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Chapter 18

Buffy doesn't believe her ears; he cares about making her comfortable with sex. She is lying naked in his bed and he is worried about her. Buffy makes a decision; she reaches for his button on his jeans. She starts kissing him down his chest mimicking his movements from earlier. His jeans are where she is headed and Spike knows what she has planned when she gets there.

"Pet I don't think you know what you are playing at." He says as he pulls her up his body. She looks at him with a hurt look on her face. Buffy gets up trying to find her clothes and having no luck. "You don't want to have sex with me? I thought you loved me, I just want to make you happy."

Spike thinks about what she just said. "Buffy are you sure? You don't have to make love to me if you are not ready, not just for my sexual pleasure. I'm a big boy I can deal with not doing it, I'm just happy holding you if that's what you want. Don't do something you will regret in the morning."

Buffy walks over to him and leans into him and kisses him while pushing him back on the bed, she gets up on her knees to unfasten his jeans. "I want to feel you in me; you are the one I love so this is what I have been waiting on for years. The man I love to make love to me." Buffy pulls the jeans down over his butt and then she pulls them down his legs disposing of them on the floor. She lies down beside him and takes his hand into hers.

"William I want, no I need you to make love too me tonight. I am ready I won't feel sorry for what we do here tonight. Only one request for the first time I want to feel you uninhibited inside me." Spike first say no then gives in to her wishes.

Spike turn over on his side and started slowly preparing Buffy for her first time. He first kisses her down neck to the valley of her breast; from there he nurses on her nipples like a new baby. While he is palming her breast he slips one finger then two. When he can place three fingers in to her without her wincing then he is satisfied that she is ready for him. Only after he is sure she is well prepared and stretched for him, so the pain can be at its least he asks one more time.

"Buffy are you sure? Don't do this for me, I repeat I can stop right now and be happily content." When she says she is sure he moves over placing himself at her opening.

"Buffy this might hurt; if it does I will stop ok." She takes his cock in her hand and holds it to her opening. He kisses her while with one hard push he pushes into her. He catches her cries of pain in his mouth. Pulling back from her he sees a single tear in her eye. "I'm sorry it has to hurt you. Do you want me to stop?"

"No the pain is less now, I'm ok" They both slowly get to know each other pleasures over the next couple of hours. Once they have finally been satisfied with their love making for now. Buffy pulls Spike to her chest where he falls to sleep in Buffy's arms. She kisses the top of his head and follows him into a peaceful sleep. The last thought in Buffy's head is now much she truly loves William Marsters.