Simple and Clean- by Wild Wisdom
Chapter 7: Hopeless
A/N: Please forget all the rules where the number 7 is a lucky number. In this chapter, it's far from it. As usual, don't kill the writer. How else will you get your story?
Also, I'm not usually a Rinoa/Squall lover, but for the sake of the story, I'm willing to sacrifice it.
This time, it's the third scene.
A week later from the last conversation between Sora and Riku caused irratic and uncontrolled silence in the appartment. Riku had spent most of his nights away, trying to stay as far away from the appartment as possible while Sora couldn't even muster enough energy to get out of bed unless it was an absolute must. Usually, Kairi had to force him to move.
"Sora," Kairi walked in on her fiance for the fifth night in a row. Sora was curled up in a ball under the covers, covering his eyes from the light at the door. "Sora, you have to eat honey."
A man could go without food for forty days and live. Sora was planning on going for forty-one.
Kairi sat next to him. "Come on, Sora. It can't be that bad."
Sora poked his head out of the pillows and glared at her. "Not that bad?"
She bit her lip as Sora stared at her with unblinking eyes. As she spoke, her voice began to waver. "Sora, you don't even tell me the details of the arguement. All you did was storm into the room and stay in the bed all day! You won't even talk to me!"
"The fact that we had an arguement is enough." He rolled over to avoid her unwavering gaze.
Kairi sighed. "Sora, do you love him?"
The exasperated tone caused Sora to roll back over to his fiance. "What are you talking about? Why would you ask a thing like that?"
"Boys are allowed to love each other." she said, almost defiantly. "But I meant it like a brother. Do you love Riku?"
He looked into her eyes, forcing her to stand her ground. "Then, I love him with all of my heart."
She glared at him. "Then what are you doing? Solve this stupid problem and get back to loving him as you should."
He backed down in slight shock, wondering if she truly understood what she was asking of him. He sank into the pillows again. 'If only I could' he thought, bitterly. "I can't love him like I used to."
"Why not?"
"Because... because there are some obstacles that can't be cleared."
"Then clear them." she thrust out her chin, daringly.
"And there are some words that can't be taken back without time to heal."
"Then speed up the pace and heal quicker."
"We've hurt each other too much."
"Then mend each other's wounds."
He shook his head. How could he possibly do all of this and hurt Kairi in the process? "Please Kairi, as my fiancee and my friend, don't interfere."
"I can't stand back while two of my best frien-"
"Don't interfere." And he rolled back over, hoping she would get the hint to leave. He felt the weight lift off of the bed as she stood and listened for the door.
As soon as Kairi reached the door, she gasped a startled surprise. "Riku!"
Sora's heart began to race. He snapped his eyes shut and pretended to be asleep. How long would his love plague him?
Riku, dressed in the same black clothes that he had arrived in, looked back at the 'sleeping' form and inwardly sighed. Faking sleep wasn't foreign to Riku and he immediately knew.
"Riku, what's up?" Kairi smiled.
"I just wanted to let you and Sora know that I'm leaving."
Sora's heart dropped to the pit of his stomach. He tightened his grip on the blanket.
"Oh, I hope it's not because of the little fight you and Sora had."
Riku put a hand through his hair. "It's time for me to leave."
"Riku, if you and Sora would just settle the arguement-"
"I think it's better if we don't, Kairi, okay? Just forget about it."
Kairi sighed and nodded slowly. "Where are you going to stay?"
"Well, for now I'm going to stay at Squall's, but I don't know where I'm going to go after that. I think I'll just wander afterwards."
"Stay in touch, okay?" she gave him a shy smile.
He returned the smile, only his was a little smaller and a little sadder. "I will."
***
Riku looked down at his plate. Squall's food wasn't exactly appetizing, but it would do.
Squall looked up from his dinner plate at Riku, who was picking at his food. "Riku, are you okay?"
Riku blinked and shook his head. "I'm sorry, I zoned out a little. What did you say?"
"You remind me of me." Squall laughed a little. "I can't believe I just said that. I must be getting old."
Riku chuckled. "What do you mean?"
"Well, I always use to be cold and unemotional. You know, the lone wolf type? You're kind of like that too, aren't you?"
"I guess so. I have nothing to care about in the world anymore."
"What about you're friends?"
"I'm trying to get away from most of them, thanks."
Squall looked at him hard for a moment. "You obviously lost something you love."
Riku raised an eyebrow. "Why would you assume something like that?"
"I lost something precious to me once. I acted exactly the way you did."
"What did you lose?"
"Rinoa."
"What?"
"Who. Rinoa was my lover."
Riku sat up. "What was she like?"
"To put it lightly, Rinoa was my lover because we were the complete opposites. Where I was harsh, she was kind. She taught me how to dance before I even knew her name."
"Sounds like she was a real angel."
Squall smiled with a melocholy air. "I guess she was. I loved her more than anything."
Riku waited a few seconds before he snapped Squall out of his stupor. "What happened to her?"
"She... I'm not sure, exactly. I don't know how I parted from her, but I'm sure she's back home where I belong. Selphie was one of her best friends as well, but when she came here, she was a child. I think it had to do with the destiny islands as childhood, while traverse town forces you to become and adult. I was seventeen before I came here as was Selphie."
"I grew up with Selphie."
Squall laughed. "Well, that's just my theory. Anyway, the point is I miss Rinoa with a passion. That's why I put red wings on my jacket. She has white ones on her duster."
"You must have made quite the couple."
"People thought we were perfect. I even tried dating to get me out of missing her, but it never worked. Aerith... she and I broke it off soon after you came."
"Why?"
"She said I scared her. Perhaps I wanted commitment too early."
Riku nodded and yawned. "It's been a long night, Squall."
"I agree. You should sleep." Squall watched Riku leave the dinning room.
***
Riku's dreams were riddled with Sora. Not that he was surprised, mind you. Riku was half expecting the dreams to be full of Sora's smiles and kisses. The way Sora's mouth pouted when Riku made a particularly funny comment on his submissiveness or eye colour. His eyes were full of innocence and trust. Because of this, Riku beat himself up for hurting him in such a brutal fashion. But it had to be done. It had to be-
Riku woke up with a start. Between sleeping in a foreign bed and having fitfull dreams involving Sora, he kept hearing moans outside of his door. He swallowed and waited as Squall opened the door.
"Squall?"
Squall sat down on the bed and smiled. Suddenly, Riku found himself pinned to the bed, Squall's lips against his. He thrashed, but Squall, being bigger, managed to keep him down without breaking the kiss. He moved his arms from Riku's shoulders to his waist, teasing the edge of his pants. He broke the kiss and began to press his lips against his neck.
"Squall, what are you-"
"Rinoa." he murmured. "I've missed you."
Riku bit his lip, finally realizing what was going on. "Squall, I'm not Rinoa."
"Rinoa, you try to fight me, but you always lose."
"Squall, I'm not your-"
"Rinoa, please... please." Riku finally felt his pants inching down his legs at Squall's touch. "Give my this night, at least."
And image of Sora, highlighted by the moon, appeared in Riku's mind.
"You left me feeling so empty..." his mouth, gentle mouth, spoke.
Riku never wanted anyone to feel empty because of him again. Riku looked down to Squall. "For one night Squall, I will be your Rinoa, your lover... if you can be my Sora."
Squall smiled seductively and Riku felt his pants fall completely off. His hands moved and groped down below, feeling for when Riku would ache in pleasure. Squall moved his hand felt and grinded against him. Riku swallowed and concentrated as Squall's face changed to Sora.
He didn't feel anything else anymore.
***
Kairi felt Sora shudder against her as they slept. Something somewhere caused Sora to shiver, even in his sleep. She hummed her song, adding the next lyrics to it
That's when I came to you
and said...
But she didn't know what could ever be said to calm his beating heart and his cold body.
***
Riku bitterly kicked a stone on the sidewalk. He just let his feet guide him, not caring in the world. At first, he had just thought 'How could I be so stupid'.
But he kept coming everynight for more, allowing his emotions and imagination to take advantage of him. It had been a week since the begining. The first night it happened, he tried to scrub his skin clean. Squall explained this was the main reason that Aerith hadn't stayed with him- it was too much.
"But you don't run away at my touch." he said with a sad smile.
Riku sighed at his weakness and once again concentrated on not knowing where his feet would take him, though he knew where he was going....
He smiled, despite himself, as Kairi met him at her appartment door.
"Anything you left is in your room." she said and left to her own room.
Riku went to it and grabbed the rest of his clothes. As he stuffed the clothing into the bag, he heard Kairi's giggle and a soft moan escape his lips. Riku heard that moan so many times before, coming from the lips of both Squall and Sora alike.
Curiosity got the best of him as he walked from his room and stood in front of the doorway of the couple's room, angling himself so he couldn't be seen unless they stepped out into the hall.
"Kairi, come on!" Sora laughed as Kairi tickled him from behind. Riku relaxed. So it wasn't what he thought after all.
Kairi smiled and pulled him to the mirror. "Look at yourself. I have hardly seen you this happy in ages."
"Yeah," he pulled her into him and gave her a chaste kiss. "But soon, we'll be able to see each other happy everyday, all the time."
"Sooner or later," she smiled.
He returned it, then let go of her. "Why not sooner?"
"What do you mean?"
He looked down at the young redhead. "Why wait? Why not tomorrow?"
She gave him a wayward look as if he had sprouted three heads. "Are you insane?"
"Insanely crazy about you." he pulled her in again and kissed the top of her head. "What do you say?"
"I say..." She looked at herself in the mirror. "I say yes!"
He nodded. "Then this time, tomorrow, we will be wed."
Riku tried, but as hard as he did, he couldn't wrench his eyes away from the scene. Sora had delicately lifted her up and placed her on the bed. He slowly undid the front of her shirt, smirking in a fashion that would put Riku to shame.
Riku squared his jaw, willing himself to go, but he couldn't move his feet.
He leaned in to kiss her, but she stopped him.
"What about Riku?"
He shrugged. "Who cares about Riku?" He leaned in again and just before his lips touched hers, a thought and an emotion blazed into his mind.
'I DO.'
In a startled rush, he ripped is mouth away from Kairi and looked at the doorway.
"What's wrong?" she asked.
He swallowed and stood in horror. Standing in the door was Riku in all of his glory, arms folded in a scowl.
That's when I came to you
and said...
End Chapter
A/N: .... I'm so sorry!!!!!!! I promise, the next chapter should bring a smile. The next is the last, folks, and it'll probably be a bit on the long side. I have a lot to explain, oui? We're reaching the climax now. After that, there's a sexy epilogue waiting.
Final Chapter Tease: The marriage will go on, but will Riku be able to survive after it? And what's this about Kairi? What will happen to our lovable keyblade master and his little love affair? (This is, mind you, a Sora/Riku. ...yeah, keep tellin' yourself that.)
Read and Review. I love you all!
Chapter 7: Hopeless
A/N: Please forget all the rules where the number 7 is a lucky number. In this chapter, it's far from it. As usual, don't kill the writer. How else will you get your story?
Also, I'm not usually a Rinoa/Squall lover, but for the sake of the story, I'm willing to sacrifice it.
This time, it's the third scene.
A week later from the last conversation between Sora and Riku caused irratic and uncontrolled silence in the appartment. Riku had spent most of his nights away, trying to stay as far away from the appartment as possible while Sora couldn't even muster enough energy to get out of bed unless it was an absolute must. Usually, Kairi had to force him to move.
"Sora," Kairi walked in on her fiance for the fifth night in a row. Sora was curled up in a ball under the covers, covering his eyes from the light at the door. "Sora, you have to eat honey."
A man could go without food for forty days and live. Sora was planning on going for forty-one.
Kairi sat next to him. "Come on, Sora. It can't be that bad."
Sora poked his head out of the pillows and glared at her. "Not that bad?"
She bit her lip as Sora stared at her with unblinking eyes. As she spoke, her voice began to waver. "Sora, you don't even tell me the details of the arguement. All you did was storm into the room and stay in the bed all day! You won't even talk to me!"
"The fact that we had an arguement is enough." He rolled over to avoid her unwavering gaze.
Kairi sighed. "Sora, do you love him?"
The exasperated tone caused Sora to roll back over to his fiance. "What are you talking about? Why would you ask a thing like that?"
"Boys are allowed to love each other." she said, almost defiantly. "But I meant it like a brother. Do you love Riku?"
He looked into her eyes, forcing her to stand her ground. "Then, I love him with all of my heart."
She glared at him. "Then what are you doing? Solve this stupid problem and get back to loving him as you should."
He backed down in slight shock, wondering if she truly understood what she was asking of him. He sank into the pillows again. 'If only I could' he thought, bitterly. "I can't love him like I used to."
"Why not?"
"Because... because there are some obstacles that can't be cleared."
"Then clear them." she thrust out her chin, daringly.
"And there are some words that can't be taken back without time to heal."
"Then speed up the pace and heal quicker."
"We've hurt each other too much."
"Then mend each other's wounds."
He shook his head. How could he possibly do all of this and hurt Kairi in the process? "Please Kairi, as my fiancee and my friend, don't interfere."
"I can't stand back while two of my best frien-"
"Don't interfere." And he rolled back over, hoping she would get the hint to leave. He felt the weight lift off of the bed as she stood and listened for the door.
As soon as Kairi reached the door, she gasped a startled surprise. "Riku!"
Sora's heart began to race. He snapped his eyes shut and pretended to be asleep. How long would his love plague him?
Riku, dressed in the same black clothes that he had arrived in, looked back at the 'sleeping' form and inwardly sighed. Faking sleep wasn't foreign to Riku and he immediately knew.
"Riku, what's up?" Kairi smiled.
"I just wanted to let you and Sora know that I'm leaving."
Sora's heart dropped to the pit of his stomach. He tightened his grip on the blanket.
"Oh, I hope it's not because of the little fight you and Sora had."
Riku put a hand through his hair. "It's time for me to leave."
"Riku, if you and Sora would just settle the arguement-"
"I think it's better if we don't, Kairi, okay? Just forget about it."
Kairi sighed and nodded slowly. "Where are you going to stay?"
"Well, for now I'm going to stay at Squall's, but I don't know where I'm going to go after that. I think I'll just wander afterwards."
"Stay in touch, okay?" she gave him a shy smile.
He returned the smile, only his was a little smaller and a little sadder. "I will."
***
Riku looked down at his plate. Squall's food wasn't exactly appetizing, but it would do.
Squall looked up from his dinner plate at Riku, who was picking at his food. "Riku, are you okay?"
Riku blinked and shook his head. "I'm sorry, I zoned out a little. What did you say?"
"You remind me of me." Squall laughed a little. "I can't believe I just said that. I must be getting old."
Riku chuckled. "What do you mean?"
"Well, I always use to be cold and unemotional. You know, the lone wolf type? You're kind of like that too, aren't you?"
"I guess so. I have nothing to care about in the world anymore."
"What about you're friends?"
"I'm trying to get away from most of them, thanks."
Squall looked at him hard for a moment. "You obviously lost something you love."
Riku raised an eyebrow. "Why would you assume something like that?"
"I lost something precious to me once. I acted exactly the way you did."
"What did you lose?"
"Rinoa."
"What?"
"Who. Rinoa was my lover."
Riku sat up. "What was she like?"
"To put it lightly, Rinoa was my lover because we were the complete opposites. Where I was harsh, she was kind. She taught me how to dance before I even knew her name."
"Sounds like she was a real angel."
Squall smiled with a melocholy air. "I guess she was. I loved her more than anything."
Riku waited a few seconds before he snapped Squall out of his stupor. "What happened to her?"
"She... I'm not sure, exactly. I don't know how I parted from her, but I'm sure she's back home where I belong. Selphie was one of her best friends as well, but when she came here, she was a child. I think it had to do with the destiny islands as childhood, while traverse town forces you to become and adult. I was seventeen before I came here as was Selphie."
"I grew up with Selphie."
Squall laughed. "Well, that's just my theory. Anyway, the point is I miss Rinoa with a passion. That's why I put red wings on my jacket. She has white ones on her duster."
"You must have made quite the couple."
"People thought we were perfect. I even tried dating to get me out of missing her, but it never worked. Aerith... she and I broke it off soon after you came."
"Why?"
"She said I scared her. Perhaps I wanted commitment too early."
Riku nodded and yawned. "It's been a long night, Squall."
"I agree. You should sleep." Squall watched Riku leave the dinning room.
***
Riku's dreams were riddled with Sora. Not that he was surprised, mind you. Riku was half expecting the dreams to be full of Sora's smiles and kisses. The way Sora's mouth pouted when Riku made a particularly funny comment on his submissiveness or eye colour. His eyes were full of innocence and trust. Because of this, Riku beat himself up for hurting him in such a brutal fashion. But it had to be done. It had to be-
Riku woke up with a start. Between sleeping in a foreign bed and having fitfull dreams involving Sora, he kept hearing moans outside of his door. He swallowed and waited as Squall opened the door.
"Squall?"
Squall sat down on the bed and smiled. Suddenly, Riku found himself pinned to the bed, Squall's lips against his. He thrashed, but Squall, being bigger, managed to keep him down without breaking the kiss. He moved his arms from Riku's shoulders to his waist, teasing the edge of his pants. He broke the kiss and began to press his lips against his neck.
"Squall, what are you-"
"Rinoa." he murmured. "I've missed you."
Riku bit his lip, finally realizing what was going on. "Squall, I'm not Rinoa."
"Rinoa, you try to fight me, but you always lose."
"Squall, I'm not your-"
"Rinoa, please... please." Riku finally felt his pants inching down his legs at Squall's touch. "Give my this night, at least."
And image of Sora, highlighted by the moon, appeared in Riku's mind.
"You left me feeling so empty..." his mouth, gentle mouth, spoke.
Riku never wanted anyone to feel empty because of him again. Riku looked down to Squall. "For one night Squall, I will be your Rinoa, your lover... if you can be my Sora."
Squall smiled seductively and Riku felt his pants fall completely off. His hands moved and groped down below, feeling for when Riku would ache in pleasure. Squall moved his hand felt and grinded against him. Riku swallowed and concentrated as Squall's face changed to Sora.
He didn't feel anything else anymore.
***
Kairi felt Sora shudder against her as they slept. Something somewhere caused Sora to shiver, even in his sleep. She hummed her song, adding the next lyrics to it
That's when I came to you
and said...
But she didn't know what could ever be said to calm his beating heart and his cold body.
***
Riku bitterly kicked a stone on the sidewalk. He just let his feet guide him, not caring in the world. At first, he had just thought 'How could I be so stupid'.
But he kept coming everynight for more, allowing his emotions and imagination to take advantage of him. It had been a week since the begining. The first night it happened, he tried to scrub his skin clean. Squall explained this was the main reason that Aerith hadn't stayed with him- it was too much.
"But you don't run away at my touch." he said with a sad smile.
Riku sighed at his weakness and once again concentrated on not knowing where his feet would take him, though he knew where he was going....
He smiled, despite himself, as Kairi met him at her appartment door.
"Anything you left is in your room." she said and left to her own room.
Riku went to it and grabbed the rest of his clothes. As he stuffed the clothing into the bag, he heard Kairi's giggle and a soft moan escape his lips. Riku heard that moan so many times before, coming from the lips of both Squall and Sora alike.
Curiosity got the best of him as he walked from his room and stood in front of the doorway of the couple's room, angling himself so he couldn't be seen unless they stepped out into the hall.
"Kairi, come on!" Sora laughed as Kairi tickled him from behind. Riku relaxed. So it wasn't what he thought after all.
Kairi smiled and pulled him to the mirror. "Look at yourself. I have hardly seen you this happy in ages."
"Yeah," he pulled her into him and gave her a chaste kiss. "But soon, we'll be able to see each other happy everyday, all the time."
"Sooner or later," she smiled.
He returned it, then let go of her. "Why not sooner?"
"What do you mean?"
He looked down at the young redhead. "Why wait? Why not tomorrow?"
She gave him a wayward look as if he had sprouted three heads. "Are you insane?"
"Insanely crazy about you." he pulled her in again and kissed the top of her head. "What do you say?"
"I say..." She looked at herself in the mirror. "I say yes!"
He nodded. "Then this time, tomorrow, we will be wed."
Riku tried, but as hard as he did, he couldn't wrench his eyes away from the scene. Sora had delicately lifted her up and placed her on the bed. He slowly undid the front of her shirt, smirking in a fashion that would put Riku to shame.
Riku squared his jaw, willing himself to go, but he couldn't move his feet.
He leaned in to kiss her, but she stopped him.
"What about Riku?"
He shrugged. "Who cares about Riku?" He leaned in again and just before his lips touched hers, a thought and an emotion blazed into his mind.
'I DO.'
In a startled rush, he ripped is mouth away from Kairi and looked at the doorway.
"What's wrong?" she asked.
He swallowed and stood in horror. Standing in the door was Riku in all of his glory, arms folded in a scowl.
That's when I came to you
and said...
End Chapter
A/N: .... I'm so sorry!!!!!!! I promise, the next chapter should bring a smile. The next is the last, folks, and it'll probably be a bit on the long side. I have a lot to explain, oui? We're reaching the climax now. After that, there's a sexy epilogue waiting.
Final Chapter Tease: The marriage will go on, but will Riku be able to survive after it? And what's this about Kairi? What will happen to our lovable keyblade master and his little love affair? (This is, mind you, a Sora/Riku. ...yeah, keep tellin' yourself that.)
Read and Review. I love you all!