The sorrows from within
Disclaimer: I don't own anything to do with Escaflowne, although I wish I did. The only thing I own is Hope, and her past history.
~* Recap on what happened last time*~
" So are you ready Shenji?" Hope asked almost ready to bounce off the walls if she wasn't waiting for him.
" Yeah just hold on a sec, I want to change too, I know you to well than to go out in clean dress cloths." He said with a small giggle. By that time the three of them were giggling. There mother didn't say much after that, she was just taking in all the laugher around the house again.
Hope sat on a nearby bench and waited, to her it felt like a year before he came out of his room. But when he did he was wearing just about the same thing as Hope, pants and a baggy shirt.
" YAY, your ready, lets go." Hope was racing towards the door but before she left she gave her mother a small kiss on the cheek.
Authors Note:
Hey thanz to all who reviewed, Im only updating this one cuz I know some people like it and I don't want to disappoint anyone. I hope everyone likes the rest of my story, cuz if they don't, I don't see much point of writing it, so if I don't see some feed back I may discontinue the story. Sorrie, I hope that all the readers don't get mad at me, but most likely I will keep writing it until its done.
Chapter 9:parts of her past that never go away...
As Hope's younger self was running, the older boy walked, at a slow pace behind her. When she stopped they were in a meadow, surrounded by aging oak trees, that cased a long shadow over the soft lush grass. The flowers stretched out their petals, as if to catch some of the falling sun's rays. Hope stopped and over looked the beautiful spot, and then turned to see if her older brother had kept up with her. To her happiness her brother had kept up with her, and he was sitting under one of the large trees. She ran up to him and sat down beside him.
" So how do you like it here, this has been my place to think since... well since Dad left." Hope's smile faded on the past memory, but came back as she looked at her brother.
" Its beautiful Hope, have you shown mom?" Shenji inquired.
" No, no one knows about it but me. I tell mom that I have to be alone and I come here." Hope said getting up and walking to the middle of the breath taking meadow. She laid down in the friendly rays of the sun. Hope closed her eyes, wishing that everything was as it was before her dad passed on. Small sparkling tears coursed down her pale white skin.
Shenji seen the shimmer of light on her delicate features, and his heart sank. The first time in 3 year that he's seen her and she's crying. He got up and leaned over her, he gently wiped away the small trickle of salt water that was leaking out of the corners of her eyes. She opened her eyes and seen a warm, caring face looming over her. Hope wrapped her arms around his neck and just cried, an actual cry after her dad leaving her family, after she was told to be strong.
Shenji knew she hasn't cried in a while, their mother told him that. She told him that Hope hasn't cried since she came out of the barn on that fateful day.
" It'll be alright sis, don't cry, you don't want to dry up cause you watered the grass with your tears?" Shenji gave a look that portrayed sarcasm, kindness, and a little bit of home sickness. Hope's tears dried and she straightened out her cloths, as if brushing off the dust that had landed on her.
" Oh I don't know what I'd do with out you, Shenji" She gave him a hug that he would always remember, long after he was gone and long after hope was gone.
" Well you wont have to wonder cause Im here aren't I,and Im not leaving." He smiled, and he returned her loving hug.
As the siblings traded stories they had no idea what was to come. The sun was suddenly clouded over with dark mysterious rumbles of lightning, within the small lumpy cotton shells.
" Well I guess were going to have to come outside tomorrow" Shenji said with a hint of disappointment in his voice.
" yeah we should go home, before mother sends a search party." Hope giggled at her comment.
Shenji took Hope's hand and started to walk back to there home. The walk back seemed to take twice as long but just as they thought the clouds were going to break it started to rain. But this rain wasn't heavy, or cold, it was warm and soft to the touch. As hope dragged the older brother up the hill she see a group of men standing out on there drive way. They looked angry and displeased, and the tension in the air was unbearable.
" who are you?" Shenji raised his voice, so the group could hear him.
" Our names are of no concern of yours, we are only looking for someone." One man spoke out to the tall dark haired boy ( Shenji doesn't have silver hair)
" well your on my mothers land, so im making it my concern. So please tell me who you are or get off our property." Shenji said, slowly sliding the 9 year old behind him.
" So your Shenji... Well that's all we needed to know." as they said this they got into there car and drove away. By then Shenji and Hope were soaked to the bone, but they didn't mind. They walked into the house and changed and spent the evening by a roaring fire, talking and just keeping this moment last for as long as it could.
Hope's mother woke up during the night, earlier that usual, but she didn't mind. She had gotten to sleep early, since her muscles were more at ease with the hushed laughter of her two children in the living room. She walked downstairs and picked up the dirty dishes she found on the counter. But as she walked into the living room her steps became few and then she stopped. Shenji was leaning against the large sofa, and Hope in his arms, they both were asleep, with calm looks upon their faces. There expressions were highlighted by the faint glow of the dying fire. The shades of red, orange and yellow danced across the wall and towards the window, it was still raining The beautiful drops of fresh water fell from the sky as if it wasn't going to end, as if it was stopped in time.
Yuri watched them as they slept but got a hint of fraud in the air. She then walked out and wen back to bed. As the small footsteps receded up the stairs, two sets of eyes fluttered open.
" She's gone, you still want to go?" Shenji asked.
" Yep, sure do" Hope planted a big smile on her face.
They both got jackets, and warm cloths, and stepped outside. The rain hadn't let up since they were in the forest. Hope skipped along as the walked to Shenji's car, they got in and started it. It was new so it rarely ever made any sound, they drove off, hoping that they didn't wake there dear mother up.
They drove for a little bit and then stopped at a railroad crossing. The sign said that there was a train coming and that they should wait until it passed. They both seemed out of patience, since the rain had spoiled there fun earlier. Just as Shenji was going to turn around some one hit the back of his car. He whipped his head around and seen it was the same car that the group of men had driven this afternoon. Shenji didn't know what they were doing or weather it was an accident or not. He was going to move again but the black car hit Shenji's again, and again. Hope was getting scared, she didn't want her older brother to think she was weak, so she put on a strong face. But Shenji took this face the wrong way, he thought this was normal and that Hope was used to it, but in fact she wasn't.
The large black car rammed into them a couple more times, until they were on top of the train tracks. Now Hope was scared, she could see the uncertainty in her brothers eyes, and she to didn't know what to do. But through their fearful thoughts a loud blast of sound rung through their ears, both heads turned and seen 2 large light that looked like huge fire flies. Right before the large steel bull plunged it's horns into the small vehicle, all you could hear was silence, no a scream of agony, no screeching breaks, just silence.
To Hope, everything seemed to move in slow mode, and she seen the large freight train coming.Before she could scream she heard her brothers voice.
' Hope, I love you no matter what, so don't be scared I will be with you always' her brothers voice seemed to reach her ears before anything else. But it wasn't entirely her brother talking, it was erie and cold, yet comforting and soothing.
When Hope opened her eyes there was nothing, no flashing lights, no one talking to her trying to get her to wake up, nothing. But as she slowly got up she noticed Shenji was missing out of the car. She lifted herself up, and seen the trail of red speckles along the hood of the car. Hope grasped the handle to open her door, but it was stuck. She started to use more force, for that she felt deep in her heart that Shenji was dying and she didn't want him to be alone.
Finally she get the door open just enough for her small fragile body to squeeze through. She got out and immediately fell to the ground, she had used a lot of her energy just to get the door open, and for a 9 year old that's a lot.
But she knew she had to get to Shenji and say she was sorry just in case he left too. Hope felt that this was all her fault, she was the one to ask to go out, she was the one who kept asking to spend time with her brother. Hope picked herself off the ground and looked around, and then she seen him, lying on the ground motionless.
~* Hope from Shenji's point of view*~
Shenji couldn't move, his energy gone, and his spirit trampled.
" I sure wish Hope's ok, I would feel so bad if something were to happen to her." He said to himself.
In the distance Shenji could hear slight banging, like flesh against metal.
" I wonder what that is?" He questioned his mind to think on what the noise could be. Then he knew, he knew it was hope trying to get out of the car, trying to get to him.
The a loud squeaking noise as the door opened, and a short thump. Shenji tried to get up but could only see a part of the area, but could see Hope. He seen her pushing her body to the ultimate limits a body could handle after the shock of an accident like that. Shenji seen the strength, and the will power of his sister come out at that moment, and he knew she could survive without him. So he laid his head back down and closed his eyes and fell into a deep sleep, that he would never wake out of.
~* Back with Hope*~
As soon as she got up off the ground she felt his love slip away from her hear leaving a large hole for cold wind to blow through.
She rushed as fast as her little legs could carry her to Shenji's side. Hope knew by the peaceful look and the serene atmosphere, that he too had left her here. Her tears felt like fire, as the ground grabbed her heart with it's vicious grasped, waiting, just waiting to take another life. Her head was hung low, dripping with water from the still falling rain, mixed with the few tears she has left.
Shenji was dead........
She held him in her small arms, feeling the cold sink into his once pink skin.
" I loved you Shenji, why, why did you have to die like father.?" She asked the air between the small rain drops. But as she pulled him closer she felt a slight crumple in his pocket. It was a letter, addressed to her.
Dear Hope,
This letter is only meant to be read by you, but also if I had left.
I wanted to tell you something, just in case I never got the chance.
While I was away at colledge, I was thinking on our family's past.
I know that has been a touchy subject to you ever since dad died.
But I found out that were part of a ancient race of fighters, but enough
of that now. I just wanted to tell you, that I love you with all my heart
and I will always be there for you. I know you will survive without me, cause
you have fathers strength and mothers will power.
I love you forever
and always
your brother
Shenji......
Hope crumpled up the paper, wanting to know why he had written it. Why he had thought he needed a letter for the future. Her emotions were mixing, just as the storm over head had. But all that mattered now was that Shenji was dead, and what she was going to do then.......
Authors Note:
There you go another chapter, and I hope you liked it, even though it was sad. But that's what happened to her dad, but there's a reason for all this sadness and you will find out soon enough. Well Plz R&R and let me know what you think.
Bye bye for now
Later days ^_^
Disclaimer: I don't own anything to do with Escaflowne, although I wish I did. The only thing I own is Hope, and her past history.
~* Recap on what happened last time*~
" So are you ready Shenji?" Hope asked almost ready to bounce off the walls if she wasn't waiting for him.
" Yeah just hold on a sec, I want to change too, I know you to well than to go out in clean dress cloths." He said with a small giggle. By that time the three of them were giggling. There mother didn't say much after that, she was just taking in all the laugher around the house again.
Hope sat on a nearby bench and waited, to her it felt like a year before he came out of his room. But when he did he was wearing just about the same thing as Hope, pants and a baggy shirt.
" YAY, your ready, lets go." Hope was racing towards the door but before she left she gave her mother a small kiss on the cheek.
Authors Note:
Hey thanz to all who reviewed, Im only updating this one cuz I know some people like it and I don't want to disappoint anyone. I hope everyone likes the rest of my story, cuz if they don't, I don't see much point of writing it, so if I don't see some feed back I may discontinue the story. Sorrie, I hope that all the readers don't get mad at me, but most likely I will keep writing it until its done.
Chapter 9:parts of her past that never go away...
As Hope's younger self was running, the older boy walked, at a slow pace behind her. When she stopped they were in a meadow, surrounded by aging oak trees, that cased a long shadow over the soft lush grass. The flowers stretched out their petals, as if to catch some of the falling sun's rays. Hope stopped and over looked the beautiful spot, and then turned to see if her older brother had kept up with her. To her happiness her brother had kept up with her, and he was sitting under one of the large trees. She ran up to him and sat down beside him.
" So how do you like it here, this has been my place to think since... well since Dad left." Hope's smile faded on the past memory, but came back as she looked at her brother.
" Its beautiful Hope, have you shown mom?" Shenji inquired.
" No, no one knows about it but me. I tell mom that I have to be alone and I come here." Hope said getting up and walking to the middle of the breath taking meadow. She laid down in the friendly rays of the sun. Hope closed her eyes, wishing that everything was as it was before her dad passed on. Small sparkling tears coursed down her pale white skin.
Shenji seen the shimmer of light on her delicate features, and his heart sank. The first time in 3 year that he's seen her and she's crying. He got up and leaned over her, he gently wiped away the small trickle of salt water that was leaking out of the corners of her eyes. She opened her eyes and seen a warm, caring face looming over her. Hope wrapped her arms around his neck and just cried, an actual cry after her dad leaving her family, after she was told to be strong.
Shenji knew she hasn't cried in a while, their mother told him that. She told him that Hope hasn't cried since she came out of the barn on that fateful day.
" It'll be alright sis, don't cry, you don't want to dry up cause you watered the grass with your tears?" Shenji gave a look that portrayed sarcasm, kindness, and a little bit of home sickness. Hope's tears dried and she straightened out her cloths, as if brushing off the dust that had landed on her.
" Oh I don't know what I'd do with out you, Shenji" She gave him a hug that he would always remember, long after he was gone and long after hope was gone.
" Well you wont have to wonder cause Im here aren't I,and Im not leaving." He smiled, and he returned her loving hug.
As the siblings traded stories they had no idea what was to come. The sun was suddenly clouded over with dark mysterious rumbles of lightning, within the small lumpy cotton shells.
" Well I guess were going to have to come outside tomorrow" Shenji said with a hint of disappointment in his voice.
" yeah we should go home, before mother sends a search party." Hope giggled at her comment.
Shenji took Hope's hand and started to walk back to there home. The walk back seemed to take twice as long but just as they thought the clouds were going to break it started to rain. But this rain wasn't heavy, or cold, it was warm and soft to the touch. As hope dragged the older brother up the hill she see a group of men standing out on there drive way. They looked angry and displeased, and the tension in the air was unbearable.
" who are you?" Shenji raised his voice, so the group could hear him.
" Our names are of no concern of yours, we are only looking for someone." One man spoke out to the tall dark haired boy ( Shenji doesn't have silver hair)
" well your on my mothers land, so im making it my concern. So please tell me who you are or get off our property." Shenji said, slowly sliding the 9 year old behind him.
" So your Shenji... Well that's all we needed to know." as they said this they got into there car and drove away. By then Shenji and Hope were soaked to the bone, but they didn't mind. They walked into the house and changed and spent the evening by a roaring fire, talking and just keeping this moment last for as long as it could.
Hope's mother woke up during the night, earlier that usual, but she didn't mind. She had gotten to sleep early, since her muscles were more at ease with the hushed laughter of her two children in the living room. She walked downstairs and picked up the dirty dishes she found on the counter. But as she walked into the living room her steps became few and then she stopped. Shenji was leaning against the large sofa, and Hope in his arms, they both were asleep, with calm looks upon their faces. There expressions were highlighted by the faint glow of the dying fire. The shades of red, orange and yellow danced across the wall and towards the window, it was still raining The beautiful drops of fresh water fell from the sky as if it wasn't going to end, as if it was stopped in time.
Yuri watched them as they slept but got a hint of fraud in the air. She then walked out and wen back to bed. As the small footsteps receded up the stairs, two sets of eyes fluttered open.
" She's gone, you still want to go?" Shenji asked.
" Yep, sure do" Hope planted a big smile on her face.
They both got jackets, and warm cloths, and stepped outside. The rain hadn't let up since they were in the forest. Hope skipped along as the walked to Shenji's car, they got in and started it. It was new so it rarely ever made any sound, they drove off, hoping that they didn't wake there dear mother up.
They drove for a little bit and then stopped at a railroad crossing. The sign said that there was a train coming and that they should wait until it passed. They both seemed out of patience, since the rain had spoiled there fun earlier. Just as Shenji was going to turn around some one hit the back of his car. He whipped his head around and seen it was the same car that the group of men had driven this afternoon. Shenji didn't know what they were doing or weather it was an accident or not. He was going to move again but the black car hit Shenji's again, and again. Hope was getting scared, she didn't want her older brother to think she was weak, so she put on a strong face. But Shenji took this face the wrong way, he thought this was normal and that Hope was used to it, but in fact she wasn't.
The large black car rammed into them a couple more times, until they were on top of the train tracks. Now Hope was scared, she could see the uncertainty in her brothers eyes, and she to didn't know what to do. But through their fearful thoughts a loud blast of sound rung through their ears, both heads turned and seen 2 large light that looked like huge fire flies. Right before the large steel bull plunged it's horns into the small vehicle, all you could hear was silence, no a scream of agony, no screeching breaks, just silence.
To Hope, everything seemed to move in slow mode, and she seen the large freight train coming.Before she could scream she heard her brothers voice.
' Hope, I love you no matter what, so don't be scared I will be with you always' her brothers voice seemed to reach her ears before anything else. But it wasn't entirely her brother talking, it was erie and cold, yet comforting and soothing.
When Hope opened her eyes there was nothing, no flashing lights, no one talking to her trying to get her to wake up, nothing. But as she slowly got up she noticed Shenji was missing out of the car. She lifted herself up, and seen the trail of red speckles along the hood of the car. Hope grasped the handle to open her door, but it was stuck. She started to use more force, for that she felt deep in her heart that Shenji was dying and she didn't want him to be alone.
Finally she get the door open just enough for her small fragile body to squeeze through. She got out and immediately fell to the ground, she had used a lot of her energy just to get the door open, and for a 9 year old that's a lot.
But she knew she had to get to Shenji and say she was sorry just in case he left too. Hope felt that this was all her fault, she was the one to ask to go out, she was the one who kept asking to spend time with her brother. Hope picked herself off the ground and looked around, and then she seen him, lying on the ground motionless.
~* Hope from Shenji's point of view*~
Shenji couldn't move, his energy gone, and his spirit trampled.
" I sure wish Hope's ok, I would feel so bad if something were to happen to her." He said to himself.
In the distance Shenji could hear slight banging, like flesh against metal.
" I wonder what that is?" He questioned his mind to think on what the noise could be. Then he knew, he knew it was hope trying to get out of the car, trying to get to him.
The a loud squeaking noise as the door opened, and a short thump. Shenji tried to get up but could only see a part of the area, but could see Hope. He seen her pushing her body to the ultimate limits a body could handle after the shock of an accident like that. Shenji seen the strength, and the will power of his sister come out at that moment, and he knew she could survive without him. So he laid his head back down and closed his eyes and fell into a deep sleep, that he would never wake out of.
~* Back with Hope*~
As soon as she got up off the ground she felt his love slip away from her hear leaving a large hole for cold wind to blow through.
She rushed as fast as her little legs could carry her to Shenji's side. Hope knew by the peaceful look and the serene atmosphere, that he too had left her here. Her tears felt like fire, as the ground grabbed her heart with it's vicious grasped, waiting, just waiting to take another life. Her head was hung low, dripping with water from the still falling rain, mixed with the few tears she has left.
Shenji was dead........
She held him in her small arms, feeling the cold sink into his once pink skin.
" I loved you Shenji, why, why did you have to die like father.?" She asked the air between the small rain drops. But as she pulled him closer she felt a slight crumple in his pocket. It was a letter, addressed to her.
Dear Hope,
This letter is only meant to be read by you, but also if I had left.
I wanted to tell you something, just in case I never got the chance.
While I was away at colledge, I was thinking on our family's past.
I know that has been a touchy subject to you ever since dad died.
But I found out that were part of a ancient race of fighters, but enough
of that now. I just wanted to tell you, that I love you with all my heart
and I will always be there for you. I know you will survive without me, cause
you have fathers strength and mothers will power.
I love you forever
and always
your brother
Shenji......
Hope crumpled up the paper, wanting to know why he had written it. Why he had thought he needed a letter for the future. Her emotions were mixing, just as the storm over head had. But all that mattered now was that Shenji was dead, and what she was going to do then.......
Authors Note:
There you go another chapter, and I hope you liked it, even though it was sad. But that's what happened to her dad, but there's a reason for all this sadness and you will find out soon enough. Well Plz R&R and let me know what you think.
Bye bye for now
Later days ^_^