CHAPTER TWO
Lorelai drove slowly back to the inn, her feelings so different from her earlier trip home. Had it just been an hour ago? This trip she had so much to think about.....that trip had been full of happiness and excitement.
Wanting to share her news and her sheer joy with Rory, Lorelai had made it home from the Dragonfly in record time. She had run up the stairs, grabbed her camera, and run back down quickly. She intended to drag Rory out of her room --kicking and screaming if necessary-- and take her back to the inn. She wanted them to kick off their shoes, put their feet up and talk about the day, this amazing day. And then she had walked in and reality had smacked her in the face.
Lorelai was starting to adjust to what she had come upon.....adjust, but her brain just couldn't comprehend. It did make her think of her first time, and all the emotions that she had been caught up in. She and Chris had talked about it...but when it had finally happened, it had been a case of hormones over common sense. She remembered that feeling to this night. The butterflies in her stomach, her body wanting to yield everything to Chris..... Rory's little escapade had opened up feelings and thoughts that made Lorelai feel like she was sixteen again. Make that fifteen....by sixteen, morning sickness, labor and delivery had overcome those hormonal butterflies. She started to calm down a bit and tried to focus on what she had to do next. Right now, she had to do the adult thing and tend to her new inn. She had to face everyone with a smile on her face, even though her heart felt heavy in her chest. Heavy for Rory, but there was also this new little thing...something she couldn't completely push away......that same hormonal, butterfly-in-the-stomach feeling, that first rush of attraction with the added promise of more......for Luke. They were dating. He had made it clear. And she was all, one hundred percent sure, that all of these years they had been dancing around the inevitable. Just waiting to get the steps just right, the waltz of life....she hit the repeat button on the CD player so she could her 'their' song again. Their waltz......Luke could 'waltz', they could 'waltz' together. What had Liz said.....for the rest of their lives....... She tried to let her thoughts go down that road but reality just kept throwing speed bumps in her path.
Rory.... Luke.....Rory .....Luke..... her thoughts were like a tidal wave taking over her mind. Ups and downs...disappointment, excitement, fear of the unknown, fear of the known.....real life. Her head was reeling with her thoughts about her daughter and the event of t night......her heart was beating fast, matching the fluttering wings of the butterflies in her stomach.....and her first kisses with Luke.
Lorelai finally reached the Dragonfly and pulled into her parking space. She grabbed the camera and headed to the front door. She almost missed seeing Luke sitting in the rocking chair on the big porch. When she did notice him, it surprised her and made her heart stand still. He looked so cute and a little unsure......waiting there for her.... not having any idea why she had just disappeared. What if he had changed his mind? Or worse, what if he thought that she had changed hers. Lorelai softly smiled at him and he returned it with a wink.
"Big night around here. Hope it's everything you dreamed it would be."
"Oh, Luke, it's been a dream, a nightmare, and everything in between."
"And where do we fall.....because I thought it was going well." Luke teased but the fear was creeping through.
"Definitely more on the dream side." She reassured him and herself.
Luke smiled, and took a deep breath. He'd hoped that was still her take on the evening. Luke stepped down off the porch and made sure she had locked the doors on the jeep. She noticed this little thing and it warmed her heart. He really loved her despite all of her weird and crazy ways. He knew them better than anyone, and he loved her anyway. She took his hand and squeezed it. They smiled at each other in a dopey, school- crush kind of way. He opened the door for her and they headed into the kitchen. It was dimly lit, and he couldn't help himself. He put his hands on her hips and pulled her in for that missed third kiss. The important one.....the first had been his declaration to her, the second had been her declaration to him, and now the third.....the third said it all. The third kiss blended the separate parts together and made their feelings complete. Maybe it would last a lifetime ....who knew at this point.....but both knew it was worth the chance. Lorelai wrapped her arms around him and lost herself in his embrace. His kiss engulfed her, his arms crushed her body to his, and their new found feelings just wrapped it all up in the perfect package. The package.....how many times had she wished for that.....was it possible.......
Luke pulled away and gazed at her. He had been seeing her in such a different way lately.....not really, but just finally realizing it. She returned the gaze and then stupid reality came crashing at the door again. Her face feel and he noticed and asked.
"Rory and I had a little something tonight. Actually, a big something, not likely to just go away.....but it will be alright." The way she said it, he knew she was trying to convince herself more than him.
Luke knew whatever it was, it was a huge obstacle for them. He wanted to ask but he wasn't sure how to go about it. He had watched these girls over the years and they had a certain shorthand. He had also knew that no one should get in the way of it......they always came through....how bad could this be? But by the look on her face, this one was going to be their biggest challenge.....he could just feel it. Luke pulled her back into his arms and just held her this time. And for Lorelai, it was just enough. She knew how much he cared and that with this hug he was saying he would always be there for both of them. No questions asked. They put their arms around each other's waists and walked up the stairs together. He walked her to her door, kissed her lightly on the top of her head, and continued walking to the room next door. Luke gave her a little wave and whispered, "I'm right next door, if you need me."
She whispered back, "I know. Thanks for not asking. I'll tell you later. Later, when I know how I'm going to handle it, how I'm going to face her again."
Lorelai closed her door and left a stunned Luke standing in the hall. He opened his own door and silently hoped that it wasn't what he was thinking.
He had spent the evening watching all of Stars Hollow interacting in this little 'Dragonfly' drama. And one thing he had noticed, was Rory and Dean in deep discussion. Remembering certain run-ins with Dean in the past few months, he knew all was not well with that new marriage. Having just been there himself, Luke knew how easy it was to look at what 'might have been'. He was an adult and had gotten out of his mess.....but Dean was just a kid....a kid with a huge crush on his first love. Luke lay on his bed, and wondered.......finally falling asleep when he let his mind drift back to Lorelai.
And then came the knock..........
You know the drill.....
Thanks for your comments. This is my style of writing—it's choppy and not always correct in every way. That's because I feel that's how we think....the thoughts that go through our minds are not in perfect sentences....they are run on, sometimes ramble...so that's the way it's going to stay. Our conversations are like that too....not always perfect but human and sometimes vulnerable. I guess I want it to feel real.
Thanks again.
Lorelai drove slowly back to the inn, her feelings so different from her earlier trip home. Had it just been an hour ago? This trip she had so much to think about.....that trip had been full of happiness and excitement.
Wanting to share her news and her sheer joy with Rory, Lorelai had made it home from the Dragonfly in record time. She had run up the stairs, grabbed her camera, and run back down quickly. She intended to drag Rory out of her room --kicking and screaming if necessary-- and take her back to the inn. She wanted them to kick off their shoes, put their feet up and talk about the day, this amazing day. And then she had walked in and reality had smacked her in the face.
Lorelai was starting to adjust to what she had come upon.....adjust, but her brain just couldn't comprehend. It did make her think of her first time, and all the emotions that she had been caught up in. She and Chris had talked about it...but when it had finally happened, it had been a case of hormones over common sense. She remembered that feeling to this night. The butterflies in her stomach, her body wanting to yield everything to Chris..... Rory's little escapade had opened up feelings and thoughts that made Lorelai feel like she was sixteen again. Make that fifteen....by sixteen, morning sickness, labor and delivery had overcome those hormonal butterflies. She started to calm down a bit and tried to focus on what she had to do next. Right now, she had to do the adult thing and tend to her new inn. She had to face everyone with a smile on her face, even though her heart felt heavy in her chest. Heavy for Rory, but there was also this new little thing...something she couldn't completely push away......that same hormonal, butterfly-in-the-stomach feeling, that first rush of attraction with the added promise of more......for Luke. They were dating. He had made it clear. And she was all, one hundred percent sure, that all of these years they had been dancing around the inevitable. Just waiting to get the steps just right, the waltz of life....she hit the repeat button on the CD player so she could her 'their' song again. Their waltz......Luke could 'waltz', they could 'waltz' together. What had Liz said.....for the rest of their lives....... She tried to let her thoughts go down that road but reality just kept throwing speed bumps in her path.
Rory.... Luke.....Rory .....Luke..... her thoughts were like a tidal wave taking over her mind. Ups and downs...disappointment, excitement, fear of the unknown, fear of the known.....real life. Her head was reeling with her thoughts about her daughter and the event of t night......her heart was beating fast, matching the fluttering wings of the butterflies in her stomach.....and her first kisses with Luke.
Lorelai finally reached the Dragonfly and pulled into her parking space. She grabbed the camera and headed to the front door. She almost missed seeing Luke sitting in the rocking chair on the big porch. When she did notice him, it surprised her and made her heart stand still. He looked so cute and a little unsure......waiting there for her.... not having any idea why she had just disappeared. What if he had changed his mind? Or worse, what if he thought that she had changed hers. Lorelai softly smiled at him and he returned it with a wink.
"Big night around here. Hope it's everything you dreamed it would be."
"Oh, Luke, it's been a dream, a nightmare, and everything in between."
"And where do we fall.....because I thought it was going well." Luke teased but the fear was creeping through.
"Definitely more on the dream side." She reassured him and herself.
Luke smiled, and took a deep breath. He'd hoped that was still her take on the evening. Luke stepped down off the porch and made sure she had locked the doors on the jeep. She noticed this little thing and it warmed her heart. He really loved her despite all of her weird and crazy ways. He knew them better than anyone, and he loved her anyway. She took his hand and squeezed it. They smiled at each other in a dopey, school- crush kind of way. He opened the door for her and they headed into the kitchen. It was dimly lit, and he couldn't help himself. He put his hands on her hips and pulled her in for that missed third kiss. The important one.....the first had been his declaration to her, the second had been her declaration to him, and now the third.....the third said it all. The third kiss blended the separate parts together and made their feelings complete. Maybe it would last a lifetime ....who knew at this point.....but both knew it was worth the chance. Lorelai wrapped her arms around him and lost herself in his embrace. His kiss engulfed her, his arms crushed her body to his, and their new found feelings just wrapped it all up in the perfect package. The package.....how many times had she wished for that.....was it possible.......
Luke pulled away and gazed at her. He had been seeing her in such a different way lately.....not really, but just finally realizing it. She returned the gaze and then stupid reality came crashing at the door again. Her face feel and he noticed and asked.
"Rory and I had a little something tonight. Actually, a big something, not likely to just go away.....but it will be alright." The way she said it, he knew she was trying to convince herself more than him.
Luke knew whatever it was, it was a huge obstacle for them. He wanted to ask but he wasn't sure how to go about it. He had watched these girls over the years and they had a certain shorthand. He had also knew that no one should get in the way of it......they always came through....how bad could this be? But by the look on her face, this one was going to be their biggest challenge.....he could just feel it. Luke pulled her back into his arms and just held her this time. And for Lorelai, it was just enough. She knew how much he cared and that with this hug he was saying he would always be there for both of them. No questions asked. They put their arms around each other's waists and walked up the stairs together. He walked her to her door, kissed her lightly on the top of her head, and continued walking to the room next door. Luke gave her a little wave and whispered, "I'm right next door, if you need me."
She whispered back, "I know. Thanks for not asking. I'll tell you later. Later, when I know how I'm going to handle it, how I'm going to face her again."
Lorelai closed her door and left a stunned Luke standing in the hall. He opened his own door and silently hoped that it wasn't what he was thinking.
He had spent the evening watching all of Stars Hollow interacting in this little 'Dragonfly' drama. And one thing he had noticed, was Rory and Dean in deep discussion. Remembering certain run-ins with Dean in the past few months, he knew all was not well with that new marriage. Having just been there himself, Luke knew how easy it was to look at what 'might have been'. He was an adult and had gotten out of his mess.....but Dean was just a kid....a kid with a huge crush on his first love. Luke lay on his bed, and wondered.......finally falling asleep when he let his mind drift back to Lorelai.
And then came the knock..........
You know the drill.....
Thanks for your comments. This is my style of writing—it's choppy and not always correct in every way. That's because I feel that's how we think....the thoughts that go through our minds are not in perfect sentences....they are run on, sometimes ramble...so that's the way it's going to stay. Our conversations are like that too....not always perfect but human and sometimes vulnerable. I guess I want it to feel real.
Thanks again.