Jack sat silently watching her sleep in his arms.
He'd missed almost six weeks of this and after the trip back to the base in little over four hours he'd miss even more, perhaps even a lifetime.
Tomorrow they were leaving, going to stay with Jacob apparently so he had told it indefinitely and either he, Selmac or indeed both of them wanted to hold Jack responsible, so much that Jacob had even planned a little 'accident' with an elevator to get him to 'talk'.
The snake makes Jacob the wisest guy going been stuck in an elevator for over an hour with him and he'll get ya facing some home truths no problem. We even dealt with the 'caring' issues the dream and if he didn't before he now knows exactly what his daughter means to Jack O'Neill
Jacob or the snake did a pretty good shrink job to basically this whole situation exists because of blame.
He's never truly forgiven himself for Charlie, probably never would. In the 'dream' he left the military way of life, allows personal feelings to surface eventually resulting in a new life, but that life came at an expense because of the one time he wasn't there to protect. So second time around a new chance, he takes the 'not caring' road believing it best because 'caring' always hurts those around him.
Four hours that's all the time he had left to fix things, to take the last six weeks back and start again. It wasn't easy in all honesty he knew she was leaving because of him, because she knew about Connor and about 'them'.
Maybe it would be easier if she did go at least for a little while given all that's happened over the months it might be safer even on a Tok'ra base. SG-1 wouldn't exist any more though and that ultimately would be his fault. Although as things stood right now SG-1 hadn't existed since Alex's arrival and most definitely since she came home.
Sure they talked, everyone pitched in to help Carter out excluding himself, anything either of them needed someone was there to lend a hand, which is likely why all the bodies in the house right now apart from his were sound asleep burnt out with exhaustion and why he was left holding the baby. If Teal'c wasn't visiting Ry'ac it might have been a completely different story though.
Sitting watching her at that moment he didn't mind having her with him he couldn't and never had hated her for what or who she was even when her existence turned his life or what he hoped was his upside down. He just couldn't forget and that's why things had to be how they were.
Given time he could probably shut it out so he could be there with the others watching her grow, do the kid stuff, in the way he told Sam not so long ago. It would be a long road back, but saying 'sorry' to Sam before she left was the least he could do.
He'd missed almost six weeks of this and after the trip back to the base in little over four hours he'd miss even more, perhaps even a lifetime.
Tomorrow they were leaving, going to stay with Jacob apparently so he had told it indefinitely and either he, Selmac or indeed both of them wanted to hold Jack responsible, so much that Jacob had even planned a little 'accident' with an elevator to get him to 'talk'.
The snake makes Jacob the wisest guy going been stuck in an elevator for over an hour with him and he'll get ya facing some home truths no problem. We even dealt with the 'caring' issues the dream and if he didn't before he now knows exactly what his daughter means to Jack O'Neill
Jacob or the snake did a pretty good shrink job to basically this whole situation exists because of blame.
He's never truly forgiven himself for Charlie, probably never would. In the 'dream' he left the military way of life, allows personal feelings to surface eventually resulting in a new life, but that life came at an expense because of the one time he wasn't there to protect. So second time around a new chance, he takes the 'not caring' road believing it best because 'caring' always hurts those around him.
Four hours that's all the time he had left to fix things, to take the last six weeks back and start again. It wasn't easy in all honesty he knew she was leaving because of him, because she knew about Connor and about 'them'.
Maybe it would be easier if she did go at least for a little while given all that's happened over the months it might be safer even on a Tok'ra base. SG-1 wouldn't exist any more though and that ultimately would be his fault. Although as things stood right now SG-1 hadn't existed since Alex's arrival and most definitely since she came home.
Sure they talked, everyone pitched in to help Carter out excluding himself, anything either of them needed someone was there to lend a hand, which is likely why all the bodies in the house right now apart from his were sound asleep burnt out with exhaustion and why he was left holding the baby. If Teal'c wasn't visiting Ry'ac it might have been a completely different story though.
Sitting watching her at that moment he didn't mind having her with him he couldn't and never had hated her for what or who she was even when her existence turned his life or what he hoped was his upside down. He just couldn't forget and that's why things had to be how they were.
Given time he could probably shut it out so he could be there with the others watching her grow, do the kid stuff, in the way he told Sam not so long ago. It would be a long road back, but saying 'sorry' to Sam before she left was the least he could do.