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# "So you can drive me to the graveyard!?!" I asked making sure he could, but still totally excited. I couldn't believe he was being so nice. Maybe when Jesse hit him in the head it got some sense into him. I just couldn't contain my happiness and I threw my arms around him and gave him a big hug. "So how we gonna get there?" I asked, suddenly realizing that he probably didn't have a car in the hospital parking lot.

"Shift, drive, something like that" He said casually. What did he mean? I thought he said there was no way he could make me shift anywhere. To go from one place to another.

"Wait but-"

"I said I couldn't help YOU get the graveyard. But we can go together." He said with a smile. I had no choice but to say yes. As much as I hated it, I had to say yes. So he held my hand and I closed my eyes shut. I wonder if any of the nurses would notice he was gone. I hope Paul doesn't do anything to Jesse. I really hope he can keep his promise. That he would never touch him or do anything to him again. Then when I opened my eyes I saw myself right in front of, guess where, Paul's house. Oh My Gosh Paul! What the hell are we doing here!?! I'm not falling for this again!

"Paul!" I yelled out. I really had to go see Jesse. There was no time for games.

"What? You wanted a ride," he said while opening the door to his car. "If I'm going to bring you to Jesse, I might as well spend some time with you on the way" He said with a smile.

"Who said it was for Jesse?" I said frustratingly, even though I knew we both knew I was going to the graveyard for him. "Paul! I can't go with you!" I yelled refusing to go in the car with him.

"Alright, I guess I'll be going then, you know, to the graveyard alone to see your boyfriend" He teased me. Oh what nerve. So I stubbornly went inside the car, and he went in the driver's seat. It was a good 10 minutes away so I just sat in there pouting. Still acting like a little child. He stayed quiet, but I just couldn't keep my mouth shut.

"Jesse isn't my boyfriend" I said, still acting like a stubborn little brat. "He doesn't love me" I said, changing my tone while looking out the window. Wondering if Jesse had already left with Claris. I wish I knew who she was. I wish Jesse knew that I still loved him. That I loved him ever since the first time I saw him.

"Oh stop it Suze" Paul said impatiently "Hes totally gaga over you"

"Not anymore" I said while still being quiet. I know Jesse loved me. But that was loved. He doesn't love me anymore. I just want him to know that I love him. That's all. Its important to me. But if that's all I want, why do I feel so depressed right now. Ever since I got into the car, I stopped feel anxious to see him, I just felt depressed. I think Paul was getting a little annoyed at how negative I was being. "How come your being so nice?" I asked Paul. because it was true. Paul would usually never bring me to Jesse, or go out of his way to. Or try to make me feel better when I cried. Yes, instead of bringing me straight to the graveyard, he took me all the way to his car, but the rest was so unlike him.

"I love you Suze" he said while looking away from the wheel and at me. He looked so honest when he said it. And hurt. Don't know why he looked hurt, but he did. Then he looked back at the wheel. That was a really stupid time to confess your love to somebody. While your driving. Oh great how romantic Paul, you can send me flowers when my feet hurt, but you tell me you love me while driving in a car to a graveyard.

"Right, and I'm the queen of England" I said sarcastically. Then Paul pulled over and stopped the car, and looked at me. His bright blue eyes were staring into mine and he said romantically

"I want you to kiss me, as if you were kissing Jesse" I don't know why but I didn't immediately think EW! Get away from me you psycho! I actually sat there and though, should I? I don't know why. It was gross and sick and wrong, especially because I didn't love Paul, I loved Jesse. But then again, I really just wanted to kiss Paul right then and there. At least he loved me, unlike some people. He didn't lean forward like I wanted him to though. He wanted me to kiss him. I started to lean forward, and slowly closing my eyes, but decided to stop there. It was a public place and anybody could see us, even though it was a pretty quiet street and there was nobody around.

"Paul..." I said while slowly leaning back, opening my eyes, and sitting straight again. "I can't do this, just take me to P-Jesse" I said while correcting my mistake. Or well the mistake of calling Jesse Paul again. I hope he didn't notice my error. What was up with me today anyway? Am I going crazy? Will I be a nut in a old people's home at the age of 16? I don't think I had to say anymore because he started driving again.

"You know Suze, I'm not the bad guy you think I am. Guys pretend to act macho, but on the inside, there just scared of rejection." He said meaningfully. Was what he said true? Does this mean this whole time he was trying to act "macho" and trying to impress me? Or not so much impress but not show a weak side in front of me. Did I make him feel scared? Was he scared I would reject him? Well I wouldn't blame him, acting "macho" was the only way of protecting himself from getting hurt by every single time I rejected him. Actually, almost every time I saw him I rejected him, I just did a few seconds ago.

"Paul, I just love Jesse, okay" I said nervously, trying not to think about how Paul felt about me anymore. It was making me a little scared to learn some of the reasons he actually acted the way, well he acted. It was always such a mystery for me. All I did was say he was "he's evil and mean," but now I was finding out some answers and it was getting harder for me to say "hes evil and mean". Or just that at least. I had so much confusion going on already, and I didn't need to add anymore Paul stuff to it.

"Are you sure hes the only one you love?" He asked, or really more said to me while looking off the wheel because we hit a red light. He stared into my eyes. It almost made me feel dizzy looking into those bright blue eyes. They almost seemed as if they were full of love, for me, but then I quickly realized this must be another tick. Suze, don't be stupid, don't fall for it.

"BS" I said 'You don't love me, if you did you would leave Jesse and me alone." I said while the red light turned green again. He didn't start driving though. There were no cars anywhere in sight and he stayed there and looked at me.

"Well what am I doing now?" he said. Well that's easy, driving me to see Jesse in the graveyard so I can tell him I love him. Whoa, he really was doing what I told him to do.

"Why are you taking me though?" I asked and before I gave him a chance to answer, I remembered Jesse and Claris at the graveyard together, and how they might leave, without me being able to say goodbye to Jesse. So I said "Hurry it up Paul, start driving, I don't have all day." and then he looked at the road, as if he totally forgot that he was even in the car driving me somewhere. He didn't answer my question though, he just started driving and it was quiet for the rest of the four-minute drive. The whole time I was just staring at him. He didn't look over at me once in those four minutes. Just looking at the road. When we arrived at the graveyard, I stepped out of the car and said hesitantly,

"Well thanks...Paul." He didn't say you're welcome though, or do that little smile he does. He just stared at me with he mouth slightly opened and said

"You're beautiful," It made me feel good about myself, for about two seconds. I had other things to think about. Like Jesse for example. Plus saying that was probably just another Paul Slater trick. Even though I had no clue what his plan was yet. So I ditched the car quickly not answering to Paul, seeing old ghosts talking to each other on the way. They probably had no clue I could hear their conversations, yet alone see them, and touch them. And when I was about maybe 30 feet away from Jesse's grave I saw him. I had a big smile on my face. But then I frowned as I saw him sitting next to his grave talking to Claris, who was right besides him. They must of been talking for a long time. Probably forgot all about me. Then I stood there for about a minute, frozen not being able to move. Should I really interrupt them? I mean they did look really happy together. And like I said before, they were both dead. But then again, I didn't know who Claris was, so I stood there looking at them talk for another five minutes. They still had no clue I was standing 30 feet away from them looking at them, pondering to myself. And then I felt two arms come around me. I looked at the hands and saw that little cast thingy on one of the wrists. Paul. It was Paul.

"Paul..." I whispered while still staring at Jesse and Claris.

"So whose that young lady" he whispered back while putting his head on my shoulder.

"Claris" I replied, still keeping a low whisper. I don't know why I didn't push Paul off me, but it just didn't cross my mind. I was still to busy looking at Jesse and Claris. How they were interacting to each other. Wondering what in the world they were talking about.

"She seems to like him" Paul said, still keeping it in a whisper. Oh great, the last thing I wanted to hear was that. Well the last thing I wanted to hear was that Jesse looks like he likes her too, but I didn't end up hearing that.

"I bet, but Paul, I'm already hurt enough, can you just let me go and say goodbye to Jesse" I said.

"Don't you think it would be to hard to do that, don't you think you should just let it be. I mean common Suze, just look at them" Paul said. He had a point, but I know he just didn't want me to see Jesse at all, even if it was the right thing. Plus she might not be his love. She might not be his love at all. Paul brought me here to get on my good side, but I wasn't going to stop now. So I moved forward and Paul moved back and I walked up to Jesse and Claris.

"Oh, its you" Jesse said sarcastically.

"Jesse, I love you" I said while standing in front of him. I felt like a total idiot saying it. I really did.

"Well you got your boyfriend waiting for you back there" Jesse said while looking behind me at Paul.

"I don't love Paul." I said "I love you" I said again and then looked at Claris real quickly. She seemed totally unamused. I bet she was just thinking. Oh poor little alive girl, can't even get a guy that's alive, so shes gotta go for the dead guys that don't even like her. "I love you Jesse. I really do" I said while leaning down to his level, and then putting my two hands on both sides of his head, while beginning to kiss him. He didn't push me back or anything like I thought he would. And Paul didn't fly out of nowhere stopping us, and Claris didn't interrupt or anything. It was actually going pretty well. I pulled my head back and brought my hands down and stared into his eyes. Then I leaned forward and kissed him again, since he wasn't saying anything. Once again, I moved my head back and said "Jesse I love you" I must of said it several times already, but I had to get it sunken into his head. SUSAN SIMON LOVES JESSE.

"I love you too" He said with a tear running down his cheek. I actually made Jesse cry. I couldn't believe it. It was so corny, but I started crying too, but out of happiness.

"I have so much to tell you" I said to him.

"Well well well, so it ends happily ever after now does it?" Paul said while standing right behind me looking down at us. How does he do that? I looked over at Jesse and saw him mad. He was like a overprotective mother cat looking after her baby kittens. Furious if anybody even came close to touching distance of them.

"How's your nose?" Jesse said with a little smile all of the sudden. Probably happy that it was broken, and because of him too. He knew he won the fight, and the girl.

"Just here to return this," he said and then bent down and gave me a kiss on my cheek. I suddenly just blushed then, but I looked down avoiding Jesse so he couldn't tell, even though I would love to see his reaction. Probably just as much as he wanted to see mine to the kiss. But I found myself looking up after two seconds.

But see Paul was trying to Jesse mad. He knew this was his last chance to, so he took me here, and got a little time with me out of it too. Hes evil. Completely evil! and I fell for his trick again!

"Don't you ever touch her again" Jesse said getting a little angry and pointing out his finger to him. The way a parent does when they are telling a young child not to do something. But Paul, being the big head he was, ignored what he said and walked over next to me, in front of Claris

"And who may this be?" he said while bending down in front of Claris and kissing her hand. Paul knew kissing me, and showing interest in Claris would probably make Jesse go crazy. Once again, Paul wasn't human, just back to his old self. He was evil and mean. And I screwed up again. Letting this happen.