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Maybe Then
Chapter 7: Rikku share's her feelings
By: Cobalt-eyedAngel
"Sora, what happened?" Rikku asked concerned. I was on Kairi's living room couch.
I hadn't wanted to go there, but Rikku begged me because she was staying there. Kairi hadn't come home yet. I was a little worried, but I'm not sure if I really wanted to see her yet.
Rikku was sitting on a chair while I was stretched out on the couch. "Sora?" Rikku asked again.
"Um. Let's see, I was at the cave with you," I started uneasily trying to recall my thoughts, "Ok, well, then I left and it was dark, and I was trying to get back to this island, but there were no boats-"
"Oh no!" Rikku interrupted, "It's all my fault, and I took the boat! Oh no! Oh no! I'm so sorry!" Rikku jumped up from her chair and paced in front of me with a worried expression.
I smiled.
Not one of those fake ones I was always giving out now. It was a true genuine smile. "It wasn't your fault; it was stupid of me to swim here all the way from Destiny Island.
She stopped pacing and smiled back. "Ok, continue your story. Sorry for interrupting."
"So, I started swimming here, thinking I could do it. I had done it before lots of times. So I just started swimming. But I didn't realize how tired I was till I got about halfway there. And the next thing I know, I'm lying on the beach coughing up water and Kairi's sitting in front of me." I didn't tell Rikku how much it hurt me to see Kairi's face. Did I let my true feelings known to Kairi? Oh no! I tried to smile...but did it work?
"Wait, you were coughing up water...and Kairi was sitting in front of you?" Rikku awoke me from my thoughts.
"Yeah, that's what I said." I was trying to figure out what Rikku was getting at.
She leaned in real close, so she was half inch from my face. "C...P...R," She said quietly.
"Huh? Kairi wouldn't-" I started but was cut off by Rikku.
"To safe your life she would." She said. Still Rikku was close to me. And I was starting to blush. Whether it was Kairi's mouth on mine, or Rikku's mouth so close to mine, I wasn't sure.
"Sora...I...like you...a lot." Rikku said quietly, making my eyes widen.
..Kairi..
I sat there, in the same spot Sora had left me. I felt I couldn't move till he came back and smiled at me. Not a painful, or regretful, or fake smile. One of his real smiles. Even the goofy dazed smile, would do it for me.
But he didn't come.
Finally, after a long time, I got up. I started to my house, ready to sleep for days.
I started up the steps on the front porch. I glanced at the window and saw Sora and Rikku. They were practically kissing! Their lips were an inch apart!
I crept over in the bushes to get a closer look.
Then Rikku spoke, "To save your life she would." She said so quietly, that I had to strain to hear. Who was the 'she' they were talking about?
Sora blushed and no one said a word. It seemed like an eternity passed. For a second, I was sure I had missed the words they were saying. Then, finally, I heard her speak.
"Sora...I...like you...a lot." My chest got heavy and it felt like I was holding my breath. Maybe I was.
Sora blushed redder while his eyes showed a mixture of worry, surprise, and angst. But what surprised me, was, he also had guilt. Guilt for what?
"Sora, you make me smile even more than I usually do, you're sweet to me, to everybody. You're not like the other guys I've met. You're a gentlemen." Rikku spoke again. Her eyes showed great hope and fear. And love. She LOVED him. It hit me like a tom of bricks.
"I..." Sora said brokenly, like he didn't know what to tell her.
"What is it? I know we've just met, so do you want to get to know me better before you make any decisions?" She asked.
"No, it's...Yeah! That's it, I want to get to know you better first," He was going to say something, but changed his mind. I wonder what it was. What was it?
"Ok," Rikku smiled, "I'd like to get to know you better too."
He sighed in relief and gave her a friendly hug. Rikku hesitated a moment then pushed her lips to Sora's, with her eyes closed. His eyes were huge and then he slowly kissed her back.
This HURT. It hurt so badly. My heart was breaking, and I had no clue why.
All this took a second, and that's how long it would've taken me to get out of there.
If only I hadn't taking a step back and stepped on a twig.
Their eyes shot open and their gaze was on the window. I crouched down low. Did they see me? Did they?? My heart was racing and my hands were clammy.
"What was that?" I heard Rikku's fearful voice.
"Don't know." Sora replied like he knew more but wasn't going to tell. I could hear the tightness of his voice and I could imagine his shoulders tense.
They were silent for a moment and I hoped my beating heart wasn't making as much noise as I thought it was. I heard Sora sigh as if he knew it was me. I sure hope he didn't.
"Why don't you go to bed," Sora's voice said.
"Ok, night." I heard her footsteps go upstairs. All was silent for a moment so I slowly raised myself up.
Only to come FACE to FACE with Sora.
"What are you doing?" He asked his face blank, not a single emotion on it. He wasn't even surprised. He knew I was there, just like on the beach that day.
"How did you know I was out here?" I asked nervously, ignoring his question.
"What are you doing?" He asked again.
"I...um...dropped my earring!" I pretended to put an object in my pocket.
"Your ears aren't even pierced." He said still staring straight into my eyes. He didn't even blink. He looked so different without his smile.
Without even answering him, tears threatened to spill from my eyes. I just wanted to see him smile. "Sora...where are you?" I asked wishing so bad that things were like before. Where the old Sora always smiled.
Tears streamed from my eyes, "Where's my Sora?!" I yelled, with my eyes squeeze shut, my fists pounding on his chest.
Suddenly I was pulled into a warm embrace. "Where's...my...Sora?" My words were muffled against his chest. I inhaled his scent and my knees no longer held me up, just his tight hug.
"I didn't know you wanted me." He said quietly and I felt wet, warm, tears drop from his face to the top of my head.
His embrace broke and he slowly started to pull away. "I do. I do." I sobbed brokenly trying to pull him back into a hug, but I couldn't reach him.
"I'm sorry. I came back for you, but...you didn't wait...you forgot...my promise. And you forgot...me." Pain pierced through my heart and I glanced up, my tears still falling heavily from my cheeks.
"No...I...I...didn't mean to." I sobbed my heart breaking. What had I done?!
"You didn't wait for me, so I can't wait for you. I...just can't. You don't know how it feels. To be unnoticed by your best friend. I...I loved you Kairi. But...you never loved me."
"Loved? So...you don't anymore?" I squeezed my eyes shut again and even more tears spilled out.
"No. You were my light...when I was fourteen. I was stupid then, things change. Good things come to an end. And...my light went out." I fell to my knees. I needed my embrace to hold me up.
"But...now I have a glimmer from Rikku...she makes me smile. And actually...notices me." He now had his eyes closed to in a painful expression. But she didn't see it because her eyes were closed too.
"I'm so sorry Sora. You're right, you're right, I'm an awful friend." I couldn't stop crying. I was hurting so bad. My heart was hurting.
"I-I...it wasn't your friendship that...was the problem." I felt him hesitate and then make his way to the door of my house, and went in.
I clutched my tear streaked face and sobbed even harder. Who am I supposed to go to when I feel bad now? Sora was my best friend.
And I've realized to late, the only boy that I would ever love with all my heart.
..Sora..
My back was against the door and I slid down pulling my knees to my chest. The tears I had been so desperately trying to hold back dripped from my wet cheeks.
That was the hardest thing I had ever tried to do. Even harder then fighting all the Heartless at once.
Every single word I had said was true. But that didn't mean it didn't hurt. It hurt like my heart was being ripped out of my chest. I did leave out the fact that I would always love her and in the future I saw Rikku and me just ending up as friends.
I also left out that I didn't want to hurt anymore. It would make me look like a coward towards love. Maybe I was a coward.
I didn't used to be. I dived head into the love I had for Kairi. And all I did was drown.
'But Kairi breathed life into you again, did she not?' A piece of my mind argued back.
"Ah. Shut up!" I snapped. At least I was alone. I better start getting used to it.
Author's Note- Aww. I know. Don't kill me!! Please! LOL. Things are looking down. The whole light part you might not get unless you've beaten the game or come close to it. Hope it wasn't too confusing. The next chapter will probably be up soon. And then I'll start on the sequel! YAY! You'll just have to R&R to see if things get better. Bye. See ya soon!
Editing Note- It is 6/9/04.
Maybe Then
Chapter 7: Rikku share's her feelings
By: Cobalt-eyedAngel
"Sora, what happened?" Rikku asked concerned. I was on Kairi's living room couch.
I hadn't wanted to go there, but Rikku begged me because she was staying there. Kairi hadn't come home yet. I was a little worried, but I'm not sure if I really wanted to see her yet.
Rikku was sitting on a chair while I was stretched out on the couch. "Sora?" Rikku asked again.
"Um. Let's see, I was at the cave with you," I started uneasily trying to recall my thoughts, "Ok, well, then I left and it was dark, and I was trying to get back to this island, but there were no boats-"
"Oh no!" Rikku interrupted, "It's all my fault, and I took the boat! Oh no! Oh no! I'm so sorry!" Rikku jumped up from her chair and paced in front of me with a worried expression.
I smiled.
Not one of those fake ones I was always giving out now. It was a true genuine smile. "It wasn't your fault; it was stupid of me to swim here all the way from Destiny Island.
She stopped pacing and smiled back. "Ok, continue your story. Sorry for interrupting."
"So, I started swimming here, thinking I could do it. I had done it before lots of times. So I just started swimming. But I didn't realize how tired I was till I got about halfway there. And the next thing I know, I'm lying on the beach coughing up water and Kairi's sitting in front of me." I didn't tell Rikku how much it hurt me to see Kairi's face. Did I let my true feelings known to Kairi? Oh no! I tried to smile...but did it work?
"Wait, you were coughing up water...and Kairi was sitting in front of you?" Rikku awoke me from my thoughts.
"Yeah, that's what I said." I was trying to figure out what Rikku was getting at.
She leaned in real close, so she was half inch from my face. "C...P...R," She said quietly.
"Huh? Kairi wouldn't-" I started but was cut off by Rikku.
"To safe your life she would." She said. Still Rikku was close to me. And I was starting to blush. Whether it was Kairi's mouth on mine, or Rikku's mouth so close to mine, I wasn't sure.
"Sora...I...like you...a lot." Rikku said quietly, making my eyes widen.
..Kairi..
I sat there, in the same spot Sora had left me. I felt I couldn't move till he came back and smiled at me. Not a painful, or regretful, or fake smile. One of his real smiles. Even the goofy dazed smile, would do it for me.
But he didn't come.
Finally, after a long time, I got up. I started to my house, ready to sleep for days.
I started up the steps on the front porch. I glanced at the window and saw Sora and Rikku. They were practically kissing! Their lips were an inch apart!
I crept over in the bushes to get a closer look.
Then Rikku spoke, "To save your life she would." She said so quietly, that I had to strain to hear. Who was the 'she' they were talking about?
Sora blushed and no one said a word. It seemed like an eternity passed. For a second, I was sure I had missed the words they were saying. Then, finally, I heard her speak.
"Sora...I...like you...a lot." My chest got heavy and it felt like I was holding my breath. Maybe I was.
Sora blushed redder while his eyes showed a mixture of worry, surprise, and angst. But what surprised me, was, he also had guilt. Guilt for what?
"Sora, you make me smile even more than I usually do, you're sweet to me, to everybody. You're not like the other guys I've met. You're a gentlemen." Rikku spoke again. Her eyes showed great hope and fear. And love. She LOVED him. It hit me like a tom of bricks.
"I..." Sora said brokenly, like he didn't know what to tell her.
"What is it? I know we've just met, so do you want to get to know me better before you make any decisions?" She asked.
"No, it's...Yeah! That's it, I want to get to know you better first," He was going to say something, but changed his mind. I wonder what it was. What was it?
"Ok," Rikku smiled, "I'd like to get to know you better too."
He sighed in relief and gave her a friendly hug. Rikku hesitated a moment then pushed her lips to Sora's, with her eyes closed. His eyes were huge and then he slowly kissed her back.
This HURT. It hurt so badly. My heart was breaking, and I had no clue why.
All this took a second, and that's how long it would've taken me to get out of there.
If only I hadn't taking a step back and stepped on a twig.
Their eyes shot open and their gaze was on the window. I crouched down low. Did they see me? Did they?? My heart was racing and my hands were clammy.
"What was that?" I heard Rikku's fearful voice.
"Don't know." Sora replied like he knew more but wasn't going to tell. I could hear the tightness of his voice and I could imagine his shoulders tense.
They were silent for a moment and I hoped my beating heart wasn't making as much noise as I thought it was. I heard Sora sigh as if he knew it was me. I sure hope he didn't.
"Why don't you go to bed," Sora's voice said.
"Ok, night." I heard her footsteps go upstairs. All was silent for a moment so I slowly raised myself up.
Only to come FACE to FACE with Sora.
"What are you doing?" He asked his face blank, not a single emotion on it. He wasn't even surprised. He knew I was there, just like on the beach that day.
"How did you know I was out here?" I asked nervously, ignoring his question.
"What are you doing?" He asked again.
"I...um...dropped my earring!" I pretended to put an object in my pocket.
"Your ears aren't even pierced." He said still staring straight into my eyes. He didn't even blink. He looked so different without his smile.
Without even answering him, tears threatened to spill from my eyes. I just wanted to see him smile. "Sora...where are you?" I asked wishing so bad that things were like before. Where the old Sora always smiled.
Tears streamed from my eyes, "Where's my Sora?!" I yelled, with my eyes squeeze shut, my fists pounding on his chest.
Suddenly I was pulled into a warm embrace. "Where's...my...Sora?" My words were muffled against his chest. I inhaled his scent and my knees no longer held me up, just his tight hug.
"I didn't know you wanted me." He said quietly and I felt wet, warm, tears drop from his face to the top of my head.
His embrace broke and he slowly started to pull away. "I do. I do." I sobbed brokenly trying to pull him back into a hug, but I couldn't reach him.
"I'm sorry. I came back for you, but...you didn't wait...you forgot...my promise. And you forgot...me." Pain pierced through my heart and I glanced up, my tears still falling heavily from my cheeks.
"No...I...I...didn't mean to." I sobbed my heart breaking. What had I done?!
"You didn't wait for me, so I can't wait for you. I...just can't. You don't know how it feels. To be unnoticed by your best friend. I...I loved you Kairi. But...you never loved me."
"Loved? So...you don't anymore?" I squeezed my eyes shut again and even more tears spilled out.
"No. You were my light...when I was fourteen. I was stupid then, things change. Good things come to an end. And...my light went out." I fell to my knees. I needed my embrace to hold me up.
"But...now I have a glimmer from Rikku...she makes me smile. And actually...notices me." He now had his eyes closed to in a painful expression. But she didn't see it because her eyes were closed too.
"I'm so sorry Sora. You're right, you're right, I'm an awful friend." I couldn't stop crying. I was hurting so bad. My heart was hurting.
"I-I...it wasn't your friendship that...was the problem." I felt him hesitate and then make his way to the door of my house, and went in.
I clutched my tear streaked face and sobbed even harder. Who am I supposed to go to when I feel bad now? Sora was my best friend.
And I've realized to late, the only boy that I would ever love with all my heart.
..Sora..
My back was against the door and I slid down pulling my knees to my chest. The tears I had been so desperately trying to hold back dripped from my wet cheeks.
That was the hardest thing I had ever tried to do. Even harder then fighting all the Heartless at once.
Every single word I had said was true. But that didn't mean it didn't hurt. It hurt like my heart was being ripped out of my chest. I did leave out the fact that I would always love her and in the future I saw Rikku and me just ending up as friends.
I also left out that I didn't want to hurt anymore. It would make me look like a coward towards love. Maybe I was a coward.
I didn't used to be. I dived head into the love I had for Kairi. And all I did was drown.
'But Kairi breathed life into you again, did she not?' A piece of my mind argued back.
"Ah. Shut up!" I snapped. At least I was alone. I better start getting used to it.
Author's Note- Aww. I know. Don't kill me!! Please! LOL. Things are looking down. The whole light part you might not get unless you've beaten the game or come close to it. Hope it wasn't too confusing. The next chapter will probably be up soon. And then I'll start on the sequel! YAY! You'll just have to R&R to see if things get better. Bye. See ya soon!
Editing Note- It is 6/9/04.