A/N- This is my first published InuYasha fic, so go easy on the flames plz. I wanna thank my BFF AnimeLover21291 who sat out at gym class to help me write this. This is a songfic to 'Crawling' by Linkin' Park.

[Crawling in my skin...]

...no... not again... not this... NO!! I hate this feeling, this disturbance in my youkai blood. It's right there... right under my skin... trying to get out...

[...Consuming all I feel...]

This feeling... it blocks out everything – even my feelings for Kagome – ...I hate it...

[...Fear is how I fall...]

I hate feeling fear. It's what makes me this way. Fearing for my life or Kagome's – when Tetsusiaga can't protect us.

[...Confusing what is real...]

In this mind, this form, I don't even know what's real anymore. I don't even know who I am. I feel no pain, no love, nothing, just anger. Is Kagome even real to me anymore?

[...There's something inside me that pulls beneath the surface, consuming... confusing]

This power and rage pulls from deep within me, it consumes everything – my thoughts, my feelings, and my mind... I'm so confused...

[...this lack of self I fear is never ending, it's haunting ... how I can't seem...]

I'm loosing myself, and I think that if I do it again, I may never come back – not even for Kagome.

[...to find myself again my walls are closing in, {without a sense of confidence I'm convinced that it's just too much pressure to take} I've felt this way before... so insecure...]

How could I ever have wanted to be this way? Once I had truly tasted it, really felt it, I hated it. I don't want to be this way. I'm so unsure if this is what I really want... the pressure is unbearable.

[... discomfort endlessly has pulled itself upon, distracting... reacting, against my will I stand beside my own reflection, it's haunting, how I can't seem, to find myself again...]

I'm distracted by the fact that, in my demon form, I don't know anyone anymore... I HATE IT...