She'll Never Forget The Day She Lost Her Angel
It's now been three months since his death, I'm still not over him but I'm learning to cope.
I took an overdose of Morphine at work, that's how depressed I was; sadly it failed to work, as you can see because I'm here writing this. Claire found me and Harry saved me although I don't know why. I had to apologise to Claire for the trauma incurred because she found me.
Harry lost Beth, his wife a while back so he's been helping me with my demons; in fact we are helping each other.
Harry has been a real rock to me after my attempted suicide, he gave me a month off to sort myself out but I found that I only needed two weeks. I stayed in bed a lot, did a lot of housework, and did a lot of thinking. I wrote masses of stuff down on paper in order to help me understand what was going on in my head.
I have kept everything I wrote down in case I need it again in the future, you never know some things come in handy a few years later.
I have been out a couple of times recently with Luke one of our Paramedics, he wants us to start a relationship but I'm not ready for that again, I'm still not over Patrick.
I can happily say now I'm over my suicidal thoughts and feelings all thanks to Harry, he put me on Anti Depressants and they have actually helped
In my darkest times I could see no way out, the only way forward for me was suicide, but now I have found a way out, I always knew deep down that there is a way out, and there is, no matter who you are or how bad you feel.
I always knew, that as a doctor, I could take pills to help me but I chose the hard way, I chose to try and kill myself, thankfully it didn't work, because the world would be a duller place with out me.
So, my advice to anyone reading my story, is to seek help, talk to someone anyone, it doesn't have to be someone you know, it could be anyone even an email friend you met on the web.
Please don't let yourself sink the way I did, please don't value yourself as nothing. Please seek help and overcome this illness.
Lara
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It's now been three months since his death, I'm still not over him but I'm learning to cope.
I took an overdose of Morphine at work, that's how depressed I was; sadly it failed to work, as you can see because I'm here writing this. Claire found me and Harry saved me although I don't know why. I had to apologise to Claire for the trauma incurred because she found me.
Harry lost Beth, his wife a while back so he's been helping me with my demons; in fact we are helping each other.
Harry has been a real rock to me after my attempted suicide, he gave me a month off to sort myself out but I found that I only needed two weeks. I stayed in bed a lot, did a lot of housework, and did a lot of thinking. I wrote masses of stuff down on paper in order to help me understand what was going on in my head.
I have kept everything I wrote down in case I need it again in the future, you never know some things come in handy a few years later.
I have been out a couple of times recently with Luke one of our Paramedics, he wants us to start a relationship but I'm not ready for that again, I'm still not over Patrick.
I can happily say now I'm over my suicidal thoughts and feelings all thanks to Harry, he put me on Anti Depressants and they have actually helped
In my darkest times I could see no way out, the only way forward for me was suicide, but now I have found a way out, I always knew deep down that there is a way out, and there is, no matter who you are or how bad you feel.
I always knew, that as a doctor, I could take pills to help me but I chose the hard way, I chose to try and kill myself, thankfully it didn't work, because the world would be a duller place with out me.
So, my advice to anyone reading my story, is to seek help, talk to someone anyone, it doesn't have to be someone you know, it could be anyone even an email friend you met on the web.
Please don't let yourself sink the way I did, please don't value yourself as nothing. Please seek help and overcome this illness.
Lara
x