A/n: Yes, there is a poem down there somewhere . . . You guys could just skip this or be the lovely people I know you are and read it and tell me what you think . . . J
I've been going through a really hard time lately. My friends and I have just tried out for high school drill team, and I was pretty surprised with the results. Most of my friends had made JV (junior varsity) but MG. And I made varsity. And ok- it is something to be happy about. But everybody has been bugging me because when I went to see the results everybody was like, you made varsity!!! And I went, Oh- I cant go to Mexico!! I was going on a mission trip where we would teach vacation bible school to kids. I mean that sounds like a whole lot more fun that going to high stepper camp and sweating for 8 hours a day.
School has been very difficult lately too, and I think it because finals are coming up. But with everything going on, I was getting under a lot of pressure. I hadn't been happy lately, and always felt down and when people asked what's wrong I snapped at them. And I felt really bad. Getting into a fight with my best friend was hard on me. And when my parents and I got into a fight over a shower (lol stupid I no) I snapped completely. I used the thing that was suppose to shape my eyebrows and I drew lovely little x's all across my wrist. And of course being the sneaky little person I was, my parents found out the next day. But I'm actually happy they did. Who knows what I would of done next???
So in conclusion im not writing this so that u review and say , awww its ok I love u, which I know my friends will say when I tell them ( or they find out- im not sure which one will come first) but so that I hope you know that Jesus is the answer and I pray that none of you ever do what I did- b/c it hurts!!! But its more than that- nobody should ever resort to hurting themselves- I pray that TALK to someone. Trust me it helps. And if it's your parents- they will hopefully stay calm and just talk it over with you. I had no idea how my dad would react but mostly he just held me and told me that he loved me and he hoped I would never do it again. Your parents do love you, and that's why they would be worried about you.
So yah- that's my speech of the year hopefully I never really want to repeat what I said b/c I feel so . . Weird I dunno. Anyways- my poems might not be up to scratch tell me if you like 'em.
I wrote this because I had nothing better to do in language:
My flower friends
Sometimes I wish my friends were flowers
And I'll tell you why
Because flowers are so wonderful
Not boasting, not hateful, not shy
If my friends were flowers
I would never be sad
Because flowers are the friendliest things
That you will ever have
Pink, orange, green, and yellow
No, I would never be angry or blue
My flower friends lift your spirits high
If they're not the best, then who?
Through storms and sprinkles
Through rages and hard times too
Flowers will help you carry on
You wouldn't feel hesitant to say I love you
And thought they might leave
Many different reasons you might hear
You can always count on one thing
That they will always be back next year
Yah- kinda cheesy I know and it doesn't really fit my mood right know but that's ok!!!
REVIEW!!!!!!!! Please- and you will get a big :HUG: from A, herself!!!!
Hugs already go to:
Guitar-gurl109- thanks your review really made me smile!!!
Bekah- thanks hunny- you always know how to cheer me up- and cheers on all your wonderful poems- they keep me going through the day. Luv ya tonz, -a