I changed the name of this story to "I Swear"
She took a deep breath and looked up at him, into his eyes. "I know. And there's something that I want to tell you. Something that I need to tell you. And you have to listen."
"I'm all ears luv," he said. "What's up?"
"Oh god," she said, looking down at her shaking hands. "There's something that I need to tell you."
"We've established that. ."
"Right. Well you see, this isn't easy. I-. .I kind of-. ."
"What are you two doing in here?" Angel asked from the doorway.
"Well we were 'aving a conversation until you rudely interrupted," Spike said.
"Have either of you seen Faith?" Angel asked, ignoring Spike's question.
"Um, she went to a friend's. Because of everything that happened. I'm going to see her tomorrow, you can come Angel, if you want."
"That's okay," he said.
"I'm sure she'd want to see you," Buffy said. "You two have been close lately."
"Uh-. .Yeah," he said before leaving in a hurry.
"You were saying?" Spike asked.
"Huh? Oh, right," she said. "Faith. I'm worried about Faith."
"Don't be," he said, touching her shoulder. "She'll be fine pet."
"Yeah, you're right," she said, standing. "I should get to bed. Or back to bed."
"Sounds like a good idea," he said. "Might just do the same."
She smiled at him before turning. "Oh and Spike," she said, stopping. "Thanks."
"Don't mention it," he said, and watched as she disappeared.
Two weeks had passed since the night Buffy came so close to telling Spike how she felt, and still, she hadn't found the courage to tell him. She was still with Riley, although she knew it was going to end soon. She couldn't keep this up anymore. The feelings she had for Spike had only grown stronger.
Buffy had tried to avoid Spike since that night. She couldn't be around him, knowing that she was falling in love with him. Deep in love.
"Buff?"
Buffy looked up when she heard her name. Angel was looking over at her, a concerend expression on his face. She shook her head slightly, returning to reality.
"Um-. . Yeah?" she said.
"Is there something you want to talk about?" he asked.
"No, thanks," she said, stopping. "You know the rest of the way to Giles right?"
Faith had been staying with their watcher for the past two weeks. She didn't have anywhere else to go. Their father surely wasn't going to take her back after what she did. But it didn't bother Faith that much. The only thing she missed was her sisters and Angel.
"Yeah, where are you going?" he asked.
"I have something that I need to do," she said. "I forgot about it. I'll catch up with you guys later."
"Oh, okay," he said. "Be careful."
"Yeah, you too," she said, before starting off in the opposite direction of him.
It was sunnier then normal, and Buffy was beginning to feel extremely hot in her sweater. She pulled it off, and looked at it. It was one of Spike's he had given her a while ago. She brought it up to her nose and took in his scent.
'God, I am pathetic,' she thought. 'I need to get over Spike. It's just not gonna happen. But I can't stay with Riley, I don't want to hurt him.'
She walked for a few more minutes, before coming to a fairly large house. It was all brick, with a black door and garage. She took a deep breath before starting up the driveway.
The door opened just as she was about to knock, and Buffy jumped, surprised when she saw Riley staring at her.
"Buffy?" he asked.
"Yeah. Um-. . We need to talk Riley," she said.
He walked outside, causing her to back up a bit. "Is something wrong?"
"No. Well, yeah. . There's no easy way to say this but," she said, playing with her hands. "I think we should see other people."
"You're breaking up with me?"
"It would appear so, huh?" she said. "I just don't feel the way I felt anymore. It was great while it lasted Riley, and I want to stay-. ."
"Friends," he finished, sadly. "Right."
"Please, don't be mad. It would only hurt you more if I stayed with you," she said.
He laughed. "Yeah, right. Thanks for telling me, and not sneaking around behind my back."
"Riley. ."
"Can I ask you something Buffy?" he said, looking hurt. "Is it Spike?"
"Is who Spike?"
"The reason you're breaking this off," he said. "Do you love him?"
She was silent. She had no answer to that. She did love him, or so she thought she did. But she couldn't tell Riley that. He would tell Angel, and Angel would tell Spike, and it would be such a big mess.
He nodded. "I see."
"No, Riley, please-. ."
"It's okay Buffy, I won't tell him," he said, turning to go inside. "I'll see you at school tomorrow."
Buffy closed her eyes when he slammed the door in her face, and slowly walked away from his house.
She took a deep breath and looked up at him, into his eyes. "I know. And there's something that I want to tell you. Something that I need to tell you. And you have to listen."
"I'm all ears luv," he said. "What's up?"
"Oh god," she said, looking down at her shaking hands. "There's something that I need to tell you."
"We've established that. ."
"Right. Well you see, this isn't easy. I-. .I kind of-. ."
"What are you two doing in here?" Angel asked from the doorway.
"Well we were 'aving a conversation until you rudely interrupted," Spike said.
"Have either of you seen Faith?" Angel asked, ignoring Spike's question.
"Um, she went to a friend's. Because of everything that happened. I'm going to see her tomorrow, you can come Angel, if you want."
"That's okay," he said.
"I'm sure she'd want to see you," Buffy said. "You two have been close lately."
"Uh-. .Yeah," he said before leaving in a hurry.
"You were saying?" Spike asked.
"Huh? Oh, right," she said. "Faith. I'm worried about Faith."
"Don't be," he said, touching her shoulder. "She'll be fine pet."
"Yeah, you're right," she said, standing. "I should get to bed. Or back to bed."
"Sounds like a good idea," he said. "Might just do the same."
She smiled at him before turning. "Oh and Spike," she said, stopping. "Thanks."
"Don't mention it," he said, and watched as she disappeared.
Two weeks had passed since the night Buffy came so close to telling Spike how she felt, and still, she hadn't found the courage to tell him. She was still with Riley, although she knew it was going to end soon. She couldn't keep this up anymore. The feelings she had for Spike had only grown stronger.
Buffy had tried to avoid Spike since that night. She couldn't be around him, knowing that she was falling in love with him. Deep in love.
"Buff?"
Buffy looked up when she heard her name. Angel was looking over at her, a concerend expression on his face. She shook her head slightly, returning to reality.
"Um-. . Yeah?" she said.
"Is there something you want to talk about?" he asked.
"No, thanks," she said, stopping. "You know the rest of the way to Giles right?"
Faith had been staying with their watcher for the past two weeks. She didn't have anywhere else to go. Their father surely wasn't going to take her back after what she did. But it didn't bother Faith that much. The only thing she missed was her sisters and Angel.
"Yeah, where are you going?" he asked.
"I have something that I need to do," she said. "I forgot about it. I'll catch up with you guys later."
"Oh, okay," he said. "Be careful."
"Yeah, you too," she said, before starting off in the opposite direction of him.
It was sunnier then normal, and Buffy was beginning to feel extremely hot in her sweater. She pulled it off, and looked at it. It was one of Spike's he had given her a while ago. She brought it up to her nose and took in his scent.
'God, I am pathetic,' she thought. 'I need to get over Spike. It's just not gonna happen. But I can't stay with Riley, I don't want to hurt him.'
She walked for a few more minutes, before coming to a fairly large house. It was all brick, with a black door and garage. She took a deep breath before starting up the driveway.
The door opened just as she was about to knock, and Buffy jumped, surprised when she saw Riley staring at her.
"Buffy?" he asked.
"Yeah. Um-. . We need to talk Riley," she said.
He walked outside, causing her to back up a bit. "Is something wrong?"
"No. Well, yeah. . There's no easy way to say this but," she said, playing with her hands. "I think we should see other people."
"You're breaking up with me?"
"It would appear so, huh?" she said. "I just don't feel the way I felt anymore. It was great while it lasted Riley, and I want to stay-. ."
"Friends," he finished, sadly. "Right."
"Please, don't be mad. It would only hurt you more if I stayed with you," she said.
He laughed. "Yeah, right. Thanks for telling me, and not sneaking around behind my back."
"Riley. ."
"Can I ask you something Buffy?" he said, looking hurt. "Is it Spike?"
"Is who Spike?"
"The reason you're breaking this off," he said. "Do you love him?"
She was silent. She had no answer to that. She did love him, or so she thought she did. But she couldn't tell Riley that. He would tell Angel, and Angel would tell Spike, and it would be such a big mess.
He nodded. "I see."
"No, Riley, please-. ."
"It's okay Buffy, I won't tell him," he said, turning to go inside. "I'll see you at school tomorrow."
Buffy closed her eyes when he slammed the door in her face, and slowly walked away from his house.