Disclaimer: I don't own Randy Orton, Dave Batista, John Cena, or any
other name you might recognize. I do own Jenna, Riley, and Katie.
A/N: Thanks for the great reviews to the last chapter. I've noticed a couple of you think John should have a girlfriend, and I know that I haven't used her much in the story, but Katie is his girlfriend, just letting you know, that way some of this will make sense. Here's chapter 11.
Chapter 11
Denials, Conversations, and Truths
When Randy and I got back to his room that night, neither one of us really knew how to start the conversation, that we knew we had to have. Finally Randy started talking, and for once he wasn't as cocky or confident as usual.
"Jenna. I really don't know why I've waited so long to tell you this, I mean I wanted to tell you before the 'incident'" Randy started, he still was having a hard time saying the word 'kidnapped.'
"What is it Randy?" I asked, sitting on the bed Indian style, while he paced back and forth.
"The night I kissed you. It wasn't just a spur of the moment thing, I had wanted to do that all week. Then that day we were fighting about the apartment being messy, I wanted to kiss you then, and if my mom hadn't shown up, I probably would have." Randy said, turning around to face me.
"I...um...I don't know what to say." I said, clearly shocked.
"Jenn, this shouldn't be that much of a shock to you. That night we danced, we both said we liked each other." Randy said, kneeling down in front of me.
"Yeah, but before that night, I hadn't been kidnapped and raped." I said, noticing Randy cringe when I said the last part. "What's making you bring all this up now?" I finished.
"Jenna, you need to understand something. What I'm about to say, I have only ever said to one other person, and I was like 17 then." He paused to look me in the eyes again. It was then I noticed something I had never seen there before. "I love you." Randy said, silently praying he hadn't scared me off.
"How could you possibly love me?" I asked, wondering how he could love someone, with so many problems.
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"What do you mean, how could I possibly love you? I've loved you since the first day I met you in OVW." Randy said, moving up on the bed with me.
"Randy, you could love any girl in the world, and she still wouldn't have near as many problems as me. Why do you want to do that to yourself?" I asked, fighting to keep my tears at bay.
"Jenna. It doesn't matter to me, cause I know you'll move past this. You won't let what that bastard did stop you from living your life. I've loved you before any of these problems started, and your strength and courage makes me love you more." Randy said, taking my hand in his.
"Fine, but what about later on, huh? Randy, I can't even close my eyes without seeing Kevin leaning over me, and the things he did that night. It's like one big continuous nightmare that I can't wake up from." I said, as the tears finally fell.
"I promise honey that you will get better from this. Maybe not today and maybe not tomorrow, but someday you will be able to fight those dreams." Randy said, hugging me tightly to his body.
"That's my point Randy. I don't want you to have to wait for me. You deserve to have a wife and a family without all these fucking problems." I said, pulling away from Randy.
"Jenna. I told you I would wait for you, and I meant it." Randy said, hoping to get me to understand.
"I know what you said, and I think for right now, I should find an apartment of my own. I may even go back to Louisville with John. He's going out to visit Katie, it can give me a chance to visit with her too." I said, getting up and heading to the door.
"Jenna, just remember I love you, okay?" Randy said, right before I left.
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John and I had been talking about stupid ass shit, when John looked over at me.
"You love him too, don't you?" John asked.
"What are you talking about?" I asked, knowing I didn't mention what happened the other night to him. I could only pray that Randy didn't mention it either.
"You and Randy. Everyone but you two can see how much you love each other. Why can't you just admit it?" John asked, as I tried to come up with an answer.
"That is the most absurd thing I have ever heard." I said, knowing I needed to change the subject and quick. "So do you think you're ever going to ask Katie to marry you?" I asked, hoping to get him off the subject of Randy and me.
"Maybe. Don't be turning this around. Why can't you admit to Randy, as well as yourself, that you love him?" John asked.
"Did he say something to you?" I asked, looking him in the eye, knowing I'd be able to tell if he was lying.
"No. What are you talking about?" He asked, wondering now if there was more to this trip back to see Katie, than he knew about.
"Nothing. John, I do love him, but after what happened to me, I don't deserve to have something so good as Randy in my life." I replied, as tears clouded my eyes.
"Jennifer Nicole. I don't want to ever hear you say that again. You and Riley of all people deserve to have happiness." John said, almost like a stern father.
"What happens if I let myself love him, and then he finds someone who can truly make him happy?" I asked, as the tears came pouring down.
"Jenna, I'm sure I'll get my ass kicked for telling you this, but I don't care. I saw how Randy was that night. He wouldn't let Paul stop driving, in fact at one point he threatened to kill Kevin if he, and I quote, "hurt the woman he loves." Don't you see Jenn, Randy is crazy about you. You need to let go of your fears and let yourself love him." John said, trying to hug me as best he could, with an armrest between us.
"Okay, I'll think about it. Maybe someday I can learn to love again." I said, as the flight attendant announced we'd be arriving at Cincinnati International Airport in 15 minutes.
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While John and I headed to Katie's apartment, I kept thinking about what John had said on the flight. Why was I pushing Randy away? Of course, I would let what happened keep me from being happy, hell I've done it for 2 1/2 years already. By the time we pulled into the apartment complex, I had decided that as soon as we got to Houston for Raw, I was going to tell Randy how I feel about him, and tell him I want to be with him. Riley, John, and Randy were right, I can't keep letting Kevin and what he did to me ruin the rest of my life. When we got up to the apartment, Katie was there to greet us. After making out with John for a few minutes, she gave me a hug.
"How are you Jenna?" Katie asked, as John too his stuff to their bedroom.
"I'm okay for the most part. That boyfriend of yours can keep on with a topic of conversation until he gets his point across, you know that?" I asked, right before John came back into the room.
"Yeah that's true. When does the trial start?" Katie asked, turning the TV off.
"On Tuesday, so basically as soon as Raw ends Monday night, we have to get back to St. Louis, and be at the courthouse by 9 am." I said, as John flopped down on the couch next to me.
"Yeah, and we'll be there to support you." He said, putting an arm around my shoulder.
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We arrived in Houston, Monday morning and headed over to the hotel where all the superstars are staying. When we got in there, I saw Riley and Dave heading toward the pool.
"Riley, Dave. Do you guys know Randy's room number?" I asked, wanting to go and surprise him.
"Yeah, he's in room 308." Dave said, before going out to the pool. I followed John to the elevators, and hit 3.
"Where are you going?" John asked, after he saw me push a different floor.
"I'm going to talk to Randy. I finally know how I feel, well I can finally admit it to him anyway." I said, as the elevator stopped on my floor.
"Good luck Babygirl." John said, with a smile. When I found his room, it took me a minute before I had the courage to knock on the door. After knocking once, I heard him grumble something, and had to bite back the grin I had.
"What!?" Randy yelled, as he opened the door. "Jenna, I'm sorry. I thought it was Dave, again." Randy said, as I just stared at him. "Jenna. Are you okay?" He asked, his voice matching the concern on his face.
"Yeah, I'm okay. I realized what I wanted though while I was away." I whispered, looking up into his beautiful blue eyes.
"What do you want?" He asked, his voice still husky from sleep.
"This." I said, as I pressed my lips against his.
A/N 2: Here's another chapter. I'm already working on Chapter 12 right now. It will mostly be the trial. I do have one question, should I have Randy and Dave get pissed at something Kevin says and they try to go after him, or should it just be Randy? Maybe Dave keeps him from losing his cool. Anyways, let me know what you think in your review.
*jeffslildiva*
©2004
A/N: Thanks for the great reviews to the last chapter. I've noticed a couple of you think John should have a girlfriend, and I know that I haven't used her much in the story, but Katie is his girlfriend, just letting you know, that way some of this will make sense. Here's chapter 11.
Chapter 11
Denials, Conversations, and Truths
When Randy and I got back to his room that night, neither one of us really knew how to start the conversation, that we knew we had to have. Finally Randy started talking, and for once he wasn't as cocky or confident as usual.
"Jenna. I really don't know why I've waited so long to tell you this, I mean I wanted to tell you before the 'incident'" Randy started, he still was having a hard time saying the word 'kidnapped.'
"What is it Randy?" I asked, sitting on the bed Indian style, while he paced back and forth.
"The night I kissed you. It wasn't just a spur of the moment thing, I had wanted to do that all week. Then that day we were fighting about the apartment being messy, I wanted to kiss you then, and if my mom hadn't shown up, I probably would have." Randy said, turning around to face me.
"I...um...I don't know what to say." I said, clearly shocked.
"Jenn, this shouldn't be that much of a shock to you. That night we danced, we both said we liked each other." Randy said, kneeling down in front of me.
"Yeah, but before that night, I hadn't been kidnapped and raped." I said, noticing Randy cringe when I said the last part. "What's making you bring all this up now?" I finished.
"Jenna, you need to understand something. What I'm about to say, I have only ever said to one other person, and I was like 17 then." He paused to look me in the eyes again. It was then I noticed something I had never seen there before. "I love you." Randy said, silently praying he hadn't scared me off.
"How could you possibly love me?" I asked, wondering how he could love someone, with so many problems.
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"What do you mean, how could I possibly love you? I've loved you since the first day I met you in OVW." Randy said, moving up on the bed with me.
"Randy, you could love any girl in the world, and she still wouldn't have near as many problems as me. Why do you want to do that to yourself?" I asked, fighting to keep my tears at bay.
"Jenna. It doesn't matter to me, cause I know you'll move past this. You won't let what that bastard did stop you from living your life. I've loved you before any of these problems started, and your strength and courage makes me love you more." Randy said, taking my hand in his.
"Fine, but what about later on, huh? Randy, I can't even close my eyes without seeing Kevin leaning over me, and the things he did that night. It's like one big continuous nightmare that I can't wake up from." I said, as the tears finally fell.
"I promise honey that you will get better from this. Maybe not today and maybe not tomorrow, but someday you will be able to fight those dreams." Randy said, hugging me tightly to his body.
"That's my point Randy. I don't want you to have to wait for me. You deserve to have a wife and a family without all these fucking problems." I said, pulling away from Randy.
"Jenna. I told you I would wait for you, and I meant it." Randy said, hoping to get me to understand.
"I know what you said, and I think for right now, I should find an apartment of my own. I may even go back to Louisville with John. He's going out to visit Katie, it can give me a chance to visit with her too." I said, getting up and heading to the door.
"Jenna, just remember I love you, okay?" Randy said, right before I left.
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John and I had been talking about stupid ass shit, when John looked over at me.
"You love him too, don't you?" John asked.
"What are you talking about?" I asked, knowing I didn't mention what happened the other night to him. I could only pray that Randy didn't mention it either.
"You and Randy. Everyone but you two can see how much you love each other. Why can't you just admit it?" John asked, as I tried to come up with an answer.
"That is the most absurd thing I have ever heard." I said, knowing I needed to change the subject and quick. "So do you think you're ever going to ask Katie to marry you?" I asked, hoping to get him off the subject of Randy and me.
"Maybe. Don't be turning this around. Why can't you admit to Randy, as well as yourself, that you love him?" John asked.
"Did he say something to you?" I asked, looking him in the eye, knowing I'd be able to tell if he was lying.
"No. What are you talking about?" He asked, wondering now if there was more to this trip back to see Katie, than he knew about.
"Nothing. John, I do love him, but after what happened to me, I don't deserve to have something so good as Randy in my life." I replied, as tears clouded my eyes.
"Jennifer Nicole. I don't want to ever hear you say that again. You and Riley of all people deserve to have happiness." John said, almost like a stern father.
"What happens if I let myself love him, and then he finds someone who can truly make him happy?" I asked, as the tears came pouring down.
"Jenna, I'm sure I'll get my ass kicked for telling you this, but I don't care. I saw how Randy was that night. He wouldn't let Paul stop driving, in fact at one point he threatened to kill Kevin if he, and I quote, "hurt the woman he loves." Don't you see Jenn, Randy is crazy about you. You need to let go of your fears and let yourself love him." John said, trying to hug me as best he could, with an armrest between us.
"Okay, I'll think about it. Maybe someday I can learn to love again." I said, as the flight attendant announced we'd be arriving at Cincinnati International Airport in 15 minutes.
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While John and I headed to Katie's apartment, I kept thinking about what John had said on the flight. Why was I pushing Randy away? Of course, I would let what happened keep me from being happy, hell I've done it for 2 1/2 years already. By the time we pulled into the apartment complex, I had decided that as soon as we got to Houston for Raw, I was going to tell Randy how I feel about him, and tell him I want to be with him. Riley, John, and Randy were right, I can't keep letting Kevin and what he did to me ruin the rest of my life. When we got up to the apartment, Katie was there to greet us. After making out with John for a few minutes, she gave me a hug.
"How are you Jenna?" Katie asked, as John too his stuff to their bedroom.
"I'm okay for the most part. That boyfriend of yours can keep on with a topic of conversation until he gets his point across, you know that?" I asked, right before John came back into the room.
"Yeah that's true. When does the trial start?" Katie asked, turning the TV off.
"On Tuesday, so basically as soon as Raw ends Monday night, we have to get back to St. Louis, and be at the courthouse by 9 am." I said, as John flopped down on the couch next to me.
"Yeah, and we'll be there to support you." He said, putting an arm around my shoulder.
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We arrived in Houston, Monday morning and headed over to the hotel where all the superstars are staying. When we got in there, I saw Riley and Dave heading toward the pool.
"Riley, Dave. Do you guys know Randy's room number?" I asked, wanting to go and surprise him.
"Yeah, he's in room 308." Dave said, before going out to the pool. I followed John to the elevators, and hit 3.
"Where are you going?" John asked, after he saw me push a different floor.
"I'm going to talk to Randy. I finally know how I feel, well I can finally admit it to him anyway." I said, as the elevator stopped on my floor.
"Good luck Babygirl." John said, with a smile. When I found his room, it took me a minute before I had the courage to knock on the door. After knocking once, I heard him grumble something, and had to bite back the grin I had.
"What!?" Randy yelled, as he opened the door. "Jenna, I'm sorry. I thought it was Dave, again." Randy said, as I just stared at him. "Jenna. Are you okay?" He asked, his voice matching the concern on his face.
"Yeah, I'm okay. I realized what I wanted though while I was away." I whispered, looking up into his beautiful blue eyes.
"What do you want?" He asked, his voice still husky from sleep.
"This." I said, as I pressed my lips against his.
A/N 2: Here's another chapter. I'm already working on Chapter 12 right now. It will mostly be the trial. I do have one question, should I have Randy and Dave get pissed at something Kevin says and they try to go after him, or should it just be Randy? Maybe Dave keeps him from losing his cool. Anyways, let me know what you think in your review.
*jeffslildiva*
©2004