Title: Last Kiss
Author: Illyria04
Spoilers: Up to Smile Time, I'd wager
Timeline: AU, after Smile Time; Wesley and Fred are together
Summary: Wesley and Fred. Sad fluff.
Based on Pearl Jam's song Last Kiss
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Last Kiss
Oh where, oh where can my baby be?
The Lord took her away from me.
She's gone to heaven, so I've got to be good,
So I can see my baby when I leave this world.
Where are you Fred? I lost you and now I can't find you. These lights hurt my eyes. The people, standing around me as a stumble around, trying to find you, they tell me it wasn't my fault, that it couldn't be helped. But it could, oh it could Fred.
We were out on a date in my daddy's car,
We hadn't driven very far.
There in the road, straight ahead,
A car was stalled, the engine was dead.
I couldn't stop, so I swerved to the right.
I'll never forget, the sound that night
The screaming tires, the busting glass,
The painful scream that I heard last.
You have no idea how dumb I was. I should have slowed down. I didn't know the road. But I didn't, God, I didn't. It should have been me, not you. You, you were innocent. I was an old man compared to you. I see you now Fred. Blood is blurring my vision, all I see is red. I push past the men. They don't want me there, Fred. I did this and now they hate me and they're trying to make me leave. But I can't Fred. I have to see you. To apologise to you, tell you it was my fault, to have you forgive me. If you don't Fred, I'll understand. I made a mistake, and now you have to pay for it.
Oh where, oh where can my baby be?
The Lord took her away from me.
She's gone to heaven, so I've got to be good,
So I can see my baby when I leave this world.
I can still hear the CD playing, amongst the wreck. And it is a wreck Fred. I don't know if you can see it, but it really is. Parts of the cars are thrown around. Silver mixes with yellow, mixes with blue, mixes with red. I keep falling over the parts, to get to you. There's more blood on my clothes, cuts on my face and chest. Somewhere, I hear a child cry, and it makes me want to wish. Wish to someone, that all the innocent people, they could be alive, and I'd be dead. You raise your head to me, as I reach where you lay. Your body is trapped. They can't get you out without you dying. Your face has just one cut, leaking your blood. Maybe that's how it should be, you, still recognisable, still Fred, no matter what. I drop down beside you, and you smile at me, like nothing else matters, like nothing happened.
When I woke up, the rain was pouring' down.
There were people standing all around.
Something warm running through my eyes,
But I found my baby somehow that night.
I raised her head, she smiled and said,
"Hold me darling just a little while."
I held her close, I kissed her our last kiss.
I found the love that I knew I would miss
Well now she's gone,
even though I hold her tight
I lost the love, my life that night.
"Wesley." Your voice is so soft, like an angel.
"I'm so sorry. It's all my fault. I'm sorry."
"Hush." Your voice falters, you're fading, I can see it in you. "Just hold me."
I held you, and then I kissed you, and then you were frozen, with a smile on you face, how you should look. You're gone now Fred, no matter how much I hold onto you. You were the love of my life. But the Lord sent you to heaven, I know he did. I'm going to be good now Fred. I'll be strong, I'll help people. Maybe that can earn me a trip there, to be with you, when I leave.
Oh where, oh where can my baby be?
The Lord took her away from me.
She's gone to heaven so I've got to be good,
So I can see my baby when I leave this world.