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Sesshy: I don't see why I keep coming back here.Starlighter did you ever think of yourself as a mad woman!
Starlighter:lol NOPE!! ahahahahah well I luv u too Sesshy BUT ANYWAYZ I have with me another chappie!!! YAY!!! I hope you all likey this one!!!
Sesshy: She does not own Inuyasha nor any of the charecters.Thankfully
Starlighter: Thanks Sesshy!!(mean...)
MY PAST SHOULD NEVER HAVE BEEN BROUGHT UP.
Rin looked up to look at her father standing tall in the doorway. He looked disconnected from reality, a far away look in his eyes clouded by memory. A deep fog blinding him inside."Daddy?" Rin said softly returning him from his train of thoughts and memories. "Rin, let's go, I have work to do at home. I'm sure Ms. Higurashi has work to do also." He said in a cold pained voice. He did not bother to look at his daughter as she slowly stood up from Kagome's embrace and gathered her things.
"Kagome do you have a tissue?" Rin asked sniffling a little in between her words. Kagome nodded pointed her in the direction of a small pink box and said "Over there." When Kagome looked back at Sesshomaru she noticed he hadn't moved a muscle. His gaze was still concentrated on her, with so many questions at the tip of his tongue yet he did not ask at them at that moment. You could say he was still in shock at what his daughter had confessed to a person whom he had only aquanted a few months ago. True he had begun to trust her more and more, but he did not think it appropriate for his daughter to confess such emotional and personal matters to her yet. Especially since Rin had not even opened up to him over such a thing before.
Now came the doubt in his head whether or not his daughter truly trusted him.Perhaps it was the female closure Kagome provided for her that he did not. Perhaps it was a female bondage no matter how close the father, a close female would always find a way in. Or perhaps it was the likeness in the situation he had described to Kagome over the phone that alerted his daughters senses and caused her to have an emotional breakdown. "Sesshomaru? Are you alright? " Kagome had begun to feel uncomfortable under his cold stare that she just had to put an end to it. "I'm fine Kagome."
"You don't look it. Are you sure? You could have asked me to bring the munchkin home for you?" She tried to lighten the matters a bit but it didn't seem to work."No, It's quite alright. I couldn't ask another favor among all the other favors I have asked of you.I appreciate it though. Come on Rin, the car is waiting." Rin came running back from accross the room waved goodbye to Kagome and quickly dissapeared out the doorway. "Till next time Kagome." Sesshomaru nodded his head in farwell and walked out the door.
"Till next time.....Sesshomaru" Kagome whispered to herself. She wondered why he had suddenly acted that way. Rin had only opened up to her about emotions she had been keeping in. It was clear that through Rin's happy face there was so much left unsaid.So much that Rin needed to let it out, if not to her father, a currently busy man, then at least to her. She knew that she did not speak of such to her young peers because at their age they would not understand her. Rin had no choice but to confide in her. "I hope they will be ok...." Kagome said to herself outloud. She then got up and gathered her purse and papers then headed for the doorway to close the door and lock it. She walked silently to her car in deep thought, searching for her keys when she heard a familiar voice behind her.
"Hello Kagome, how have you been?" She turned around to meet the wild fiery eyes of an old friend. A man, whom she use to love deeply with all her heart. The man to whom her heart wrote poetry in the books of her soul whenever she thought of her hapiness with him. Until one day it ended. The day he met her cousin Kikyo. "Hello Inuyasha. I'm doing quite fine thank you. And how are you and my cousin Kikyo doing?" She asked with false hapiness, and a fake smiling face much like Rin's.
At the mention of her name she came up behind Inuyasha and linked her arms with his.' Answers my question' Kagome thought bitterly."Hi dearest cousin. I trust you have been fairing well." said Kikyo sarcastically well aware of what she had done eight years ago.Since then they hadn't seen each other but since Inuyasha had to come visit his brother she thought 'Might as well go ruin my cousins dear life once again.'
Kikyo had always detested her cusins for reasons inknown to all those who knew her. Ever since they were little she had always picked on her, always ridiculed her. Mocking her in anyway she could. On Kagome's eighteenth birthday she had gone to visit her. There at her party she met Inuyasha Kagome's current boyfriend. To ruin Kagome's life she had devised the plan to steal Inuyasha away. During her plan, the flaw was, she fell in love with him. In the end succeding in her taking him for her own.
They exchanged glares and Kagome turned to her car fially finding the key and getting in. From her seat she rolled down her window and poked her head out a little. "I trust you have your own ride Kikyo, Inuyasha. You can follow my car to my apartment building if you wish unless you already have a decent hotel to arrive to.One thing I will tell you, if you do not have a ride you will have to wait for me here to pick you up because my car is packed and your dainty form and his own will not fit." She looked up at them and saw a glare from her and a smirk from Inuyasha.
Somehow through the years they had become friends again, but eventhough he thought it was going well between them to her it was not so. "I do have a ride for your information. But thanks for the offer. We will follow your car to your apartment, since we have you I did not think I should waste my money on a hotel. I hear they are poorly mantained around here." Kikyo said annoyingly. They began to walk towards a red Honda Civic with tainted windows. Kagome watched them get in and began to back her car up to exit the parking lot.
Once they were side to side, the red Honda Civic rolled the car window down and Kagome expecting Kikyo was surprised to see Inuyasha. Kagome knew Kikyo never liked to drive, 'it adds stress to you causing the growth of grey hair and wrinkles in your face' Kikyo would always say."Nice car Kag, what is it?" Inuyasha asked. Kagome knew he knew about cars but he did it just to spite her pointing out that she might not even know what her car was. Considering in high school she was clueless when it came to cars." It's a Mustang Gt. Why do you ask? Did you forget your cars Inuyasha?" she said sarcastically. He gave a face of surprise and put his hand to his chest feigning hurt. "I did not. Just wanted to know if you knew what your model was." he said grinning and chuckling a bit. "Can we go now?!" Kikyo asked from her seat.At this Kagome put the stick into drive and headed home with her visitors behind her.
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Arriving at the driveway Inuyasha noticed the apartment buildings number and realized this was were his brother lived. "Hey Kikyo, my brother lives here!" Inuyasha exclaimed. Kikyo rolled her eyes, "Excellent now I don't have to drive more than once!" she said acting like a school girl. "You know Kikyo, if you did not want to come you didn't have to. I don't see why you always have to act like that." Inuyasha said in a seroius voice. "Gee honey I was just pointing out the obvious. Besides you know your not really mad at me." Inuyasha rolled his eyes at her comment and even wondered ' How do I put with her?'
Kagome pulled up beside them and told them to park in her space and she would park in her extra space. They nodded and did as she instructed.
They were climbing up the stairs when Kikyo began to complain as to why they hadn't taken the elevator. Kagome simply answered that she could have taken it if she wanted she just preffered to climb the stairs as excercise. She also pointed out that they didn't have to take the same ways up to her floor as she did. Kikyo argued that she didn't know the floor where as Kagome answered that they could've asked. It was irritating the entire way up so Kagome began climbing two steps at a time to get away from her whining.
When they arrived at her apartment Sesshomaru was taking out the trash. Inuyasha saw his brother and began walking towards him. Kikyo and Kagome followed. At the site of his brother Sesshomaru 'good evening Kagome' smile turned into a frown. " Nice to see you again Sesshomaru." Inuyasha said in a sarcastic tone with a strait face. Kikyo just smiled falsley and Kagome looked in shock at the two of them. Even though she had noticed similarities between them before she never knew they were brothers. "Why have you come Inuyasha?'' Sesshomaru asked coldly. "Keh. I love you too. Father has been asking about you. He asked me to send you some important papers.I will hand them to you tommorrow." Inuyasha informed him. "Why didn't he just mail them?'' Sesshomaru asked. "He said they were too important to be mailed. For your eyes only he said. Well goodnight brother. Until tommorrow." Sesshomaru gave a small nod and turned to face Kagome.
"I will come back in a few minutes." she whispered to him. He nodded and headed downstairs to dispose of his trash.Kagome turned and escorted her guests to her apartment. She let them in and showed them the guest bedroom. She also showed them to the kitchen, were at Inuyasha's request, she showed them were the ramen was.Once they were settled in she let them unpack alone and headed towards her door. "Were are you going Kag?" Inuyasha asked stopping her from leaving. "I left my stuff in the car I will be back." She said smiling and turned to leave.
She didn't know why she just lied but she did. She finally headed out took her keys and started for Sesshomaru's apartment. She knocked on the door quietly knowing that Rin was either in bed or being tucked in. Kagome had no idea how fast time flew but it was currently 8:49 or so her wrist watch said. Sesshomaru opened the door and let her in. He motioned for her to enter their living room and asked if she wanted anything to drink. "Uhm....Do you have hot chocolate?" she asked with a half smile. He nodded and said, " I will be right back then." While he went to the kitchen she looked around and noticed nothing was out of the ordinary. Nothing had changed of it's position since they moved, and to her it looked quite boring now.
He came back with hot chocolate in two mugs and a plate with four slices neatly organized of cheese cake. "So why have you come this late?" He asked still in that cold tone of earlier. "Sesshomaru I needed to talk to you about Rin." He sat down next to her a little apart to face her setting down the mugs and plate." What about Rin. is she having difficulties in school?" He asked. "No, it's just. You never mentioned or never do mention anything about her...mom...What happened today was.....unexpected. Especially when referring to Rin. Do you ever....talk to her...about what happened?" Sesshomaru was still.
He didn't know what to say. He hadn't really talked about it.To him it had always been too painful to talk about Rin's mother. So he shook his head. "Well, I think you should. I think it would be best for both of you to discuss among each other. That way you take a load off eachother's shoulder's. It-" she was cut off when Sesshomaru began." What happened today was out of anyone's control. I know I probably should have thought about what I said to you over the phone twice but it was unintentional. I was not even aware the she remembered that much. Nevertheless, Kagome, my past should never have been brought up. As to your ideas of speaking amongst eachother about that incident, I think she is far too young to be able to discuss this openly. I also must ask for your forgivness to her sudden outburst it was not very lady-like of her to do so."
Kagome looked at him in surprise.After all the months of getting to know each other like the back of their hands she had never heard him like this. She never expected him to act like this with her either. "So what you are saying is that you don't trust me with your past? That I am unworthy of knowing what your daughter feels about her mother? You know what you really need to talk to her about it! She is old enough to understand what you feel about her mother! She understands! And to me I think she knows how to cope with it more than you do! So forgive me for my honesty, but if you are not giong to talk to her about it you should talk to someone about it. Clearly you need to express yourself to someone as much as she does. If not me than your brother or someone else!" He looked up at her now standing form with a bit of anger himself. "My brother would never understand! He doesn't even know what true love is! Besides he and I detest eachother. As for talking about it with you I do not open myself much to anyone not about that at least. You should know that!"
She looked at him hurt tears forming in her eyes. She bowed her head so he could not see her cry. "So you don't trust me. Fine!" She said lowly and ran out the door. He looked at where she ran out and suddenly felt guilty very guilty. It was true though he never opened himself to anyone about that for one single reason. He did not want to lose that person and then have no one to talk to about deep things with ever again. Just like his wife, once he had opened himself to her......he lost her....
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Well wow!!! That was a long one!!! lol well I hope you likey and sorry for the Kikyo bashing but it is necessary for this story! I promise I will try to update soon so gomen for taking this long.
Sesshy: Why am I so sentimental? That is not like me at all!
Starlighter: u.u *sigh* Sesshy keep in mind that this is a FICTION STORY!! I can do with you whatever I want! lol hehheheheh
Sesshy: I don't appreciate the way you are laughing.
Starlighter: Oh just pondering what I will do with you in the later chapters! MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA lol ok PEEPS don't forget to review!! ARIGATOU FOR READING AND PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE REVIEW!!!!!!!
Sesshy: I don't see why I keep coming back here.Starlighter did you ever think of yourself as a mad woman!
Starlighter:lol NOPE!! ahahahahah well I luv u too Sesshy BUT ANYWAYZ I have with me another chappie!!! YAY!!! I hope you all likey this one!!!
Sesshy: She does not own Inuyasha nor any of the charecters.Thankfully
Starlighter: Thanks Sesshy!!(mean...)
MY PAST SHOULD NEVER HAVE BEEN BROUGHT UP.
Rin looked up to look at her father standing tall in the doorway. He looked disconnected from reality, a far away look in his eyes clouded by memory. A deep fog blinding him inside."Daddy?" Rin said softly returning him from his train of thoughts and memories. "Rin, let's go, I have work to do at home. I'm sure Ms. Higurashi has work to do also." He said in a cold pained voice. He did not bother to look at his daughter as she slowly stood up from Kagome's embrace and gathered her things.
"Kagome do you have a tissue?" Rin asked sniffling a little in between her words. Kagome nodded pointed her in the direction of a small pink box and said "Over there." When Kagome looked back at Sesshomaru she noticed he hadn't moved a muscle. His gaze was still concentrated on her, with so many questions at the tip of his tongue yet he did not ask at them at that moment. You could say he was still in shock at what his daughter had confessed to a person whom he had only aquanted a few months ago. True he had begun to trust her more and more, but he did not think it appropriate for his daughter to confess such emotional and personal matters to her yet. Especially since Rin had not even opened up to him over such a thing before.
Now came the doubt in his head whether or not his daughter truly trusted him.Perhaps it was the female closure Kagome provided for her that he did not. Perhaps it was a female bondage no matter how close the father, a close female would always find a way in. Or perhaps it was the likeness in the situation he had described to Kagome over the phone that alerted his daughters senses and caused her to have an emotional breakdown. "Sesshomaru? Are you alright? " Kagome had begun to feel uncomfortable under his cold stare that she just had to put an end to it. "I'm fine Kagome."
"You don't look it. Are you sure? You could have asked me to bring the munchkin home for you?" She tried to lighten the matters a bit but it didn't seem to work."No, It's quite alright. I couldn't ask another favor among all the other favors I have asked of you.I appreciate it though. Come on Rin, the car is waiting." Rin came running back from accross the room waved goodbye to Kagome and quickly dissapeared out the doorway. "Till next time Kagome." Sesshomaru nodded his head in farwell and walked out the door.
"Till next time.....Sesshomaru" Kagome whispered to herself. She wondered why he had suddenly acted that way. Rin had only opened up to her about emotions she had been keeping in. It was clear that through Rin's happy face there was so much left unsaid.So much that Rin needed to let it out, if not to her father, a currently busy man, then at least to her. She knew that she did not speak of such to her young peers because at their age they would not understand her. Rin had no choice but to confide in her. "I hope they will be ok...." Kagome said to herself outloud. She then got up and gathered her purse and papers then headed for the doorway to close the door and lock it. She walked silently to her car in deep thought, searching for her keys when she heard a familiar voice behind her.
"Hello Kagome, how have you been?" She turned around to meet the wild fiery eyes of an old friend. A man, whom she use to love deeply with all her heart. The man to whom her heart wrote poetry in the books of her soul whenever she thought of her hapiness with him. Until one day it ended. The day he met her cousin Kikyo. "Hello Inuyasha. I'm doing quite fine thank you. And how are you and my cousin Kikyo doing?" She asked with false hapiness, and a fake smiling face much like Rin's.
At the mention of her name she came up behind Inuyasha and linked her arms with his.' Answers my question' Kagome thought bitterly."Hi dearest cousin. I trust you have been fairing well." said Kikyo sarcastically well aware of what she had done eight years ago.Since then they hadn't seen each other but since Inuyasha had to come visit his brother she thought 'Might as well go ruin my cousins dear life once again.'
Kikyo had always detested her cusins for reasons inknown to all those who knew her. Ever since they were little she had always picked on her, always ridiculed her. Mocking her in anyway she could. On Kagome's eighteenth birthday she had gone to visit her. There at her party she met Inuyasha Kagome's current boyfriend. To ruin Kagome's life she had devised the plan to steal Inuyasha away. During her plan, the flaw was, she fell in love with him. In the end succeding in her taking him for her own.
They exchanged glares and Kagome turned to her car fially finding the key and getting in. From her seat she rolled down her window and poked her head out a little. "I trust you have your own ride Kikyo, Inuyasha. You can follow my car to my apartment building if you wish unless you already have a decent hotel to arrive to.One thing I will tell you, if you do not have a ride you will have to wait for me here to pick you up because my car is packed and your dainty form and his own will not fit." She looked up at them and saw a glare from her and a smirk from Inuyasha.
Somehow through the years they had become friends again, but eventhough he thought it was going well between them to her it was not so. "I do have a ride for your information. But thanks for the offer. We will follow your car to your apartment, since we have you I did not think I should waste my money on a hotel. I hear they are poorly mantained around here." Kikyo said annoyingly. They began to walk towards a red Honda Civic with tainted windows. Kagome watched them get in and began to back her car up to exit the parking lot.
Once they were side to side, the red Honda Civic rolled the car window down and Kagome expecting Kikyo was surprised to see Inuyasha. Kagome knew Kikyo never liked to drive, 'it adds stress to you causing the growth of grey hair and wrinkles in your face' Kikyo would always say."Nice car Kag, what is it?" Inuyasha asked. Kagome knew he knew about cars but he did it just to spite her pointing out that she might not even know what her car was. Considering in high school she was clueless when it came to cars." It's a Mustang Gt. Why do you ask? Did you forget your cars Inuyasha?" she said sarcastically. He gave a face of surprise and put his hand to his chest feigning hurt. "I did not. Just wanted to know if you knew what your model was." he said grinning and chuckling a bit. "Can we go now?!" Kikyo asked from her seat.At this Kagome put the stick into drive and headed home with her visitors behind her.
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Arriving at the driveway Inuyasha noticed the apartment buildings number and realized this was were his brother lived. "Hey Kikyo, my brother lives here!" Inuyasha exclaimed. Kikyo rolled her eyes, "Excellent now I don't have to drive more than once!" she said acting like a school girl. "You know Kikyo, if you did not want to come you didn't have to. I don't see why you always have to act like that." Inuyasha said in a seroius voice. "Gee honey I was just pointing out the obvious. Besides you know your not really mad at me." Inuyasha rolled his eyes at her comment and even wondered ' How do I put with her?'
Kagome pulled up beside them and told them to park in her space and she would park in her extra space. They nodded and did as she instructed.
They were climbing up the stairs when Kikyo began to complain as to why they hadn't taken the elevator. Kagome simply answered that she could have taken it if she wanted she just preffered to climb the stairs as excercise. She also pointed out that they didn't have to take the same ways up to her floor as she did. Kikyo argued that she didn't know the floor where as Kagome answered that they could've asked. It was irritating the entire way up so Kagome began climbing two steps at a time to get away from her whining.
When they arrived at her apartment Sesshomaru was taking out the trash. Inuyasha saw his brother and began walking towards him. Kikyo and Kagome followed. At the site of his brother Sesshomaru 'good evening Kagome' smile turned into a frown. " Nice to see you again Sesshomaru." Inuyasha said in a sarcastic tone with a strait face. Kikyo just smiled falsley and Kagome looked in shock at the two of them. Even though she had noticed similarities between them before she never knew they were brothers. "Why have you come Inuyasha?'' Sesshomaru asked coldly. "Keh. I love you too. Father has been asking about you. He asked me to send you some important papers.I will hand them to you tommorrow." Inuyasha informed him. "Why didn't he just mail them?'' Sesshomaru asked. "He said they were too important to be mailed. For your eyes only he said. Well goodnight brother. Until tommorrow." Sesshomaru gave a small nod and turned to face Kagome.
"I will come back in a few minutes." she whispered to him. He nodded and headed downstairs to dispose of his trash.Kagome turned and escorted her guests to her apartment. She let them in and showed them the guest bedroom. She also showed them to the kitchen, were at Inuyasha's request, she showed them were the ramen was.Once they were settled in she let them unpack alone and headed towards her door. "Were are you going Kag?" Inuyasha asked stopping her from leaving. "I left my stuff in the car I will be back." She said smiling and turned to leave.
She didn't know why she just lied but she did. She finally headed out took her keys and started for Sesshomaru's apartment. She knocked on the door quietly knowing that Rin was either in bed or being tucked in. Kagome had no idea how fast time flew but it was currently 8:49 or so her wrist watch said. Sesshomaru opened the door and let her in. He motioned for her to enter their living room and asked if she wanted anything to drink. "Uhm....Do you have hot chocolate?" she asked with a half smile. He nodded and said, " I will be right back then." While he went to the kitchen she looked around and noticed nothing was out of the ordinary. Nothing had changed of it's position since they moved, and to her it looked quite boring now.
He came back with hot chocolate in two mugs and a plate with four slices neatly organized of cheese cake. "So why have you come this late?" He asked still in that cold tone of earlier. "Sesshomaru I needed to talk to you about Rin." He sat down next to her a little apart to face her setting down the mugs and plate." What about Rin. is she having difficulties in school?" He asked. "No, it's just. You never mentioned or never do mention anything about her...mom...What happened today was.....unexpected. Especially when referring to Rin. Do you ever....talk to her...about what happened?" Sesshomaru was still.
He didn't know what to say. He hadn't really talked about it.To him it had always been too painful to talk about Rin's mother. So he shook his head. "Well, I think you should. I think it would be best for both of you to discuss among each other. That way you take a load off eachother's shoulder's. It-" she was cut off when Sesshomaru began." What happened today was out of anyone's control. I know I probably should have thought about what I said to you over the phone twice but it was unintentional. I was not even aware the she remembered that much. Nevertheless, Kagome, my past should never have been brought up. As to your ideas of speaking amongst eachother about that incident, I think she is far too young to be able to discuss this openly. I also must ask for your forgivness to her sudden outburst it was not very lady-like of her to do so."
Kagome looked at him in surprise.After all the months of getting to know each other like the back of their hands she had never heard him like this. She never expected him to act like this with her either. "So what you are saying is that you don't trust me with your past? That I am unworthy of knowing what your daughter feels about her mother? You know what you really need to talk to her about it! She is old enough to understand what you feel about her mother! She understands! And to me I think she knows how to cope with it more than you do! So forgive me for my honesty, but if you are not giong to talk to her about it you should talk to someone about it. Clearly you need to express yourself to someone as much as she does. If not me than your brother or someone else!" He looked up at her now standing form with a bit of anger himself. "My brother would never understand! He doesn't even know what true love is! Besides he and I detest eachother. As for talking about it with you I do not open myself much to anyone not about that at least. You should know that!"
She looked at him hurt tears forming in her eyes. She bowed her head so he could not see her cry. "So you don't trust me. Fine!" She said lowly and ran out the door. He looked at where she ran out and suddenly felt guilty very guilty. It was true though he never opened himself to anyone about that for one single reason. He did not want to lose that person and then have no one to talk to about deep things with ever again. Just like his wife, once he had opened himself to her......he lost her....
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Well wow!!! That was a long one!!! lol well I hope you likey and sorry for the Kikyo bashing but it is necessary for this story! I promise I will try to update soon so gomen for taking this long.
Sesshy: Why am I so sentimental? That is not like me at all!
Starlighter: u.u *sigh* Sesshy keep in mind that this is a FICTION STORY!! I can do with you whatever I want! lol hehheheheh
Sesshy: I don't appreciate the way you are laughing.
Starlighter: Oh just pondering what I will do with you in the later chapters! MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA lol ok PEEPS don't forget to review!! ARIGATOU FOR READING AND PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE REVIEW!!!!!!!