Note: This chapter takes place two months after the story began, and is told in Paul's POV for most of it. It'll explain a lot about why he's so intent on attempting to kill Suze, but will never succeed.

ALSO: I'm debating more chapters...I'm not really good with long stories, so while this is NOT the last chapter, it may end with chapter 9 or 10. Dunno yet.

Disclaimer: We all know I don't own the Mediator characters, they belong to the wonderful author who created them, Meg Cabot. I also do not own the song featured at the end of this chapter. It's called "I Always Get What I Want" and it's owned by Avril Lavigne, available on her new CD "Under My Skin"



Paul's POV:
Right now, Susannah Simon was top priority. She seemed to enjoy being on top, if you get my drift. De Silva never really left her room while she was sleeping, probably because she'd told him she's seen me in her room at night. Every night, she had him to protect her. Dammit, it should be me holding her while she sleeps! It should be me who she runs to, afraid of the big bad demon boy! ME ME ME!

I guess you could say Suze was the end of me. Before I met her, I didn't care how others saw me. I didn't care if the girls I went out with were afraid of me- that's how I bent them to my will. Or just bent them. I was a sleazy bastard, I'll admit it.

Until she came along.

Something about Suze was different. She had edge, attitude. She could be sweet and kind to my brother, the little dork that he is, and then be a complete bitch to me. Of course, I deserved it. But let's not lose focus, shall we? My point is, with Suze I didn't want her to go out with me because she was afraid of me. Of course, she was from the very start, and then the whole shadowland fiasco, but that's beside the point. I wanted Suze to go out with me because she genuinely wanted to.

But no. I had to be mean and evil and threaten to exorcise her stupid boyfriend before she'd even give me the time of day.

And then, when that didn't work, I tried hypnotising her into loving me the way I loved her. Hell, I know she had some feelings towards me- the kiss on my bed told me that much. But then that cowboy got in the way again, with the help of wise old Gandalf, aka Father D, and Jake, and right after I'd gotten a taste of the love of my life, she'd been snatched away from me. I'd lost. And what's more, I'd lost to a dead guy. That's a kick in the pants right there, I'll tell you.

We all know I hate to lose. So I put together this plan. I'd have Susannah as mine again. I was just going to exorcise De Silva, but then he became real. How that happened, I don't know. So, instead of exorcise him, I'll just scare Suze into leaving him. Make her think that, if she doesn't give up on him and come to me, I'll kill her. This plan has backfired a little bit, however. Instead of coming to me, she's just run further into the safe confines of De Silva.

Shooting her probably didn't help much, either. Considering I got my ass beat more times than I can count, and spent two months in the damn hospital. Suze got off easy compared to what her brothers, boyfriend, and best friends did to me. And I'm not easily beat down.

No, no. Soon Suze would be so afraid of me, of what I can do to her and her family, that she would do whatever I wanted. And I wanted her. I wanted her more than I'd ever wanted anything. Wanted her so much it hurt. This went beyond lust. This was the real deal. Love. With a capitol L.

Suze just calls it lust. She was warm for me, even if she's not now. She says she lost her head, but honestly, people who just lost their heads do not kiss that way. Not the way she kissed in my room. No no. That was something. Plus, in order for the hypnotism to work as well as it did, she had to have liked me a little bit.

I lay contemplating my plan to get Suze on the cot in my cell. Soon there would be no escape for her. She would be scared out of her mind and willingly come to me. Or I would kill her. I know I said I wasn't going to, but right now, she's got me at the breaking point. I will kill her if I have to. It'll make things a little more difficult, yes, but it's her own fault.

I rolled over to face the wall and smiled wickedly. Falling into a deep sleep, I whispered, "I'm coming for you, Suze."

Seconds later, I was sitting on the window seat in Suze's room. I kind of wished I wasn't because she and De Silva were going at it like there was no tomorrow. I went back to my cell because, hey, I'm a sleazy bastard, but even I'm not that sleazy. I don't like to watch, thank you very much.

Now, when I get rid of De Silva...That's another story. To make him suffer, I'll make him watch as I show him how to pleasure Suze. He'll suffer, knowing there's not a damned thing he can do to stop me.

Oh, yeah. I'm the unstoppable badass Shifter/Mediator. This is my world, and I'm gracious enough to let you live in it.

Every now and then we all want something
Even if there's no way of gettin' it
If i stomp my feet could that make me
Be the way around it, could I get myself around it

Get me what I want
Everything that I got
Get me what I want
Cause Im a big shot

Dont wanna always have to be so nice
Dont wanna hear you say well thats just life
I dry out when I open my mouth
I make my way around it, make my way around it

Get me what I want
Everything that I got
Get me what I want
Cause Im a big shot

So give me what I want
I always get what I want
You don't want to see me when
I don't get what I want
Thats not what you want

I'm not about to take no for an answer
no
If I tell you I cant I'm still gonna go
I did it all by myself
I found my way around it

Get me what I want
Everything that I got
Get me what I want
Cause Im a big shot

So give me what I want
I always get what I want
Don't want to see me when
I don't get what I want
Thats not what you want

It's not to lovely
It could start to get ugly
It really bugs me
If I don't get my way

Get me what I want
Everything that I got
Get me what I want
Cause Im a big shot

So give me what I want
I always get what I want
Don't want to see me when
I don't get what I want
Thats not what you want