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Chapter10: "I'm Sorry"
The place in the garden did not satisfy Jin's mood at all. He felt empty and heartless. He knows Xiaoyu thinks she hurt him but it seems to him that he has hurt her more than she has. Jin frowned and stood up from the bench and walked around the fountain in deep thought.
Should he go apologize? Does he even need to apologize to her or has she just hurt herself?
Jin was a very private person and he didn't like people budging into his life and try to make him feel comfortable. Plus, he didn't have enough guts to tell her that some punk beat him really bad. His pride wouldn't let him, all he could have said at the time was everything was fine. He didn't mean to ignore her; he was ignoring the subject he hates to talk about the most, him.
Somehow everyone wants to discuss him and Jin hates it. That's the least subject he would want to talk about. Jin breathed as he felt a heavy burden on his shoulders. He hates being sensitive to others but the hardest part is not showing it. Jin feels as though he just have ruined her whole life.
Of course it's not that bad but he is not the type of person that would hurt people and simply not care or even think about. Jin sat on a bench and folded his hands, trying to figure this out. He never met anyone who would care so much about others and he is not used to it either. How else was he supposed to react?
Maybe it was his fault. He was angry with his grandfather mistreating him and not understanding what Jin is experiencing. He did his best to defeat his enemy but Heihachi thinks he is weak. So Jin grew angry and soon became mad about how people don't see him trying hard enough. It makes him feel useless at times and that he is worthless.
That morning when he was practicing, he was practicing because he needed to get his anger out. He couldn't let it out on Xiaoyu so he tried his best to his composure because he knew the minute he would open his mouth he would only threaten her. He didn't want her to feel threatened so he just zipped his mouth.
At first it was anger and now he is experiencing sadness. Here's another proof that he cares about others more than himself. He was always like that he cannot help it. He was raised like that by the most important person in his life; his mother. He couldn't betray her teachings even now because they are very important and true. Everything his mother taught him has helped him to get through this world's obstacles except for one; how to live with someone by the name Heihachi Mishima.
It's horrible to live with him after living with someone like his mother. He teaches the opposite things he has been taught. Some of the teachings go against his old one. That's when he starts to get that's-from-your-mother's-side speeches. He hates them and can't stand them. Obviously his grandfather never met his mother because she was not weak. She was a very strong and willing person. Her will was stronger than steel. And to be able to forgive a foe is even harder than defeating him. That's what he has learned and he will always abide by his mother's teachings, even though they go against Heihachi's.
But he must defeat Ogre because there is no way he will ever forgive the creature. That is why it is important to listen to Heihachi. Jin gets worried and confused at times. Sometime he feels he is not good enough and it's all because of the different teachings. But what is worse is that his anger almost reflected on Xiaoyu. He must not let his personal life hurt other people. It's not her fault. She just tried to help, that's all.
A cool breeze blew at his face, blowing his bangs to different direction made him feel calmer. He should talk to her at least. Explain to her that he is just not used to it. She should understand. He hopes anyway. If she is a very good person as she shows she is, then she should forgive him. Everyone must be given a second chance. Or is it just something he believes in? No, he is sure she believes the same thing.
Finally feeling decided, Jin got up and nodded to himself. He will talk to her. It's the best thing to do. He walked around the fountain and headed for the double doors in the front of the mansion he lived in.
The hallways were as empty and as wicked as always. The walls spoke out clearly that this is not a mansion of a happy family. The dragons and tigers painted directly on the walls gave off an angry and yet a strong feeling. The remarkable paintings have always described his feelings. Every time he looks at them, he feels so strong and without a doubt, he will defeat Ogre, Ogre, the very creature that has murdered his mother.
Jin felt anger rushing through his veins but he had to calm down, he is about to see Xiaoyu. He shouldn't look like he is going to kill her, he doesn't think she should be freaked with the state she's already in. He should just come in, knock on her door, apologize, tell her it's not easy for him. Try to find a friendly link and go away on a good note. That should make her feel better. But Jin has never apologized before. How will he be able to? He's not even sure if it's his fault, probably not but he didn't want another enemy in his life, especially who lives in his mansion.
Seeing the cute panda drawing in front of Xiaoyu's door, Jin stopped in his tracks. He still doesn't know what to say. He bit his lip and slowly came up to the door, taking the knob in his hand. Just when he was about to turn it, he let go of the knob and raised his hand to knock on the door instead.
"Who is it?" Xiaoyu's voice broke when she spoke the words. "It's me, Jin." He stated and could have sworn he heard her sniff. So she was crying. Jin would have never guessed it's that bad. The door opened carefully and he saw her almond eyes peek out. "What is it?" He saw her wipe her tears with her hand as she asked him.
"I want to talk to you." Trying to sound sincere, Jin thought it was very challenging but he kept a straight face. "You? You want to talk?" She sounded as though he has just offended her. Maybe this wasn't such a good idea after all. Xiaoyu pressed on. "Out of all the people in the world, you want to talk about something with ME??? You sure you have enough time for that? You shouldn't be sacrificing—" Jin interrupted her by pushing open the door and putting a finger to her lips.
Xiaoyu's wet eyes looked up at him again with a questionable look. "Yes." He said quietly as he put his hand down and looked into her eyes. "Yes, out of all the people in the world I want to talk about something with you." He said softly and he saw her frown. He only smiled as he continued, "And, yes, I have all the time in the world for this. And I am sacrificing everything just to talk to you. Just to talk. Will your ladyship allow such a request from such a beggar as I am?"
Xiaoyu searched his eyes, as she looked completely confused. But her eyes lightened and she smiled. "Why of course, my lord, what is it so important that we need to discuss at this hour?" Jin smiled once again—and it's not an often thing he does—as he extended his arm. "Why don't we discuss this issue outside where a fresh air is possible to breathe?" Xiaoyu playfully took his hand as her pigtails bounced. "Why, my excellency! That is a perfect idea!"
The both of them were walking outside in the same garden where Jin was thinking. Jin felt relaxed here and he was happy she agreed to come but now, the heart of the matter is about to come. "Xiao." He said, this time seriously so she could note that he wants to talk to her.
Xiao looked at him with no hint she ever shed a tear. "What?" She asked as she picked a flower from a whole bunch. Jin sat down to get his thoughts together. He licked his lips and thought of where to begin from. "Xiao, look. We didn't get off at the right stop." He watched her hop around the beautiful place. "Yeah, I noticed." She called back without looking and Jin sighed. She wouldn't even look at me when I'm apologizing. But does she know I'm apologizing??
"The thing is—" He sat back, his arms spreading over the back of the bench."—I never met anyone who actually asked so many questions." Xiaoyu stopped hobbling around the place. "I barely talked to anyone because—" He needs the right words for her to understand. "—because everything I do or feel, I keep it to myself. Once you get to know someone, it is so hard to recover if you lose that person. In fact you may never recover."
Xiaoyu was slowly turning around to look at him with a serious face. Jin never saw her in a serious state. But right now, her eyes are straight, her mouth not curved into a smile she would wear everyday. Jin continued on. "I—I just don't want to get to know anyone. Because, because everyone I love or thought I loved are taken away from me. I—I don't want to hurt anyone.
"There's a side of me that you don't know. I don't know if I know it myself yet. But it's reaching out. It's calling to me and I can't let it wake up yet. I feel—something that's so hard to put into words. It's like ideas are escaping so fast that you can't nail them fast enough." Jin leaned forward and knitted his hands together. "I guess, I guess I'm trying to say that I never meant to hurt you. It's just that I thought it was better to say nothing than something."
Xiaoyu sat down and Jin thought he needed to give her time to understand the information he just told her, which wasn't much because Jin didn't give away a lot. He didn't mean to say a lot of things because he doesn't know her. He's just trying to make her feel better.
"So." She said as she looked at the flower she was holding. "All you're just trying to say is that—" She looked up at him. "—that you are sorry." Jin looked at her for a long time as silence filled the garden. "Yeah." He finally said and smiled. "I'm sorry."
(a/n): So how was this?? Was it good, was it bad? Tell me if you have anything to say, I'm doing my best. You think she will accept her apology or will she torture him a little first? I hope its getting better. But as you all can see the plot is turning and starting to play.
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