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# "STOP!" I yelled out to all of them, and then pushed Paul away and moved away also. I couldn't take this anymore. I just wanted to die, "Stop or I sware I will kill myslef!" I yelled hopping that it might freak them out a little bit. Jesse's eyes grew huge and he came and put his arms around me,

"Querida," He said while holding me tight. I probably scared him to death.

"Jesse, she needs a real man," Paul started to say, "I told you several times before, and I will tell you again, she needs a real man. Somebody who can take her places, do things with her, you know, somebody her family could actual see." He said with a little laugh at the end. I couldn't believe Jesse didn't attack him or something , but I did look at his face and he was biting his tongue. He was trying to hold his anger in, he cared about me, and tried to not hurt him. I felt like going "Jesse, go get him!" You know so he could just kill Paul, but I couldn't, as much as I wanted to. I couldn't have Jesse leave forever, and I couldn't have Paul dead, which is what they both wanted. So I did something, something I never EVER thought I would be doing. I whispered I love you into Jesse's ears so nobody could hear and then I backed away from him slowly. Then I walked up to Paul, put my arms around him, and kissed him. Yes that's right, I kissed him. If I gave Paul what he wanted, he wouldn't do anything to Jesse, because there would be no reason to, and if I gave Paul what he wanted, he would get bored and leave me alone, eventually. See, Paul wasn't the only one with plans. I could also be with Jesse the same time I was with Paul, just secretly. I wish I could of explained it to Jesse. I really do. Because I bet his heart was broken right now. I don't bet, I know. Seeing me go from his arms to Paul's was probably the worst thing I could of possibly done to Jesse. Lets just hope he doesn't leave before I could explain. Once the kiss stopped Paul said, "I knew you loved me." Loved you? HA! rigghhtttt. That's the last thing that was on my mind, me loving Paul? HA! There was something about his kiss though, that made my heart beat faster, but that didn't mean I liked it. I hated every second of it, knowing on how Jesse would react to it. Then I said to Paul,

"May I have my goodbyes with Jesse?" Paul smiled, so I was guessing it was a yes. I mean this was Paul's dream, for me to be with him, and wanting to never see Jesse again, to say my GOODBYES to him. But then again that's what he thought. I was going to do much more than say goodbye. So I walked back to Jesse to tell him something, just so he won't leave forever. So I could at least explain later.

"Meet me at my house. I'll tell ya what's going on later." I whispered into his ear quickly. He nodded his head, but still had a very confused and puzzled look on his face. Then I gave him a kiss on the cheek and said goodbye and he said goodbye. I'm sure he had no clue what was going on. Then I looked at Claris and said goodbye. She actually looked very pleased with herself and walked over to Jesse. She was probably thinking, oh thank goodness that little girl is gone, now I can have my Jesse all to myself. Then as I got back to Paul, he held my hand, and I closed my eyes. Lets just hope Jesse goes to my room and doesn't leave with Claris. Lets just hope he doesn't leave me. Please please please Jesse, don't leave with Claris. I was scared he would leave with her because I know how I felt when I got rejected, I would go to somebody else that liked me, to feel loved. When I opened my eyes, I noticed we were at Paul's house, again. We shifted there. Half of me wanted his incredible kisses, and half of me told me to control myself. To not do ANYTHING physical with him. I was just going to tell Paul I was tired and leave, but I didn't find myself doing that. Something was keeping me in that room. I hated him, I hated him because he was evil, and still had the best looks of any man on this planet. I wanted to kill him for that.

"So what changed your mind?" Paul said while sitting on his bed. I wasn't going to fall for this, so I remaind standing.

"Paul I love you" I lied to him. "Leave Jesse alone, he will be alone forever, we don't need to bother him." I said, just to make sure he wouldn't go and try to make him leave forever.

"You kidding?" Paul said to me. And then my heart dropped. What did he mean by your kidding? Did that mean he wasn't going to leave him alone?