Third installment to "The Way of the Hero", but this time it's from Draco Malfoy's perspective. (Spoiler: somewhere between/in "Order of the Phoenix" (5) and "Half Blood Prince" (6))
The Long Road
if things could go my way
i would change everything about myself
qualities that i despise
belifes i was forced to conform to
never having to lash out at people
for reasons that i don't even understand myself
ceasing to hate others around me so
just because they aren't like me
such a harsh and racial view to behold upon them
to torment those who can't help
but be what they are
i wish to be another person
to understand myself better
with no worries of the consequences
no longer will i carry this life long shame
ashamed of the way i have turned out
under parents so cold and cruel to the world
never to feel guilty to feel such hatred towards my father
who acts like my superior and a tyrant
plus a tormentor against the little things i do
actions that seem to him like mistakes
that nearly cost our family's honor
like we had any of that before
our family and my father
don't know the meaning of that word
they love to believe that they know and see all
when they are truly the inferior ones
deft and blind to all reason
for that makes it impossible for me to reconsile
with a man so difficult as he
not heeding to my words of change
so i quit all together to get him to hear me
to reveal too much of turning of tides
might lead him to jump to unecessary conclusions
such as i desire to switch sides
evade the darkness that threatens to capture me
bend me to their every will and demand
i want nothing of it altogether
their values seem disgraceful to this one
very strange to remember a time
when i once thought their visions were my own
what was i thinking then?
the dark lord and his minions
they only bring means for an apocolypse
completely mental and imcompenent
absolute power blinds them
bringing about so much death
to the young and old
ending innocent lives before they have a chance
to make something of themselves in this harsh world
i'm admitting to great loathing here
their actions and values anger me
like an internal fire
words from monsters like them
is like fuel to my firey outrage
and yet to never set them ablaze upon my victims
to betray them could mean my life
one has to be careful with this family of mine
a hord of bloody murderers and bastards
altough the word bastard to call their kind
seems to meger a word to describe
yet that will do before i lose control of my temper
not wise to get furious and lash out blindly at them
i must go to great lengths to transform myself
away from their prying eyes
and crimson splattered hands
smeared in so many sins
that god would be beyond belief at this
why can't he just smyte them for it?
for all of their ill deeds
to let the world be done with them
so we can all breath easier
this one would feel safer and greatly relieved
like a person sprung from jail
to know the meaning of true and pure freedom
to my heart's great delight!
be in wide open spaces
within' a kind outdoor nature
allowing me to see the wonderful light of life
bring about the downfall of my barriors
well trained shelds of indifference and ice
no longer will i be known as the ice king to be my peers
after much time of adjusting to glorious independence
my soul can have its global warming
melting and shedding away the layers of frozen water
transformation like a insect's metamorphasis
what a world it will be
to see the reactions in someone's eyes
for them to realize that i am no longer
the person i once was
if they ask what brought this on
what a story to tell!
i am never turning back once i turn over this new leaf
changing my destiny, my path
walking a new one
with less depree and divides
that used to cost me my way
clouding sense of direction
to a more certain future that was once unforseen
i have a choice to be who i want
and let my family not tell me anything other
a battered soul upon the road to redemption
a long road with a more promising fate
i'll soon know no shame nor hate
towards my equals and peers
drifting away to freedom with the others
let this vision not be a mere fantasy
but an everlasting reality
let this soul be happy and rest in peace