5/17
Today's my birthday...but Mom and Dad don't even remember. The friends I do have, however (they all go to a private school) wished me a happy birthday. In spite of their cheerfulness, I doubt this will be a happy birthday for me...
In orchestra, Mrs. Christie had everybody play "Happy Birthday" on their instruments...How embarrassing...But she's a great teacher, so I don't mind as much. Keiji wished me a happy birthday too! Yay! J The main conflict in this whole thing is Amber. She likes him too, and it's really obvious. I don't feel I've got a chance against her...She's one of the best in the orchestra (in my opinion), she's the most beautiful thing God put in this planet, she's friendly, and she's in all of his classes, if not at least the same grade. I'm a year younger than him, by the way.
Hoshiko closes her diary and hops out of the tree in her front yard. It's a sunny Thursday afternoon, and the birds' chirps ring out clearly. She flinches in disgust at the bright scene, and walks into her house.
Another heated argument echoes in Hoshiko's ears as she slips past the kitchen, into her room at the end of the hall. She leans with her back to her bedroom door and listens intently.
"I'VE TOLD YOU A THOUSAND TIMES, NEVER DO THAT! EVER!!" Hoshiko's father screams.
"DAMMIT, I—" her mother is cut off by a slap across her face.
"SHUT UP!" There's a slight pause, and the sound of a knife being drawn from one of the drawers can be heard. "YOU WANT THIS IN YOUR GUT?"
A soft, frightened whimper escapes from her mother's mouth. Hoshiko gasps, and her eyes widen. She feels as if she no longer knows her father.
"DO YOU?!" the stranger repeats loudly.
"NO!" her mother yells through sobs. She can hear her collapse to the ground, onto the hard, wooden floor.
Though extremely scared, Hoshiko bursts out of her room. She runs around, in front of her mother, face tear-streaked.
"NO, DAD!" she shrieks.
Her father stares blankly ahead, jaw slightly dropped, anger fading from his face. The knife slips out of his hand and falls to the floor with a clatter.
"Hoshiko...go to your room," he orders, more calmly.
"But—"
"GO NOW!"
Reluctantly, Hoshiko moves out of her mother's way, and rushes into her room, holding back tears.
5/17
Dad was threatening to kill Mom...They were fighting again, but this time, I was actually scared. They scared me a lot when I was younger, but I got used to it, eventually. Now I feel like a little kid all over again. All of this is so frightening...I wish I could turn to Keiji, but I can't...And I realize, I really do have no one. My friends never really talk to me anymore...Whether it be an indecision on a topic online, or they just chose not to respond. How silly to think they cared...I wish everything would just be perfect...
A while later, Hoshiko hears her father yell something more, a door slam shut, and her mother's weeping.
"H...honey...?" her mother calls through the door.
"Yeah, Mom?"
"Umm..." She sounds troubled, and still shaken. "Daddy decided to leave home," she says quietly, then runs.
I've never seen Mom act like that...
5/17
Dad left home, just five minutes ago...Why am I always in such a mess? This whole world is a mess. Why do people even live on it anymore? People lie...They cheat, steal, and murder. Everyone is careless. People that live wonderful, meaningful lives just die because someone wasn't watching the road well enough. What a waste. I wonder where Dad will go...I wonder why he and Mom lived together for so long...(sobbing) Plain and simple, life sucks ass. I hate it. I think all that matters to me anymore is Keiji...everything else is just...meaningless to me now.