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SARAH : Thanks for the support and review. CHEERS MI DEARS!!!!
JOCIE : Arr I'm glad you feel sorry for Connie, mainly because that's the whole point, but it just proves you have excellent erm what's the word oh god I can't think of it and my theasaurus is crap erm oh forget it I can't think lol. Right for a song erm - Jitterbug {4X}, You put the boom-boom into my heart, You send my soul sky high when your lovin' starts, Jitterbug into my brain, Goes a bang-bang-bang 'til my feet do the same, But something's bugging you, Something ain't right, My best friend told me what you did last night, Left me sleepin' in my bed, I was dreaming, but I should have been with you instead. Wake me up before you go-go, Don't leave me hanging on like a yo- yo, Wake me up before you go-go, I don't want to miss it when you hit that high, Wake me up before you go-go, 'Cause I'm not plannin' on going solo, Wake me up before you go-go, Take me dancing tonight, I wanna hit that high (yeah, yeah) – Wham, wake me up before you go-go. My sister did a school dance to this and it was amazing lol. Anyways thanks for your review and support. CHEER MI DEARS!!!!
KATIE : Hey up lass! I know you just can't do anything but feel sorry for her, you so want to smack her for the attitude though, but you can't help but feel for her. See I could tell you she's gonna make a full recovery, but I'm not so sure, she doesn't want it enough, and well to put it bluntly that would be boring wouldn't it lol. However my mind could change, it isn't as though I haven't tossed and turned on this subject lol. I actually never gave Orion daughter a second thought, it never crossed my tiny lil one directional mind lol, hum rubs chin in thought, right anyways for a song - Desert loving in your eyes all the way. If I listen to your lies would you say, I'm a man without conviction, I'm a man who doesn't know, how to sell a contradiction. You come and go, you come and go. Karma karma karma karma karma chameleon, you come and go, you come and go. Loving would be easy if your colours were like my dream, red gold and green, red gold and green. Don't hear your wicked words every day, and you used to be so sweet, I heard you say, that my love was an addiction. When we cling our love is strong. When you go you're gone forever. You string along, you string along. Karma karma karma karma karma chameleon, you come and go, you come and go. Loving would be easy if your colours were like my dream, red gold and green, red gold and green. – Karma Chameleon by the Culture club – my sisters favourite song when she was growing up lol. Anyways thanks for your support and review. CHEERS MI DEARS!!!!
NOTTSHOCKEYGIRL99 : I dunno, I suppose it's just my way of writing, I don't think I'd manage to change my old aged ways now lol. Anyways thanks for your support and review. CHEERS MI DEARS!!!!
Chapter 3
CONNIE'S P.O.V
I hated being this way to Charlie and the others, but I felt so vulnerable at the moment, a side, I didn't want anyone to ever see, so with defence being my only mechanism, I fought my vulnerability. I was always so upbeat, nothing could ever bring me down, well so I thought. I was insistant with myself, that I wouldn't let the others past my exterior, and to stop them, I would put on this cold, icy, hostile front. I was so scared it was untrue, but, again, I didn't want to show my weaknesses, feeling that, everyone would just feel more sympathetic toward me than they already did. I didn't want the sympathy vote, and was determined to do anything to stop it.
JULIE'S P.O.V
Over the next few days, we each tried different tactics with Connie, but none seemed to work, she either was hostile toward us, or simply ignored our attempts at being there for her. We had returned to the dorms and school, and of course there was plenty of gossip going around about what had happened. Soon most of the ducks were giving in, and there was only me, Charlie and Adam that were daily visitors. The others still visited but it was more every other day than daily.
"Jule's you ready"? Adam popped his head around my dorm room door. I was headed for the hospital with Charlie and Adam.
"Yeah". I answered and followed him outside. "Hey Charlie". I greeted my friend when we met up with him outside.
"Hey Cat lady". He responded.
"I wonder if she's in a better mood today"? I mused at the thought.
"Doubt it, but no matter what, don't let her lure you into an argument, Charlie". Adam said, joking about the last bit.
"I can't help it, she just gets me so wound up". Charlie replied, as we climbed the steps of the bus.
"She doesn't mean to, and the more you argue with her, the more defiant she becomes and the harder it is to get through to her". I reasoned with him.
We sat in semi silence the rest of the way, only saying something to each other every so often. Walking through the hospital. I prepared myself for the onslaught that was bound to happen. It mentally and emotionally draining, but she was my best friend, and I wasn't about to give in.
"On 3". Charlie joked, then pushed open her door. "Good after"... He began but the room was empty, and mean bare.
"I wonder if she's moved rooms"? I said, before heading to the nurses station. "Excuse me Ma'am, where's Connie Moreau"?
"She's gone". Was her only answer.
"Gone where"?
"To a special clinic". She answered, before walking away and down the corridor.
Wanting more of an explanation, we headed over To Connie's house, to talk to her parents. We were baffled as to why she hadn't said anything, or her parents hadn't. When we arrived, they welcomed us in and offered us beverages before sitting down and explaining to us as best they could.
"All we know, is the Doctor wanted to send her to this clinic, where she'll get proper treatment for her condition. She'll be put through intense physio, and they have therapists there to help her through everything and to learn to deal with a possibility that she may never walk again". Her dad explained.
"There are very strict visiting grounds, we are only allowed to visit once a week, but it's the best thing for her in the long run". Her mom told us.
They both continued explaining that we could call her or write to her, but visiting wasn't allowed. We left feeling a little frustrated, but knew that Connie had more of a chance of getting better where she was now, and I suppose the doctors and nurses there knew what they were doing, and if we visited, we may only undo all their work. We headed back to the dorms, to let the others know. It took a while to round them all up, but we finally managed to get them all into the common room. Upon seeing us all crowding in, most of the students up and left.
"So how's Connie"? Guy asked.
"We wouldn't know". Charlie responded.
"Why, you've just come from the hospital haven't you"? Ken said.
"She wasn't there". Charlie answered.
"Have they sent her home"? Luis asked.
"No, they've sent her to a special clinic that will help her. It deals specifically with people in her predicament. We aren't allowed to visit, and we don't know when she'll be coming home". I filled them in, knowing Charlie wouldn't answer them fully.
CONNIE'S P.O.V
I wasn't given any warning, that they were shipping me off to this stupid clinic. I was just wheeled out of the hospital, where a van was waiting for me, it was only then, that they deemed it necessary for me to know. It was about an hours drive away from anywhere I knew. When I arrived, a nurse came out and began chatting in a bright cheerful mood to me. Before I knew it, I was dumped in a private room, that was well equipped with anything I could possibly need.
"Hi Honey, I'm Deloris". A middle aged woman walked in. "I'm going to be your carer whilst you stay here".
"Oh joy". I muttered under my breath.
"And my aim is to have you walk outta here". She continued.
"Hello, you obviously haven't read my notes, I probably won't ever walk again".
"I have read your notes, and honey, trust me, nothing is impossible". She almost sung.
I thought she was mad, there wasn't any possible way I would walk out of here, and I told her so constantly. I had been here a week now. I had 2, 2 hourly sessions of physio a day, and the time in between, I would just lay on bed and stare into space. Deloris tried and tried to get me to open up to her, but to no avail. Then one morning, after I had finished my physio, I wheeled myself back to my room, and clambered back onto the bed. 5 minutes later, there was a knock at the door.
"Deloris, can you give me no peace". I shouted.
"Hello, Connie, I'm Doctor Breaks, but you can call me Dawn". She wasn't dressed like a doctor. "I'm no ordinary doctor, I'm here to talk about you, and how you're coping". Great a shrink.
"I'm coping perfectly well, thank you". I told her, in a dismissive tone.
"Well, I also wanted to sneak in here, see I'm a huge fan of you and the ducks, so I was kinda hoping that you and the rest of the team could sign me this". She produced a duck jersey.
"Oh, what a shame, I'm no longer on the team, and I don't see the team anymore".
"I bet they are dying to see you. And I know they can't visit you here, but maybe we could arrange for you to visit them". I glared at her, as if to tell her, she was stepping on a sensitive subject. "No, well maybe get in touch with them. You don't have to call, I'm sure they'd appreciate a letter". I just sat and stared at her, awaiting for the next bright idea that would pop itself out of her mouth. "Ok, so how do you think you're doing in your physio sessions"? She finally spoke up.
"Oh, well, I think I'll be back to normal within a few days". I replied VERY sarcastically, and turned my head toward the window.
"I know you must feel like"... She began. Those two words 'I know' were really beginning to bug me. No-one could comprehend how I was feeling right now, well yeah I suppose those who have been through this themselves did, but that was totally irrelevant.
"You don't know though, you have NO idea". I answered.
"Look, I have to go now. We'll continue this later". She stood up and headed out.
A week later, I was laid on my bed, as usual, the only thing I seemed to do these days, well in between physio anyway. For 2 hours each day, I was laid on a different bed, lifting weights with my arms, swimming, peddling a upside down bike with my arms and then Deloris would rub my legs to help keep the circulation, not that I could feel it. As I was returning from my morning physio, a nurse handed me an envelope. It was addressed and everything. I took it back to my room, where I got myself comfortable on my bed, before opening it. This had been the only contact with the outside world, I had, had since the previous week when my parents had visited.
Hey Connie, so how's it going? It's pretty weird around here without you, and quiet I might add. It's really weird having to get Charlie out of hot water, without you, in fact, if I'm not mistaken, that's your job. I have no idea what you're going through right now, and I don't want to even begin to try, I just wish I could come visit and help you get through this, 'cause I know you will. Hurry and come home to us. Love you loads, Julie.
Hi Connie. I hope you're behaving yourself around all those young, innocent male nurses. Julie's lying, she hasn't had to get me out of hot water at all, if anything I've been getting myself out – well I did learn from the best lol. I think I'm right, when I say I miss you the most, I have no-one to put heads together with about pranks for the JV. We need you. Love Charlie.
Hey Con's. It sure has been quiet around here without you, and not a good quiet either. The team isn't the same without you, and I hope you're not going around thinking that you aren't apart of this team anymore, 'cause you always will be. You are the strongest person I know, and I know you'll beat this. Love Adam.
Connie. I'm not gonna bore you, telling you how much I miss you and stuff, 'cause I think you know that I do, well you better. I've known you since Kindergarten, and I don't think I've spent more than a week without seeing you. I feel like I'm missing my twin or something, Just get better and come back to us ok. Love Guy.
Connie-meister. We sure miss ya kid. Hurry back to us. Love Averman.
What is it with everyone sayin' your name, I think you know your name is Connie. I feel really unloved without you, Julie's not as good at the ladie's advice as you are, and well Fulton has no idea. Needing you. Luv ya babes, Portman.
I couldn't read anymore after that. Tears were pouring down my cheeks. I hadn't thought until now, how much I missed them all. All I had been concentrating on, was how I hated the world for doing this, and how I was NEVER gonna walk again. Just reading half of this letter gave me a reason to fight. I don't know exactly what had done it, but I was more determined than ever to win this battle.
AHHH, but will she win the battle. PLEASE R&R!!!!!
SARAH : Thanks for the support and review. CHEERS MI DEARS!!!!
JOCIE : Arr I'm glad you feel sorry for Connie, mainly because that's the whole point, but it just proves you have excellent erm what's the word oh god I can't think of it and my theasaurus is crap erm oh forget it I can't think lol. Right for a song erm - Jitterbug {4X}, You put the boom-boom into my heart, You send my soul sky high when your lovin' starts, Jitterbug into my brain, Goes a bang-bang-bang 'til my feet do the same, But something's bugging you, Something ain't right, My best friend told me what you did last night, Left me sleepin' in my bed, I was dreaming, but I should have been with you instead. Wake me up before you go-go, Don't leave me hanging on like a yo- yo, Wake me up before you go-go, I don't want to miss it when you hit that high, Wake me up before you go-go, 'Cause I'm not plannin' on going solo, Wake me up before you go-go, Take me dancing tonight, I wanna hit that high (yeah, yeah) – Wham, wake me up before you go-go. My sister did a school dance to this and it was amazing lol. Anyways thanks for your review and support. CHEER MI DEARS!!!!
KATIE : Hey up lass! I know you just can't do anything but feel sorry for her, you so want to smack her for the attitude though, but you can't help but feel for her. See I could tell you she's gonna make a full recovery, but I'm not so sure, she doesn't want it enough, and well to put it bluntly that would be boring wouldn't it lol. However my mind could change, it isn't as though I haven't tossed and turned on this subject lol. I actually never gave Orion daughter a second thought, it never crossed my tiny lil one directional mind lol, hum rubs chin in thought, right anyways for a song - Desert loving in your eyes all the way. If I listen to your lies would you say, I'm a man without conviction, I'm a man who doesn't know, how to sell a contradiction. You come and go, you come and go. Karma karma karma karma karma chameleon, you come and go, you come and go. Loving would be easy if your colours were like my dream, red gold and green, red gold and green. Don't hear your wicked words every day, and you used to be so sweet, I heard you say, that my love was an addiction. When we cling our love is strong. When you go you're gone forever. You string along, you string along. Karma karma karma karma karma chameleon, you come and go, you come and go. Loving would be easy if your colours were like my dream, red gold and green, red gold and green. – Karma Chameleon by the Culture club – my sisters favourite song when she was growing up lol. Anyways thanks for your support and review. CHEERS MI DEARS!!!!
NOTTSHOCKEYGIRL99 : I dunno, I suppose it's just my way of writing, I don't think I'd manage to change my old aged ways now lol. Anyways thanks for your support and review. CHEERS MI DEARS!!!!
Chapter 3
CONNIE'S P.O.V
I hated being this way to Charlie and the others, but I felt so vulnerable at the moment, a side, I didn't want anyone to ever see, so with defence being my only mechanism, I fought my vulnerability. I was always so upbeat, nothing could ever bring me down, well so I thought. I was insistant with myself, that I wouldn't let the others past my exterior, and to stop them, I would put on this cold, icy, hostile front. I was so scared it was untrue, but, again, I didn't want to show my weaknesses, feeling that, everyone would just feel more sympathetic toward me than they already did. I didn't want the sympathy vote, and was determined to do anything to stop it.
JULIE'S P.O.V
Over the next few days, we each tried different tactics with Connie, but none seemed to work, she either was hostile toward us, or simply ignored our attempts at being there for her. We had returned to the dorms and school, and of course there was plenty of gossip going around about what had happened. Soon most of the ducks were giving in, and there was only me, Charlie and Adam that were daily visitors. The others still visited but it was more every other day than daily.
"Jule's you ready"? Adam popped his head around my dorm room door. I was headed for the hospital with Charlie and Adam.
"Yeah". I answered and followed him outside. "Hey Charlie". I greeted my friend when we met up with him outside.
"Hey Cat lady". He responded.
"I wonder if she's in a better mood today"? I mused at the thought.
"Doubt it, but no matter what, don't let her lure you into an argument, Charlie". Adam said, joking about the last bit.
"I can't help it, she just gets me so wound up". Charlie replied, as we climbed the steps of the bus.
"She doesn't mean to, and the more you argue with her, the more defiant she becomes and the harder it is to get through to her". I reasoned with him.
We sat in semi silence the rest of the way, only saying something to each other every so often. Walking through the hospital. I prepared myself for the onslaught that was bound to happen. It mentally and emotionally draining, but she was my best friend, and I wasn't about to give in.
"On 3". Charlie joked, then pushed open her door. "Good after"... He began but the room was empty, and mean bare.
"I wonder if she's moved rooms"? I said, before heading to the nurses station. "Excuse me Ma'am, where's Connie Moreau"?
"She's gone". Was her only answer.
"Gone where"?
"To a special clinic". She answered, before walking away and down the corridor.
Wanting more of an explanation, we headed over To Connie's house, to talk to her parents. We were baffled as to why she hadn't said anything, or her parents hadn't. When we arrived, they welcomed us in and offered us beverages before sitting down and explaining to us as best they could.
"All we know, is the Doctor wanted to send her to this clinic, where she'll get proper treatment for her condition. She'll be put through intense physio, and they have therapists there to help her through everything and to learn to deal with a possibility that she may never walk again". Her dad explained.
"There are very strict visiting grounds, we are only allowed to visit once a week, but it's the best thing for her in the long run". Her mom told us.
They both continued explaining that we could call her or write to her, but visiting wasn't allowed. We left feeling a little frustrated, but knew that Connie had more of a chance of getting better where she was now, and I suppose the doctors and nurses there knew what they were doing, and if we visited, we may only undo all their work. We headed back to the dorms, to let the others know. It took a while to round them all up, but we finally managed to get them all into the common room. Upon seeing us all crowding in, most of the students up and left.
"So how's Connie"? Guy asked.
"We wouldn't know". Charlie responded.
"Why, you've just come from the hospital haven't you"? Ken said.
"She wasn't there". Charlie answered.
"Have they sent her home"? Luis asked.
"No, they've sent her to a special clinic that will help her. It deals specifically with people in her predicament. We aren't allowed to visit, and we don't know when she'll be coming home". I filled them in, knowing Charlie wouldn't answer them fully.
CONNIE'S P.O.V
I wasn't given any warning, that they were shipping me off to this stupid clinic. I was just wheeled out of the hospital, where a van was waiting for me, it was only then, that they deemed it necessary for me to know. It was about an hours drive away from anywhere I knew. When I arrived, a nurse came out and began chatting in a bright cheerful mood to me. Before I knew it, I was dumped in a private room, that was well equipped with anything I could possibly need.
"Hi Honey, I'm Deloris". A middle aged woman walked in. "I'm going to be your carer whilst you stay here".
"Oh joy". I muttered under my breath.
"And my aim is to have you walk outta here". She continued.
"Hello, you obviously haven't read my notes, I probably won't ever walk again".
"I have read your notes, and honey, trust me, nothing is impossible". She almost sung.
I thought she was mad, there wasn't any possible way I would walk out of here, and I told her so constantly. I had been here a week now. I had 2, 2 hourly sessions of physio a day, and the time in between, I would just lay on bed and stare into space. Deloris tried and tried to get me to open up to her, but to no avail. Then one morning, after I had finished my physio, I wheeled myself back to my room, and clambered back onto the bed. 5 minutes later, there was a knock at the door.
"Deloris, can you give me no peace". I shouted.
"Hello, Connie, I'm Doctor Breaks, but you can call me Dawn". She wasn't dressed like a doctor. "I'm no ordinary doctor, I'm here to talk about you, and how you're coping". Great a shrink.
"I'm coping perfectly well, thank you". I told her, in a dismissive tone.
"Well, I also wanted to sneak in here, see I'm a huge fan of you and the ducks, so I was kinda hoping that you and the rest of the team could sign me this". She produced a duck jersey.
"Oh, what a shame, I'm no longer on the team, and I don't see the team anymore".
"I bet they are dying to see you. And I know they can't visit you here, but maybe we could arrange for you to visit them". I glared at her, as if to tell her, she was stepping on a sensitive subject. "No, well maybe get in touch with them. You don't have to call, I'm sure they'd appreciate a letter". I just sat and stared at her, awaiting for the next bright idea that would pop itself out of her mouth. "Ok, so how do you think you're doing in your physio sessions"? She finally spoke up.
"Oh, well, I think I'll be back to normal within a few days". I replied VERY sarcastically, and turned my head toward the window.
"I know you must feel like"... She began. Those two words 'I know' were really beginning to bug me. No-one could comprehend how I was feeling right now, well yeah I suppose those who have been through this themselves did, but that was totally irrelevant.
"You don't know though, you have NO idea". I answered.
"Look, I have to go now. We'll continue this later". She stood up and headed out.
A week later, I was laid on my bed, as usual, the only thing I seemed to do these days, well in between physio anyway. For 2 hours each day, I was laid on a different bed, lifting weights with my arms, swimming, peddling a upside down bike with my arms and then Deloris would rub my legs to help keep the circulation, not that I could feel it. As I was returning from my morning physio, a nurse handed me an envelope. It was addressed and everything. I took it back to my room, where I got myself comfortable on my bed, before opening it. This had been the only contact with the outside world, I had, had since the previous week when my parents had visited.
Hey Connie, so how's it going? It's pretty weird around here without you, and quiet I might add. It's really weird having to get Charlie out of hot water, without you, in fact, if I'm not mistaken, that's your job. I have no idea what you're going through right now, and I don't want to even begin to try, I just wish I could come visit and help you get through this, 'cause I know you will. Hurry and come home to us. Love you loads, Julie.
Hi Connie. I hope you're behaving yourself around all those young, innocent male nurses. Julie's lying, she hasn't had to get me out of hot water at all, if anything I've been getting myself out – well I did learn from the best lol. I think I'm right, when I say I miss you the most, I have no-one to put heads together with about pranks for the JV. We need you. Love Charlie.
Hey Con's. It sure has been quiet around here without you, and not a good quiet either. The team isn't the same without you, and I hope you're not going around thinking that you aren't apart of this team anymore, 'cause you always will be. You are the strongest person I know, and I know you'll beat this. Love Adam.
Connie. I'm not gonna bore you, telling you how much I miss you and stuff, 'cause I think you know that I do, well you better. I've known you since Kindergarten, and I don't think I've spent more than a week without seeing you. I feel like I'm missing my twin or something, Just get better and come back to us ok. Love Guy.
Connie-meister. We sure miss ya kid. Hurry back to us. Love Averman.
What is it with everyone sayin' your name, I think you know your name is Connie. I feel really unloved without you, Julie's not as good at the ladie's advice as you are, and well Fulton has no idea. Needing you. Luv ya babes, Portman.
I couldn't read anymore after that. Tears were pouring down my cheeks. I hadn't thought until now, how much I missed them all. All I had been concentrating on, was how I hated the world for doing this, and how I was NEVER gonna walk again. Just reading half of this letter gave me a reason to fight. I don't know exactly what had done it, but I was more determined than ever to win this battle.
AHHH, but will she win the battle. PLEASE R&R!!!!!