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Chapter 15: Broken Hearts
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I found Bree inside the Defense Against the Dark Arts room waiting for class to start. I sat down next to her. Not a lot of people were there.
"I'm sorry. I guess I never thought that somebody would get the note." She replied as I sat down.
"It's ok. But Sirius really does look hurt."
"That's his fault. He should go and read my personal stuff."
"I guess your right." I replied as Sirius walked in with James. Sirius looked miserable. They walked to the back and sat down. For the last couple minutes before class started Bree and I talked.
Class started and ended smoothly. After DADA we had Herbology then lunch.
Sirius plopped down next to Bree at lunch.
"I need to talk to you." He said. Bree didn't turn her attention towards him. He moved her head in her direction, "I need to talk to you now."
"Fine." She replied. She got up and grabbed her bag. They both headed out of the hall and out of site.
Bree's POV
"I'm sorry for screwing things up." Sirius stared deep into my eyes. I can't stay mad at him.
"I'm sorry too. It's just; you can't go and read girls notes to her friends. That's not fair and it's rude."
"I know." He pulled me into a hug.
"Bree?"
"What?"
"Who is JC and did he really ask Lily to marry him?"
"Nobody, just forget all that rubbish," I replied.
"C'mon you can tell me anything." He looked at me. He is going to find out someday...
"Ok I'll tell you but you can't tell anyone, promise?"
"Promise." He replied.
"Ok," I whispered, "Jacque asked Lily to marry him and gave her this huge beautiful ring. She said no of course because she is so young. She doesn't want anyone to know and to cause a commotion."
"Wow..." Sirius smiled.
"Don't tell a soul."
"I wont, I wont." He hugged me again. Jeez, was I that mad at him? He is hugging me so hard I think I am going to blow up!
"Bree?"
"Yea?"
"If I gave you a huge beautiful ring and asked you to marry me at age seventeen would you say yes?"
I looked into his warm grey eyes, "Of course. Because I love you and you know that." I kissed him and he smiled, "Your not getting any ideas though are you?"
"No, no, just wondering."
"We better get going, lunch ends soon." We walked into the Great Hall and enjoyed the last few minutes before charms at the Gryfinndor table. When the bell rang Sirius and I walked handed in hand up to the charms classroom together.
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Sirius POV
It was about nine o'clock at night and I was lying in my bed. Nobody was in the dorm except me. I was thinking about a lot of things.
Thought number one: Hogwarts. My days at Hogwarts were coming to an end. I refused to believe it until now. My home for the past seven years is going to be over. It was like going to your favorite place over and over again. You never get sick of it and you can wait to open your eyes in the morning to see it again. But, suddenly being kicked out. It was a sad feeling, a feeling I never wanted to have. I've had enough problems in life, like my family, to be worrying about things like this. I don't even want to start thinking about them.
Thought number two: Bree. She means everything to me. Sometimes I feel like she deserves more than me. I love how she doesn't care about my back round or family. She loves me as me and that's the way I like it. I try so hard not to mess things up between us. But, the more I try the more I mess up. She's a forgiving person, and I'm glad we are together.
Thought number three: James. No matter how many times I tell him he needs to find a girl the more he argues with me. He still won't believe the fact that Lily is dating Jacque. Even after three months he still thinks it's all a joke. I just wish they would date so James wouldn't be so miserable and moody. Not that he always is, but when he is you can tell he is miserable and moody about his "Lily problems" as I like to call them.
Thought number four: Lily and Jacque. Does Lily really like Jacque? Does Lily really like Jacque more than like? Is she actually considering marrying him? Thank god James wasn't in the room at the time. All his dreams would be crushed. I hate holding secrets in like this. I would usually tell James secrets, but definitely not this one.
My thoughts were interrupted when Remus walked in.
"What's bothering you mate?"
"Multiple problems," Remus plopped down on his bed.
"Where is Prongs and Wormtail?" I asked.
"Downstairs trying to finish some homework." He answered.
"Oh. Remus what if you knew something and you want to tell someone, but you can't?"
"Just spill it, Sirius; you're not the best 'secret keeper' anyway. You're bound to tell anyone so it might as well be me," he smiled at me. Remus was right. I wasn't all that great at keeping big secrets especially one as big as this one.
"Well, do you remember in transfiguration today about the letter Bree passed to Lily then McGonagall got it?" he shook his head yes.
"The one you took and read and invaded her personal life?" he asked sarcastically.
"Er, right. Well, it's true. Jacque asked Lily to marry him." I slapped myself on the forehead.
"What was that for?" Remus pointed at my head.
"I promised Bree I wouldn't tell anyone. You can't tell anyone especially James."
"I won't." Remus looked at me and raised his eyebrows, "Thank God James wasn't there."
"That's what I said." I replied.
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Remus POV
"MOM! DAD! Mom...Dad...where are you?" I ran all over. Trees, grass, rocks, were all around me. There were too many trees...I can't see a thing. What was that? I heard tree limbs crack from behind me. I turned around...face to face with two big yellow eyes. I tried to back away from the huge beast that was coming towards me. Please just go away, please. I don't want to die, or get hurt, anything but that.
I backed up against a tree. This was it...my life is over. I feel back, cowering like a mouse in a corner hiding from a huge cat. The animal jumped on top of me. I closed my eyes and felt the large fangs slid into my flesh. Blood came spewing out everyone. I screamed bloody murder. The pain was horrible. I felt it throughout my whole body. Like lightening electrifying every inch of me. Then, suddenly, it was over. Gone. The horrible animal was gone. Everything was fuzzy.
"You have been bitten by a werewolf. Your health is wonderful...except one reaction from the werewolf," I breathed in an out slowly. I was in the doctor's office after the 'attack' from the animal, "Once a month, on full moons, you will turn into a werewolf. This is the consequences if you get bitten by one. I'm sorry. During this time of the month you want to make sure you stay away from everyone. Build a little house if you have to. If you bite anyone while you are in your transformation they too will become a werewolf once a month." I could feel my heart pounding out of my chest. Why did I have to go into the forest?
Everything was a blur to me. It's crazy. At only age nine it seemed as if my life was already coming to an end. What is going to happen to me? Am I going to be like this forever? What were my friends going to say?
I tried to forget everything that night as I went to bed. Full moon will come in a couple weeks. My dad is making me a metal hut. I don't know what it's going to be like. All I know is its going to be painful. I wish I knew someone who was bitten so I can talk with them about it.
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I could feel the hair leaving my hands, I felt the fangs get smaller and disappear, and my body shrink. I lay on the floor to my 'torture chamber' as I like to call it. I had been going through my transformations for two years now. The pain is indescribable. But, I have gotten used to it, kind of. I don't think I will ever get used to it. But I'm going to have to live with it. Face my fears. Nobody except my family knows about my problem. I choose not to tell anyone.
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"Honey, this school too. What are we supposed to tell Remus? Nobody will take him because of his conditions." I heard my mother and father talking quietly inside of their room.
"We need to tell him the truth. But we can't hurt him. It will break his heart if he knows practically every school in London has rejected him."
"Wait, honey, there is one more school can we please write to the Headmaster and ask him?"
"Anything that might work." My father replied quietly.
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"Mr. Lupin, I am happy to inform you that you are accepted to Hogwarts School of Witchcraft and Wizardry." My heart jumped with joy when a man with a long white beard and hair with half moon spectacles showed up on our doorstep. He was headmaster of Hogwarts.
"Are you serious? But what about my conditions?" I was happy but still worried. My parents had tears of joy in their eyes. I knew they wanted me to be able to live my life like a normal child.
"I don't think that matters now do you? You are smart, active, and kind. I will be honored if you were to attend my school."
"I'd love to!" I shook Professor Dumbledore's hand happily.
"Now, I am under the impression that you transform once a month?"
"Yes, is that going to be a problem?"
"No, no of course not. I have thought of this plan. A plan where you can transform but be away from people."
"Thank you. Thank you so much..."
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"Lily, vhere are vou?" I heard Jacques voice.
"Here darling, I'm feeding Jessica."
"Hello my baby girl!"
"She looks just like you honey."
"Ves, but she has vour eyes."
"I love you Jacque."
"I love vou Lily." I heard Lily and Jacques voices. But they were older. All I saw in front of me was a huge ring and wedding bells. Of course, Lily and Jacque, together. Married.
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"Remus...Remus? Are you okay?" I felt somebody shaking me and sat straight up. Peter was in front of me. I looked around the dorm room. Nobody was in there. I was sweating like crazy. My dream...no flashbacks...with a flash forward...my thoughts were swimming in my head.
"You ok Remus? You were shaking. Is something bothering you?" Peter looked at my comfortably.
"Just a lot of flash backs from when I was bitten...and there was a flash forward." I paused scanning my mind for details.
"Flash forward? What was it of?" Peter sounded eager.
"Lily...Lily and Jacque. It's true they are going to get married...well at least I think so."
"Wow...so the note was true?"
"How did you know who JC was?"
"Remus, everyone knows. Where have you been, buddy?"
"I don't know. Whatever you do, don't tell anyone I told you because I wasn't supposed to tell anyone. Promise?"
"Promise."
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Lily POV
"Let's find some seats while we wait for Michelle, Katie, and Ash." Bree and I walked into the Great Hall right before dinner started. The others had run up to the Gryfinndor common room quickly and we promised to save them a seat.
"Okay." Bree led us over to a seat next to the Marauders. I looked at her but she avoided my eyes. I decided to give in. I couldn't dodge them forever. I don't want to be the one everyone is mad at, so I sat down next to Bree and 'reserved' three seats.
We were chatting quietly. I was sure to be nice and not to cause a commotion. It was weird having your best friend dating your worst enemy's best friend. But, I chose to be comfortable with it. So being the civil person I am I was nice and made conversation with everyone.
"Can you believe that Jack Johnson is going out with that Slytheran Jamie Hudson?" Sirius asked scooping some pudding. Ashley, Michelle, and Katie still weren't back yet. They said they might stop at the library on the way...I guess they did.
"I know it's crazy. Like when we were in third year that Gryfinndor girl, what was her name? Angela...Angela Jones got married to that Slytheran guy Jacob Thomas! That's crazy!" Remus added.
"That's almost as crazy as Jacque asking Lily to marry him." Peter responded. I dropped my fork. Did he just say what I think he said? Everyone was silent except Potter who looked clueless.
I glared and Bree and kicked her from underneath the table. She turned towards Sirius and punched him in the stomach. Sirius then turned towards Remus and nudged him in the back. Remus turned to Peter who was already getting up and walking away, his head hanging low.
James still looked clueless and everyone was silent. I picked up my fork. I felt my face glow red. I don't know why it's not like I care what Potter thinks.
He must've believed what he just heard because no body was speaking. Nobody looked up from their plates, not wanting to see his heartbroken face.
I knew it hurt him it had to have. Seconds turned to minutes as we sat there in silence while the rest of the school chattered away not noticing a thing.
I put my left had under the table. I felt as if everyone's eyes were on the ring.
James got up and left the Great Hall. I had no idea where he was heading to. When the doors of the Great Hall slammed shut all heads turned towards me.
At once apologies came flying at me.
"It's okay, really. He was going to find out someday right?" I asked.
"Okay let's set one thing straight, nobody is to talk about this subject ever again. And since we all broke promises to each other but mainly Lily, we should all just forgive and forget." Bree concluded.
"Agreed," we all replied. We tried to enjoy the rest of our dinner but we all still had guilty conscience.
Katie, Ashley, and Michelle all walked up about fifteen minutes before dinner ended.
"Sorry, we were at the library," Katie said as she starting loading food onto her plate, "N.E.W.T.s coming soon."
"Yeah," Michelle added, "It was a zoo."
Ashley looked up from her plate, "What did we miss?"
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Sirius POV
"Lover-boy where are you?" I yelled up the stairs of our dorm. Where the hell is James? "Prongs? You up there?"
I walked up the stairs and burst opened the door. Sitting on James bed was James and a...girl.
"Wow...sorry was I...er...interrupting something?" I put my hands over my eyes and they jumped up.
"No, Padfoot, the coast is clear."
"I told you we should've put that lock on the door when we had the chance!" I joked.
"Ha, Ha, ha," he replied standing up.
"So whose this?" I raised my eyebrows. James was with a girl, and that girl wasn't Lily. Not that James never dated or had girlfriends, believe me he has, but he never really stuck to them. I think he always and will be waiting for Lily.
"Oh, this is Kendra Ray," James pointed to the tall, beautiful, blondie standing next to him.
"Hello," I shook her hand. She was very pretty indeed with long blonde hair to her shoulders with piercing blue eyes. And she had quite a figure...not bad Prongs...nice choice.
"Nice to meet you. I have to go, bye James. See you later Sirius." She walked out of our room.
James walked over to his trunk and started rummaging through it.
"So, where did Kendra come from?" I asked.
"What do you mean? I can date cant I?"
"James, your not trying to get back at a certain someone, are you?"
"No, is there a specific time when I'm allowed to date?"
"Nope, just curious."
"Okay, well you just go be curious but I've got to me Kendra downstairs, later mate!"
And that was it. The poor, clueless guy walked out downstairs to meet his replaced obsession. He obviously realized Lily is off the shelf, probably forever...
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Lily POV
"Darn," I looked up from my bed. There were papers spread everywhere and I was trying to sort my assignments for the following days out.
"What?" Bree looked up; she was working on a charms essay.
"I forgot my potions essay downstairs. I'll go get it," I walked down the stairs leading to the common room. I spotted my essay on the table under a window right where I left it. Not many people were there. First years playing chess, third years napping, fifth years doing homework, James making out with some girl, Remus reading a book. Wait...I spun around. There under a window was James and some girl with their tongues down each others throats. The sight was horrifying. I tried to fight back the tears, but why? Why were there tears? I quickly grabbed my paper unnoticed and ran back up to my dorm. Tears were pouring out like a waterfall, falling down a steep cliff.
I walked into my room and slammed the door shut. I didn't know where Bree was and I didn't feel like talking. I jumped on my bed and closed the curtains. I laid my head down on my soft fluffy pillow. I breathed in the beautiful scent and tried to forget what I had just seen. I heard the bathroom door open and foot steps come toward my bed. Bree opened the curtain a couple of inches and stuck her head in.
"What's wrong?"
"I don't want to talk about it," But that was a lie. I did want to talk about it. But, if I did Bree would think I like James which I don't.
"You sure?"
"Well..." I looked up and she saw my tears.
"Ah, Lil, you gotta tell me now. Your making me sad," she drew the curtains all the way open and cleared a spot for her to sit, "Just tell me."
"Ok, well I went to down to the common room to get my essay-"
"Did you find it?"
"Yea, and I found someone else too."
"Who?"
I paused, "James was making out with some blonde haired bimbo."
"You're bummed out cause James was making out with a girl? That's not like you," she looked at me oddly, "Oh, your mad cause that girl wasn't you?"
"No, it's just...I don't know."
"Lil, face the facts, your head over heels for this guy!"
"No I'm not!" I stood up, "I don't like him and I never will. It's just not fair that he throws a fit because he thinks I'm not allowed to have a boyfriend but he can have a girlfriend?"
"Lil, that's just how guys act. You never know what's going on in their head. Take Sirius for example. He is protective and its nonsense. Last week I was talking to Kevin Emerson about the transfiguration homework. A day later I find out Sirius hexes the poor guy! Why? I don't know. You just have to get used to the fact that guys may say one thing but mean another. They don't think...bottom line."
Bree always knew what to say to cheer someone up. I gave her a big hug.
"Thanks."
"No problem-o. To tell you the truth I think James is jealous and trying to get you mad."
"Why does life have to be some complicated?" I asked.
"I don't know. But, don't let James get to you. Ok?"
"Alright."
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Chapter 15: Broken Hearts
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I found Bree inside the Defense Against the Dark Arts room waiting for class to start. I sat down next to her. Not a lot of people were there.
"I'm sorry. I guess I never thought that somebody would get the note." She replied as I sat down.
"It's ok. But Sirius really does look hurt."
"That's his fault. He should go and read my personal stuff."
"I guess your right." I replied as Sirius walked in with James. Sirius looked miserable. They walked to the back and sat down. For the last couple minutes before class started Bree and I talked.
Class started and ended smoothly. After DADA we had Herbology then lunch.
Sirius plopped down next to Bree at lunch.
"I need to talk to you." He said. Bree didn't turn her attention towards him. He moved her head in her direction, "I need to talk to you now."
"Fine." She replied. She got up and grabbed her bag. They both headed out of the hall and out of site.
Bree's POV
"I'm sorry for screwing things up." Sirius stared deep into my eyes. I can't stay mad at him.
"I'm sorry too. It's just; you can't go and read girls notes to her friends. That's not fair and it's rude."
"I know." He pulled me into a hug.
"Bree?"
"What?"
"Who is JC and did he really ask Lily to marry him?"
"Nobody, just forget all that rubbish," I replied.
"C'mon you can tell me anything." He looked at me. He is going to find out someday...
"Ok I'll tell you but you can't tell anyone, promise?"
"Promise." He replied.
"Ok," I whispered, "Jacque asked Lily to marry him and gave her this huge beautiful ring. She said no of course because she is so young. She doesn't want anyone to know and to cause a commotion."
"Wow..." Sirius smiled.
"Don't tell a soul."
"I wont, I wont." He hugged me again. Jeez, was I that mad at him? He is hugging me so hard I think I am going to blow up!
"Bree?"
"Yea?"
"If I gave you a huge beautiful ring and asked you to marry me at age seventeen would you say yes?"
I looked into his warm grey eyes, "Of course. Because I love you and you know that." I kissed him and he smiled, "Your not getting any ideas though are you?"
"No, no, just wondering."
"We better get going, lunch ends soon." We walked into the Great Hall and enjoyed the last few minutes before charms at the Gryfinndor table. When the bell rang Sirius and I walked handed in hand up to the charms classroom together.
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Sirius POV
It was about nine o'clock at night and I was lying in my bed. Nobody was in the dorm except me. I was thinking about a lot of things.
Thought number one: Hogwarts. My days at Hogwarts were coming to an end. I refused to believe it until now. My home for the past seven years is going to be over. It was like going to your favorite place over and over again. You never get sick of it and you can wait to open your eyes in the morning to see it again. But, suddenly being kicked out. It was a sad feeling, a feeling I never wanted to have. I've had enough problems in life, like my family, to be worrying about things like this. I don't even want to start thinking about them.
Thought number two: Bree. She means everything to me. Sometimes I feel like she deserves more than me. I love how she doesn't care about my back round or family. She loves me as me and that's the way I like it. I try so hard not to mess things up between us. But, the more I try the more I mess up. She's a forgiving person, and I'm glad we are together.
Thought number three: James. No matter how many times I tell him he needs to find a girl the more he argues with me. He still won't believe the fact that Lily is dating Jacque. Even after three months he still thinks it's all a joke. I just wish they would date so James wouldn't be so miserable and moody. Not that he always is, but when he is you can tell he is miserable and moody about his "Lily problems" as I like to call them.
Thought number four: Lily and Jacque. Does Lily really like Jacque? Does Lily really like Jacque more than like? Is she actually considering marrying him? Thank god James wasn't in the room at the time. All his dreams would be crushed. I hate holding secrets in like this. I would usually tell James secrets, but definitely not this one.
My thoughts were interrupted when Remus walked in.
"What's bothering you mate?"
"Multiple problems," Remus plopped down on his bed.
"Where is Prongs and Wormtail?" I asked.
"Downstairs trying to finish some homework." He answered.
"Oh. Remus what if you knew something and you want to tell someone, but you can't?"
"Just spill it, Sirius; you're not the best 'secret keeper' anyway. You're bound to tell anyone so it might as well be me," he smiled at me. Remus was right. I wasn't all that great at keeping big secrets especially one as big as this one.
"Well, do you remember in transfiguration today about the letter Bree passed to Lily then McGonagall got it?" he shook his head yes.
"The one you took and read and invaded her personal life?" he asked sarcastically.
"Er, right. Well, it's true. Jacque asked Lily to marry him." I slapped myself on the forehead.
"What was that for?" Remus pointed at my head.
"I promised Bree I wouldn't tell anyone. You can't tell anyone especially James."
"I won't." Remus looked at me and raised his eyebrows, "Thank God James wasn't there."
"That's what I said." I replied.
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Remus POV
"MOM! DAD! Mom...Dad...where are you?" I ran all over. Trees, grass, rocks, were all around me. There were too many trees...I can't see a thing. What was that? I heard tree limbs crack from behind me. I turned around...face to face with two big yellow eyes. I tried to back away from the huge beast that was coming towards me. Please just go away, please. I don't want to die, or get hurt, anything but that.
I backed up against a tree. This was it...my life is over. I feel back, cowering like a mouse in a corner hiding from a huge cat. The animal jumped on top of me. I closed my eyes and felt the large fangs slid into my flesh. Blood came spewing out everyone. I screamed bloody murder. The pain was horrible. I felt it throughout my whole body. Like lightening electrifying every inch of me. Then, suddenly, it was over. Gone. The horrible animal was gone. Everything was fuzzy.
"You have been bitten by a werewolf. Your health is wonderful...except one reaction from the werewolf," I breathed in an out slowly. I was in the doctor's office after the 'attack' from the animal, "Once a month, on full moons, you will turn into a werewolf. This is the consequences if you get bitten by one. I'm sorry. During this time of the month you want to make sure you stay away from everyone. Build a little house if you have to. If you bite anyone while you are in your transformation they too will become a werewolf once a month." I could feel my heart pounding out of my chest. Why did I have to go into the forest?
Everything was a blur to me. It's crazy. At only age nine it seemed as if my life was already coming to an end. What is going to happen to me? Am I going to be like this forever? What were my friends going to say?
I tried to forget everything that night as I went to bed. Full moon will come in a couple weeks. My dad is making me a metal hut. I don't know what it's going to be like. All I know is its going to be painful. I wish I knew someone who was bitten so I can talk with them about it.
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I could feel the hair leaving my hands, I felt the fangs get smaller and disappear, and my body shrink. I lay on the floor to my 'torture chamber' as I like to call it. I had been going through my transformations for two years now. The pain is indescribable. But, I have gotten used to it, kind of. I don't think I will ever get used to it. But I'm going to have to live with it. Face my fears. Nobody except my family knows about my problem. I choose not to tell anyone.
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"Honey, this school too. What are we supposed to tell Remus? Nobody will take him because of his conditions." I heard my mother and father talking quietly inside of their room.
"We need to tell him the truth. But we can't hurt him. It will break his heart if he knows practically every school in London has rejected him."
"Wait, honey, there is one more school can we please write to the Headmaster and ask him?"
"Anything that might work." My father replied quietly.
***
"Mr. Lupin, I am happy to inform you that you are accepted to Hogwarts School of Witchcraft and Wizardry." My heart jumped with joy when a man with a long white beard and hair with half moon spectacles showed up on our doorstep. He was headmaster of Hogwarts.
"Are you serious? But what about my conditions?" I was happy but still worried. My parents had tears of joy in their eyes. I knew they wanted me to be able to live my life like a normal child.
"I don't think that matters now do you? You are smart, active, and kind. I will be honored if you were to attend my school."
"I'd love to!" I shook Professor Dumbledore's hand happily.
"Now, I am under the impression that you transform once a month?"
"Yes, is that going to be a problem?"
"No, no of course not. I have thought of this plan. A plan where you can transform but be away from people."
"Thank you. Thank you so much..."
***
"Lily, vhere are vou?" I heard Jacques voice.
"Here darling, I'm feeding Jessica."
"Hello my baby girl!"
"She looks just like you honey."
"Ves, but she has vour eyes."
"I love you Jacque."
"I love vou Lily." I heard Lily and Jacques voices. But they were older. All I saw in front of me was a huge ring and wedding bells. Of course, Lily and Jacque, together. Married.
***
"Remus...Remus? Are you okay?" I felt somebody shaking me and sat straight up. Peter was in front of me. I looked around the dorm room. Nobody was in there. I was sweating like crazy. My dream...no flashbacks...with a flash forward...my thoughts were swimming in my head.
"You ok Remus? You were shaking. Is something bothering you?" Peter looked at my comfortably.
"Just a lot of flash backs from when I was bitten...and there was a flash forward." I paused scanning my mind for details.
"Flash forward? What was it of?" Peter sounded eager.
"Lily...Lily and Jacque. It's true they are going to get married...well at least I think so."
"Wow...so the note was true?"
"How did you know who JC was?"
"Remus, everyone knows. Where have you been, buddy?"
"I don't know. Whatever you do, don't tell anyone I told you because I wasn't supposed to tell anyone. Promise?"
"Promise."
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Lily POV
"Let's find some seats while we wait for Michelle, Katie, and Ash." Bree and I walked into the Great Hall right before dinner started. The others had run up to the Gryfinndor common room quickly and we promised to save them a seat.
"Okay." Bree led us over to a seat next to the Marauders. I looked at her but she avoided my eyes. I decided to give in. I couldn't dodge them forever. I don't want to be the one everyone is mad at, so I sat down next to Bree and 'reserved' three seats.
We were chatting quietly. I was sure to be nice and not to cause a commotion. It was weird having your best friend dating your worst enemy's best friend. But, I chose to be comfortable with it. So being the civil person I am I was nice and made conversation with everyone.
"Can you believe that Jack Johnson is going out with that Slytheran Jamie Hudson?" Sirius asked scooping some pudding. Ashley, Michelle, and Katie still weren't back yet. They said they might stop at the library on the way...I guess they did.
"I know it's crazy. Like when we were in third year that Gryfinndor girl, what was her name? Angela...Angela Jones got married to that Slytheran guy Jacob Thomas! That's crazy!" Remus added.
"That's almost as crazy as Jacque asking Lily to marry him." Peter responded. I dropped my fork. Did he just say what I think he said? Everyone was silent except Potter who looked clueless.
I glared and Bree and kicked her from underneath the table. She turned towards Sirius and punched him in the stomach. Sirius then turned towards Remus and nudged him in the back. Remus turned to Peter who was already getting up and walking away, his head hanging low.
James still looked clueless and everyone was silent. I picked up my fork. I felt my face glow red. I don't know why it's not like I care what Potter thinks.
He must've believed what he just heard because no body was speaking. Nobody looked up from their plates, not wanting to see his heartbroken face.
I knew it hurt him it had to have. Seconds turned to minutes as we sat there in silence while the rest of the school chattered away not noticing a thing.
I put my left had under the table. I felt as if everyone's eyes were on the ring.
James got up and left the Great Hall. I had no idea where he was heading to. When the doors of the Great Hall slammed shut all heads turned towards me.
At once apologies came flying at me.
"It's okay, really. He was going to find out someday right?" I asked.
"Okay let's set one thing straight, nobody is to talk about this subject ever again. And since we all broke promises to each other but mainly Lily, we should all just forgive and forget." Bree concluded.
"Agreed," we all replied. We tried to enjoy the rest of our dinner but we all still had guilty conscience.
Katie, Ashley, and Michelle all walked up about fifteen minutes before dinner ended.
"Sorry, we were at the library," Katie said as she starting loading food onto her plate, "N.E.W.T.s coming soon."
"Yeah," Michelle added, "It was a zoo."
Ashley looked up from her plate, "What did we miss?"
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Sirius POV
"Lover-boy where are you?" I yelled up the stairs of our dorm. Where the hell is James? "Prongs? You up there?"
I walked up the stairs and burst opened the door. Sitting on James bed was James and a...girl.
"Wow...sorry was I...er...interrupting something?" I put my hands over my eyes and they jumped up.
"No, Padfoot, the coast is clear."
"I told you we should've put that lock on the door when we had the chance!" I joked.
"Ha, Ha, ha," he replied standing up.
"So whose this?" I raised my eyebrows. James was with a girl, and that girl wasn't Lily. Not that James never dated or had girlfriends, believe me he has, but he never really stuck to them. I think he always and will be waiting for Lily.
"Oh, this is Kendra Ray," James pointed to the tall, beautiful, blondie standing next to him.
"Hello," I shook her hand. She was very pretty indeed with long blonde hair to her shoulders with piercing blue eyes. And she had quite a figure...not bad Prongs...nice choice.
"Nice to meet you. I have to go, bye James. See you later Sirius." She walked out of our room.
James walked over to his trunk and started rummaging through it.
"So, where did Kendra come from?" I asked.
"What do you mean? I can date cant I?"
"James, your not trying to get back at a certain someone, are you?"
"No, is there a specific time when I'm allowed to date?"
"Nope, just curious."
"Okay, well you just go be curious but I've got to me Kendra downstairs, later mate!"
And that was it. The poor, clueless guy walked out downstairs to meet his replaced obsession. He obviously realized Lily is off the shelf, probably forever...
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Lily POV
"Darn," I looked up from my bed. There were papers spread everywhere and I was trying to sort my assignments for the following days out.
"What?" Bree looked up; she was working on a charms essay.
"I forgot my potions essay downstairs. I'll go get it," I walked down the stairs leading to the common room. I spotted my essay on the table under a window right where I left it. Not many people were there. First years playing chess, third years napping, fifth years doing homework, James making out with some girl, Remus reading a book. Wait...I spun around. There under a window was James and some girl with their tongues down each others throats. The sight was horrifying. I tried to fight back the tears, but why? Why were there tears? I quickly grabbed my paper unnoticed and ran back up to my dorm. Tears were pouring out like a waterfall, falling down a steep cliff.
I walked into my room and slammed the door shut. I didn't know where Bree was and I didn't feel like talking. I jumped on my bed and closed the curtains. I laid my head down on my soft fluffy pillow. I breathed in the beautiful scent and tried to forget what I had just seen. I heard the bathroom door open and foot steps come toward my bed. Bree opened the curtain a couple of inches and stuck her head in.
"What's wrong?"
"I don't want to talk about it," But that was a lie. I did want to talk about it. But, if I did Bree would think I like James which I don't.
"You sure?"
"Well..." I looked up and she saw my tears.
"Ah, Lil, you gotta tell me now. Your making me sad," she drew the curtains all the way open and cleared a spot for her to sit, "Just tell me."
"Ok, well I went to down to the common room to get my essay-"
"Did you find it?"
"Yea, and I found someone else too."
"Who?"
I paused, "James was making out with some blonde haired bimbo."
"You're bummed out cause James was making out with a girl? That's not like you," she looked at me oddly, "Oh, your mad cause that girl wasn't you?"
"No, it's just...I don't know."
"Lil, face the facts, your head over heels for this guy!"
"No I'm not!" I stood up, "I don't like him and I never will. It's just not fair that he throws a fit because he thinks I'm not allowed to have a boyfriend but he can have a girlfriend?"
"Lil, that's just how guys act. You never know what's going on in their head. Take Sirius for example. He is protective and its nonsense. Last week I was talking to Kevin Emerson about the transfiguration homework. A day later I find out Sirius hexes the poor guy! Why? I don't know. You just have to get used to the fact that guys may say one thing but mean another. They don't think...bottom line."
Bree always knew what to say to cheer someone up. I gave her a big hug.
"Thanks."
"No problem-o. To tell you the truth I think James is jealous and trying to get you mad."
"Why does life have to be some complicated?" I asked.
"I don't know. But, don't let James get to you. Ok?"
"Alright."
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