Through the mirror of my mind
Time after time
I see reflections of you and me
Reflections of the way life used to be
Reflections of the love you took from me.
Lucas heard the faint laughter of his friends inside the house. He ran a hand through his bangs, pushing his hair back, making it more tousled. "Oh man, what am I doing out here?" He looked longingly back at the beach house. Shivering, Lucas tucked his hands into his pockets.
Oh, I'm all alone now
No love to shield me
Trapped in a world
That's a distorted reality
Happiness you took from me
And left me alone
With only memories
"Stupid, I'm so stupid." He turned his back on the house filled with the seaQuest crew. "Dad was right, I'm not missed unless someone needs something." He climbed up and sat on the rail, looking down at the waves crashing against the quay. "Just a tool, a freak."
Through the mirror of my mind
Through these tears that I'm crying
Reflects a hurt I can't control
'Cause although you're gone
I keep holding on
To the happy times
Oh, when you were mine
"It's always the same." He scrubbed a hand across his cheeks, wiping away the hot tears. "They say they love me, say they care, but they never notice it when I'm gone." He looked back over his shoulder, hoping that someone, anyone, might leave the party and come looking for him.
As I peer through the window
Of lost time
Looking over my yesterdays
And all the love I gave all in vain
All the love that I've wasted
All the tears that I've tasted
All in vain
"Mom, Dad ....I never should have left. I should have stayed where I belonged." He turned back to stare at the ocean, not caring about the tears that tracked cold down his neck. "If I'd stayed.... maybe you'd have stayed too." He said softly.
Through the hollow of my tears
I see a dream that's lost
From the hurt
That you have caused
Everywhere I turn
Seems like everything I see
Reflects the love that used to be.
"I was just dreaming, thinking I could change things, that I could be everything that you always said I could." He felt like screaming, wondering if he did, if anyone would hear him over the raucous laughter reverberating from the house.
In you I put All my faith and trust
Right before my eyes My world has turned to dust
After all the nights I sat alone and wept
Just a handful of promises Are all that's left of loving you.
A breeze stirred behind him, carrying dust past him and out over the water. Lucas watched it swirl in lazy patterns before falling onto the water and disappearing.
"Dust on the wind." He murmured. Lucas jumped down and leaned out to watch as small fish leaped out of the water, appearing to chase the cascading soil.