" she looked devastated. She scrambled up and ran off. She didn't know where she was headed. She loved her mum and would help her through anything but, but this baby, it was her dad's... she may end up hating it. Dad had wrecked her life once and now he'd done it again! She rang the doorbell on the apartment.
"Hey." Kenny said. "is Tyson in?" she asked her fists clenched and her eyes narrowed. "Yeah hold on a minute." He said he let her in.
"Hey ty." "YOU!" she screamed "DO YOU KNOW WHAT YOU'VE DONE!" "Didn't she do this yesterday?" muttered Mariah to ray. "Probably." He said turning up the volume on the telly set. "What have I done this time I haven't been near you in two months!" "THAT'S JUST IT!!!" she screamed hopelessly. "YOU WRECKED OUR LIVES ONCE THEN YOU GO AND DO IT ALL OVER AGAIN!" she cried. "What do you mean?" Tyler slapped him with a sickening crack she was in tears she turned to leave but Kai blocked her. "Ty, you want to talk to me about it?" "No." she said hopefully. He sighed.
"Come on kid I'll take you home, we can't have you killing Tyson, as much as we all want to." He said grabbing his coat. He led her through the streets silently her sobs the only noise emanating from the two. Tyler tried to open the door. "Locked." She muttered. Kai shrugged. "She in?" "Yes she's definitely in she wouldn't go anywhere... not with me in this state." She said firmly. "Stand back." He said. He grabbed his blade and launched it at the door. The door swung open. "did ya damage the lock?" Hilary asked curiously from the sofa. "No," Kai stated simply. "Hey baby." She whispered to her daughter tears threatening to spill. "I'm not your baby any more am I!" she yelled and took off upstairs. "TY!" she called. She heard the resounding door slam that signalled for her to stop trying. "Thanks for walking her home Kai." She said with a sigh. "Hilary what did she mean by 'I'm not your baby any more am I'?" "The fact that I'm a hopeless mum might have something to do with it." "You're not a hopeless mum!" he said sighing. He sat down as she paced the room.
"Tyson says I am." She stated. "Tyson doesn't know what it's like to be a dad." Said Kai. "And you do?" Kai nodded slowly. "You're kidding me?" "No... 5 year old Thomas..." "So where is he..." she asked shocked by the news. "With his mum." "Oh?" "Well his mum and I we didn't really get on well together with a baby," "So you left?" "We decided it was better for Thomas I still see him a bit but not much." "Well in that case we're both hopeless parents then." "We both tried our best." He warned. "Yeah but I'm a 28 single mother of two what am I supposed to do..." "Two?" he asked. She suddenly noticed her slip up. Tyson's room mate aswell. She winced and bit her lip. "Hilary?" he asked. "Yes ok!" she said furiously. "That's why Tyler isn't talking to me or her dad, that's why me and Tyson have had no contact in ages!" she said. He still looked slightly puzzled.
"So, you're pregnant?" "Yeah." "Great! Two screaming banshees just what I need." She clouted him over the head with a cushion. He laughed. "So," "So you and Tyler aren't talking because you and her dad split up because..." "Because I'm a total slapper?" she suggested. "Oh so it IS Tyson's baby?" "yeah." "That's why Tyler slapped Tyson." "She what?" "Don't get your knickers in a knot hil, it doesn't solve anything and it makes you walk funny, she didn't hurt him." "Yes well, that child is too much like her dad for her own good."
"What about your new one? What if she's like her dad too?" he asked her seriously. "Confident aren't ya?" she asked curiously. "What do you mean?" "Huh?" "I mean you say it's a girl." "Oh well let me rephrase that if your next child is like Tyson what will you do?" "Cry probably," "Now where will that get you?" "The thing is I don't think I'm going to give it a chance to become like Tyson." "what?" "I mean Ty doesn't want me to keep this baby." "After all that rubbish you gave Emily about not aborting?" "I never said I was going to abort I'm just sayin I'm keepin my options open okay?" "So how many people know?" "You, Tyler Max and my doctor... I'm going to have to tell em or she'll kill me!" "Hm, you think it's wise to be bragging before you have the baby or abort if that is the case?" "I never said abortion! I'm just saying, you know what it's like being away from your son what does he feel?" "I don't really know he's sort of like isolated from the rest of the world when I'm not there but when I am he's amazing he's this sparky little kid with tons of energy."
Hilary sighed. What could she do? She had three options. 1: Abort which went against all of the her morals 2: Adopt possibly forcing her innocent baby into a solitary life of isolation never knowing his or her parents... 3:... keep the baby and face her moody teenager. Tyler wouldn't be happy. Tyson wouldn't be happy. Would she be happy?
A/n: dum dum dum!!! Is Hilary going to keep the child? What about the Emily Max thing? Is Kai being Nice? Will the authoress ever stop asking herself questions? Find out next time on 2nd chance.