This is Chapter 6! All hail me! I actually am updating! ...And a lot of you have complained about the format of the first chapter, I am getting to that soon! ...Actually, the first chapter by itself was over 32 pages. Eek! I'm thinking of breaking it down, but people might get mad if they see 6 extra chapters and only one is new! ....The last chapter was, IMHO, one of the better ones, so I'm hoping this one will live up to the standard... And, for all you Bakura/Ryou fans, I've got a little bit of citrusy goodness, not THAT much though! :)
Oh, and I know that the first and second chapters of this are really wacked. So I AM gonna fix them, maybe even this week! So don't be surprised if a whole lotta new chapters come up, they'll still be the same content.
Ooh, thanks to everyone who commented on the Yugi-as-seme-thing! I've decided to do TWO lemons, one where Yami lets Yugi 'take control', and a regular one, where Yugi=uke. (thanx to both Koishii no Tenshi and Lily Maxwell the Dark Angel for suggesting that I make two lemons!)
And, since y'all are so nice and reading this, I have a new favorite singer: Utada Hikaru!!! She ROCKS!!! This may seem weird, but I can almost picture Yugi singing her stuff... I know, he's a guy, but...!
Wooooooooo...Amazing flashback o' doom and destruction and sadnessss
"What do you really want? Me? I can't stop you. Just take what you want. Everyone else seems to."
It was Yami's turn to gape. "How can you say that? Do you really believe I would hurt you like that, take you just because I felt like it?"
Yugi hesitated. "...I guess not..." "But you say you...love me. Why did you go out with Seto if you felt that way?
He sighed. "You were so beautiful, but so innocent... I couldn't bring myself to pollute you with my darkness. And it was getting so confusing... I just asked Seto out."
Yugi sniffled, eyes filling with salty tears. "I think it's too late, Yami. I'll never be that person again. I can never love you the way you want."
They both sat in silence, tears running down their faces.
End Sad Heartbreaking Moment o' flashiness otherwise known as flashback
As if this day wasn't already bad enough!Yami sent.
Yugi gave a shaky laugh, ignoring the rain pelting down onto him and fact that his clothes were now soaking wet. "Yeah..."
Standing up, Yami bent down to grasp his hikari's hand and pull him up, but Yugi shrank away from the touch, getting up on his own.
They both glumly walked back to the game shop, soaked through and once again lost in infinite revery. Yugi's POV When he got down to it, Yugi could never find one exact problem, one perfectly horrible moment, to plague him. It all just built up, like a flowering thunderhead, gathering more and more water petals and water leaves, until the rain just had to fall.
It hadn't always been like this, had it? He shook his head, trying to shoo away the pestering thoughts, but it didn't seem to be working.
What is wrong with me? Why can't I just get over myself? Marik and Bakura have! He thought dispairingly.
Realizing that Yami, lost in thoughts as well, was slightly ahead of him, Yugi jogged a little to keep up, wondering why he was staying with someone that terrified him. Jounouchi's POV (A.N. I have a quick question- reading Shonen Jump yesterday, I realized that Joey's japanese name is 'Jonouchi'. But on all the fandoms, his name is spelled 'Jounouchi'. Am I missing something? Is his name really supposed to be spelled with two 'u's???)
Seto was pacing. Again. What was wrong with him?
...Oh. Right! Yugi Mouto, Jou's best friend. Damn! Why wouldn't Seto tell him what was going on?
Instead his boyfriend just moved, either pacing or weight lifting or...other activities. Apparently that was his way of relieving stress...
Groaning, the CEO stopped abruptly and sat down on a plush white leather sofa, scraping his heels on the thick carpet.
"I'm sick of this! Give me your cell phone!" He growled, startling Jou.
"Why?" Replied the blonde sharply, acorn-tinted eyes showering his boyfriend with anger. "You won't say a word to me about all this; I know it has something to do with MY best friend, yet now the only actual words you've said to me all day are a demand! Tell me what happened or get your OWN phone!"
Jou gave up all former pretense of calm when Seto simply nodded and got up to search for another phone. "DAMNIT!!! What is happening and why the hell won't you tell me?!?!"
Stopping suddenly, Kaiba turned around, face softer than before. "Koi, I'd tell you if I could, believe me. But I care for Yugi, too. And sometimes not knowing can be a comfort..."
THAT the teenager could understand. Thinking back over Yugi's behavior, he noticed little discrepencies... A wayward look, a shrinking expression, such terrible fear!
Oh, everyone in their group had their share of bad experiences, from near- death accidents to being possessed by madmen. But Yugi had been the exception, the beacon to pull everyone back in at the end of the day.
And so was Yugi used. Had they finally emptied him, sucked out all his warm summer days and turned the clean white linen mind into just another human being? Or had it been something else? ...Someone else? Bakura's POV He'd done what he could. He had kept his promise and NOT told Ryou, so he could rest easy, right?
But even the sight of an inviting aibou all sultry-eyed in their bed could not make him stop thinking! Just when he could use some tension relief, too!
Yugi....
What he'd said, about dreams. Bakura couldn't get it out of his head! "How did you get rid of the dreams?"
Yugi, I can't help you! He wanted to cry out. You can only help yourself!
"Who would love a broken doll?"... "I'm not worth love!" ... "I'm not worth love!" ..."I'm not worth love!" ... "I'm not worth love!" ..."Who would love a broken doll?"
The words were so familiar that they cut his heart into slivers each time he remembered them. They were so like his own, all those hundreds and thousands of years ago.
Like Yugi, he had almost believed himself to be a porceline doll, made by man and created for one purpose. And when he broke? What had happened?
Bakura bit his lip violently. There was no way that he could stand back and watch Yugi shatter on the hard floor of life into a bazillion pieces, all of them sharp, so painful, and there would be no putting him together again, because like Humpty Dumpty, no one could be the same soul they were before getting smashed. No one could be put together again.
/'Kura-love? Stop crying on the inside and come to bed!/
Chuckling, mood forgotten, Bakura climbed under the covers with deadly grace. He swooped onto Ryou's mouth, claiming it for his own once again. /mmmmmm....../
Lithe hands found their way onto his chest, tweaking Bakura's nipples, making him gasp into the other boy's mouth.
He might have been broken and put together again all jaggedy, but Ryou had soothed over all his rough spots, made him feel safe and loved. And for this night, he fully intended to return the favor once again.
How long has it been since I updated?! I am soo sorry! I won't fudge and say that I was totally swamped with school; I've been reading others' work lately! Also thanks to everyone who put up with my puny one-shots and actually reviewed them! I know they weren't very good, but I've been going through some rough patches and all y'alls nice (though somewhat insensitive at times) reviews made me feel so much better! smiles gratefully at all the cool people actually deigning to read her work
THANK YOU! Hopefully, since I have virtually nothing to do this summer, I will update a lot more! Wish me luck!
...Sorry for this obligatory note, but all critiques, reviews, and comments are welcomed! Press the little purple button! You know you want to! :D