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Disclaimer: I don't own this anime
Chapter Six: All the Things She Said
(A/N: Some events came after the "Endless Waltz" and "Blind Target")
(Relena's POV)
I really couldn't believe it myself that I was so worked out thinking about him. I remembered the days and nights that I would just blanked out. But I didn't need any distractions at that time so I tried to stay focused and shook them off my head. There I was, running a whole nation all by myself because Zechs was too jaded about the war. Not to mention all the times I need to spread out the ideals of total pacifism to the other nations as well; that it kinda got a bit redundant saying the same concept over time. I also needed to continue my schooling, too. My schedule was so stacked. Looking for Heero was definitely off the question because of my responsibilities. I was only sixteen for Christ sakes.
Days went by and not a single word from him. Not that I was expecting some message from him though. He has his own priorities and I have mine. I just thought that maybe he wasn't so distracted as I am. Maybe he wasn't thinking of me as much as I was about him. I was worried about where he's staying, what are his new orders, was he eating well enough, how's he doing or is he still alive. But I really doubted the last one.
So the search for Heero was a temporary halt. The war was getting complicated for all us then. OZ made progress with their new mobile suits, Peace talks raged on despite of the open hostilities of earth and the colonies, and the Gundams and the pilots were sought out and ridiculed by the very colonies that they were fighting for. There were so many issues to tackle for me than chasing the guy. Besides, with all of the commotion going on; that even reached the far regions of the universe, where do you think I would start hunting? It's like finding him on the lands of the earth was hard enough better yet to look for him in outer space. He was bound to be somewhere.
I questioned myself why I keep on troubling myself about him. What really was it that made the sudden obsession? Not to brag but I have a lot of suitors who were looking up to me. I would have just picked the best one that would makes the best effort. It seems that the roles were changed. I ended up stalking the guy who dared to kill me. I ended up with the interest to see him. It was really so un-lady like to follow a guy despite of all the graciousness that I was taught.
Was it his Prussian blue eyes? Was it his chocolate brown hair? Was it his physique? Or was it his cunningness, stealth, determination, bravery, strength or his pride? Just something.
One day after class, Pagan approached me to give me good news. Two Gundam pilots are said to be arriving at the Sanc Kingdom very soon. One is Quatre and the other is Heero. I couldn't be more excited to hear that news. All I could do was just look ecstatic while maintaining my stature. Imagine, Heero coming to see ME for a change, with all due respect to Quatre of course. It was only a matter of hours before they arrive. I was busy on thinking what to wear. But I wondered that It wouldn't matter that much because there's something more important to worry about than clothes. What was I going to say?
After all of those times that I wanted to see him, it never really came to my mind what to say to him when we actually meet. I didn't want to make all the efforts that my staff did go to nothing nor I didn't want him to think that I was just wasting my time. Diplomatic speeches with a room full of political personalities and top military officers I could muster but a plain conversation with just a guy makes me anxious. I mean its Heero were talking about. Considering my position, I just couldn't act like an excited high school girl around him.
It was around six in the afternoon when the plane carrying the two landed on the airport. I stepped out of the car and walked straight to the landing strip and waited there. The plane's hatch opened then Quatre walks out and came behind him was Heero. I just looked up from the bottom of the stairs where I stood. And after for some time, Heero and me just locked gazes at one another. He stood above while I stood below. I figured that there would be a time later to talk to him so I just want to relish the moment for a while.
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"I was kinda envious at Heero since he has his own welcoming committee. But both of them just stayed at their positions and kept on staring at each other. At first I was hoping that there would be a dramatic scene judging by the look of their eyes at each other but after two minutes of nothing interesting, I just wanted my feet to touch the ground. Now I know what Duo must have felt back then." Quatre complained.
"See, Told ya." Duo said while crunching some chips.
"They're so in love, huh?" Trowa sipped on his soda.
"It really sounds bothersome to other people the silly games they're playing" Wufei grabbing some chips from Duo.
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Well any way, I made the official enrollment of Heero and Quatre to my school. Dorothy was also there my office. I wondered why she was unusually happy to see the both of them. Heero said that they were not staying very long but I convinced them to stay because I sent out men to search for Trowa, who was on L3 with Catherine at that time. I have my own men now to do the actual searching for me. So I just wanted them to enjoy their stay as long as they could.
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"While the students were fencing, Dorothy asked if she could have a match with Heero. I just watched them from the raptors, thinking what she could do because it takes some guts to challenge a Gundam pilot such as Heero. During the match she proved herself to be an excellent swordswoman and talked at length the two men she knew of by the name of Heero Yuy, the former President and the Gundam pilot. Heero finally defeated Dorothy in the match and said that he doesn't know what she's talking about." Quatre added.
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Heero and Quatre made an impression after I introduced them to the students. As I expected, a bunch of girls took interest on them both. And after Heero's match with Dorothy, a few more added to his fan club. I thought that in every school he's been in, there is a "Heero Fan Club" chapter. But once again, Heero just ignored them. It surely takes a lot of charisma to have so many adoring fans then you always ignore no matter how much they root for you and still they continue. Quatre's doing just fine scoring points being such a kind smiling gentleman but some girls would go and ask me why was Heero doing the opposite. I couldn't answer that myself but all I told them was he's not really that cold but just a little bit anti-social. Sometimes I just thought of strangling him for being such a robot. Compare to the other girls, at least I'm the only one who plays the staring game with him that's been going on till the present. That should count for something. Besides, the object of their worship now has vowed to protect me. So please pardon my expression, "In Your Face, Girls!" Ha ha ha.
At my office, I was talking with Noin and Pagan. It seems that a group of Pro-Treize soldiers were hiding in a forest nearby which of course within the Sanc's domain. Noin already told them to leave the area because they don't want to provoke the Romefeller Foundation thinking that we harbor rebels. But they have a lot of wounded men so I decided to try and house the soldiers as refuges, because I dont want to turn them over the wounded to OZ. Heero thought that my act of good will might have a little bit foolish. The next thing we knew, OZ suits came for an unfriendly visit.
Meanwhile, Dorothy droves up to me and told me to hop get on; and said we don't want to miss the impending battle. Before I could get into the car, I looked up and saw Heero and Quatre at the second floor balcony. There was no time to stare so I just yelled to him don't leave without me knowing. He just nodded as a respond. Inside the car, Dorothy admired the way I handle a very strong Gundam pilot like Heero. I said that it's not like I have power over him enough to control his actions. I was just hoping to see him there when we get back.
The OZ soldiers approached the Pro-Treize faction. Then a battle ensued inside the nation that has zero tolerance over violence.
When we got closer to the battlefield, a falling plane almost crushed Dorothy and me. But to my surprise, Heero's Gundam came in and saved us then came Quatre and Noin who arrived on the scene in mobile suits, all three of them to disperse the OZ troops. Dorothy just stood there and admired the battle she was saying that she thought to be so joyous while I just looked up to the three mobile suits that I suspected came from Sanc. When we all came back, I was talking with Heero and Noin the next day. Both Heero and Noin told me that I should arm the Sanc Kingdom for defense against Romefeller. Relena agreed upon the idea of using the suits only for defense as long as they are truly necessary.
Nightfall. I was busy thinking about the matters that would come. I was dead sure that Romefeller will think that I'm a hypocrite for allowing my kingdom armed with mobile suits. I will never hear the end of it. I stopped stressing myself to take my rest and stepped off my office. Then I saw Heero on the ground sitting on the grass with his back leaning on a tree. He seemed to be having his "alone episodes" again. I stepped down the stairs and came right outside and approach him. He didn't move from his spot when he saw me and just looked at me as I came closer. I stopped at a safe distance from him with my hands on my back and looked down to see his face.
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(Backtrack)
"If my memory serves me well, I remember telling you that don't leave this place without telling me" she said in a calm voice.
"I'm right here." He said shortly.
"I meant leaving the place to go fight those suits." She said almost irritated.
"If I didn't came in and saved you, you would have been dead right now." He said.
"Quatre even came and I thought that he would listen." She said looking up the tree.
"He's a Gundam pilot. As long as OZ is within our reach we wouldn't hesitate to go." He closed his eyes.
"I know I know. Thank you again for saving me... um... saving us." She looked at him.
"Then why are you noting my actions for leaving?"
"It's just that, when I said don't leave without telling me, you nodded. I just thought that..."
"I don't know."
"What?"
"I don't know why I responded to that."
"I'm sorry for telling you what to do."
"I'm still here am I? If I should leave, I'll tell you."
"Yes."
"Besides, you should have known that it was all a trap. Since they know that you would let the Pro-Treize army make refuge here, OZ would have the right excuse to attack here."
"All I did was just an act of good will. No matter what I just couldn't let them be wiped out by OZ. Even if it means protecting my keep and them with arms necessarily."
"Even if you'll face hypocrisy?"
"Just as long as I keep within the borders of my principle I wont sacrifice my morality just because of the war. If I do that then I'm no better than OZ."
(They remained silent for a while that seemed like forever after discussing the events took earlier. Both lock gazes on one another trying not to blink both are trying not to loose at their own staring game. The moon was high up and stars were all over the dim blue sky. The evening wind blew both of their hairs in motion with the gust. Neither one show any signs of cold. )
"I didn't ask this earlier but what's the reason you and Quatre come here?" she asked.
"He said that this would be the last place OZ would look."
"Is that all?"
"Are you expecting something else?"
"Um... no... of course." She blushed.
(She turned around to look at the stars above maintaining her form. Heero just shifted.)
"By the way some girls from your class came to me to give you more presents."
"I don't want it."
"Come on, don't you even want to know what they are?"
"No."
"But I'm sure they put a lot of effort making them."
"Just keep it then."
"Heero, it's bad enough that you ignore your loving fans. Why do you think they would ask me to give them to you in the first place?"
"Why do you think it's so, Relena?"
"Wha... um... because I... "
"Because you can, is that it?"
"You don't ignore me as much as you ignore them... I guess."
"Don't get that over your head if you think that it is."
"No... I mean... when I think about that... It's makes me feel glad... a bit... knowing that you would stop and look at me. And it does kinda upsets me that there are so many girls that are so interested in you."
"It upsets you?"
"Yes."
"Are you one of them then?"
"N... no. Maybe before but I got responsibilities now so I..."
"Relena" he said
"Heero" she responded
"Why do you always come to me?" he asked
(She wasn't sure what to answer. The answer was there but she couldn't find it. If she should find it, she doesn't know how to say it.)
"I... I just wanted to see you... so badly I..." she began to tremble
"Didn't I say that I'd kill you?" he said coldly
"Yes. In the right moment you will" she started to choke
"With that you still come here to me knowing that I can snap your little neck?" he said mercilessly.
(She felt really upset. She thought he have changed a bit. She thought she have changed him a bit. But she didn't have to falter. For she was forgetting the fear she harbored for him a long time ago. But his threats remained not as jokes. She knew him better than that. Then gently she came closer and kneeled in front of him. He looked at her wondering what she's going to do. She leaned closer and took both of his hands and enveloped both of its fingers around her neck, still her hands on top of his. His whole body tensed up touching something that's warm and soft. She just smiled at him and looked at him)
"There. If you think you can kill me right here, right now then do it Heero."
"Relena."
"But of course without me, no one would lead this nation and promote the very principle of total pacifism that the Sanc Kingdom is standing for."
"Listen..." He paused.
"What is it?"
"If you ever drown yourself to this belief of yours, when that day comes, I will kill you."
"You said that so many times it lost all meaning." She chuckled.
"Relena."
"Heero, I would continue on with my principle to give peace a chance. That day wont happen. But..."
"Hmn?"
"If by chance you trust your judgment, then I wont stop you. At least give me the chance to look at you before you can claim my existence."
"Relena..." his hands still on her neck slowly loosing grip.
"Heero..." she smiled as the evening wind gusted.
(End of Backtrack)
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"Then what happened?" All four of them said in unison with utmost curiosity.
"Then..." she paused. She stood up, turned around to look herself at the vanity mirror and twirled back again to face again and smiled with all joy.
"He pinned me down the ground and raped me on the spot." She said proudly.
"WHAT WHAT WHAAAAAT?"
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Disclaimer: I don't own this anime
Chapter Six: All the Things She Said
(A/N: Some events came after the "Endless Waltz" and "Blind Target")
(Relena's POV)
I really couldn't believe it myself that I was so worked out thinking about him. I remembered the days and nights that I would just blanked out. But I didn't need any distractions at that time so I tried to stay focused and shook them off my head. There I was, running a whole nation all by myself because Zechs was too jaded about the war. Not to mention all the times I need to spread out the ideals of total pacifism to the other nations as well; that it kinda got a bit redundant saying the same concept over time. I also needed to continue my schooling, too. My schedule was so stacked. Looking for Heero was definitely off the question because of my responsibilities. I was only sixteen for Christ sakes.
Days went by and not a single word from him. Not that I was expecting some message from him though. He has his own priorities and I have mine. I just thought that maybe he wasn't so distracted as I am. Maybe he wasn't thinking of me as much as I was about him. I was worried about where he's staying, what are his new orders, was he eating well enough, how's he doing or is he still alive. But I really doubted the last one.
So the search for Heero was a temporary halt. The war was getting complicated for all us then. OZ made progress with their new mobile suits, Peace talks raged on despite of the open hostilities of earth and the colonies, and the Gundams and the pilots were sought out and ridiculed by the very colonies that they were fighting for. There were so many issues to tackle for me than chasing the guy. Besides, with all of the commotion going on; that even reached the far regions of the universe, where do you think I would start hunting? It's like finding him on the lands of the earth was hard enough better yet to look for him in outer space. He was bound to be somewhere.
I questioned myself why I keep on troubling myself about him. What really was it that made the sudden obsession? Not to brag but I have a lot of suitors who were looking up to me. I would have just picked the best one that would makes the best effort. It seems that the roles were changed. I ended up stalking the guy who dared to kill me. I ended up with the interest to see him. It was really so un-lady like to follow a guy despite of all the graciousness that I was taught.
Was it his Prussian blue eyes? Was it his chocolate brown hair? Was it his physique? Or was it his cunningness, stealth, determination, bravery, strength or his pride? Just something.
One day after class, Pagan approached me to give me good news. Two Gundam pilots are said to be arriving at the Sanc Kingdom very soon. One is Quatre and the other is Heero. I couldn't be more excited to hear that news. All I could do was just look ecstatic while maintaining my stature. Imagine, Heero coming to see ME for a change, with all due respect to Quatre of course. It was only a matter of hours before they arrive. I was busy on thinking what to wear. But I wondered that It wouldn't matter that much because there's something more important to worry about than clothes. What was I going to say?
After all of those times that I wanted to see him, it never really came to my mind what to say to him when we actually meet. I didn't want to make all the efforts that my staff did go to nothing nor I didn't want him to think that I was just wasting my time. Diplomatic speeches with a room full of political personalities and top military officers I could muster but a plain conversation with just a guy makes me anxious. I mean its Heero were talking about. Considering my position, I just couldn't act like an excited high school girl around him.
It was around six in the afternoon when the plane carrying the two landed on the airport. I stepped out of the car and walked straight to the landing strip and waited there. The plane's hatch opened then Quatre walks out and came behind him was Heero. I just looked up from the bottom of the stairs where I stood. And after for some time, Heero and me just locked gazes at one another. He stood above while I stood below. I figured that there would be a time later to talk to him so I just want to relish the moment for a while.
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"I was kinda envious at Heero since he has his own welcoming committee. But both of them just stayed at their positions and kept on staring at each other. At first I was hoping that there would be a dramatic scene judging by the look of their eyes at each other but after two minutes of nothing interesting, I just wanted my feet to touch the ground. Now I know what Duo must have felt back then." Quatre complained.
"See, Told ya." Duo said while crunching some chips.
"They're so in love, huh?" Trowa sipped on his soda.
"It really sounds bothersome to other people the silly games they're playing" Wufei grabbing some chips from Duo.
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Well any way, I made the official enrollment of Heero and Quatre to my school. Dorothy was also there my office. I wondered why she was unusually happy to see the both of them. Heero said that they were not staying very long but I convinced them to stay because I sent out men to search for Trowa, who was on L3 with Catherine at that time. I have my own men now to do the actual searching for me. So I just wanted them to enjoy their stay as long as they could.
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"While the students were fencing, Dorothy asked if she could have a match with Heero. I just watched them from the raptors, thinking what she could do because it takes some guts to challenge a Gundam pilot such as Heero. During the match she proved herself to be an excellent swordswoman and talked at length the two men she knew of by the name of Heero Yuy, the former President and the Gundam pilot. Heero finally defeated Dorothy in the match and said that he doesn't know what she's talking about." Quatre added.
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Heero and Quatre made an impression after I introduced them to the students. As I expected, a bunch of girls took interest on them both. And after Heero's match with Dorothy, a few more added to his fan club. I thought that in every school he's been in, there is a "Heero Fan Club" chapter. But once again, Heero just ignored them. It surely takes a lot of charisma to have so many adoring fans then you always ignore no matter how much they root for you and still they continue. Quatre's doing just fine scoring points being such a kind smiling gentleman but some girls would go and ask me why was Heero doing the opposite. I couldn't answer that myself but all I told them was he's not really that cold but just a little bit anti-social. Sometimes I just thought of strangling him for being such a robot. Compare to the other girls, at least I'm the only one who plays the staring game with him that's been going on till the present. That should count for something. Besides, the object of their worship now has vowed to protect me. So please pardon my expression, "In Your Face, Girls!" Ha ha ha.
At my office, I was talking with Noin and Pagan. It seems that a group of Pro-Treize soldiers were hiding in a forest nearby which of course within the Sanc's domain. Noin already told them to leave the area because they don't want to provoke the Romefeller Foundation thinking that we harbor rebels. But they have a lot of wounded men so I decided to try and house the soldiers as refuges, because I dont want to turn them over the wounded to OZ. Heero thought that my act of good will might have a little bit foolish. The next thing we knew, OZ suits came for an unfriendly visit.
Meanwhile, Dorothy droves up to me and told me to hop get on; and said we don't want to miss the impending battle. Before I could get into the car, I looked up and saw Heero and Quatre at the second floor balcony. There was no time to stare so I just yelled to him don't leave without me knowing. He just nodded as a respond. Inside the car, Dorothy admired the way I handle a very strong Gundam pilot like Heero. I said that it's not like I have power over him enough to control his actions. I was just hoping to see him there when we get back.
The OZ soldiers approached the Pro-Treize faction. Then a battle ensued inside the nation that has zero tolerance over violence.
When we got closer to the battlefield, a falling plane almost crushed Dorothy and me. But to my surprise, Heero's Gundam came in and saved us then came Quatre and Noin who arrived on the scene in mobile suits, all three of them to disperse the OZ troops. Dorothy just stood there and admired the battle she was saying that she thought to be so joyous while I just looked up to the three mobile suits that I suspected came from Sanc. When we all came back, I was talking with Heero and Noin the next day. Both Heero and Noin told me that I should arm the Sanc Kingdom for defense against Romefeller. Relena agreed upon the idea of using the suits only for defense as long as they are truly necessary.
Nightfall. I was busy thinking about the matters that would come. I was dead sure that Romefeller will think that I'm a hypocrite for allowing my kingdom armed with mobile suits. I will never hear the end of it. I stopped stressing myself to take my rest and stepped off my office. Then I saw Heero on the ground sitting on the grass with his back leaning on a tree. He seemed to be having his "alone episodes" again. I stepped down the stairs and came right outside and approach him. He didn't move from his spot when he saw me and just looked at me as I came closer. I stopped at a safe distance from him with my hands on my back and looked down to see his face.
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(Backtrack)
"If my memory serves me well, I remember telling you that don't leave this place without telling me" she said in a calm voice.
"I'm right here." He said shortly.
"I meant leaving the place to go fight those suits." She said almost irritated.
"If I didn't came in and saved you, you would have been dead right now." He said.
"Quatre even came and I thought that he would listen." She said looking up the tree.
"He's a Gundam pilot. As long as OZ is within our reach we wouldn't hesitate to go." He closed his eyes.
"I know I know. Thank you again for saving me... um... saving us." She looked at him.
"Then why are you noting my actions for leaving?"
"It's just that, when I said don't leave without telling me, you nodded. I just thought that..."
"I don't know."
"What?"
"I don't know why I responded to that."
"I'm sorry for telling you what to do."
"I'm still here am I? If I should leave, I'll tell you."
"Yes."
"Besides, you should have known that it was all a trap. Since they know that you would let the Pro-Treize army make refuge here, OZ would have the right excuse to attack here."
"All I did was just an act of good will. No matter what I just couldn't let them be wiped out by OZ. Even if it means protecting my keep and them with arms necessarily."
"Even if you'll face hypocrisy?"
"Just as long as I keep within the borders of my principle I wont sacrifice my morality just because of the war. If I do that then I'm no better than OZ."
(They remained silent for a while that seemed like forever after discussing the events took earlier. Both lock gazes on one another trying not to blink both are trying not to loose at their own staring game. The moon was high up and stars were all over the dim blue sky. The evening wind blew both of their hairs in motion with the gust. Neither one show any signs of cold. )
"I didn't ask this earlier but what's the reason you and Quatre come here?" she asked.
"He said that this would be the last place OZ would look."
"Is that all?"
"Are you expecting something else?"
"Um... no... of course." She blushed.
(She turned around to look at the stars above maintaining her form. Heero just shifted.)
"By the way some girls from your class came to me to give you more presents."
"I don't want it."
"Come on, don't you even want to know what they are?"
"No."
"But I'm sure they put a lot of effort making them."
"Just keep it then."
"Heero, it's bad enough that you ignore your loving fans. Why do you think they would ask me to give them to you in the first place?"
"Why do you think it's so, Relena?"
"Wha... um... because I... "
"Because you can, is that it?"
"You don't ignore me as much as you ignore them... I guess."
"Don't get that over your head if you think that it is."
"No... I mean... when I think about that... It's makes me feel glad... a bit... knowing that you would stop and look at me. And it does kinda upsets me that there are so many girls that are so interested in you."
"It upsets you?"
"Yes."
"Are you one of them then?"
"N... no. Maybe before but I got responsibilities now so I..."
"Relena" he said
"Heero" she responded
"Why do you always come to me?" he asked
(She wasn't sure what to answer. The answer was there but she couldn't find it. If she should find it, she doesn't know how to say it.)
"I... I just wanted to see you... so badly I..." she began to tremble
"Didn't I say that I'd kill you?" he said coldly
"Yes. In the right moment you will" she started to choke
"With that you still come here to me knowing that I can snap your little neck?" he said mercilessly.
(She felt really upset. She thought he have changed a bit. She thought she have changed him a bit. But she didn't have to falter. For she was forgetting the fear she harbored for him a long time ago. But his threats remained not as jokes. She knew him better than that. Then gently she came closer and kneeled in front of him. He looked at her wondering what she's going to do. She leaned closer and took both of his hands and enveloped both of its fingers around her neck, still her hands on top of his. His whole body tensed up touching something that's warm and soft. She just smiled at him and looked at him)
"There. If you think you can kill me right here, right now then do it Heero."
"Relena."
"But of course without me, no one would lead this nation and promote the very principle of total pacifism that the Sanc Kingdom is standing for."
"Listen..." He paused.
"What is it?"
"If you ever drown yourself to this belief of yours, when that day comes, I will kill you."
"You said that so many times it lost all meaning." She chuckled.
"Relena."
"Heero, I would continue on with my principle to give peace a chance. That day wont happen. But..."
"Hmn?"
"If by chance you trust your judgment, then I wont stop you. At least give me the chance to look at you before you can claim my existence."
"Relena..." his hands still on her neck slowly loosing grip.
"Heero..." she smiled as the evening wind gusted.
(End of Backtrack)
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"Then what happened?" All four of them said in unison with utmost curiosity.
"Then..." she paused. She stood up, turned around to look herself at the vanity mirror and twirled back again to face again and smiled with all joy.
"He pinned me down the ground and raped me on the spot." She said proudly.
"WHAT WHAT WHAAAAAT?"
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