Chapter 9: Recovery & September Gatherings.
It was a dark night, no stars, or moon. The only light was from the spells being shot. Tonks was at the graveyard, where Voldemort had returned in Harry's fourth year, fighting the Death Eaters.
Tonks ducked a spell shot at her by Bellatrix & prepared to stupefy her when Remus shouted behind her:
"DORA!! WATCH OUT!"
Tonks turned only to find herself the subject of the killing curse.
"AVADA KEDAVRA!" Both the Lestranges yelled at the same time.
Within the split of a second, Tonks realised that the two Lestranges were facing each other & she was exactly in the middle, so with increased agility, she jumped back, causing the two curses to hit the Lestranges & they fell down--------dead.
'Two down, million more to go,' Tonks thought trying to help one of the members of the order.
However, before she was able to move, Crabbe Senior cornered her. She was trapped with obstructions at the side & a locked gate behind her.
"Trapped little girl." Crabbe said with a shrill laughter.
'You didn't need to rub it in, & I am NOT a LITTLE GIRL!' She thought angrily.
Tonks moved back & tripped falling against the gate at the same time when her opponent shot the killing curse at her. Lucky for her, the gate had a shiny surface & she was almost flat to the ground. The spell rebounded from the gate & hit Crabbe Sr. instead.
"Thank Merlin for my clumsiness." Said Tonks as she got up & went to help Kingsley, who was, at that moment, fighting four Death Eaters. But before she could reach him, six Death Eaters surrounded her.
"...........improving quickly....." a masculine voice was saying.
As she was fighting the Death Eaters, she saw her mother from the corner of her eye.
"..........head injury......."
Two Death Eaters were surrounding Andromeda Tonks.
".........nothing serious I think........"
The killing curse shot at Tonks Sr.
".........fine hopefully......."
'Duck mum, duck!' Nymphadora Tonks thought.
"........allowed to go......"
The curse hit Andromeda Tonks & she fell to the ground------dead.
"NO MUM, MUUUUUUUUUUM!!" Tonks yelled.
".......TONKS.......TONKS......GET UP....." Tonks heard a female voice say.
"MUM..NO.." Tonks yelled tears flowing down her cheeks.
".......TONKS!! GET UP!................." the voice said again. Tonks was shaking.
"YOU BLOODY BASTARDS!!!" Tonks yelled, tears streaming down her face, while shooting curses on any Death Eater in sight.
Then she received a sharp slap & saw a blinding light.
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Tonks opened her eyes with a severe headache. Her vision was blurred but she could make out that a crowd was gathered around her. She knew it was daytime because of the sunlight streaming through the window. Now she felt a sharp pain on her left cheek.
"Are you alright Tonks?" The female voice asked.
Tonks vision was clearing up & she recognised the source as Molly Weasley.
"I am sorry to hit you dear, but you were......" She said in a motherly tone, worry etched across her face.
"It's Ok, Molly." Tonks said holding her head.
The headache was increasing by the moment. Tonks looked around her & recognised the room as a hospital ward.
"Am I in St. Mungo's?" Tonks asked trying to sit up but failing; one due to the sharp pain that shot through her body, & two because many hands were on her preventing her from getting up.
"Don't get up Tonks, you need rest. And yes you're in St. Mungo's." Molly said gently.
"What happened?" Tonks asked, her voice feeble.
Molly went rigid.
"Don't you remember?" she asked frightened.
"The last thing I remember was a loud explosion & some sort of bright red light." Tonks replied extremely tired.
Molly breathed a sigh of relief.
"You had an accident dear," she said giving Tonks a dreamless potion. "Now don't talk too much. You need rest."
With that, Molly shooed everyone out including the doctor. Tonks tried to think but her brain was too foggy & within moments, she was in deep sleep.
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"You called Remus?" Harry asked entering Remus's office later that day.
Remus looked up from the parchments he was studying.
"Yes Harry, take a seat." He said. "I have been investigating the whole "accident" that occurred in Whacky Gadgets, and it was no ordinary accident." He finished handing Harry the parchments.
"But it says here that the source was a Filibuster's Firework. Maybe a kid just set them off for fun." Harry replied looking at Remus.
"So how is it that a fire started? Harry, filibuster's Fireworks don't start a fire, & a ferocious one for that. They were charmed, charmed by Dark Magic, to cause such damage."
"Are you sure...I mean..."
"Harry think for yourself, how many times have these been set off in Hogwarts, & how many times did they start a fire, or injure someone seriously?"
"Hmm. So do you have any suspects?"
"No, but whoever is doing it is not doing it for power. They wouldn't simply blow up a shop in the most crowded area."
"Right. So what do you think.....revenge?" Harry asked.
"Dunno yet. Maybe yes, but revenge from whom? If it would've been something personal..."
"What?" Harry asked at Remus's abrupt stop.
"Dora told us about the illegal activity at Malfoy Manor, right?"
"Yeah" Harry replied confused.
"We put up a spell on the Manor, so that any illegal or legal activity that takes place in the Manor is directly reported to the aurors & not to the Improper Use of Magic department," Harry nodded now completely confused. "So how is it that the Dark magic was detected by her & not by us?" Remus finished.
"Are you saying....."said Harry, comprehension dawning on him. "But who'd be after her. I mean she hasn't harmed anyone."
"I know, but listen we need a constant watch over her now."
"You mean spying?" Harry asked with raised eyebrows.
"It won't be spying. Her life is in danger & we'll just be protecting her." Remus said. "Anyway where's Ron?"
"He's at St. Mungos's. I am coming from there too." Harry replied.
"Oh.....how is she now?" Remus asked looking at Harry.
"She regained consciousness today. She's improving." Harry said." Look why don't you sort it all out. You need to tell her you know that."
"I know but now is not a good time. She's hurt & ....."Remus trailed of trying to hide the pain in his voice but failing miserably.
"The sooner the better Remus, I am sure she'll understand." Harry said sympathetically.
"Yeah I will...soon." Remus said slowly as Harry got up to leave.
"Harry," Remus called. "Take care of her for me."
"Don't worry Remus, I will" Harry said as he left Remus's office.
Remus sighed & leaned against his chair. He had messed up...really bad.
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"Well you're all set to leave, Miss Tonks." The Healer said to her a few days later. "I am glad you're recovering fast, but you need rest for at least a week more."
Tonks got ready to leave with Hermione & Ginny. They would be using the portkey to the burrow, where Tonks would be staying until Molly declares her fit enough to leave.
They arrived at the burrow where Molly immediately made her sit on the sofa.
"Honestly Molly..." Tonks started before she was interrupted.
"Honestly what? You were injured for Merlin's sake. You were unconscious." Molly said.
"For three days!" Tonks said exasperated.
"Exactly, you need rest." Molly said handing her a cup of hot chocolate.
"But I need to go shopping for the wedding," Tonks said
"There're still two weeks for that. Now why don't you go up to Ginny's room & get some sleep until lunch." Molly said taking the empty cup from her.
Tonks knew better than to argue with Molly, so she silently made her way to Ginny's room. As she lied on the bed, she thought about the past two weeks.
The doctors said she was improving fast & it was a good sign. Fortunately, she didn't have any serious injuries except on the head, which was also minor. She was now fully healed.....tired yes, but healed.
Her family...she liked to call them family......had been there for her as usual. She remembered Molly's constant nagging to take her food & potions on time, Hermione's attempts to keep her up to date with the world, Linda, Luna & Ginny trying to cheer her up, & Ron & Harry trying to smuggle in sweets. She smiled at the memories. Everyone had been there to encourage her except....
Except Remus, the person she needed the most. Her heart ached again at this. Remus hadn't even visited her or sent her a get-well-soon note. No, he hadn't even sent his wishes through someone. Did he forget about her already? Tears prickled her eyes.
'Damn you Remus Lupin, damn you for making me feel this way. Damn you for making me fall in love with you, damn you for breaking my heart, damn you bastard....damn you.' Tonks thought her tears flowing freely.
"TONKS, TONKS, ITS LUNCH TIME!" Tonks woke up to Molly's voice & realised she might have fallen asleep while thinking.
"I'LL BE DOWN IN A MINUTE" Tonks replied.
'Get a grip on yourself girl. You need to move on, get over him.' Tonks thought as she headed down to the dining room.
She was going to get over Remus Lupin, the love of her life, though it was impossible for her to do that....impossible.
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Tonks woke up to the sound of alarm ringing. 10:00 am, the clock read. She got up, dressed in a black muggle jeans & light blue t-shirt, & headed down for a late breakfast.
"Hello Molly." Said Tonks as she entered the dining room.
"Hello Tonks. Ready for breakfast?" Molly asked putting down the latest edition of Witch Weekly & heading over to the kitchen counter to prepare breakfast for Tonks.
"I must say, I'll be missing you." Molly said putting the bacon & eggs in front of her. "You should stay here for another week....."
"Molly!" interrupted Tonks, "I am fine. You said that I have to stay here for a week & its over. I have to sign in at the office tomorrow. I am recovered & I am going home tonight." Tonks finished.
"But Tonks.."
"No, please Molly"
"Oh...Ok. As you wish" Molly said accepting defeat.
They continued talking throughout breakfast. When Tonks finished, Molly levitated the dishes to the sink & set them to wash magically.
"Ok Tonks, I've some chores to attend to. You can read the Witch Weekly while I finish them or do something you like but remember, DON'T overdo yourself & you're not allowed to go outside the house." Molly said as she left. "And yes, don't forget the get-together at the Black Residence tonight." Molly added.
Tonks froze. Get-together at Black Residence.....that means Remus would be there &....&.....oh no.
So far her job of moving on had not worked very well & she new if she saw Remus once again, she will never be able to get over him. She hadn't improved in a month without seeing him once, then seeing him again....
Tonks tried to stop thinking about it....there was still a lot of time for that. She decided to distract herself by reading Witch Weekly. She flipped through the pages....gossips, recipes....
REMUS LUPIN'S NEW LOVE INTEREST: FELLOW AUROR AMY HEREK.
The title flashed on one page with a photograph of Remus & Herek kissing, which Tonks recognised as the Hogsmeade event nearly a month ago. She flipped through a few more pages, her heart aching all the while.
Poetry...yes, poetry that'll take her mind off everything.
*** DREAMS BY REBECCA***
*** Like many girls, I too believe,
That someone is made for me,
I dream of him night & day, ***
'Remus' Tonks thought tears welling up in her eyes.
*** And wish he would come to me & say,
That I was the sunshine of his life,
And ask me to be his wife. ***
Tears now flowed freely down Tonks cheeks, 'Why the hell do I love him so much. Why did I give my heart to him?' Tonks thought a sob escaping her.
*** I dream of us at the seaside,
Under the sunset, we together lost in the
Beautiful world of our own,
Sharing between us an ice-cream cone.
I dream of us dining in candle light,
With our hearts soaring at a great height.
We would not be in the seventh heaven be,
But even higher than the eleventh heaven. ***
"Men are not worth your love. They'll only break your heart. NEVER FALL IN LOVE NYMPHADORA...NEVER" Felicity's words rang in her head.
*** I dream of the day he'd proposed,
Gently holding for me a fresh red rose.
I would nod my head & give him a smile,
Looking into his eyes all the while. ***
'Hazel eyes....so warm, so captivating, the eyes I would always drown in' Tonks thought with a river of tears.
*** I dream of myself in his arm,
Completely bewitched by his charm.
Standing in a spring shower,
Where he is the sepal,
And I am the flower. ***
"I love you Dora......I will never let anything happen to you. I will never....can never hurt you." Remus had said once.
'LIAR!!" Tonks screamed in her head, crying a river.
*** I dream of him in my dreams,
But Alas! They're only dreams.
I don't know if they will come true one day,
Or in my heart they will forever stay... ***
'Or in my heart they will forever stay....Or in my heart they will forever stay....' The line repeated in Tonks mind.
'I want to hate you so much Remus Lupin, but I can't.....why do I love you so damn much, that I can't hate you.....that I-I-I won't hate you...' Tonks thought throwing away the Witch Weekly & sobbing.
"Tonks.." A voice called behind her.
Tonks tried to sober quickly & wiping her tears, she came face to face with Molly.
"Are you alright?" asked Molly kindly.
"Yeah....Molly, I am fine. Just thinking." Tonks replied & was grateful that Molly didn't push the matter.
"Why don't we go shopping? You do need some new clothes." Molly said taking their cloaks.
"But Molly....." Tonks argued as Molly handed her the cloak.
"No buts Tonks....Now come on!" Molly said flooing to Diagon Alley.
Tonks knew it was a lost battle, so she silently obeyed & followed, hoping it would distract her from her "thinking".
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Arthur rang the doorbell to the Black Residence. He, Molly & Tonks had arrived as usual. However, this time, Tonks was dreading it. She was dressed in dark khaki linen pants & a black linen top.
The door opened to reveal Remus.
"Hello Remus." Arthur said cheerfully & was followed by Molly.
"Hello Arthur, Molly." Remus replied cheerfully.
"Hello Tonks." Remus said looking at her.
"Hello." Tonks said in a barely audible voice.
They stood there staring at each other before Arthur broke the silence.
"Are you simply going to stand there or are you going to let us in?"
Remus shook his head to clear his thoughts & smiled, letting them in.
Tonks immediately went in the kitchen to help Molly. As usual, within the next one & half hour, everyone arrived except for Bill & Charlie & respective families.
"You look really better now Tonks." Hermione said coming to Tonks side to help her with dinner.
"Yeah, you see living with Molly; I'd have been surprised if I'd have got sick during that time." Tonks replied smiling.
They continued with talking while preparing dinner as the others joined in their conversations.
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"You need to tell her Remus. Now is your chance." Ron said.
"I know but...." Remus said unsure.
"But what Remus....for Merlin's sake.....she won't eat you!!" Ron snapped.
"What if she doesn't understand, what if...." Remus started again.
"There are many what ifs Remus, & there's no point dwelling on them." Arthur said. "Look, if Harry dwelled on what ifs, the world would not have been safe today."
"He is right Remus. Tell her." Harry said.
Remus nodded. Arthur was right, there is no point dwelling on what ifs. He will do it tonight.
"Ok." Said Remus, his mind set.
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Dinner went smooth, with the usual conversations. Hermione & Ginny informed the audience that the wedding preparations were almost over. Linda informed that the baby was due in mid-April & that she would be taking three month's off.
Throughout dinner, Tonks could make out Remus glancing at her & the suddenly talking to someone when she looked up at him. Tonks was now curious as to what was going on.
Tonks was extremely tired after dinner & she had to join her office tomorrow. Therefore, when Linda & Severus left, she excused herself & taking her cloak apparated back to her flat in London, much to Molly's dismay, while Remus stood glued to his spot, his chance lost once again.
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A/N: There you go. I know I made Tonks very emotional, but when you have an accident & are betrayed you are like that.
I found "DREAMS" in a magazine, & I felt I should add it. Some how it fitted the situation.
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Till then. Take care.
Bye.
It was a dark night, no stars, or moon. The only light was from the spells being shot. Tonks was at the graveyard, where Voldemort had returned in Harry's fourth year, fighting the Death Eaters.
Tonks ducked a spell shot at her by Bellatrix & prepared to stupefy her when Remus shouted behind her:
"DORA!! WATCH OUT!"
Tonks turned only to find herself the subject of the killing curse.
"AVADA KEDAVRA!" Both the Lestranges yelled at the same time.
Within the split of a second, Tonks realised that the two Lestranges were facing each other & she was exactly in the middle, so with increased agility, she jumped back, causing the two curses to hit the Lestranges & they fell down--------dead.
'Two down, million more to go,' Tonks thought trying to help one of the members of the order.
However, before she was able to move, Crabbe Senior cornered her. She was trapped with obstructions at the side & a locked gate behind her.
"Trapped little girl." Crabbe said with a shrill laughter.
'You didn't need to rub it in, & I am NOT a LITTLE GIRL!' She thought angrily.
Tonks moved back & tripped falling against the gate at the same time when her opponent shot the killing curse at her. Lucky for her, the gate had a shiny surface & she was almost flat to the ground. The spell rebounded from the gate & hit Crabbe Sr. instead.
"Thank Merlin for my clumsiness." Said Tonks as she got up & went to help Kingsley, who was, at that moment, fighting four Death Eaters. But before she could reach him, six Death Eaters surrounded her.
"...........improving quickly....." a masculine voice was saying.
As she was fighting the Death Eaters, she saw her mother from the corner of her eye.
"..........head injury......."
Two Death Eaters were surrounding Andromeda Tonks.
".........nothing serious I think........"
The killing curse shot at Tonks Sr.
".........fine hopefully......."
'Duck mum, duck!' Nymphadora Tonks thought.
"........allowed to go......"
The curse hit Andromeda Tonks & she fell to the ground------dead.
"NO MUM, MUUUUUUUUUUM!!" Tonks yelled.
".......TONKS.......TONKS......GET UP....." Tonks heard a female voice say.
"MUM..NO.." Tonks yelled tears flowing down her cheeks.
".......TONKS!! GET UP!................." the voice said again. Tonks was shaking.
"YOU BLOODY BASTARDS!!!" Tonks yelled, tears streaming down her face, while shooting curses on any Death Eater in sight.
Then she received a sharp slap & saw a blinding light.
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Tonks opened her eyes with a severe headache. Her vision was blurred but she could make out that a crowd was gathered around her. She knew it was daytime because of the sunlight streaming through the window. Now she felt a sharp pain on her left cheek.
"Are you alright Tonks?" The female voice asked.
Tonks vision was clearing up & she recognised the source as Molly Weasley.
"I am sorry to hit you dear, but you were......" She said in a motherly tone, worry etched across her face.
"It's Ok, Molly." Tonks said holding her head.
The headache was increasing by the moment. Tonks looked around her & recognised the room as a hospital ward.
"Am I in St. Mungo's?" Tonks asked trying to sit up but failing; one due to the sharp pain that shot through her body, & two because many hands were on her preventing her from getting up.
"Don't get up Tonks, you need rest. And yes you're in St. Mungo's." Molly said gently.
"What happened?" Tonks asked, her voice feeble.
Molly went rigid.
"Don't you remember?" she asked frightened.
"The last thing I remember was a loud explosion & some sort of bright red light." Tonks replied extremely tired.
Molly breathed a sigh of relief.
"You had an accident dear," she said giving Tonks a dreamless potion. "Now don't talk too much. You need rest."
With that, Molly shooed everyone out including the doctor. Tonks tried to think but her brain was too foggy & within moments, she was in deep sleep.
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"You called Remus?" Harry asked entering Remus's office later that day.
Remus looked up from the parchments he was studying.
"Yes Harry, take a seat." He said. "I have been investigating the whole "accident" that occurred in Whacky Gadgets, and it was no ordinary accident." He finished handing Harry the parchments.
"But it says here that the source was a Filibuster's Firework. Maybe a kid just set them off for fun." Harry replied looking at Remus.
"So how is it that a fire started? Harry, filibuster's Fireworks don't start a fire, & a ferocious one for that. They were charmed, charmed by Dark Magic, to cause such damage."
"Are you sure...I mean..."
"Harry think for yourself, how many times have these been set off in Hogwarts, & how many times did they start a fire, or injure someone seriously?"
"Hmm. So do you have any suspects?"
"No, but whoever is doing it is not doing it for power. They wouldn't simply blow up a shop in the most crowded area."
"Right. So what do you think.....revenge?" Harry asked.
"Dunno yet. Maybe yes, but revenge from whom? If it would've been something personal..."
"What?" Harry asked at Remus's abrupt stop.
"Dora told us about the illegal activity at Malfoy Manor, right?"
"Yeah" Harry replied confused.
"We put up a spell on the Manor, so that any illegal or legal activity that takes place in the Manor is directly reported to the aurors & not to the Improper Use of Magic department," Harry nodded now completely confused. "So how is it that the Dark magic was detected by her & not by us?" Remus finished.
"Are you saying....."said Harry, comprehension dawning on him. "But who'd be after her. I mean she hasn't harmed anyone."
"I know, but listen we need a constant watch over her now."
"You mean spying?" Harry asked with raised eyebrows.
"It won't be spying. Her life is in danger & we'll just be protecting her." Remus said. "Anyway where's Ron?"
"He's at St. Mungos's. I am coming from there too." Harry replied.
"Oh.....how is she now?" Remus asked looking at Harry.
"She regained consciousness today. She's improving." Harry said." Look why don't you sort it all out. You need to tell her you know that."
"I know but now is not a good time. She's hurt & ....."Remus trailed of trying to hide the pain in his voice but failing miserably.
"The sooner the better Remus, I am sure she'll understand." Harry said sympathetically.
"Yeah I will...soon." Remus said slowly as Harry got up to leave.
"Harry," Remus called. "Take care of her for me."
"Don't worry Remus, I will" Harry said as he left Remus's office.
Remus sighed & leaned against his chair. He had messed up...really bad.
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"Well you're all set to leave, Miss Tonks." The Healer said to her a few days later. "I am glad you're recovering fast, but you need rest for at least a week more."
Tonks got ready to leave with Hermione & Ginny. They would be using the portkey to the burrow, where Tonks would be staying until Molly declares her fit enough to leave.
They arrived at the burrow where Molly immediately made her sit on the sofa.
"Honestly Molly..." Tonks started before she was interrupted.
"Honestly what? You were injured for Merlin's sake. You were unconscious." Molly said.
"For three days!" Tonks said exasperated.
"Exactly, you need rest." Molly said handing her a cup of hot chocolate.
"But I need to go shopping for the wedding," Tonks said
"There're still two weeks for that. Now why don't you go up to Ginny's room & get some sleep until lunch." Molly said taking the empty cup from her.
Tonks knew better than to argue with Molly, so she silently made her way to Ginny's room. As she lied on the bed, she thought about the past two weeks.
The doctors said she was improving fast & it was a good sign. Fortunately, she didn't have any serious injuries except on the head, which was also minor. She was now fully healed.....tired yes, but healed.
Her family...she liked to call them family......had been there for her as usual. She remembered Molly's constant nagging to take her food & potions on time, Hermione's attempts to keep her up to date with the world, Linda, Luna & Ginny trying to cheer her up, & Ron & Harry trying to smuggle in sweets. She smiled at the memories. Everyone had been there to encourage her except....
Except Remus, the person she needed the most. Her heart ached again at this. Remus hadn't even visited her or sent her a get-well-soon note. No, he hadn't even sent his wishes through someone. Did he forget about her already? Tears prickled her eyes.
'Damn you Remus Lupin, damn you for making me feel this way. Damn you for making me fall in love with you, damn you for breaking my heart, damn you bastard....damn you.' Tonks thought her tears flowing freely.
"TONKS, TONKS, ITS LUNCH TIME!" Tonks woke up to Molly's voice & realised she might have fallen asleep while thinking.
"I'LL BE DOWN IN A MINUTE" Tonks replied.
'Get a grip on yourself girl. You need to move on, get over him.' Tonks thought as she headed down to the dining room.
She was going to get over Remus Lupin, the love of her life, though it was impossible for her to do that....impossible.
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Tonks woke up to the sound of alarm ringing. 10:00 am, the clock read. She got up, dressed in a black muggle jeans & light blue t-shirt, & headed down for a late breakfast.
"Hello Molly." Said Tonks as she entered the dining room.
"Hello Tonks. Ready for breakfast?" Molly asked putting down the latest edition of Witch Weekly & heading over to the kitchen counter to prepare breakfast for Tonks.
"I must say, I'll be missing you." Molly said putting the bacon & eggs in front of her. "You should stay here for another week....."
"Molly!" interrupted Tonks, "I am fine. You said that I have to stay here for a week & its over. I have to sign in at the office tomorrow. I am recovered & I am going home tonight." Tonks finished.
"But Tonks.."
"No, please Molly"
"Oh...Ok. As you wish" Molly said accepting defeat.
They continued talking throughout breakfast. When Tonks finished, Molly levitated the dishes to the sink & set them to wash magically.
"Ok Tonks, I've some chores to attend to. You can read the Witch Weekly while I finish them or do something you like but remember, DON'T overdo yourself & you're not allowed to go outside the house." Molly said as she left. "And yes, don't forget the get-together at the Black Residence tonight." Molly added.
Tonks froze. Get-together at Black Residence.....that means Remus would be there &....&.....oh no.
So far her job of moving on had not worked very well & she new if she saw Remus once again, she will never be able to get over him. She hadn't improved in a month without seeing him once, then seeing him again....
Tonks tried to stop thinking about it....there was still a lot of time for that. She decided to distract herself by reading Witch Weekly. She flipped through the pages....gossips, recipes....
REMUS LUPIN'S NEW LOVE INTEREST: FELLOW AUROR AMY HEREK.
The title flashed on one page with a photograph of Remus & Herek kissing, which Tonks recognised as the Hogsmeade event nearly a month ago. She flipped through a few more pages, her heart aching all the while.
Poetry...yes, poetry that'll take her mind off everything.
*** DREAMS BY REBECCA***
*** Like many girls, I too believe,
That someone is made for me,
I dream of him night & day, ***
'Remus' Tonks thought tears welling up in her eyes.
*** And wish he would come to me & say,
That I was the sunshine of his life,
And ask me to be his wife. ***
Tears now flowed freely down Tonks cheeks, 'Why the hell do I love him so much. Why did I give my heart to him?' Tonks thought a sob escaping her.
*** I dream of us at the seaside,
Under the sunset, we together lost in the
Beautiful world of our own,
Sharing between us an ice-cream cone.
I dream of us dining in candle light,
With our hearts soaring at a great height.
We would not be in the seventh heaven be,
But even higher than the eleventh heaven. ***
"Men are not worth your love. They'll only break your heart. NEVER FALL IN LOVE NYMPHADORA...NEVER" Felicity's words rang in her head.
*** I dream of the day he'd proposed,
Gently holding for me a fresh red rose.
I would nod my head & give him a smile,
Looking into his eyes all the while. ***
'Hazel eyes....so warm, so captivating, the eyes I would always drown in' Tonks thought with a river of tears.
*** I dream of myself in his arm,
Completely bewitched by his charm.
Standing in a spring shower,
Where he is the sepal,
And I am the flower. ***
"I love you Dora......I will never let anything happen to you. I will never....can never hurt you." Remus had said once.
'LIAR!!" Tonks screamed in her head, crying a river.
*** I dream of him in my dreams,
But Alas! They're only dreams.
I don't know if they will come true one day,
Or in my heart they will forever stay... ***
'Or in my heart they will forever stay....Or in my heart they will forever stay....' The line repeated in Tonks mind.
'I want to hate you so much Remus Lupin, but I can't.....why do I love you so damn much, that I can't hate you.....that I-I-I won't hate you...' Tonks thought throwing away the Witch Weekly & sobbing.
"Tonks.." A voice called behind her.
Tonks tried to sober quickly & wiping her tears, she came face to face with Molly.
"Are you alright?" asked Molly kindly.
"Yeah....Molly, I am fine. Just thinking." Tonks replied & was grateful that Molly didn't push the matter.
"Why don't we go shopping? You do need some new clothes." Molly said taking their cloaks.
"But Molly....." Tonks argued as Molly handed her the cloak.
"No buts Tonks....Now come on!" Molly said flooing to Diagon Alley.
Tonks knew it was a lost battle, so she silently obeyed & followed, hoping it would distract her from her "thinking".
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Arthur rang the doorbell to the Black Residence. He, Molly & Tonks had arrived as usual. However, this time, Tonks was dreading it. She was dressed in dark khaki linen pants & a black linen top.
The door opened to reveal Remus.
"Hello Remus." Arthur said cheerfully & was followed by Molly.
"Hello Arthur, Molly." Remus replied cheerfully.
"Hello Tonks." Remus said looking at her.
"Hello." Tonks said in a barely audible voice.
They stood there staring at each other before Arthur broke the silence.
"Are you simply going to stand there or are you going to let us in?"
Remus shook his head to clear his thoughts & smiled, letting them in.
Tonks immediately went in the kitchen to help Molly. As usual, within the next one & half hour, everyone arrived except for Bill & Charlie & respective families.
"You look really better now Tonks." Hermione said coming to Tonks side to help her with dinner.
"Yeah, you see living with Molly; I'd have been surprised if I'd have got sick during that time." Tonks replied smiling.
They continued with talking while preparing dinner as the others joined in their conversations.
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"You need to tell her Remus. Now is your chance." Ron said.
"I know but...." Remus said unsure.
"But what Remus....for Merlin's sake.....she won't eat you!!" Ron snapped.
"What if she doesn't understand, what if...." Remus started again.
"There are many what ifs Remus, & there's no point dwelling on them." Arthur said. "Look, if Harry dwelled on what ifs, the world would not have been safe today."
"He is right Remus. Tell her." Harry said.
Remus nodded. Arthur was right, there is no point dwelling on what ifs. He will do it tonight.
"Ok." Said Remus, his mind set.
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Dinner went smooth, with the usual conversations. Hermione & Ginny informed the audience that the wedding preparations were almost over. Linda informed that the baby was due in mid-April & that she would be taking three month's off.
Throughout dinner, Tonks could make out Remus glancing at her & the suddenly talking to someone when she looked up at him. Tonks was now curious as to what was going on.
Tonks was extremely tired after dinner & she had to join her office tomorrow. Therefore, when Linda & Severus left, she excused herself & taking her cloak apparated back to her flat in London, much to Molly's dismay, while Remus stood glued to his spot, his chance lost once again.
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A/N: There you go. I know I made Tonks very emotional, but when you have an accident & are betrayed you are like that.
I found "DREAMS" in a magazine, & I felt I should add it. Some how it fitted the situation.
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