#"You kidding?" Paul said to me. And then my heart dropped. What did he mean by your kidding? Did that mean he wasn't going to leave Jesse alone?

"W-what do you mean?" I said while trying my best to not care, but it was a little hard not to.

"Well if you don't care about him," He said while getting off the bed and then standing behind me with his head on my shoulder and his hands around mine in front, "we could kill him together." He added and then I couldn't believe it. I just told Paul I loved him in front of Jesse, so he wouldn't get rid of him, and now it wasn't working. My plan didn't work at all, because now Paul was expecting me to get rid of Jesse with him. WITH HIM! Paul wants me and him to go gets rid of Jesse! TOGETHER! I can't believe this! No way am I going to go make Jesse leave forever! "Well he does look cute with Claris, maybe we should let them be. I mean common Paul, imagine being dead forever in this world, it must be hell." I said because it was the only thing I could think of, even though I would hate nothing more than for Jesse to spend forever with Claris. I didn't really understand Claris. I could tell she always had things her way. Probably a little rich girl, or at least she must be from the clothes she had, and the fact that she was traveling from California to England. She probably had such a fit at the graveyard when she found out Jesse didn't love her anymore. I mean I'm guessing he told her since she went off with Paul, but then again, why did she go off with Paul? I mean Paul went with her to tick Jesse off, but why Claris go off with him? Maybe she was trying to tick Jesse off too. Well I know them spending forever together wasn't going to happen. If it even did, I would tell myself it wouldn't. Hopefully if Jesse did what I told him to do, he would meet me in my room. I just couldn't live anymore if I never saw Jesse again. It would be impossible for me. I think I would kill myself.

"How about we sleep over it." Paul told me and then kissed me on the cheek. I didn't care about the kiss, I was just thankful I didn't have to do anymore talking, or moving around, or planning, or trying to figure stuff out. I could sleep on it and figure out what to do in the morning. "We have school tomorrow." He added and then went by his drawer and took his shirt off and began folding it. I know it was wrong, but I couldn't help but stare. He had the best body known to man. Biceps, 6 pac, the whole package, and it were perfect because it wasn't to much muscle, but just enough. I know this is even worse, because I am totally in love with Jesse, but Paul was really sexy right now and I wanted to kiss him so bad. Just to push him onto the bed and kiss him. Feel his great body. OKAY BAD IMAGE! There is no worse time than now to have sex fantasies with Paul. Or well almost sex fantasies. I don't know if it was or not, it could of gone further, if I wanted it to- which I totally didn't want. I'm not going to let my hormones get in the way of Jesse and I. Once he put his shirt in the drawer he looked at me. I'm guessing his shirt wasn't that dirty, Paul was never dirty, plus I saw him wearing something else at the hospital, so I guess that shirt wasn't really that bad. But then again, when did he change? I'm confused. "Are you okay Suze?" He asked looking very concerned. Why did he look concerned? I really wished I could believe he cared, but every time I did, I got hurt.

"Just tired." I told him while yawing, because it was true, I was totally overwhelmed and tired. It must have been like 11:00 or something. I bet my family was worried about me.

"We could call your house and tell everyone your staying the night at CeeCee's. You know so you can stay here- I mean you can stay in the guestroom if you want. I'll take you to school tomorrow." He told me. I wanted to shout "No way am I spending the night here!" but I didn't. The idea was tempting, and I couldn't get mad at him for saying it. I mean he thought I loved him, and he did say guestroom. But there was Jesse, I had to see Jesse. Plus wouldn't the hospital try to look for him?

"No, I think I need to be alone a little bit, I love you honey but I just need some time...it was a big night for me." I told him. I must admit though, I have no clue where the honey part came from, I guess that's what somebody would say to Paul if they were in love with him. You know call him honey, imagine honey all over his body-EW! Where did that image come from!?! EW EW EW!!! No honey all over Paul's body. NO NO NO! Now honey over Jesse's body is another idea, but then again, I've never even seen Jesse with his shirt off. Never say never though.

"Okay" He said and then came over and kissed me on the lips. I closed my eyes and tried to shift home. When I opened them, I was in my room. IT WORKED! It really worked this time. See I was really meant to be here and see Jesse. Then I looked over by the window where Jesse usually hung out and he was there. Things were becoming perfect for me. Jesse was here, in my room. He still believed loved him.

"About time you got here" I heard a feminine voice from behind me say. I turned my head around and Claris was there. He brought Claris with him! How could he!?! I could tell she hated me when she said that. Of course she did, I was stopping her from getting what she wanted, which was Jesse. Then I quickly turned my head back and looked at Jesse.

"Claris!" he said while looking at her madly from saying what she said. "What happen with Paul?" He asked while suddenly giving me all his attention. I took a deep breath began to explain,

"Well I thought maybe I could tell Paul I loved him-which I don't! Just so he won't try to get rid of you anymore, so you wouldn't be a threat to him. And it worked!" I said totally leaving out the part that he still might try to get rid of Jesse. Paul said he would think about it. Maybe I was more powerful than I thought and changed Paul's mind. "Your the one I love Jesse. I did that for you. I'll just have to pretend with Paul, for a little while, but it will all be worth it in the end, because I get to be with you, and only you." I said and then saw a big smile on Jesse's face. He was so full of joy hearing those words. Your the one I love Jesse. Then I remember how I brought Paul to the graveyard, he was probably thinking about that too. So I told him I shifted to the hospital because I though I was going to have a heart attack from what was going on, but then I realized I wanted to go back because of you, and Paul was walking by and saw me, and since I couldn't shift back, he helped me get back by giving me a drive. Okay so it wasn't 100% true, but there was no way of explaing why I shifted to the hospital in the first place, I didn't even know why, so how could I tell Jesse why? He seemed to believe it and looked a little scared. I guess the heart attack thing creped him out a little bit because he came up and held me in his arms.

"Querida" He said while sounding scared to death. I didn't want to make him scared, but I couldn't change what I said before.

"Its okay Jesse, I'm okay" I said trying to help him feel better.

"No it isn't okay," Jesse said while looking into my eyes. "Its not okay" He told me. My heart was broken. I thought he was going to say his last goodbye right then and there but instead he said, "Lets sleep on it" and then he disappeared. I turned around and Claris was gone too. So I was left there alone. Paul thought I loved him, and wanted me to get rid of Jesse, and Jesse knew I loved him, but felt bad for the lie I told him and wanted to leave. All this lying wasn't getting me any ware. Just making my problems worse. And who knows if Jesse will ever come back. Maybe he just decided to leave me forever and stay with another dead person, one who doesn't think she will have heart attacks. Or well lie that she might of had one to protect him from the truth. Oh please don't let that be. I went to tell my parents I was home, and they thought was home this whole time in my room, so I made them believe that. Another lie. Then I went into my bed, still fully dressed, and surprisingly, fell asleep. I had so much to think about, but I fell asleep.