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Ok this one is a little shorter than the last one, but still okay ;) please review when your done. I would really like it ;) O yeah thankx Lily for explaining some things that happened before haunted. It really helped me out.

"IN LOVE TWICE!?!" I felt like shouting out. But I kept myself from saying anything. I sure knew well about Maria, believe me I did, but nothing about Claris. I was completely lost. I had no clue what was going on. Who was Claris? Then there was a silence after he said "I was in love twice, and now I know I will never love again". He just stared at me and I stared at him. Why didn't Jesse even bother to introduce Clair and I to each other? Why didn't he just explain what was going on in this silence between us...o yeah and Claris too. So I just stood there, looking at him and I realized that Jesse has been keeping a secret form me the whole entire time I knew him. And I felt guilty about not telling him about Paul! What about Claris huh? Did that just happen to slip your mind Jesse!?! But then again, I just realized how Jesse felt about Paul and I. Because seeing Jesse and Claris there together made me think, maybe they should go together, they are both dead aren't they? I bet he thought the same thing about Paul, and I. Paul and Suze are both alive, so why don't they go together? But those thoughts must have been completely wrong. Because there is no worse couple than Paul and I. I knew that as a fact. But then again why did I say yes Paul when I was suppose to say yes Jesse? Did this mean something? No it couldn't. Just a goof. Simply just a goof. That I was defiantly paying for now. If I would have said yes Jesse, he would have said I loved you and we would have kissed again. And maybe this Claris person wouldn't have recognized Jesse and left. Man I'm dumb! But then again, I don't know who Claris is, she could be a friend or a relative he loved. She doesn't have to be a past lover. Does she? Jesse please tell me before I faint from all the many thoughts crossing my mind at once. I could always like I said before, just leave to go to the shadowland, but I can't. Must keep myself from thinking about it. Then I thought of Paul in the hospital, I don't know why but that place just crossed my mind and I closed my eyes. When I opened them I was at the hospital landing to the floor on my butt. How did I do that!?! Where was Jesse and Claris!?! Oh boy I just shifted my body from one place to another. Maybe what Paul said was true. But I can't think about Paul. If I don't go to the graveyard now, Jesse could leave with Claris and I may never see him again.

"Sssuuzzzee??" Paul said while yawning. I must have woken him up from sleeping when I hit the ground. Then I saw a smile on his face. Oh no, he thinks that I actually care about him now, that I came to actually visit him. No it's not true. Maybe if I think of the graveyard, like I did with the hospital, I can shift myself back. I tried, I swore I tried but it didn't work. "Doesn't always work" Paul said. I guess he could tell what I was trying to do. I got off the ground and tidied up my shirt, and said to Paul

"I need to go. How can you help me to go...go...to the graveyard?" I asked. I couldn't believe I was asking him for his help but I couldn't walk or run there, it was all the way by school which was like a good 20 minute run away. I'm sure he knew I wanted to go there becasue of Jesse. i mean why else would I go to thr graveyard?

"No way I can help ya Suze. Your stuck with me" He said with a smile. I couldn't tell if he just wouldn't tell me there was a way to get back, or if there really wasn't a way he could help me to get back.

"It's really important Paul," I whined to him. I know I was acting like a child, but if it would get me what I wanted, I didn't care.

"Nothing I can do Suze." He said while shrugging his shoulder. Then it was the first time I noticed how he looked. He had a broken nose, a little cast thing around his left wrist, and bruises all over his neck and left arm. Probably from all the strangling and hitting. I suddenly felt bad. I mean he did get hurt like this, for me, Susannah Simon. He still looked, I hate to say, hot, even if he was injured. I had to say something. Anything to make him tell me if there really, and I mean really was a way to get back by shifting.

"Look Paul" I said frustratingly. "If you really loved me, if you really did, you would tell me how." I said with two tears going down my face. I just had to see Jesse. I had to. But then again Paul had no clue what was going on. And I wasn't going to tell him either.

"Well why did you think about coming here?" He said "if you really need to be where you need to be" he said, and it was true. He got me there. I didn't know what to say. DAMN IT I HATE WHEN HE DOES THAT! I felt like strangling him just then. I hated Paul, I hated him so much. I don't care if he is incredibly hot and sometimes even irresistible, I just need to see Jesse. I need to. I don't care so much that Jesse leaves, well I do, but if he does, I want him to know that I love him. That I never did sleep with Paul, that I only cared about him. Him and him only him. I didn't answer Paul though, instead I started crying. I screwed everything up. All I ever did was screw things up. Maybe it would be better if I didn't even exist. Then Jesse could have Claris, and Paul could move on from me and maybe go with Kelly. I'm sure it doesn't really matter who the girl was with him. I was just a crush, I knew it. I mean he didn't say it, but I'm sure it was. But then again, why would he fight Jesse, a dead guy for me, when he knew he couldn't win. There was no way to kill Jesse, only for Paul to die. Ego, I repeated to myself in my head, all his stupid ego. Paul never loved me, Jesse doesn't love me anymore, and I'm alone. "Suze..." I herd Paul say and then I looked up at him and he was getting out of his bed. He came and put his arms around me and I pushed him away. Not again! Why do I keep on crying over Jesse right in front of him. When will I learn? "Its alright Suze. I really do wish I could help" He said while coming back to me and giving me a kiss on my cheek. I felt like slapping him, but he didn't go any further. The kiss actually did help me a bit, believe it or not. It made me feel a little loved.

"P-p-paaull" I said while trying to keep the tears in, but couldn't. Then he took his right hand and brushed it threw my hair, and put his left arm around me, even though there was a cast on it. Then he did something I didn't expect him to do, he started rocking back and forth. Just a tiny bit. Then he started humming a bit. It actually helped. It made me feel calmer. Instead of just talking and making me feel worse like he did last time, he was being a decent human being, and trying to help me. So I thought I could give him a second chance. Not with love but something else. My trust with him. I was desperate, and I couldn't spend anymore time with him. As much as I liked being comforted by him and having myself in his arms, which was totally wrong, I had to see Jesse. I was tired with lust and Paul. I just wanted to be with the right person, Jesse. But then again, was he the right person? I mean maybe Claris was the one for him. And not me. But then again, I don't know who Claris is. Note to self, quit assuming Claris is a past lover.

"You have a car right?" I asked in a calm way, and he smiled. Not a smile with his teeth, the ones that made my heart melt, but just a little one. I knew he knew what I wanted to do. And I really think that smile was a yes.