A/N: Hope you like it, I read more than I write so this is a new thing for me. Please R & R so I can see what I'm doing wrong… anyway. Enjoy! -

Disclaimer: I do not own Inuyasha. He belongs to Rumiko Takahashi. (I love his ears though…)

True Confessions

Thoughts

'Baka!' she thought to herself, 'baka, baka, baka, BAKA!'

The only word echoing through the turmoil and confusion inside her... messing up her system.

She looked around the dark cabin, suppressing her tears, straining to keep quiet. More thoughts running through her.

'Why? Why can't I hold them back? …what am I crying about?'

Enveloped in darkness, she could make out the sleeping figures of Sango and Miroku. Hiraikotsu lay between them, acting as a barrier between Miroku's groping hands and Sango's…. err… 'off-limits' area. Kagome almost smiled.

Almost.

Shippou was curled up tightly against her in a ball of fluff, relishing her warmth and snoring loudly.

She took another glance around the small hut, making her decision.

Well, specifically not seeing Inuyasha was what made her decision.

Yeah, she didn't need him around...

Well, not now anyway.

Definitely, not now.

She just needed some space, some air.

What she needed was a good, long walk.

And Inuyasha would surely not let her go walking around the forest. Especially not in a youkai-filled forest. Especially not in the middle of the night. Especially not alone. So what it all came down to…

'Inuyasha would surely not let me go walking around in the youkai-filled forest,in the middle of the night, alone.' Scrunching her eyebrows together she thought, 'did I phrase that the right way? Hmmm…'

There she went again, rambling on in her own mind. She shook her head to get rid of the puzzling thought.

'Not as puzzling as my situation…'

If Inuyasha were in the cabin, he would hear her leaving and question her. Most likely stop her. 'What am I saying? Most likely? Try 'most definitely in the rudest, roughest -including many curses such as wench bitch etc… inquiring "what the hell were you thinking?" along with many other Inuyasha-like comments- possible manner' stop her.' She rolled her eyes at the thought.

Well, since he was not in the cabin, she could come and go as she pleased. As long as she wouldn't get caught, mind you. 'I don't have to worry about that…' the miko thought sadly, 'Inuyasha's miles from here…probably thinking about Kikyou.'

She sighed quite audibly and just as quickly slapped her hand over her mouth. Shippou's snoring stopped abruptly. He stirred. Then continued on with his snoring.

Kagome let out her breath, and lowered her hand down to her lap.

'Close one.' Relief seemed to flood over her.

Seemed to.

'False relief, I know it…' How could she feel relief when all she felt was pain? Pain in her soul. Pain in her body. Pain… in her heart.

'There is a spot of darkness, in my heart.' She repeated that child's- if you could call that thing a child – words. Somehow, in her unconscious state, she had still heard them, 'and it shall not go away, Inuyasha, as long as you don't forget about Kikyou.'

It was too much. She felt like breaking down on the spot. 'All I would be rewarded with is about a billion questions from Shippou, a worried look from Miroku and a 'trying to be-comforting' Sango.' Watching over her sleeping friends, she stood up quietly, wrapping Shippou in her blanket. 'No, I do not want that. I do not want them to get involved in my problems.'

She spotted the miko clothing that Kaede had given her, remembering the old woman's words clearly, "If any youkai or human see you wearing these, they will instantly know you are a fully-trained miko. That may aid you or do exactly the opposite. It is your decision whether or not to wear them."

Goosebumps appeared all over her body as the soft fabric touched her naked skin, Kagome shivered. She had never planned on wearing the robes. They had once belonged to Kikyou and she had enough 'fond' memories of her as it was. Wearing her old garments did not improve the situation. She had good reason, of course, but she felt guilty. Knowing that… she would never meet the miko again. Knowing that… she would never obtain any more memories of her and Inuyasha together.

She stopped.

She really… Just stopped. Thinking, moving, breathing… just for a second. 'Am I such a horrible person?' Again she was on the brink of tears, 'Am I actually… happy? Happy that there is no obstacle between Inuyasha and I? Happy that she is… that she is dead?!?'

That… creature, what had he done to her? That vile, DISGUSTING creature…imposing her soul… searching through her heart! He had violated her, feelings that had belonged to her… and he had just rummaged through her like he would through garbage! He… he… A horrible thought crossed her.

'He did not give me those thoughts…I had already possessed them.'

Kagome finished dressing and grabbing her bow and quiver, she quickly exited the cabin. As soon as she stepped outside, the wind slapped her face gently, playing with her raven locks before disappearing entirely. The young girl looked up, marveling at the billions of stars. 'They were there, I just wouldn't admit it to myself.' Focusing her attention on the forest before her, she realized there was a river not to far away. 'I …couldn't… admit it to myself.'

And so, she began her small journey.

A/N: How was it? Pleeaasseee review ;) I would really appreciate it - thanks guys.