Authors note! Skip this if you want.

Is this how you do this? It's my first time writing one of these so I'm not quite sure. Anyways, hello. I'm AiriMage, but I'd prefer to just be called Airi for short. I'll keep my message here brief as I can. First off, I've yet to read light novel volumes 15-19, so a lot of the information I have comes from the wiki, and the original Re:Forgotten story, however, I will be picking up the 15th to 19th volumes tomorrow and binging them quickly, for hopefully improved quality. Second, this is my first time writing a story, ever, so this story is probably terrible, or who knows, maybe I have a knack for this and just can't see it. Either way, just want to say if you do read this, thank you, and I'll happily look at any criticism or suggestions given to me. Hopefully I'll absorb what I can like a sponge and bounce back with something better than before! Right, last thing. Not truly sure what kind of upload schedule I'm going to have, my burst of inspiration come and go with everything, but at the least, I'll do my best to not leave you hanging too long for those that do happen to enjoy this story. Anyways, I'll leave you to your reading now!

Chapter 1: Natsuki Subaru's Change

Pain

Pain, Pain, and more Pain, all Subaru can ever feel feel is PAIN.

Over and over and over and over and over every inch of Subaru's body is reduced to a painful, bloody mess, only to be healed again and again and again and again and again and-

"Huff… Hu…" Subaru tries to take deep breathes, however painful they are, to stabilize his mind. As he glances up, arms bound in shackles above his head, Subaru sees the face of the one who's put him in such torturous pain the past two weeks.

Felix, a cross dressing cat boy who seems to have a torture fetish, and the greatest "healer," given the title of the blue knight. Using his water magic, he repeatedly fries Subaru's nerves over and over and over again, healing Subaru only to break him further.

Placing his hand against Subaru's chest, Felix opens his mouth and says

"Ya know, this'll all be over if you just tell Ferri-Chan how to cure Crush-Sama, Subaru-Kyun" With a devilish smirk on his face and happy town, showing just how much the torturous cat boy is obviously enjoying this.

'As if I'd tell you even if I knew, you devil-like cat bastard.'

Of course, Subaru doesn't have the answers Felix wants, and not knowing the answers to Felix's inquiries, and being in so much pain that he's been barely left with the ability to speak, he can only respond with-

"Told… you… I know nothi- AAAGGGHHH!"

Pain. Subaru can once again only scream out as pain floods through every inch of his body from every nerve being slowly and meticulously vaporized by Felix's magic.

"Now Now, Subaru-Kyun, you know that's not the answer Ferri-Chan want's, don't you?" Felix says, a cold expression now adorning his shockingly cute face. Subaru, left in a pitiful state, can only pant as he once again feels his body melding back together. Slowly, the darkness begins to set in as the pain of it all is too much for his mind, until finally, he's sleeping. Only…

"AHHHHH" Once again, his nerves have been fried. Once again, Natsuki Subaru is not permitted even a simple rest. Once again, he's healed, and again, he's hurt, the only thing left for him to do is glare in protest. But even that is only met with more pain.

'How long? How long has this been going on for? How long ago was I placed within this cell?' Subaru can't help but think to himself. '2 weeks… at least, that's how much time seems to have passed without including return by death in there. If you include the time in which I've returned by death…' Subaru couldn't help but shutter just thinking about it, only to be alerted at the sound of footsteps entering the cell.

"Ferris, it's time to switch." called the Greatest Knight. Julius, that purple haired bastard.

'Greatest Knight my ass, more like Greatest Shit Bag' Subaru couldn't help but resentfully think, only… 'No No No! It's not his fault, it's gluttonies! I can't let myself start hating him, or else when memories of me come back… if… memories of me come back- NO! Don't fall into such depressing thoughts! I'm certain they'll come back; they have to come back. That's right… Emilia-Tan is probably out there right now trying to cut down gluttony! Surely…' Subaru, trying to stay positive, hopelessly tried to convince himself. Deep down however, he knows it's simply a false outlook he's made to comfort himself, to keep some semblance of a hold on his sanity.

"Aww, and Subaru-Kyun and I were just getting along so well, right?" Felix says, winking at Subaru before handing off the stage to Julius.

Subaru watched in fear and partial relief as Felix left the cell, now replaced with Julius standing in his place.

"Tell me how to bring back the memories of me and my brother, and I promise you an escape from this torture, Archbishop Natsuki Subaru." Julius proclaimed, a coldness in his eyes that wasn't present even during their duel. The only thing Subaru could do was…

"pfft." Scoff at him. Stating Julius down, unmasked pain in Subaru's eyes with hatred even he isn't quite aware is there yet emanating from his very body. Subaru closes his eyes and braces for another beating, another dea…

"Bright…" Subaru can't help but murmur, as the early morning light peers through his cell. For some odd reason, Subaru feels healthier than he usually does at the start of his loops, stronger, too. Along with that '…my gate?' He notices quite the strange occurrence. 'Why do I feel like more mana's flowing through it? As Subaru closed his eyes and begins focusing on his gate, he notices some of the damage has been healed. Even if that damage is only the smallest of differences, simply going from something as minor as being able to intake 1% of his previously maximum amount of mana to 2%, it still brings a spark of hope into his eyes. 'Is this why I feel stronger, because I have more mana circulating through my body?'

It's at that moment CLANG "Hello, Subaru-Kyun, I see your up bright and early this morning, aren't you? Ferri-Chan's happy to see that Ya'know? It means we've got that much more time to play together! Maybe today will be the day you tell me how to cure Crush-Sama?"

Subaru felt the same terror he's been feeling these past two weeks surge through his body yet again. Attempting to distance himself away from Felix using his feet, attempting to escape from the horror known to him as Felix, Subaru ends up propped against the wall, unable to move any further due to the chains binding his hands above his head. So, he resorted to his usual tactic-

"H-Hey, Felix, please! We were friends once! I-I-I don't know how to cure Crusch, I swear!" -pleading. However, of course, such a thing never works. Subaru can only watch as Felix expression turns into absolutely demonic rage.

"You DARE utter my lady's name with that filthy mouth of yours, sin archbishop?! It seems like nyor in need of some extra guidance."

Subaru's eyes can only widen in absolute terror as Felix slowly pulls out a bucket, a very familiar bucket, a terrifying, horrible, molten metal filled bucket that causes agony worse than any death. "FELIX PLEASE NO NO NO I'M SORRY, SORRY, NO SOR- gurgle" a horrifying sound, left in place of Subaru's screams. His body spasms as the hot, liquid metal slowly slides down his throat, scorching every inch of him, causing him to flail more and more from the horrible pain of it all, until finally, it hits his stomach, sitting there, slowly burning a hole through it before pouring out onto the floor.

Once again, Subaru Natsuki feels his mind and body break apart, only for Felix to come by and fix one of the two, his body put back together again, while his mind is given no rest. Like this… two more weeks pass.

Two weeks later.

Natsuki Subaru, sporting a new hair color, which happens to resemble a certain purple eyed, silver haired half elf he loves with all his heart, and a cold, somewhat expressionless face, sits in his cell. By this point he's died an additional 4 times, and yet, he's slowly started to embrace these deaths, the reason is…

'My gate… if it was at a 2% intake a few weeks ago, it's now skyrocketed to a whole 16%… Is it continuously doubling every death? So will it skyrocket up to 32% next death? my body as well, I feel like if I tried, I might just be able to snap these chains off my hands, but the problem with that is…' lightly hitting the wall with his elbow, Natsuki Subaru can tell he can't yet break it. If he tried, he'd likely break his arms. Seems he's still got a ways to go, but for now, it's not too much of a problem, after all, he's getting stronger.

'Hmm, as for the reason why I'm getting stronger, is it return by death like I thought? But why is it suddenly making me stronger every time I die? Did Satella do something? No, it doesn't feel like that. Then… did my authority somehow change? Is that something that can happen? '

As he was thinking, Subaru heard the door open with a clank, and a tired looking Julius enters the room, and begins to speak "So, are you ready to speak yet, Sin Archbishop?" Says Julius, with his usual Knightly Demeanor somewhat fading.

Subaru decides to mess around a little, since nothing's going to change anyways "Sure, Juli, I'd just loveeee to have a little talk between us good friends, since you've so kindly invited me to." Subaru responds with the best fake smile he can muster, and a little fake chuckle.

Julius, looking on in absolute disgust, says "Don't call me a friend, you cultist fiend. There's no possible way I'd ever consider a cultist such as yourself a friend." Subaru, in response, can only break out into unrestrained laugher, partially deranged yet incredibly sad laugher.

"HAHAHAHA, HAHAhaha…ha… that's right, you'd never be friends with someone like me? Ah man, you're sooo right…" Subaru, with a roll of his eyes and a self-deprecating smile, then simply looks up and Julius and says, "sorry, seems like I'm still being a bit too foolish, calling us friends and all." A hint of spite can be heard in his tone.

Julius can only sigh seeing the archbishops state, and begins to say, "That expression on your face shows just how tired you are, so why not give up the information we want so you'll be free from all this torment?" Subaru can only frown and glare as he says "because I've told you a million times, I don't know anything Julius. I don't know about your brother, or how to get your memories back, or how to heal crush. If I knew that, do you still think I'd be sitting in this fucking cell!? With EVERYONE having forgotten me, being beat da- UGH!"

Subaru's forced to stop his rant as Julius wooden sword slams into his stomach, hard enough to force him to throw up last nights, frankly disguising, dinner. Hacking it all up, Subaru can only stare at the floor, a distant look on his face, before he snaps back to reality just before the wooden sword smacks him across the face "UGH- AGH, BLEGH, WAI- AHH" over and over he's beat, his bones broken, eyes cut, face smashed, mind broken, and yet, it doesn't hurt nearly as much as it used to. Subaru could feel it, his pain tolerance has increased again…

Glancing up at Julius, resigned, Subaru could only sigh as he laid there in a pool of his own blood, sweat, tears and vomit. Subaru watched as Julius exited the room, only to come back in moments later with Felix in toe. Leaning down, Felix, with a twisted smile, placed his hand down upon Subaru, and began healing him, however… "AGHH!" While still being healed, Julius begins to beat Subaru once again. For hours upon hours this pattern repeatedly. Occasionally, Felix will give a nice little shock to Subaru's nerves for some of his own amusement. By the end of it all, after Felix and Julius have both left, Subaru can only stare at the ceiling, signs of actual thought only coming back to him hours later.

Heaving a deep sigh, Subaru once again focuses on his gate as he slowly sits up.

'Magic… last time I used it, my gate was destroyed. Can I do it properly this time?… if I mess up here, I might alert the Knights…' Subaru thinks to himself, as he gently pushes one of his hands forward as much as he can with the bindings on. 'Small burst… like a water droplet…' "Shamak" Subaru whispers under his breath, and as he does… ploof! A small plume of smoke made from darkness comes from the palm of his hand before quickly disappearing. Subaru can't help but smirk in satisfaction as an excitement he'd though he lost a long time ago courses through his body. 'I can do this… I can do this! I CAN DO THIS!' Screaming within his mind as a way to cool his excitement and give himself encouragement, he once again begins practicing. "Shamak. Shamak. Shamak- Agh!" He feels his gate groan in protest against the spell. Checking his gate, Subaru notices he's out of mana already.

"Just that small amount left me drained?… seems like this'll be more difficult than I thought." Taking a deep breath, Subaru breathes in the air, focusing on absorbing more and more mana. Like this, the next week passes in a loop of casting and replenishing at night, while being healed and tortured during the day...

More Authors Notes!

So, hello again! This is a quick little pop in to ask if you'd enjoy a certain something or not. See, to keep consistent character strength's, I keep a little status sheet for each major character I write. Just wondering if anyone would be interested in seeing such a thing at the end of the chapters? They wouldn't be something any of the characters see, but just a little something for reader convenience. Anyways, that's all, see ya next time!