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SHOW ME LOVE
Chapter 1
The light breeze rose the dust into the air. If one wanted to see a pretty picture, he should have taken one look over the shimmering water, slightly waving with grace. The sun was high in the sky, glaring and ablaze.
Kamui of the Dragons of Earth smiled lightly as he watched the fluffy white clouds. One of them was shaped in a form of a little dragon. He smiled again on the thought, that it's maybe just him who sees dragons everywhere.
But soon there should appear real Dragons. The ones who are going to make him decide about a quite important thing. They're going to show me, if the love exist, he mused.
Subaru predicted that his wish would be granted soon. He tried to erase the images of Grandmother and Kamui crying over him but he failed.
He imagined Seishirou's face decorated with a smirk and blood-covered hands. Well, this time it will be my blood, he whispered.
Deep inside his mind, something told him, that he should kick that smirk off, and replace it with some kind of melancholic expression, a sad one or whatever, just that one which would show Sakurazukamori's true feelings.
But on the other hand, why should Seishirou have any feelings for him? He did prove that he hardly counts with Subaru's happiness.
Who'd guess at the first sight, he's the most improper person to fall in love with...
What a pity, really. I liked that miraculous emerald more than a blind eye. But anyway, it fit him too. Saying the truth, in everything that made Subaru being as he was, there was nothing unfitting. Clear beauty; even if broken, still wonderful. Maybe that pain gave him a slight aura of mistery, making him more enigmatic.
More interesting.
But unfortunately he guessed he wouldn't be able to watch him anymore, because the final act he had been planning was to take place right here and now. To get to know what emotions he has.
To die of Subaru's hand, the only person he would let his death belong to.
"The view is wonderful," commented Seishirou.
"The prettiest it gets in the night," replied Subaru.
"I didn't speak about the Tokyo Bay. I meant you are the beautiful view." Those cute blushes belonged already to history and Subaru didn't seem to be startled or angry about the comment. He merely looked on the water and then just said "Shall we begin?"
Kamui watched as Subaru spread the Kekkai and the two began to fight. It was a strange sight, they who had been so close a long time ago, now were fighting and trying to kill each other. Tender touches now turned into blows that were meant to bring harm.
So the time makes one forget? So it makes you forget about the love, stand up and seek revenge?
Or are they blind at each other's feelings?
Or are they afraid of trying to forgive?
Subaru gasped and again sent his shikigamis in Seishirou's direction. The attack didn't bring any result, it was easily blown away.
Now, he asked himself what he was doing. Keeping appearances is one, but he wanted Sakurazukamori to kill him, so why wasn't he giving up or something? Maybe because he hid his true wish too deeply to see, but it struggled to get out, to begin again as his conscience desired.
He let the blow reach him. He was pushed back by a blast of power, though he didn't try to defend. It seemed though he hadn't even managed to continue the battle. Subaru just stared at the ground, eyes wide in disbelief. Could it be...? Could he really want to forget, to forgive, to live, not to die and...
Fun is fun, but it's taking too much time. It's time to make the things happen. It's a perfect moment to pull the strings. Or, more correctly, to tear the strings off.
"Subaru-kun, what are you doing? It's not very intelligent of you, to stand just like that... You're simply asking me to hurt you..."
Sakurazukamori approached Sumeragi with his usual insolent smirk. The younger man drooped his head and chewed his lip.
"What, are you done already? Or have you changed your mind in the case of dieing?" he teased. Hearing no answer, he sighed and turned back.
It wasn't clever. Maybe he would have seen Kamui known also as Fuuma stealing up Sumeragi. When he wanted to, he could move like a cat, quietly and almost invisibly. Added to the fact of Subaru being lost in his own thoughts and completely determined to make up his mind, Kamui had an easy aim.
Everything happened in that one minute.
Seishirou turned back to say something he wasn't sure he should, Subaru opened his mouth to finally exclaim his decision and Kamui raised his hand to strike Subaru.
Sometimes everything is reduced to that one minute in which your tragedy becomes reality.
The sound of the flesh being ripped apart, the soft sound of splashing blood, the wide emerald eyes, the dark streaming hair, the white coat becoming suddenly crimson...
Seishirou caught falling Subaru and they both landed on the ground. After that, Sakurazukamori fully understood what he was seeing.
Bleeding. Almost dead. His prey.
His Subaru.
He found himself unable to speak while Subaru coughed and his body became so...light.
"Seishirou-san..."
His heart beat so fast, with furious speed while the heart beat of Sumeragi slowed. With one shaking hand he reached for Subaru but stopped.
"It wasn't meant to end like that," he finally whispered. Sumeragi tried to get up and unexpectedly did so. Breathing in gasps he weakly cupped Seishirou's face and, doing a great effort, he kissed him on the lips. He felt something wet on the man's cheek and gently pulled away to wipe away his tears.
He didn't think that Seishirou shouldn't cry... because he's not meant to, because he's Sakurazukamori. Who cares? He was just his Seishirou- san, nothing more and nothing less.
"I think... that Hokuto-ch..an...would...forg..ive...me..th...at..I.."
His back arched in a sudden blow of pain.
"had...forgi..ven..y..ou..."
"Subaru?"
"Subaru?" repeated Seishirou more urgently. He shook his body and even slapped his face. 'Subaru!"
He didn't even think about losing control, or acting weird. He kept on shaking Subaru and felt a horrible fear overwhelming him. It was so sudden and filling emotion that he almost drowned in it. No, no, no. Hey, open your eyes. Don't say I won't hear your voice again. Did he really want to do this with his own hands? He wanted to take away the life which now he was trying to restore?
"You see I decided to huddle over your job." He heard the calm voice of Kamui.
"WHY?!" Seishirou yelled without thinking.
"Oh... don't tell me you're suffering. You were the one who said he's not important in any way to you."
Kamui was pushed away by a great blast of power.
"Consider that. You are his tormentor, not I."
"Fuck off," Seishirou hissed.
Kamui of the Dragons of Earth smiled brightly and disappeared in the dust. Sakurazukamori didn't bother with him. He just looked in Subaru's face and again, without thinking, he started to cry, for the first time in his life.
Sumeragi was the cause of many things he did for the first time.
Seishirou looked back to the place where Subaru was lying in his blood-covered coat.
Now he was only to ruin the rainbow Bridge.
And then, he was only to kill Kamui of the Dragons of Earth.
TBC.
Thank you for reading! I hope I expressed well everything I wanted to and you've enjoyed that. Sorry for killing Subaru. I love him very much but I had to wipe him off in order to 1) make Seishirou finally reveal his heart 2) bring more angst which from now on is going to fly everywhere I hope. Besides I love when Sei-chan's crying over him. The only thing I love even more is when they're together (er, twisted). This fic is dedicated to my dear Muraki-chan and to my great beta-reader, Kikirini-chan.
SHOW ME LOVE
Chapter 1
The light breeze rose the dust into the air. If one wanted to see a pretty picture, he should have taken one look over the shimmering water, slightly waving with grace. The sun was high in the sky, glaring and ablaze.
Kamui of the Dragons of Earth smiled lightly as he watched the fluffy white clouds. One of them was shaped in a form of a little dragon. He smiled again on the thought, that it's maybe just him who sees dragons everywhere.
But soon there should appear real Dragons. The ones who are going to make him decide about a quite important thing. They're going to show me, if the love exist, he mused.
Subaru predicted that his wish would be granted soon. He tried to erase the images of Grandmother and Kamui crying over him but he failed.
He imagined Seishirou's face decorated with a smirk and blood-covered hands. Well, this time it will be my blood, he whispered.
Deep inside his mind, something told him, that he should kick that smirk off, and replace it with some kind of melancholic expression, a sad one or whatever, just that one which would show Sakurazukamori's true feelings.
But on the other hand, why should Seishirou have any feelings for him? He did prove that he hardly counts with Subaru's happiness.
Who'd guess at the first sight, he's the most improper person to fall in love with...
What a pity, really. I liked that miraculous emerald more than a blind eye. But anyway, it fit him too. Saying the truth, in everything that made Subaru being as he was, there was nothing unfitting. Clear beauty; even if broken, still wonderful. Maybe that pain gave him a slight aura of mistery, making him more enigmatic.
More interesting.
But unfortunately he guessed he wouldn't be able to watch him anymore, because the final act he had been planning was to take place right here and now. To get to know what emotions he has.
To die of Subaru's hand, the only person he would let his death belong to.
"The view is wonderful," commented Seishirou.
"The prettiest it gets in the night," replied Subaru.
"I didn't speak about the Tokyo Bay. I meant you are the beautiful view." Those cute blushes belonged already to history and Subaru didn't seem to be startled or angry about the comment. He merely looked on the water and then just said "Shall we begin?"
Kamui watched as Subaru spread the Kekkai and the two began to fight. It was a strange sight, they who had been so close a long time ago, now were fighting and trying to kill each other. Tender touches now turned into blows that were meant to bring harm.
So the time makes one forget? So it makes you forget about the love, stand up and seek revenge?
Or are they blind at each other's feelings?
Or are they afraid of trying to forgive?
Subaru gasped and again sent his shikigamis in Seishirou's direction. The attack didn't bring any result, it was easily blown away.
Now, he asked himself what he was doing. Keeping appearances is one, but he wanted Sakurazukamori to kill him, so why wasn't he giving up or something? Maybe because he hid his true wish too deeply to see, but it struggled to get out, to begin again as his conscience desired.
He let the blow reach him. He was pushed back by a blast of power, though he didn't try to defend. It seemed though he hadn't even managed to continue the battle. Subaru just stared at the ground, eyes wide in disbelief. Could it be...? Could he really want to forget, to forgive, to live, not to die and...
Fun is fun, but it's taking too much time. It's time to make the things happen. It's a perfect moment to pull the strings. Or, more correctly, to tear the strings off.
"Subaru-kun, what are you doing? It's not very intelligent of you, to stand just like that... You're simply asking me to hurt you..."
Sakurazukamori approached Sumeragi with his usual insolent smirk. The younger man drooped his head and chewed his lip.
"What, are you done already? Or have you changed your mind in the case of dieing?" he teased. Hearing no answer, he sighed and turned back.
It wasn't clever. Maybe he would have seen Kamui known also as Fuuma stealing up Sumeragi. When he wanted to, he could move like a cat, quietly and almost invisibly. Added to the fact of Subaru being lost in his own thoughts and completely determined to make up his mind, Kamui had an easy aim.
Everything happened in that one minute.
Seishirou turned back to say something he wasn't sure he should, Subaru opened his mouth to finally exclaim his decision and Kamui raised his hand to strike Subaru.
Sometimes everything is reduced to that one minute in which your tragedy becomes reality.
The sound of the flesh being ripped apart, the soft sound of splashing blood, the wide emerald eyes, the dark streaming hair, the white coat becoming suddenly crimson...
Seishirou caught falling Subaru and they both landed on the ground. After that, Sakurazukamori fully understood what he was seeing.
Bleeding. Almost dead. His prey.
His Subaru.
He found himself unable to speak while Subaru coughed and his body became so...light.
"Seishirou-san..."
His heart beat so fast, with furious speed while the heart beat of Sumeragi slowed. With one shaking hand he reached for Subaru but stopped.
"It wasn't meant to end like that," he finally whispered. Sumeragi tried to get up and unexpectedly did so. Breathing in gasps he weakly cupped Seishirou's face and, doing a great effort, he kissed him on the lips. He felt something wet on the man's cheek and gently pulled away to wipe away his tears.
He didn't think that Seishirou shouldn't cry... because he's not meant to, because he's Sakurazukamori. Who cares? He was just his Seishirou- san, nothing more and nothing less.
"I think... that Hokuto-ch..an...would...forg..ive...me..th...at..I.."
His back arched in a sudden blow of pain.
"had...forgi..ven..y..ou..."
"Subaru?"
"Subaru?" repeated Seishirou more urgently. He shook his body and even slapped his face. 'Subaru!"
He didn't even think about losing control, or acting weird. He kept on shaking Subaru and felt a horrible fear overwhelming him. It was so sudden and filling emotion that he almost drowned in it. No, no, no. Hey, open your eyes. Don't say I won't hear your voice again. Did he really want to do this with his own hands? He wanted to take away the life which now he was trying to restore?
"You see I decided to huddle over your job." He heard the calm voice of Kamui.
"WHY?!" Seishirou yelled without thinking.
"Oh... don't tell me you're suffering. You were the one who said he's not important in any way to you."
Kamui was pushed away by a great blast of power.
"Consider that. You are his tormentor, not I."
"Fuck off," Seishirou hissed.
Kamui of the Dragons of Earth smiled brightly and disappeared in the dust. Sakurazukamori didn't bother with him. He just looked in Subaru's face and again, without thinking, he started to cry, for the first time in his life.
Sumeragi was the cause of many things he did for the first time.
Seishirou looked back to the place where Subaru was lying in his blood-covered coat.
Now he was only to ruin the rainbow Bridge.
And then, he was only to kill Kamui of the Dragons of Earth.
TBC.
Thank you for reading! I hope I expressed well everything I wanted to and you've enjoyed that. Sorry for killing Subaru. I love him very much but I had to wipe him off in order to 1) make Seishirou finally reveal his heart 2) bring more angst which from now on is going to fly everywhere I hope. Besides I love when Sei-chan's crying over him. The only thing I love even more is when they're together (er, twisted). This fic is dedicated to my dear Muraki-chan and to my great beta-reader, Kikirini-chan.