Disclaimer: ~stares blankly~ I do not own Inuyasha, I have not been
brainwashed by the CIA, I do not own Inuyasha . . . (Nor do I own No Doubt
or their song Don't Speak.)
AN: Another chapter of The Need! There is a tiny bit of angst in this chapter. LOL! It's a song-fic chapter sorry guys couldn't help myself. I plan to make this chapter at least four pages long (compared to the normal 1 ½ pages I usually do)
!CHEESE WARNING!
The Need
Don't Speak
"A mate?!"
Jaken stared saucer eyed at his charge. The retainer nodded mutely, afraid of what would follow.
"They are saying that I have chosen a mate?! Where would they get that stupid idea?"
"W-we-well milord has been absent for three days, and he has the scent of a demon female on him"
Sesshoumaru straightened, rigid, he took a quick smell of himself before picking up Moriko's scent. He would kill that girl. No matter how many "begs" it took. Pushing that out of his mind he found his eyes wandering down the hall, resting upon the door to Rin's room. The young girl had run into there, and he could still picture her face when she had gone. She looked, heartbroken. For the first time in his life the tai-youkai felt...stupid. (funny seeing as how he seems to act it all the time)
~"You and me
We used to be together
Everyday together . . . Always"~
Sesshoumaru raised his hand to knock on the wooden door. Since when had he knocked to enter her room? Almost involuntarily he remembered how much Rin had changed over the years, in body and mind. Taking a deep breath he stepped into the room, meeting an excruciating sight.
~"I really feel
That I'm losing
My best friend
I can't believe this could be
The End"~
Rin sat, sniffling atop her bed. Her hair in a flurry around her, her pale cheeks streaked red with tears rolling down the silken skin. How shocking it had been for her, to come home after confessing to Kagome only to hear the rumors. Sesshoumaru-sama had chosen a mate.
~"If love's so strong
You're letting go
And if it's real then
I don't want to know"~
Sesshoumaru opened his mouth to explain himself, thinking of all the wonderful spouting words of love that would come out. Only to hear a croaking sound come from deep within his throat. Mentally he wished he had some "daisies" to give to her, or the courage to take her into his arms, but all he could do is stare. Opening his mouth once more he prepared to explain before he was interrupted.
~"Don't speak
I know just what you're saying
So please stop explain'
Don't tell me cause it hurts"~
Rin cut him off angrily, she looked up, her eyes red with tears as she spoke fiercely. Fighting all her greater urges to jump into his arms and beg him for a kiss she spoke what her heart was begging her not to.
"Don't speak, I know, don't explain...I don't need to know this...I'm happy for you Sesshoumaru-sama, please leave me alone now. Go...enjoy the company of your beloved...GO! LEAVE ME ALONE!"
~"Don't speak
I know what you're thinkin'
And I don't need your reasons
Don't tell me 'cause it hurts"~
She thought . . . no . . . it wasn't true, but he couldn't bring himself to look into her eyes, which he knew were pooling with tears. And she had called him sama...not kun. She hadn't called him that in years. He fought, the greatest battle he had ever trailed, trying to find the words, to explain, to give her reasons, to take the pain he had inflicted upon her away. But instead, he stepped out of the room, tears slipping down his cheeks.
~"Memories
They can be inviting
But some are altogether
Mighty, frightening"~
Letting out a heartbroken whimper she placed her fair head on the pillow and sobbed. Her entire life with Sesshoumaru flashed through her mind. Taunting her, only to end in a blank. What would come next? Would he leave her? Would he hate her? The thought frightened her.
~"Out of the dark
For both
You and I
With my head in my hands
I'll sit and cry"~
As soon as he was in his room he collapsed, not bothering to draw the curtains he sat down, leaning against the wall for support, burying his face into the sleeves of his robes he sobbed as he had never sobbed before. His chest aching from the weight it now carried within it.
~"Don't speak
I know just what you're saying
So please stop explain'
Don't tell me cause it hurts
No, no, no, no !"~
She ran, it was all she could do, she ran out of the fortress into the garden, tripping and landing with a soft cry into the flower bed. She didn't care, she just sobbed openly, the servants and even Jaken coming to watch the poor girl, shaking their heads sympathetically.
~ "Don't speak,
I know what you're thinking
And I don't need your reasons
Don't tell me cause it hurts"~
Sesshoumaru ran as well, going towards Rin only to have Jaken stand in his way. He was about to slash the green toad into several pieces, stopping when he saw the mirrored pain in his eyes. Nodding he watched from afar as Rin sobbed, inwardly sobbing with her.
~"It's so lending
You gotta stop pretending . . . Oh wee ooh"~
Rin looked up, into his eyes. Was he ashamed, he was staying away from her, looking away she stood up and brushed the dirt off her clothes, walking coolly past him, the tears ruining the air of indifference.
~"You and me
I can see us dying
Aren't we?!"~
He watched her walk away, he could see the way her shoulders slumped and the way her steps were longer, he could see his heart being trailed behind her in broken pieces. He called after her, and she turned, he felt hope rise in his chest when she . . .
~"Don't speak
I know just what you're saying
So please stop explain'
Don't tell me cause it hurts"~
Slapped him, she had just slapped him. She could still feel the sing across her palm, and she felt her breath quicken. That was it, she would be dead, closing her eyes awaiting for the impact she found that it did not come. And opened her eyes to see, this time, the demon lord walking away from her.
~ "No, no don't speak,
I know what you're thinking
And I don't need your reasons
Don't tell me cause it hurts" ~
He deserved it, but his damned pride! It wouldn't let him apologize. He did the only sane thing he could find in his choices, he walked away. The ghost of fear was evident in the eyes that surrounded him as he walked tactfully back into his study. Holding back his pain.
~ "Don't tell me cause it hurts!!!"~
The sun, set upon the broken hearted couple, and the "tsking" manor. No one ate dinner that night. The only sounds coming from the entire fortress were the stifled sobs of Rin, only an occasional hiccup or two coming from her room.
~"I know what you're saying
So please stop explainin
Don't speak
Don't speak
Don't speak
Oh!"~
As Sesshoumaru lay in his bed he thought of Rin. Sleep did not come for him, and he could smell her tears on the breeze, and the sobs that emitted from the lips he was so used seeing turned upwards. The weight in him grew heavier and he felt he needed release, so he looked out the window and the full moon and did the only thing that he could.
~ "I know what you're thinking
And I don't need your reasons
I know you're good
I know you're good
I know you're real good
Oh!"~
Rin, who had been lying in bed sobbing shot up at the sound. A howl, it held a million emotions and gave off only one at the same time. There was love and regret, and loss and pain all in one, she collapsed at the window, tears still streaking down her face.
~"La, la, la, la
La, la, la, la
No! No!
Ooh, ooh, Oooh!
Pushin' me pushin' me
Darlin'
Pushin' me, pushin' me
Darlin'"~
Sesshoumaru jumped out of his fortress and headed back towards the hut. He would train, he would train as if it were for his very life. There was no way that he would lose her, there was no way. He would win Rin's love back.
~"Pushin' me, pushin' me
Don't tell me cause it hurts
Pushin' me pushin' me
Darlin'
Pushin' me, pushin' me
Darlin'
Pushin' me, pushin' me"~
Rin awoke that morning to find that Sesshoumaru had left, but had not quite left her without anything. Jaken had come in with a message from Sesshoumaru, a request rather. One that she intended to follow, if not out of curiosity, than out of love.
"Wait for me."
An: AAAHHHHH! IT'S CHEESY AND IT'S FIVE PAGES LONG AND IT'S MINE! Anyone who flames shall receive a painful, fatal wound on behalf of heartbroken Sesshoumaru over here. ~Points to sobbing Inu-Youkai behind her~ I shouldn't have let him read this chapter. Bwahahaha! I think I'm going to cry though, I know I said a little angst, but is it me or is this more than a little heart wrenching? Tell me what you think you guys, I have SERIOUS writer's block and I can't get rid of it. I need reviews to cheer me up! I can't believe how cheesy this thing is though . . . wow.
AN: Another chapter of The Need! There is a tiny bit of angst in this chapter. LOL! It's a song-fic chapter sorry guys couldn't help myself. I plan to make this chapter at least four pages long (compared to the normal 1 ½ pages I usually do)
!CHEESE WARNING!
The Need
Don't Speak
"A mate?!"
Jaken stared saucer eyed at his charge. The retainer nodded mutely, afraid of what would follow.
"They are saying that I have chosen a mate?! Where would they get that stupid idea?"
"W-we-well milord has been absent for three days, and he has the scent of a demon female on him"
Sesshoumaru straightened, rigid, he took a quick smell of himself before picking up Moriko's scent. He would kill that girl. No matter how many "begs" it took. Pushing that out of his mind he found his eyes wandering down the hall, resting upon the door to Rin's room. The young girl had run into there, and he could still picture her face when she had gone. She looked, heartbroken. For the first time in his life the tai-youkai felt...stupid. (funny seeing as how he seems to act it all the time)
~"You and me
We used to be together
Everyday together . . . Always"~
Sesshoumaru raised his hand to knock on the wooden door. Since when had he knocked to enter her room? Almost involuntarily he remembered how much Rin had changed over the years, in body and mind. Taking a deep breath he stepped into the room, meeting an excruciating sight.
~"I really feel
That I'm losing
My best friend
I can't believe this could be
The End"~
Rin sat, sniffling atop her bed. Her hair in a flurry around her, her pale cheeks streaked red with tears rolling down the silken skin. How shocking it had been for her, to come home after confessing to Kagome only to hear the rumors. Sesshoumaru-sama had chosen a mate.
~"If love's so strong
You're letting go
And if it's real then
I don't want to know"~
Sesshoumaru opened his mouth to explain himself, thinking of all the wonderful spouting words of love that would come out. Only to hear a croaking sound come from deep within his throat. Mentally he wished he had some "daisies" to give to her, or the courage to take her into his arms, but all he could do is stare. Opening his mouth once more he prepared to explain before he was interrupted.
~"Don't speak
I know just what you're saying
So please stop explain'
Don't tell me cause it hurts"~
Rin cut him off angrily, she looked up, her eyes red with tears as she spoke fiercely. Fighting all her greater urges to jump into his arms and beg him for a kiss she spoke what her heart was begging her not to.
"Don't speak, I know, don't explain...I don't need to know this...I'm happy for you Sesshoumaru-sama, please leave me alone now. Go...enjoy the company of your beloved...GO! LEAVE ME ALONE!"
~"Don't speak
I know what you're thinkin'
And I don't need your reasons
Don't tell me 'cause it hurts"~
She thought . . . no . . . it wasn't true, but he couldn't bring himself to look into her eyes, which he knew were pooling with tears. And she had called him sama...not kun. She hadn't called him that in years. He fought, the greatest battle he had ever trailed, trying to find the words, to explain, to give her reasons, to take the pain he had inflicted upon her away. But instead, he stepped out of the room, tears slipping down his cheeks.
~"Memories
They can be inviting
But some are altogether
Mighty, frightening"~
Letting out a heartbroken whimper she placed her fair head on the pillow and sobbed. Her entire life with Sesshoumaru flashed through her mind. Taunting her, only to end in a blank. What would come next? Would he leave her? Would he hate her? The thought frightened her.
~"Out of the dark
For both
You and I
With my head in my hands
I'll sit and cry"~
As soon as he was in his room he collapsed, not bothering to draw the curtains he sat down, leaning against the wall for support, burying his face into the sleeves of his robes he sobbed as he had never sobbed before. His chest aching from the weight it now carried within it.
~"Don't speak
I know just what you're saying
So please stop explain'
Don't tell me cause it hurts
No, no, no, no !"~
She ran, it was all she could do, she ran out of the fortress into the garden, tripping and landing with a soft cry into the flower bed. She didn't care, she just sobbed openly, the servants and even Jaken coming to watch the poor girl, shaking their heads sympathetically.
~ "Don't speak,
I know what you're thinking
And I don't need your reasons
Don't tell me cause it hurts"~
Sesshoumaru ran as well, going towards Rin only to have Jaken stand in his way. He was about to slash the green toad into several pieces, stopping when he saw the mirrored pain in his eyes. Nodding he watched from afar as Rin sobbed, inwardly sobbing with her.
~"It's so lending
You gotta stop pretending . . . Oh wee ooh"~
Rin looked up, into his eyes. Was he ashamed, he was staying away from her, looking away she stood up and brushed the dirt off her clothes, walking coolly past him, the tears ruining the air of indifference.
~"You and me
I can see us dying
Aren't we?!"~
He watched her walk away, he could see the way her shoulders slumped and the way her steps were longer, he could see his heart being trailed behind her in broken pieces. He called after her, and she turned, he felt hope rise in his chest when she . . .
~"Don't speak
I know just what you're saying
So please stop explain'
Don't tell me cause it hurts"~
Slapped him, she had just slapped him. She could still feel the sing across her palm, and she felt her breath quicken. That was it, she would be dead, closing her eyes awaiting for the impact she found that it did not come. And opened her eyes to see, this time, the demon lord walking away from her.
~ "No, no don't speak,
I know what you're thinking
And I don't need your reasons
Don't tell me cause it hurts" ~
He deserved it, but his damned pride! It wouldn't let him apologize. He did the only sane thing he could find in his choices, he walked away. The ghost of fear was evident in the eyes that surrounded him as he walked tactfully back into his study. Holding back his pain.
~ "Don't tell me cause it hurts!!!"~
The sun, set upon the broken hearted couple, and the "tsking" manor. No one ate dinner that night. The only sounds coming from the entire fortress were the stifled sobs of Rin, only an occasional hiccup or two coming from her room.
~"I know what you're saying
So please stop explainin
Don't speak
Don't speak
Don't speak
Oh!"~
As Sesshoumaru lay in his bed he thought of Rin. Sleep did not come for him, and he could smell her tears on the breeze, and the sobs that emitted from the lips he was so used seeing turned upwards. The weight in him grew heavier and he felt he needed release, so he looked out the window and the full moon and did the only thing that he could.
~ "I know what you're thinking
And I don't need your reasons
I know you're good
I know you're good
I know you're real good
Oh!"~
Rin, who had been lying in bed sobbing shot up at the sound. A howl, it held a million emotions and gave off only one at the same time. There was love and regret, and loss and pain all in one, she collapsed at the window, tears still streaking down her face.
~"La, la, la, la
La, la, la, la
No! No!
Ooh, ooh, Oooh!
Pushin' me pushin' me
Darlin'
Pushin' me, pushin' me
Darlin'"~
Sesshoumaru jumped out of his fortress and headed back towards the hut. He would train, he would train as if it were for his very life. There was no way that he would lose her, there was no way. He would win Rin's love back.
~"Pushin' me, pushin' me
Don't tell me cause it hurts
Pushin' me pushin' me
Darlin'
Pushin' me, pushin' me
Darlin'
Pushin' me, pushin' me"~
Rin awoke that morning to find that Sesshoumaru had left, but had not quite left her without anything. Jaken had come in with a message from Sesshoumaru, a request rather. One that she intended to follow, if not out of curiosity, than out of love.
"Wait for me."
An: AAAHHHHH! IT'S CHEESY AND IT'S FIVE PAGES LONG AND IT'S MINE! Anyone who flames shall receive a painful, fatal wound on behalf of heartbroken Sesshoumaru over here. ~Points to sobbing Inu-Youkai behind her~ I shouldn't have let him read this chapter. Bwahahaha! I think I'm going to cry though, I know I said a little angst, but is it me or is this more than a little heart wrenching? Tell me what you think you guys, I have SERIOUS writer's block and I can't get rid of it. I need reviews to cheer me up! I can't believe how cheesy this thing is though . . . wow.