They spent the next few hours catching up on the good things that had been
going on, and inwardly debating just how smart this idea of hers was.
She'd never admit, even to herself but this scared her; the war, the fact
that they'd gotten to Cole. Everything that he'd just told her really
scared her and she honestly didn't know if she was doing the right thing
and that scared her more than anything. How could Dagger not know what she
was doing? How? It wasn't like she got up every morning planning her day
out, but she usually had a pretty good idea of exactly what she was doing.
She never went into something without thinking it through, but this was one
thing that she had done just that. Not that she'd ever back down, but
everything running through her head made her seriously think twice about
what she'd written.
Being on the hit list of every gang in town except for the dragons was something she'd grown to live with, but having her friends added simply because they might or might not know where she is really pissed her off. It took her to another level of anger, one she'd never experienced except for one other time in her life and that'd been when she'd killed the cop that had hurt Rock. Even then she hadn't been fully justified but she felt as if she was now and there was no turning back. And even if she could turn back the hands of time, she wouldn't. She'd lived her life the way she'd wanted to, no matter how many regrets she had over the course of her life, at the moment when she'd done those things she'd been justified and that was what mattered.
Now thinking back on all the years she'd spent running from her family, and other dangers that surrounded her she realized how she could have done things differently. One thing she'd never change was leaving home though, that was one thing she knew had been right, even now. But how she'd made sure Cole was taken care of, she should have done that differently. He'd been so innocent to the world when they'd met, he'd had tragedy, sure, but he hadn't been on the normal street-wise kid. At least not the type he was now, she'd done that and she regretted it. That was one thing in her life that she should have taken responsibly but she hadn't, she'd reacted in the normal Dagger way and maybe she should have just been Cahill.
Eventually Cole brought out the best in her but not before he'd known horror, and drugs, and everything else that came with living with the one and only Dagger. She hadn't meant for him to become the person he was right now and she never meant for him to see the things he'd seen. Selling drugs had been her thing, but she'd turned it into his thing too. She should have been protecting him, not exposing him. Now he was here and with a new mark that would be permanent. How could she have done this to him? It was her fault the Colts had come after him, but now. now they would pay and she would make sure to save something special for Tommy. He would be the first to go. and with that thought she dismissed the rest of it from her mind. She'd have a few weeks maybe even a month and a half before she could do anything and that would be plenty of time to plan. Right now she was going to show her appreciation to the one boy she still loved in her life.
Being on the hit list of every gang in town except for the dragons was something she'd grown to live with, but having her friends added simply because they might or might not know where she is really pissed her off. It took her to another level of anger, one she'd never experienced except for one other time in her life and that'd been when she'd killed the cop that had hurt Rock. Even then she hadn't been fully justified but she felt as if she was now and there was no turning back. And even if she could turn back the hands of time, she wouldn't. She'd lived her life the way she'd wanted to, no matter how many regrets she had over the course of her life, at the moment when she'd done those things she'd been justified and that was what mattered.
Now thinking back on all the years she'd spent running from her family, and other dangers that surrounded her she realized how she could have done things differently. One thing she'd never change was leaving home though, that was one thing she knew had been right, even now. But how she'd made sure Cole was taken care of, she should have done that differently. He'd been so innocent to the world when they'd met, he'd had tragedy, sure, but he hadn't been on the normal street-wise kid. At least not the type he was now, she'd done that and she regretted it. That was one thing in her life that she should have taken responsibly but she hadn't, she'd reacted in the normal Dagger way and maybe she should have just been Cahill.
Eventually Cole brought out the best in her but not before he'd known horror, and drugs, and everything else that came with living with the one and only Dagger. She hadn't meant for him to become the person he was right now and she never meant for him to see the things he'd seen. Selling drugs had been her thing, but she'd turned it into his thing too. She should have been protecting him, not exposing him. Now he was here and with a new mark that would be permanent. How could she have done this to him? It was her fault the Colts had come after him, but now. now they would pay and she would make sure to save something special for Tommy. He would be the first to go. and with that thought she dismissed the rest of it from her mind. She'd have a few weeks maybe even a month and a half before she could do anything and that would be plenty of time to plan. Right now she was going to show her appreciation to the one boy she still loved in her life.