Me: low and behold we are back
Ràuken: yes so quake in fear
Me: This time the is an excuse to the hiatus, do you remember me saying how there was two computers in the house, mine and my dads but we all use it, and mine broke down so I had to switch over to my dads and re-type things, well then my dads computer started getting real screwy and wouldn't let you on the computer, so we took both computers to out neighbor who fixes comps. For a living and finally returned them after a month, he was busy and it was for free so we couldn't really complain.
Ràuken: It's the truth
Me: it is also summer vacation down here n Florida so I should be able to write an update more frequently, though I'm not exactly the fastest typer in the world, what exactly is this home row thing you speak of. So enjoy the chapter, I my sorry about the wait and uh. Oh yes, I don't own anything
Rogue stood in the bathroom, door open to the surprisingly dormant hallway staring at her reflection in the mirror it was midnight and a large part of her wanted to fall into her slumber but the one small part inside you that always seems to be the wisest of all didn't not just yet, only problem about your dream world being full of bliss, you real world seems to be a nightmare in comparison. Rogue peeled of her leather gloves and placed them aside the faucet, she let the cool water, run over her sweaty hands, she splashed some across her face, she gripped the sides of the pedal stall sink as if to keep from falling over.
'I just want it all to end' Rogue thought as she watched the water swirl down the drain. She began wanting to figure out the person of her dreams was so she could turn her real world into her neverland, but as time passed she realized the closet thing to do was make the dreams go away, but I t wouldn't, Rogue had just about quit the search but of course the ever excited Kitty had enough enthusiasm for them both.
In the beginning it was sort of fun, the had successfully crossed some names off the list but two weeks had past Pietro seemed to be tailing them at school for some reason, and Rogue began hating herself for ever starting this whole thing even after names where crossed out she seemed to find some doubt in it all.
Yes her damn mind always had to over complicate everything when it came to dealing with her own problems; Rogue closed her eyes remembering the conversation she had with Kitty in the professor's office only three hours ago
Rogue and Kitty sat wondering exactly why the professor had called them in, though they both had an idea
"It just want you two to know that I know what you guys are doing"
"How?" Kitty asked stupidly receiving a smack upside the head from Rogue
"I am a telepath" the professor replied to and embarrassed Kitty "Don't worry you guys have freewill and have the right to do whatever you wish during your spare time, I just thought there might be a few question you have that I can assist you in answering" this caught their attention
"You see I have known of your dreams for quite a while Rogue, you've sent them out as distress signals on numerous occasions like you did with the Mystique's memory of Kurt, everyone in the institute sends them out once in a while usually just a nightmare nothing to be alarmed of..." rogue felt something clench inside her throat hating herself for sending out her dreams, they were hers and she didn't want to share them
"Rogue, are you listening"
"Huh yes professor"
"Well the reason why you can never remember the person on your dreams is because your mind subconsciously blocks it, for whatever reason you believe that knowing who it is would be worse then not knowing at all"
For some reason this statement did not strike Rogue as weird the Kitty's eyes were now rolling around on the ground well, she wouldn't be surprised if they were
"Rogue your mind is..... your mind is very loud right now" The professor continued "Your distress calls have been growing more rapid, and I feel the best thing you can do is take a break, Rogue unlike some others at our school you have a chance at gaining control, your control should come when you have the strong desire to touch, and just touch, without that layer of fear hiding beneath it, troubling thing is the personalities in your mind do their best to prevent that, they make it so confusing that you sometimes don't know who's thought belongs to whom and can't even realize what YOU'RE thinking" The Professor took a heavy sigh and continued onward "I suggest you take a break, probably a week off from, school, it will do you good, it won't cure you but it should help even if only to ease you"
Rogue couldn't help but let a smile creep in on her face; a week's break was sound nice "If you insist professor"
"Now, Rogue and must ask you to put a good effort into meditation, and just relaxing, you need to sort through your brain"
"Ugh.... Can't I just absorb a secretary?"
"No as a matter of fact the less people you absorb the better or else it will only become more crowded"
"Whatever you say professor, come on Kitty" Rogue pulled the confused girl from her seat towards the door, she was ready to leave, who was she kidding she's been ready since the moment she sat down
"Oh and Rogue" the professor said stopping her in the door frame "If your dreams become really unbearable I could have Hank order pills for a dreamless sleep, though it must be a last resort" Rogue didn't think she need them though it had a drastic downside Rogue enjoyed her dreams it was her source of pain and comfort all at once Yes that damn mind of hers, when she thought about it, it all made sense, what did she expect would happen, nothing that small part of her said
You know the small part that's all the more wiser then the rest of you combined, the part that you can never really tell whether or not it on your side or against you
You don't want to know, the hardest thing is being next to someone you know you can't have, that's why you don't want to know, you're sparing yourself from the pain
"Man I've really fucked things up for myself"
"Ohhh.. RO.OGUE" the o too familiar sound of Kitty's voice rang out "there you are.. Rogue? Are you okay?" Kitty's voice drastically changed from happy to concerned
Rogue was still clutching the sides of the pedal stall as if to keep from falling over facing down, hair cascading downward as well, draping her face
"Kitty please leave."
"Ug, you are soo not going to try and play the whole agnsty... goth... I want to be alone... but wonder why no one can get close to me routine on me... you should like learn by know I'm used to it"
"Kitty please shut up!"
"Come on Rogue I got some more info on project... well you know what we really should create a projection name for easy reference"
"Kitty!" Rogue looked up outraged "Didn't you hear what the professor said, can't the super genius mind of yours put one and one together over the last three hours and realize it over"
"But.. Rogue you can't give up... we need to figure out who it is you love"
"Love??" Rogue scoffed at the word, and all hell broke loose "Look 'love' isn't meant for someone like me, what the hell do expect I'll do embrace him with open arms, be affectionate and kiss him, while I suck his fucking soul out" Rouge yes yelling
"But... the professor said you can control it"
"MIGHT! Might be able too, he said I have a chance just a chance and it will take a while"
"but" kitty was searching for a topic to counteract with even if it was just her get swept up in the argument "well who ever said you had to kiss him love should just be able to withstand the conditions, and if he loved you back he wouldn't care"
"But I can't do that to 'him' I can barely stand not be able to touch my friend and family, this whole think is driving me fucking insane.. and you only making it worse"
.....
"Kitty look I should just know, I should need proof, and a list and multi- colored pens I should just know.. I don't want it to Scott or... or Alex... or half the guys on the list"
"Then who do you want it to be Rogue??"
'Lance' that part inside of Rogue said the one that just finished explain why didn't want to know, and with that it all smack Rogue in the face hard, there was no more making delusions and leading herself down wrong paths and she was right, knowing was a lot worse, so much worse, Rogue glared at Kitty as she filled up with rage at the person who forced her to face the truth she felt her blood boil and before her mind processed what she was doing her fist had connected with Kitty's eye
Rogue walked towards the door but stopped beside Kitty "look Kitty, I'm...." Rogue wanted to say she was sorry but she wasn't, she was sorry that Kitty was clutching her eye in pain, and she was sorry that she'll probably have a nice bruise tomorrow, but she really did want to punch her and she just couldn't apologize "I'm going to bed" and at that Rogue walked down the hallway towards her room shooting death glares at the baffled heads poking out between doors
Kitty stood there a moment taking everything in when she noticed a pair of leather gloves lying beside the faucet "she didn't absorb me" Kitty whispered to herself "...desire" Kitty thought remembering the professors words, she picked the up and carried to them to the night table next to the sleeping form of Rogue, or at least a form of Rogue trying to seem asleep but failing miserably at it.
Kitty lay awake in her bed till she wasn't sure how long, Rogue had finally drifted off to sleep, she seemed to have a peaceful sleep but when she woke up and was pulled out of her dream world she her then tortured Rogue muffle and cry and mutter the words "damn Lance"
âââââââââââââââââââââââââââââââââââââââââââââââââââââââââââ Well that it longest chapter yet I do believe that should make some of you happy I hope though I doubt you'll get over the fact the it took um how many months to get up....?
Yeah the stories turning out much different then originally planned, I guess that's what happens when it takes this long and you some how end up typing the same chapter over and over again due to malfunctioning computers, I'm not sure though if the story adds up Though, I realized how I introduce Pietro into the story and then skipped a week ahead and had him do absolutely nothing, I was thinking about possibly re-writing the earlier chapters but at the pace I'm going at better just get the story finished with, maybe once (I'm more experienced as a writer and still relatively new at this) I might come and make it a better story till then the next chapter has already been poster so click that next chapter button.
Ràuken: clickety, clickety, click [I'm getting lazy when it comes to writing his lines]
Ràuken: yes so quake in fear
Me: This time the is an excuse to the hiatus, do you remember me saying how there was two computers in the house, mine and my dads but we all use it, and mine broke down so I had to switch over to my dads and re-type things, well then my dads computer started getting real screwy and wouldn't let you on the computer, so we took both computers to out neighbor who fixes comps. For a living and finally returned them after a month, he was busy and it was for free so we couldn't really complain.
Ràuken: It's the truth
Me: it is also summer vacation down here n Florida so I should be able to write an update more frequently, though I'm not exactly the fastest typer in the world, what exactly is this home row thing you speak of. So enjoy the chapter, I my sorry about the wait and uh. Oh yes, I don't own anything
Rogue stood in the bathroom, door open to the surprisingly dormant hallway staring at her reflection in the mirror it was midnight and a large part of her wanted to fall into her slumber but the one small part inside you that always seems to be the wisest of all didn't not just yet, only problem about your dream world being full of bliss, you real world seems to be a nightmare in comparison. Rogue peeled of her leather gloves and placed them aside the faucet, she let the cool water, run over her sweaty hands, she splashed some across her face, she gripped the sides of the pedal stall sink as if to keep from falling over.
'I just want it all to end' Rogue thought as she watched the water swirl down the drain. She began wanting to figure out the person of her dreams was so she could turn her real world into her neverland, but as time passed she realized the closet thing to do was make the dreams go away, but I t wouldn't, Rogue had just about quit the search but of course the ever excited Kitty had enough enthusiasm for them both.
In the beginning it was sort of fun, the had successfully crossed some names off the list but two weeks had past Pietro seemed to be tailing them at school for some reason, and Rogue began hating herself for ever starting this whole thing even after names where crossed out she seemed to find some doubt in it all.
Yes her damn mind always had to over complicate everything when it came to dealing with her own problems; Rogue closed her eyes remembering the conversation she had with Kitty in the professor's office only three hours ago
Rogue and Kitty sat wondering exactly why the professor had called them in, though they both had an idea
"It just want you two to know that I know what you guys are doing"
"How?" Kitty asked stupidly receiving a smack upside the head from Rogue
"I am a telepath" the professor replied to and embarrassed Kitty "Don't worry you guys have freewill and have the right to do whatever you wish during your spare time, I just thought there might be a few question you have that I can assist you in answering" this caught their attention
"You see I have known of your dreams for quite a while Rogue, you've sent them out as distress signals on numerous occasions like you did with the Mystique's memory of Kurt, everyone in the institute sends them out once in a while usually just a nightmare nothing to be alarmed of..." rogue felt something clench inside her throat hating herself for sending out her dreams, they were hers and she didn't want to share them
"Rogue, are you listening"
"Huh yes professor"
"Well the reason why you can never remember the person on your dreams is because your mind subconsciously blocks it, for whatever reason you believe that knowing who it is would be worse then not knowing at all"
For some reason this statement did not strike Rogue as weird the Kitty's eyes were now rolling around on the ground well, she wouldn't be surprised if they were
"Rogue your mind is..... your mind is very loud right now" The professor continued "Your distress calls have been growing more rapid, and I feel the best thing you can do is take a break, Rogue unlike some others at our school you have a chance at gaining control, your control should come when you have the strong desire to touch, and just touch, without that layer of fear hiding beneath it, troubling thing is the personalities in your mind do their best to prevent that, they make it so confusing that you sometimes don't know who's thought belongs to whom and can't even realize what YOU'RE thinking" The Professor took a heavy sigh and continued onward "I suggest you take a break, probably a week off from, school, it will do you good, it won't cure you but it should help even if only to ease you"
Rogue couldn't help but let a smile creep in on her face; a week's break was sound nice "If you insist professor"
"Now, Rogue and must ask you to put a good effort into meditation, and just relaxing, you need to sort through your brain"
"Ugh.... Can't I just absorb a secretary?"
"No as a matter of fact the less people you absorb the better or else it will only become more crowded"
"Whatever you say professor, come on Kitty" Rogue pulled the confused girl from her seat towards the door, she was ready to leave, who was she kidding she's been ready since the moment she sat down
"Oh and Rogue" the professor said stopping her in the door frame "If your dreams become really unbearable I could have Hank order pills for a dreamless sleep, though it must be a last resort" Rogue didn't think she need them though it had a drastic downside Rogue enjoyed her dreams it was her source of pain and comfort all at once Yes that damn mind of hers, when she thought about it, it all made sense, what did she expect would happen, nothing that small part of her said
You know the small part that's all the more wiser then the rest of you combined, the part that you can never really tell whether or not it on your side or against you
You don't want to know, the hardest thing is being next to someone you know you can't have, that's why you don't want to know, you're sparing yourself from the pain
"Man I've really fucked things up for myself"
"Ohhh.. RO.OGUE" the o too familiar sound of Kitty's voice rang out "there you are.. Rogue? Are you okay?" Kitty's voice drastically changed from happy to concerned
Rogue was still clutching the sides of the pedal stall as if to keep from falling over facing down, hair cascading downward as well, draping her face
"Kitty please leave."
"Ug, you are soo not going to try and play the whole agnsty... goth... I want to be alone... but wonder why no one can get close to me routine on me... you should like learn by know I'm used to it"
"Kitty please shut up!"
"Come on Rogue I got some more info on project... well you know what we really should create a projection name for easy reference"
"Kitty!" Rogue looked up outraged "Didn't you hear what the professor said, can't the super genius mind of yours put one and one together over the last three hours and realize it over"
"But.. Rogue you can't give up... we need to figure out who it is you love"
"Love??" Rogue scoffed at the word, and all hell broke loose "Look 'love' isn't meant for someone like me, what the hell do expect I'll do embrace him with open arms, be affectionate and kiss him, while I suck his fucking soul out" Rouge yes yelling
"But... the professor said you can control it"
"MIGHT! Might be able too, he said I have a chance just a chance and it will take a while"
"but" kitty was searching for a topic to counteract with even if it was just her get swept up in the argument "well who ever said you had to kiss him love should just be able to withstand the conditions, and if he loved you back he wouldn't care"
"But I can't do that to 'him' I can barely stand not be able to touch my friend and family, this whole think is driving me fucking insane.. and you only making it worse"
.....
"Kitty look I should just know, I should need proof, and a list and multi- colored pens I should just know.. I don't want it to Scott or... or Alex... or half the guys on the list"
"Then who do you want it to be Rogue??"
'Lance' that part inside of Rogue said the one that just finished explain why didn't want to know, and with that it all smack Rogue in the face hard, there was no more making delusions and leading herself down wrong paths and she was right, knowing was a lot worse, so much worse, Rogue glared at Kitty as she filled up with rage at the person who forced her to face the truth she felt her blood boil and before her mind processed what she was doing her fist had connected with Kitty's eye
Rogue walked towards the door but stopped beside Kitty "look Kitty, I'm...." Rogue wanted to say she was sorry but she wasn't, she was sorry that Kitty was clutching her eye in pain, and she was sorry that she'll probably have a nice bruise tomorrow, but she really did want to punch her and she just couldn't apologize "I'm going to bed" and at that Rogue walked down the hallway towards her room shooting death glares at the baffled heads poking out between doors
Kitty stood there a moment taking everything in when she noticed a pair of leather gloves lying beside the faucet "she didn't absorb me" Kitty whispered to herself "...desire" Kitty thought remembering the professors words, she picked the up and carried to them to the night table next to the sleeping form of Rogue, or at least a form of Rogue trying to seem asleep but failing miserably at it.
Kitty lay awake in her bed till she wasn't sure how long, Rogue had finally drifted off to sleep, she seemed to have a peaceful sleep but when she woke up and was pulled out of her dream world she her then tortured Rogue muffle and cry and mutter the words "damn Lance"
âââââââââââââââââââââââââââââââââââââââââââââââââââââââââââ Well that it longest chapter yet I do believe that should make some of you happy I hope though I doubt you'll get over the fact the it took um how many months to get up....?
Yeah the stories turning out much different then originally planned, I guess that's what happens when it takes this long and you some how end up typing the same chapter over and over again due to malfunctioning computers, I'm not sure though if the story adds up Though, I realized how I introduce Pietro into the story and then skipped a week ahead and had him do absolutely nothing, I was thinking about possibly re-writing the earlier chapters but at the pace I'm going at better just get the story finished with, maybe once (I'm more experienced as a writer and still relatively new at this) I might come and make it a better story till then the next chapter has already been poster so click that next chapter button.
Ràuken: clickety, clickety, click [I'm getting lazy when it comes to writing his lines]