Disclaimer: Please refer to Chapter 1, thank you.
~PLum BLoSsOm~ : sorry pple for the extremely late update...special thanks goes to solaris [my classmate and friend], she help me came up with the idea of writing the history of why Quintessence and Winter Soliloquy are not on good terms currently and also to December-sin for providing me with the poem in this chappie...-^_^-...anyway, here's the next chappie...
In case you are wondering:
~*~ : change of scene / change of POV
' ' : Characters' thought
" " : Characters speaking
[ ] : That would be me talking (or typing, for that matter)
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Tomoyo flipped through the pages and happened to come upon the second-last entry of the journal. Her eyes scanned through the page that held cursive and almost illegible handwriting on it.
**Arashi's Journal: Late Morning**
'The Queen of Quintessence had found out about our scandal. God, She even accuse me of seducing the King! How wronged I felt! Why did he have to push all the blame on me? Is the king that afraid of the Queen's wrath? If so, why did he have to do it? Of course, I can't say it was entirely his fault for I, too, had do it out of my own free will...Am I so smitten with Clow- san that I saw his shadow in the King? My body is now filled with so much filth, that even bathing in the well Canathus will never bring back my sense of purity...
I am much too ashame to face Clow-san...By now, I am so sure that he would have find out about what I have done, him being the King's magician and all, and oh! How my heart shatters and breaks to imagine the look of contempt on his face...'
**Arashi's Journal: Mid-Afternoon - Late evening**
'Why?!...why does all the women in the Winter Soliloquy palace have to all suffer along with me?...If the Queen wants to punish me, she should have just invoke her curse on me alone! Oh, why did she have to do this?...Worse of all, okaa-sama and all my other sisters did not blame me for bringing this disaster upon them. Miko-neesan came to talk to me after the effect of the curse had set in and told me that I wasn't to blame and that everyone in the Palace knew I was set up for they could see that I have loved only Clow-san alone...
And Clow-san, he found out about everything that had happened, including the part where Queen of Quintessence had stormed into our land and cast her most vengeful curse onto the women in the Winter Soliloquy Palace. She had said we would bring death to the men we loved most and that even if we were to give birth, the baby would always be female...there would be no heirs to the Winter Soliloquy's throne, only a Queen...and the curse had take effect soon enough...Otou-sama had collasped a few hours later and everyone in the land that had gotten wind of the King's death had came forward to mourn for him.
Clow-san had came into the Palace later in the afternoon to see me...However reluctant I was, since I was no longer pure and worthy of him...but he had surprise me by telling me that no matter what situation I had fallen into, he would still love me like nothing had ever happened. Even though he said nothing more after that, I could tell that he was devastated, though he has hidden it well with a smile, but still, that smile was so sad that it breaks my heart so...
Clow-san told me that he will do everything he can to lift the curse but alas, it is an irreversible curse and not even the person who had invoke it could undid it. I couldn't thank him enough for he is really kind to weave a spell of his own so that men born in the palace or were recruit in to serve for the Winter Soliloquy would be protected from the curse. But I had told him that we were cursed to only produce female babies and most unlucky enough, the men we loved would die, so in my opinion, Winter Soliloquy would cease to exist. But Clow-san just winked at me and murmured in my ears that in the years to come, a baby boy [that would be Touya^_^-] would be born, even though he would not be a direct heir of the Palace...'
**Back to Tomoyo**
'Is that why okaa-san had always hate men with a passion? Especially those from the Quintessence? Because they are the cause of how we, the women of Winter Soliloquy, have ended with the curse to bear without any loved ones to share the burden?'
She flipped to the next page, which is the last entry. There were traces of what seems to be tears for some parts of the writing were smudged.
**Arashi's Journal**
'I cannot stand all these anymore...okaa-sama and the other women in the palace had came to slowly hate men and cease to have faith in them...all my sisters, even kind Miko-neesan had married some unknown duke for the sake of producing female babies, just so Winter Soliloquy can continue to exist as a land...
Even though they do not hate me nor blame me for all that they have suffer, I hated myself for continuing my life as if nothing had happened and for having secret rendevous with Clow-san, though I had tried so hard to avoid him...he seems to be able to find me wherever I go and I will always be alone when he is here...I cannot resist that temptation of being so close to him, yet these forbidden desires had left me guilty the next morning. I fear for his life but he reassured me that nothing will happen to him since he can protect himself and deflect the curse with his own magick...
I'm a sinner...I will bear the consequences of persecuting myself. Gomen- nasai Clow-san, if my death will bring grief upon you...but I do not want to live an agonising life until natural death claims my soul...'
**Back to Tomoyo**
Tears rolled down her perfectly flawless skin silently as she read the last part of the journal. There was a poem written on the facing page of the journal entry that she was reading and her eyes darted over to the writings that held much love and anguish.
'I try not to look, But you are always there.
I try to hide, But you always find me.
I try so hard to forget, But you always remind me.
I try so hard to get away, But you always catch up.
Like the wind in my hair, And the song in my soul, You are everywhere I ever know.
In the corner of a room, Or at the end of a line, I always see you, With those fine eyes and lips.
I slap myself once again to Escape your invincible grip.
But no matter how hard I try, You always leave me spellbound Under the endless night sky.'
"Such tragedy..." Tomoyo whispered softly.
Unknown to her, there was a shadow behind her, hidding among the bushes.
"I will get you Clow...and when I did, I will make you wish you never incarnate..." A deep, baritone voice muttered maliciously.
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~PLum BLoSsOm~ : heh, I think my head kink up near the last part cuz it sounds pretty lame to me...anyway, you guys know what to do...review, review and more reviews-^_^-
~PLum BLoSsOm~ : sorry pple for the extremely late update...special thanks goes to solaris [my classmate and friend], she help me came up with the idea of writing the history of why Quintessence and Winter Soliloquy are not on good terms currently and also to December-sin for providing me with the poem in this chappie...-^_^-...anyway, here's the next chappie...
In case you are wondering:
~*~ : change of scene / change of POV
' ' : Characters' thought
" " : Characters speaking
[ ] : That would be me talking (or typing, for that matter)
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~
Tomoyo flipped through the pages and happened to come upon the second-last entry of the journal. Her eyes scanned through the page that held cursive and almost illegible handwriting on it.
**Arashi's Journal: Late Morning**
'The Queen of Quintessence had found out about our scandal. God, She even accuse me of seducing the King! How wronged I felt! Why did he have to push all the blame on me? Is the king that afraid of the Queen's wrath? If so, why did he have to do it? Of course, I can't say it was entirely his fault for I, too, had do it out of my own free will...Am I so smitten with Clow- san that I saw his shadow in the King? My body is now filled with so much filth, that even bathing in the well Canathus will never bring back my sense of purity...
I am much too ashame to face Clow-san...By now, I am so sure that he would have find out about what I have done, him being the King's magician and all, and oh! How my heart shatters and breaks to imagine the look of contempt on his face...'
**Arashi's Journal: Mid-Afternoon - Late evening**
'Why?!...why does all the women in the Winter Soliloquy palace have to all suffer along with me?...If the Queen wants to punish me, she should have just invoke her curse on me alone! Oh, why did she have to do this?...Worse of all, okaa-sama and all my other sisters did not blame me for bringing this disaster upon them. Miko-neesan came to talk to me after the effect of the curse had set in and told me that I wasn't to blame and that everyone in the Palace knew I was set up for they could see that I have loved only Clow-san alone...
And Clow-san, he found out about everything that had happened, including the part where Queen of Quintessence had stormed into our land and cast her most vengeful curse onto the women in the Winter Soliloquy Palace. She had said we would bring death to the men we loved most and that even if we were to give birth, the baby would always be female...there would be no heirs to the Winter Soliloquy's throne, only a Queen...and the curse had take effect soon enough...Otou-sama had collasped a few hours later and everyone in the land that had gotten wind of the King's death had came forward to mourn for him.
Clow-san had came into the Palace later in the afternoon to see me...However reluctant I was, since I was no longer pure and worthy of him...but he had surprise me by telling me that no matter what situation I had fallen into, he would still love me like nothing had ever happened. Even though he said nothing more after that, I could tell that he was devastated, though he has hidden it well with a smile, but still, that smile was so sad that it breaks my heart so...
Clow-san told me that he will do everything he can to lift the curse but alas, it is an irreversible curse and not even the person who had invoke it could undid it. I couldn't thank him enough for he is really kind to weave a spell of his own so that men born in the palace or were recruit in to serve for the Winter Soliloquy would be protected from the curse. But I had told him that we were cursed to only produce female babies and most unlucky enough, the men we loved would die, so in my opinion, Winter Soliloquy would cease to exist. But Clow-san just winked at me and murmured in my ears that in the years to come, a baby boy [that would be Touya^_^-] would be born, even though he would not be a direct heir of the Palace...'
**Back to Tomoyo**
'Is that why okaa-san had always hate men with a passion? Especially those from the Quintessence? Because they are the cause of how we, the women of Winter Soliloquy, have ended with the curse to bear without any loved ones to share the burden?'
She flipped to the next page, which is the last entry. There were traces of what seems to be tears for some parts of the writing were smudged.
**Arashi's Journal**
'I cannot stand all these anymore...okaa-sama and the other women in the palace had came to slowly hate men and cease to have faith in them...all my sisters, even kind Miko-neesan had married some unknown duke for the sake of producing female babies, just so Winter Soliloquy can continue to exist as a land...
Even though they do not hate me nor blame me for all that they have suffer, I hated myself for continuing my life as if nothing had happened and for having secret rendevous with Clow-san, though I had tried so hard to avoid him...he seems to be able to find me wherever I go and I will always be alone when he is here...I cannot resist that temptation of being so close to him, yet these forbidden desires had left me guilty the next morning. I fear for his life but he reassured me that nothing will happen to him since he can protect himself and deflect the curse with his own magick...
I'm a sinner...I will bear the consequences of persecuting myself. Gomen- nasai Clow-san, if my death will bring grief upon you...but I do not want to live an agonising life until natural death claims my soul...'
**Back to Tomoyo**
Tears rolled down her perfectly flawless skin silently as she read the last part of the journal. There was a poem written on the facing page of the journal entry that she was reading and her eyes darted over to the writings that held much love and anguish.
'I try not to look, But you are always there.
I try to hide, But you always find me.
I try so hard to forget, But you always remind me.
I try so hard to get away, But you always catch up.
Like the wind in my hair, And the song in my soul, You are everywhere I ever know.
In the corner of a room, Or at the end of a line, I always see you, With those fine eyes and lips.
I slap myself once again to Escape your invincible grip.
But no matter how hard I try, You always leave me spellbound Under the endless night sky.'
"Such tragedy..." Tomoyo whispered softly.
Unknown to her, there was a shadow behind her, hidding among the bushes.
"I will get you Clow...and when I did, I will make you wish you never incarnate..." A deep, baritone voice muttered maliciously.
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~PLum BLoSsOm~ : heh, I think my head kink up near the last part cuz it sounds pretty lame to me...anyway, you guys know what to do...review, review and more reviews-^_^-