7. Ava
Wow, she's the strangest girl I have ever met. I'm in love with her, but what do I say? The reason that I'm taking it slow is because I don't want it to be like every other relationship I've had. I don't want to sleep with her and then get dumped. I want her forever, so I'm not being easy. Is that what's right? I don't want to chase her away either. I liked her mouth on my shoulder, but it was so forward. I tried that and it scared her. I'm so confused.
She's going to orb with me. What am I do her? Can she say she loves me? What am I going to wear?
Her fingers slip between mine, and my entire body starts tingling; then it's like I'm made of moths flying madly around a light bulb. I catch a glimpse of a place between. It's more like a feeling of complete emptiness and freedom, like I could fly, but always there's warmth beside me, keeping me safe…
My legs buckle underneath me and I fall to the hardwood floor of a bedroom. She's kneeling in front of me, solicitous and worried, not afraid to touch me.
I love you. I want to say it. I want to wrap my arms around her and press her close, so close she becomes part of me and will never leave me, 'cause I've felt the emptiness before, and I never want to feel that way again.
Am I too needy? What if it's just fun for her? How can I need her this desperately? I thought I was going to be able to survive on my own, but I don't want to be on my own. I want to trust again, to feel safe…
"Are you all right?"
"Do you love me?"