VEILS OF SECRECY
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Exposed
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Note: I expect this story to receive many raised eyebrows. I doubt that a Shego/Adrena femmeslash story has been attempted before. But when one looks at the way Shego and Kim get themselves worked up when they're fighting each other, the issue of whether or not the "Shego" part of Shego/Adrena is plausible vanishes. No one knows much about Adrena-Lynn, so when I searched for a story idea about her, it occured to me: What if Adrena doesn't want anybody to know some things about her?
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"ADRENA? WHAT'S WRONG?" Adrena barely heard Shego's voice, coming from the doorway. How had she possibly heard Adrena's anguished--but soft--whisper?
Adrena turned to face Shego, her expression of surprise and terror frozen.
"You're paler than I am," Shego remarked. "What did you see?"
Adrena said nothing, just swiveled the chair to face the computer again. She wasn't hallucinating; her secret was out. The first two words of the article's title, all she had been able to see at first, read "Adrena-Lynn." The article was accompanied by a picture of Adrena kissing another girl on the lips. The article's title was: "ADRENA-LYNN'S SHOCKING SECRET."
"Shocking" was an appropriate adjective. Adrena was effectively shocked. Her right hand was frozen over the mouse; her entire form trembled.
"Adrena?"
"Damn!" Adrena smacked the desk with her open palm. She was the type to skip the stage of sadness when something upset her; she went directly to being furious. And she was raging. Her deepest secret lay exposed before her eyes, and she could do nothing about it.
"Adrena, try not to break the desk. Now, what's wrong?" Adrena was sedated by the gentleness in Shego's voice. Her fury ebbed and she was able to cry for the fear and shame of it. Slowly, she turned the swivel chair to face the older girl.
"Shego, I'm a lebsian. I'm a dyke."
"If I ever hear you call yourself that word again, I'll rip your mouth out."
Adrena glanced up, gray eyes glittering with hope. "You...aren't disgusted, or freaked out or anything?"
Shego smiled.
"You knew?"
The raven-haired woman shrugged lightly. "No offense, Adrena, but it was painfully obvious. I figured it out while we were still riding in the hovercraft. You seemed like...hmm, how do I put this into words? It's on the tip of my tongue, don't say a word..." Shego contemplated for a few seconds. "You seemed like you wanted something."
The blonde's cheeks colored. "I...I wanted to touch you."
"If I remember correctly, you did."
Adrena recalled her fingers gliding down Shego's arm. "Yeah," she whispered.
"But there was something else--it seemed like you wanted to say something but were never able to suck it up and say it." Shego continued.
Her flush darkening, Adrena dipped her head. "I was going to ask...if you were, you know...like me."
Shego tenderly grasped both of Adrena's wrists and helped her stand, pulling the younger girl's body close to hers. Adrena rested her face against Shego's chest. "Mmmm...what do you think, Adrena?" Shego smiled. Her lips lightly caressed Adrena's face and neck. Adrena stood on her tiptoes and kissed Shego's cheek, and Shego inserted her fingertips beneath the smaller vixen's chin to place her lips against Adrena's.
Adrena's blood pounded softly. Shego's lips were surprisingly gentle, and Adrena felt the taller girl's arms enfold her body.
Adrena pulled away, panting a little.
"You okay, Adrena?" Shego's hand slid down Adrena's side, from her shoulder to her thigh.
"I'm fine." Shego could feel Adrena's mouth against her temple, and she unbuttoned the high collar of her trademark jumpsuit so Adrena could get at her neck. Adrena cooperated, changing the angle of her head and kissing Shego's throat.
Suddenly the blonde pulled away. "Sorry..." she whispered, backing up.
"Sorry for what?" Shego approached Adrena, then cupped her hands around the ex-celebrity's face and kissed her. Adrena clung tightly to Shego, then abruptly pushed her away.
"I can't do this." Adrena sat on the floor, legs crossed, head bent. Shego knelt behind Adrena and massaged the younger girl's shoulders gently.
"Can't do what?"
"I promised myself I'd never let myself get close to another girl."
"No offense, Adrena, but that is just stupid. So you like other girls. It's a part of you. Deal with it. Why would you make a promise like that?"
"I was scared."
"Of what? Spit it out already."
"When I was in high school...there was this girl in my grade who was a lesbian. Nobody knew, she kept it a secret. Then somebody found out and announced it by writing it on a bathroom stall in the girls' room. So everybody knew this girl was a lesbian. And tons of people made fun of her. Her school supplies were defaced and stolen and she was tripped in the hallways. People started beating her up and pushing her around. It got so bad, she...she...she killed herself. So I guess I remembered that."
"Well, too bad for this girl, but for crying out loud, Adrena, you can't stop being you. And trust me, the key to surviving in this messed-up world is just not giving a damn what everybody else thinks."
"Wouldn't you care if you thought you could be harrassed until you committed suicide? Well, you wouldn't, you could beat them up. But I was scared! I broke my promise to myself once and now my secret is all over the freaking Internet!"
"I highly doubt anyone is going to see us in here. And if your secret is out, then why try and hide it anymore?"
Seeing Shego's point, Adrena turned around and buried her face in the front of Shego's jumpsuit, crying softly. Shego's hands slid calmingly down Adrena's back.
"Go ahead and cry. It's okay."
When Adrena's tears were spent, she remained in that position. Shego knew Adrena was finished crying, but she continued stroking her back anyway.
Adrena sat up.
"Are you all right now?" Shego asked, leaning forward to touch Adrena's cheek. Her other hand curved around the back of the younger girl's neck, gently pulling her forward.
"I'm okay." Adrena bent close to Shego, pushing her to the floor, placing her lips against Shego's neck. She felt Shego's sharp nails rhythically knead her body. Then she stopped, still lying on top of Shego. Shego did not object--quite the opposite; she kissed Adrena gently, the tip of her tongue flickering lightly at the opening of Adrena's lips. With a soft moan, Adrena yielded her mouth to Shego, who carefully explored Adrena's inner mouth with the tip of her tongue.
"Wow..." Adrena sighed, withdrawing, "that was awesome."
"It may have been awesome, but I'm having a hard time breathing here. Can you get off me?" Shego smiled.
"Okay." The ex-TV star rolled off Shego's body.
"Hey, Adrena?"
"Yeah?"
"Have you ever wanted to fly a hovercraft?"
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"Remind me to let you fly that thing more often." Shego remarked, untangling her windblown mass of hair. "You're a natural at flying that hovercraft. Apparently you aren't afraid of flying when you're in control."
"And I knew I wasn't going to fall." Adrena grinned, jumping off the platform as it came to rest on the floor.
Shego stepped off the platform and slapped the button to raise it.
"That was fun. Freaky!" Adrena commented, whisking her head from side to side in order to shake her blonde hair back into place after the wild hovercraft ride. Her fear of heights had dissipated the second her fingers had become comfortable with the control of the joysticks. She had flown the craft around the forest in wild, speeding, rushing, ecstatic twists and loops. And she hadn't been afraid.
Adrena glanced over at Shego. The older girl's cheeks were ruddy and flushed from the ride.
The blonde female crossed to Shego and embraced her tightly. Shego abandoned the task of combing her maelstrom of black tangles and let her arms rest around Adrena's back.
It seemed an eternity until the two separated, but for Adrena, it wasn't long enough. Shego touched Adrena's hair tenderly and whispered, "You can keep looking around if you want, and I'll be in my room if you need me."
I need you now, Adrena thought, but she said nothing. Instead, she retreated into her own room to bury herself in the covers of her bed and daydream.