(A/N: Hundred and hundred sorry for the late update, guys! My RL gets in the way and so does my beta's. And that's why she could no longer beta my fic. **sniffles** But I really need to thank Eve for having been my beta and supported me from the beginning of this story. Thank you, hon! And of course, I'd love to thank everyone for still reading and reviewing this fic and my new beta Brianna! Give applause to her everyone! =D )
Chapter 20: Confession
Monday. Was never her favourite day of the week. Why? Well, first of all, being back to school, having to listen to boring lessons and getting homework and assignments…never were the things she looked forward to in a million years. Hell, who would anyway?!? Unless you were Willow, that was. Then, there was this Spike problem that had been haunting her sleeps during weekend. Damn him for making her sleepless again for what, the third time now?!? This was all getting seriously disturbing for her. She wondered how it all began. Oh, right. Ever since she witnessed the sinful vision, namely the nakedness of Spike. Not to mention with the help of Cordy who had shoved dirty thoughts into her purely innocent brain. And now all she could think of was Spike with his trademark smirk, Spike with his beloved leather duster, Spike with his gentleness and loving care, Spike with his soft, yet passionate kisses, Spike with…no clothes on…
Seemed her mind drove into that dirty road again.
"Ugh! Stop it, Buffy!" She demanded herself; these frustrations were giving her splitting headache. It was bad enough she had only slept for 7 hours in the last two nights, and now she had to face the post-awkwardness between them, which was the reason she left early in the morning last Saturday. Every time her home phone rang, her heart skipped a beat, wondering if it was Spike who was calling. To both of her relief and disappointment, Spike hadn't called her during weekend and she hadn't made an attempt to contact him either.
School came and so far everything went as planned, meaning she kept fleeing every time she caught sight of Spike and succeeded…until it was lunch time.
"Hey Buff!" Buffy grinned widely at the redhead, somehow feeling so much better seeing her female best friend on the lunch table. Her happy face soon crumpled when she heard Willow greet another person. "Hey Spike!" Both blond heads put a halt on their pace as they looked across at each other. Spike was shoving his hands into his duster pockets, and then pulled one of them out to run it through his bleached curls. His face seemed tired but he still looked his best and…were those rings around his eyes? Humph, guess he hadn't slept well either, Buffy somewhat gleefully thought.
She shifted her feet before deciding to resume her pace towards Willow and Xander. Putting her tray onto the table, she sat tensely on her seat and began playing with her food. Spike also settled on next to her, brushing his thighs slightly against hers, causing both of them to jolt a little.
"So how was the party last Friday? I'm really sorry again for bailing on you, Buff. And Xander here must feel so ashamed at himself for deceiving you two without even telling both of you that he wouldn't come." Willow shot a glare at her boyfriend.
"Hey, I did leave a message y'know, when they already left for the party. Spike, please tell me you did get my message." Xander pleaded to his best friend, asking for his help so that his girlfriend stopped throwing him death glares.
"Uh…yeah, I did. You left two messages even." Spike rescued his friend despite of his discomfort at the event that had been brought up. Xander gave him a grateful look before turned to the redhead.
"See, what did I tell you?" Willow only rolled her eyes, and then set them back to Buffy.
"Anyway, how was it? I heard Gunn always throws great parties."
Buffy snapped her head to her, sending her nervous smile before answering, "Well, you know party…music, drinks, people and stuff." She shrugged her shoulders as nonchalantly as possible. But Spike knew she was struggling to maintain her nonchalant attitude. Normally he would toss some witty and smart-ass comments whenever something had made her fidget at remembering it but in this case, he was too, involved in the 'thing' that had made both of them squirm at recalling it.
Willow creased her eyebrows together, unsatisfied with the answer. She was expecting to get some juicy gossip that occurred at the party. "That boring, huh?!?" Buffy simply smiled apologetically after disappointing her friend. She then set her hazel eyes on her food and played with it again. "That's…kinda weird. I was sure, as hell kids had been talking about it this morning, saying something interesting happened there. Hmm…guess both of you had left then." Willow shrugged her shoulders indifferently.
The relief in Spike and Buffy's eyes instantly vanished at the redhead's comment. They were now filled with alarm and horror. "W-What had they talked about?" Buffy managed to utter her question, swallowing hard to ready herself at Willow's reply. Spike cast a glance at Buffy while waiting for Willow to respond.
"Oh, just some crazy kids making out in the house's hall. But they said the scene was REALLY hot. It was like watching a free porn movie." Willow broke out in gales of laughter with Xander joined in.
"Yeah, I wonder who they were. Bet they were those jock and cheerleader who like showing off their lovey-dovey relationship." Xander piped up in between his mirth, eager to find out whom the couple was.
Buffy and Spike froze at their laughter. They hadn't even considered the people – other than Riley and his minions – who witnessed them kissing and groping that night. They glanced at each other briefly, uneasiness filled them even more. The petite blond suddenly felt a headache coming on as she pondered the possible reactions Willow and Xander would have if they knew that the couple was indeed their closest friends. Shit, this was worse than she thought.
"I…I need to go to the nurse's office. I think I have a headache coming on and want to get some Tylenol and possibly lay down for a while." She got up with shaky hands rested on the table and escaped as fast as she could before Spike could catch up with her.
The brunette and redhead's laughter died down when they saw Buffy leaving abruptly. Their glee soon washed away by curious frown. "Okay, what is wrong with her? This is not the first time she does that escaping thingy." Xander turned his head to the bleached teen.
Spike only shook his head and heaved a sigh at the cafeteria exit before he looked at him. "I dunno, mate. I don't know anything at all." He muttered his reply as he stood up and walked away from the lunch table.
The couple was still left frowning, watching their friend disappearing into the exit door. "Now what the hell is wrong with him? Is there any secret I should know of?" Xander asked again in annoyance. His girlfriend only put her hand on top of his and offered him a rueful smile.
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At her free period, Buffy strolled through the empty corridor; books were clutched against her chest as her mind focused on nothing but the lunch's topic. How could she be so stupid? Everyone would obviously find out sooner if Forrest and Graham couldn't keep their mouth shut. Or maybe they would keep quiet since it would embarrass their basketball captain, Riley. Though she wondered, would it be that bad if the whole school residence finally know there had been something going on between those rather-convincing-on-and-off-couple best friends?
She let out a screech when she felt a strong hand grab her arm and forced her to get out of the hallway. The hand led her to a quiet place below the staircase and she finally got a good look of its owner. After glancing around the area, her captor set his eyes on her.
"We need to talk," He began.
Oh, great…talk, something Buffy was always poor at. She inhaled in defeat, knowing that she couldn't escape this talk they were about to have. "Okay…" She responded slowly. "…About what?" playing dumb with her question.
Spike almost rolled his eyes at her feigned dumbness. "About those kisses we had last week."
"Oh, that…" She ducked her head slightly, unsure what she should say about it. Should she tell him she liked them so much that she wanted to taste his lips again? But what about him? She remembered that that night Spike was going to approach a girl. So, the kiss they shared in the hall probably meant nothing to him. Fearing at the last part of her thought, she immediately informed him, "Well, what do you know, those kisses meant nothing, right? They were just kisses between friends. Y'know, best friends share kisses sometimes." She babbled, offering him a nervous laugh. She lowered her head again when she remembered the last kiss they shared in his bed. That was DEFINITELY not a kiss between friends, not even between best friends and certainly not even close to a kiss between siblings.
Spike tried to hide his disappointment as best as he could. His male ego forced him to react coolly at her announcement. "Yeah…'course. Friends can share kiss sometimes." He affirmed her and Buffy nodded promptly in agreement.
A long silence fell between them as they looked down to their shoes, both were feeling down at the solution. Each thought the other didn't feel the same way as they did. Spike then looked up to her, grinning mischievously while he stepped forward to her and spoke again, "So, friend's kiss, eh? Then this is just one of them, right pet?"
Buffy's eyes widened and her heart raced faster when he came slowly like a predator…closer and closer, then leaned down and claimed her mouth for a soft and sweet kiss. Somehow she still managed to grip strongly on her books. She sighed in contentment at the still lingering kiss before she muttered her respond under her breath, "Yeah…o-of course…" Her eyes still fluttered closed.
Spike bent his head down again. "…And this one as well…?" His left arm snaked around her waist, his right hand cupped and caressed her cheek with his thumb as he tilted his head to the side and claimed her mouth again. This time, it was more passionate and deepened. He licked the edge of her bottom lip then sucked the pink flesh and nibbled it like devouring it graciously. Her books almost fell from her grips but with the whole power she possessed, she kept her best not to loosen them.
Once they broke apart, Buffy only nodded weakly, her hooded eyes fluttered half open as she responded again, "Uh-huh..." She was trying to sound casual but it came out as a husky whisper.
Spike repeated his question, "...and this one...?" His own voice also came out huskily. He pushed her to the wall and pressed his body against hers. The books she had desperately been holding on immediately dropped to the floor. Buffy gasped when she felt a new sensation of his warm body being pressed against hers intimately. Without waiting for another second, he took advantage of her half-open mouth by thrusting his tongue inside her, tasting her tongue and massaged it gently. Buffy remained still, her arms dropped limply on each side, too shocked to do anything besides enjoying his ministration. Spike suddenly pulled away between the deep and mind-blowing kisses, causing her to whimper once she lost his touch. She unconsciously clutched his duster collars and pulled him against her at that instant, claiming his mouth back.
He smiled into their kiss but deepened it anyway while he pressed his body further. His trick was clearly working as he tested her reaction since her body wasn't responding much except her mouth. 'Dammit! He must know I was enjoying it too much.' Buffy cursed silently when she noticed his smile against their kiss. She moaned into his mouth when his warm hand slid inside her blouse and stroked her back in circles. Her arm snaked around his neck to deepen their kiss even more as her hand ruffled his soft tresses. Her other hand rubbed his hard chest up and down, causing him to shiver from the warmth Buffy sent through her palm, even though his navy shirt was blocking its way.
The blond couple immediately stopped their doings when the bell rang perkily through the entire school, indicating that it was time to start the next class. They finally broke away and loosened their grips on each other once their eyes shot open. Spike hung his head down briefly to catch his breath. He then looked up to her, his blue eyes filled with lust, mirroring her clouded hazel ones.
"I gotta go." He whispered to the panting girl in front of him. His healthy and sensible mind told him to stop their action before it went further or else there was no guarantee what he would do if they got carried away. He pressed his lips against hers long and hard before he murmured his goodbye and broke free from her, leaving a stunned Buffy alone below the staircase. The petite blonde's eyes stretched open heavily as she stood with buckled knees and watched his black clad form vanishing through the hall. She touched her swollen lips gently, closing her eyes as she replayed the previous incident. 'God, those soft lips...' Taking a much-needed breath, she gathered the scattered books and walked purposely towards her next class.
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Buffy was awfully quiet when she and Willow wandered around the Main Street after school. Occasionally, she grazed her fingers over her lips and felt the tingling sensations as her mind reminded her of those incredible lips that were Spike's nipping hers deliciously and the way his big hands venturing her body, rubbing and stroking, sending quivers all over her. And oh, how his body pressed against hers sexually…she almost melted into him from the heat she could no longer take.
"Buffy, I noticed you and Spike didn't talk much at lunch time. Is everything okay between you two?" Willow snapped Buffy out of her stupor, concern marred her features. The blond head stopped her feet immediately; shock replaced her dreamy look in an instant.
"Huh? I mean what? No…w-why'd you say that?" Buffy stumbled over her words, cursing mutely at the obvious denial. Willow arched one delicate brow at her best friend's reaction.
"Buffffyyyyy...is there something you need to tell me?" Willow carefully asked her while her eyes narrowed into skeptical slits.
"N-no, o-of course not..." Buffy stammered again. She continued walking, a bit in a rush. But the redhead caught her arm to stop her. Swinging the petite blond, she put her resolve face on.
'Oh, no. Not that resolve face!' The blonde silently whined as she let out a desperate sigh. After being friends for years, you would think that you could have resisted her resolve face by now. Well, you're absolutely wrong.
Drawing a gulp of air, she confessed in one breath, "SpikeandIkissed." She squeezed her eyes shut momentarily, readying herself at whatever reaction Willow would give her.
"Oh my god!!" Willow gasped, her green eyes widened but they didn't seem to look straight into Buffy's.
The petite blond quickly amended her previous answer. "I know, I know...it all happened so quick. Well, the kiss wasn't really quick but y'know what I mean. And it was so awkward afterwards what with the passionate kiss and all..." She rambled on and on but was interrupted by Willow's words.
"Oh my god!" The redhead repeated. "Magic Box has a sale on!!" Willow squealed in excitement.
"Huh??" A dumbfounded look found its way to Buffy's features.
"Look!" Willow pointed a finger behind Buffy, almost jumping up and down on her feet. "I'll see you tomorrow, okay. Bye..." She started jogging towards the store, knowing that Buffy wasn't into new age stuffs like her and would probably end up begging her to leave the shop as soon as possible.
Buffy watched her friend practically bounced merrily to the store, her mouth still hung open. "Well, so much for a pep talk." She let out a brief forced laughter, feeling sorry to herself. Though she was kind of relieved that Willow didn't listen to her confession. Turning her heels around, she started walking, heading to Revello drive.
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As soon as she arrived at home, Buffy went upstairs, straight to her bedroom. The second she put her ass on her bed, the phone started buzzing. She looked down at the white wireless warily, hesitated to answer it. What if it was Spike on the line? She wasn't ready to have yet another talk. Much to her dismay, the phone wouldn't stop yapping, so she reluctantly picked it up.
"Hello?" She greeted softly as she prayed for anyone but Spike on the other line. A relieved smile crept over her features when she heard Willow's voice through the receiver…but then stopped dead at her inquiry.
"Hey, did you say you and Spike kissed earlier?"
to be continued
(A/N: **handing the pitchfork back to MissKitty reluctantly** Here you go, MissKitty! Love ya too, sweet kit! ;) )