By the time Harry had stepped down from the platform most everyone
was in tears and he was feeling violently sick. Not even bothering to take
his seat he headed strait for the lake. Harry vaguely noticed Professor
Dumbledore stand up to speak again as he sat on the shore taking deep
shallow breathes.
Sirius is gone, Sirius is not coming back. Just thinking the words in his head was to suffocating. This cannot be happening. Am I destined to never have love in my life? Every chance of a parental life is gone. My parents are dead, my godfather is dead, and the Dursleys are obviously not an option. He winced at the memory. Why is it happening like this?
Suddenly an eerie voice in his head stopped all other thought. 'Neither can live while the other survives.' So I am destined to live a hell. How many more people have to die so I can live this so called life. He grabbed a stray pebble and threw it across the shimmering lake. Harry watched as the Giant Squid broke the calm of the water to take a tentacle and throw the pebble back. He had a sudden urge to throw the rock back, to do anything to release this terrible grief and pain. All he knew was that he was suffocating and did not know how to let it go.
"Harry?" Harry spun around fast enough to give any other person whiplash, but for Harry Potter his ribs felt like they were being ripped open again. He curled in ward in pain and Remus quickly caught him guiding him back to the ground. "God Harry, are you okay"
"Fine," Harry said automatically. Remus looked at him in despair, quickly transferring to anger.
"I hate them for doing this to you," he said in a harsh whisper, " I hate myself for letting this happen," he closed his eyes in despair. It took Harry a moment to get over the pain in his chest and comprehend what Remus was saying to him.
"This it isn't your fault," he paused, "if it's anyone's it's mine." Remus gave a disbelieving laugh.
"Why don't we both shut-up and blame your damn Uncle."
"I can do that."
"Come on." He picked Harry up by his elbow and dusted himself off.
"Where are we going?"
"The will." That simple statement from his ex-proffesor made Harry wish he still had that pain in his ribs to distract him from feeling of his stomach falling out. He closed his eyes, and both he and Remus took the time to collect themselves before heading off to the school. They were met with the rest of their party in the Entrance Hall, and they silently followed Mr.Weasley to an empty office. Harry was to dazed to notice where his feet were carrying him until he had stopped dead in his tracks at the doorway of the office once occupied by Headmistress Umbridge. Harry looked strait ahead at the fireplace he had used to see if Sirius was safe or not, and look what happened in the end.
Everyone seemed to be watching him apprehensively, annoyed by this he ignored them and acted as though he hadn't just had an offensive memory and took his seat. As Harry took his seat at the long table Ron sat on one side of him, Hermione was next to Ron, and Remus was on the left. Harry looked up from his lap and across the table sat Draco and Narcissia Malfoy. Harry's heart hardened as both he and Malfoy rose from their seats slightly, never breaking each other's glares.
"Kill another one Potter?" Malfoy spat. Harry tensed involuntarily. Draco smirked.
"Father enjoying his vacation?" Harry spat back. Draco made a move to jump on Harry. He was about to grant Malfoy's wish for a fight, when Remus grabbed Harry across the front and sat him back down.
"He's not worth it Harry," Hermione whispered somewhere at his right, but he wasn't able to make out the rest of her tirade with the blood pounding in his ears. Remus gently elbowed him from the left drawing his attention to the door where the old Headmaster was carrying a goblet under his arm.
Dumbledore set engraved silver goblet on the edge of the table and with a flick of his wrist it flew to the center.
"This magnificent object as some of you may know is a Pensive. The Pensive of Sirius Black to be exact. I am about to display his will for the room to see, with a handy little spell I came across during the summer. So let us begin, morpheana."
The silver liquid in the Pensive began to swirl and rise from the silver goblet. The liquid turned to mist as a blurry form of Sirius Black stood floating above the table. Harry didn't care if this was how a wizardring will was done, this was cruel. He heard Remus suck in a breath. Here was Sirius standing in front of him in the same form as his parents had two years ago in Priori Incantatem. Suddenly, to make this more painful, Harry assumed, the misty Sirius began to speak.
"Welcome friends, and you other unworthy people who probably laughing at my ultimate demise. I assume if you are watching this than yes, I am dead and for this I am sorry. I apologize to you, Harry and Remus for whatever idiotic thing I have done to get myself killed. Just remember that I'm probably somewhere in the next life laughing with Lily and James. I will always be here for the both of you, but on to other business. I'm sure you're all much more interested in who gets all my money. To Mad-Eye Moody and Kingsley Shaklebolt, I pass on to you all of the dark objects and dark detectors available in the Black House, and as a bonus gift, two handmade Marauder's Fake Wands." Harry's stomach was doing constant flip-flops at what he was hearing, Sirius's voice, his laughter, his humor. It was torture. Next to him Remus was leaning into his hands, which were covering his eyes taking shallow breaths. " To Nymphy Tonks, my adorable little cousin, in my room at the Black House there is crate full of Fizzing Whizbies for your enjoyment. Also 1,000 galleons to my only blood family member, who deserved any money. Oh, and Tonks, be gentle with him." Tonks, sitting at one end of the table was whipping tears from her eyes. " The wonderful Weasley's, 7,000 Galleons for six wonderful people and let's hope the other one comes around." The entire Weasley family was staring opened mouthed at the misty form of Sirius Black. " My sweet Hermione Granger. I bestow upon you complete access to the Black library and 1,000 gold galleons. Keep the boys in line for me. Ron Weasley, in the Black attic you will find an entire Chudley Cannon's Collector's line, have fun with it. Gred and Forge our successors in mischief making, in my room is a copy of the formulas for all the Marauder's inventions. Hope it's helpful." The misty Sirius paused and took a deep breath. "Remus," Remus looked up hungrily at his best friend, " Moony, my good friend. Bet your glad to be rid of me." Sirius laughed but unconvincingly. Remus just stared. " I obviously leave to you the rest of the Marauder memorabilia. You and Harry are to split the rest of the Black fortune; this includes The Noble and Ancient House of Black. I wish to keep this house for it's current use. Both you and Harry are welcome to blow up my mother and family tree." Sirius paused and seemed to look directly at Remus. " Messrs. Moony, Padfoot, and Prongs Purveyors of Aids to Magical Mischief Makers; forever, Moony, remember that." Remus continued to stare at Sirius treasuring every second to look upon his best friends face, for the last time. Sirius shifted and looked over at Harry and then dropped his gaze. "Harry, in addition to what I listed previously I also leave to you my motorbike which is in the cellar of the Black House and your Mother and Father's pensive, which will be transferred to your vault. It covers our seventh year and when Lily was pregnant with you, as well as the short time after." Sirius looked up to Harry again. " I want to tell you I'm sorry. I should have been there for you more than I was. I am honored to be your Godfather and not because of your fame. If I had my way, and I'm sure you agree, you would never have had that scar on your forehead. You are a strong person, with a good heart, and you deserve more love in your life. I have found a slight loophole in the law. So if I may continue, Harry I will always be your Godfather. But you need another one to be there now that I can't. I herby declare Remus Joseph Lupin Godfather of Harry James Potter." Both his and Remus's jaws dropped they stared in awe at the misty form of Sirius Black. "Harry, I love you." The Misty form of his beloved Godfather swirled and flew back into the silver Pensive.
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Sirius is gone, Sirius is not coming back. Just thinking the words in his head was to suffocating. This cannot be happening. Am I destined to never have love in my life? Every chance of a parental life is gone. My parents are dead, my godfather is dead, and the Dursleys are obviously not an option. He winced at the memory. Why is it happening like this?
Suddenly an eerie voice in his head stopped all other thought. 'Neither can live while the other survives.' So I am destined to live a hell. How many more people have to die so I can live this so called life. He grabbed a stray pebble and threw it across the shimmering lake. Harry watched as the Giant Squid broke the calm of the water to take a tentacle and throw the pebble back. He had a sudden urge to throw the rock back, to do anything to release this terrible grief and pain. All he knew was that he was suffocating and did not know how to let it go.
"Harry?" Harry spun around fast enough to give any other person whiplash, but for Harry Potter his ribs felt like they were being ripped open again. He curled in ward in pain and Remus quickly caught him guiding him back to the ground. "God Harry, are you okay"
"Fine," Harry said automatically. Remus looked at him in despair, quickly transferring to anger.
"I hate them for doing this to you," he said in a harsh whisper, " I hate myself for letting this happen," he closed his eyes in despair. It took Harry a moment to get over the pain in his chest and comprehend what Remus was saying to him.
"This it isn't your fault," he paused, "if it's anyone's it's mine." Remus gave a disbelieving laugh.
"Why don't we both shut-up and blame your damn Uncle."
"I can do that."
"Come on." He picked Harry up by his elbow and dusted himself off.
"Where are we going?"
"The will." That simple statement from his ex-proffesor made Harry wish he still had that pain in his ribs to distract him from feeling of his stomach falling out. He closed his eyes, and both he and Remus took the time to collect themselves before heading off to the school. They were met with the rest of their party in the Entrance Hall, and they silently followed Mr.Weasley to an empty office. Harry was to dazed to notice where his feet were carrying him until he had stopped dead in his tracks at the doorway of the office once occupied by Headmistress Umbridge. Harry looked strait ahead at the fireplace he had used to see if Sirius was safe or not, and look what happened in the end.
Everyone seemed to be watching him apprehensively, annoyed by this he ignored them and acted as though he hadn't just had an offensive memory and took his seat. As Harry took his seat at the long table Ron sat on one side of him, Hermione was next to Ron, and Remus was on the left. Harry looked up from his lap and across the table sat Draco and Narcissia Malfoy. Harry's heart hardened as both he and Malfoy rose from their seats slightly, never breaking each other's glares.
"Kill another one Potter?" Malfoy spat. Harry tensed involuntarily. Draco smirked.
"Father enjoying his vacation?" Harry spat back. Draco made a move to jump on Harry. He was about to grant Malfoy's wish for a fight, when Remus grabbed Harry across the front and sat him back down.
"He's not worth it Harry," Hermione whispered somewhere at his right, but he wasn't able to make out the rest of her tirade with the blood pounding in his ears. Remus gently elbowed him from the left drawing his attention to the door where the old Headmaster was carrying a goblet under his arm.
Dumbledore set engraved silver goblet on the edge of the table and with a flick of his wrist it flew to the center.
"This magnificent object as some of you may know is a Pensive. The Pensive of Sirius Black to be exact. I am about to display his will for the room to see, with a handy little spell I came across during the summer. So let us begin, morpheana."
The silver liquid in the Pensive began to swirl and rise from the silver goblet. The liquid turned to mist as a blurry form of Sirius Black stood floating above the table. Harry didn't care if this was how a wizardring will was done, this was cruel. He heard Remus suck in a breath. Here was Sirius standing in front of him in the same form as his parents had two years ago in Priori Incantatem. Suddenly, to make this more painful, Harry assumed, the misty Sirius began to speak.
"Welcome friends, and you other unworthy people who probably laughing at my ultimate demise. I assume if you are watching this than yes, I am dead and for this I am sorry. I apologize to you, Harry and Remus for whatever idiotic thing I have done to get myself killed. Just remember that I'm probably somewhere in the next life laughing with Lily and James. I will always be here for the both of you, but on to other business. I'm sure you're all much more interested in who gets all my money. To Mad-Eye Moody and Kingsley Shaklebolt, I pass on to you all of the dark objects and dark detectors available in the Black House, and as a bonus gift, two handmade Marauder's Fake Wands." Harry's stomach was doing constant flip-flops at what he was hearing, Sirius's voice, his laughter, his humor. It was torture. Next to him Remus was leaning into his hands, which were covering his eyes taking shallow breaths. " To Nymphy Tonks, my adorable little cousin, in my room at the Black House there is crate full of Fizzing Whizbies for your enjoyment. Also 1,000 galleons to my only blood family member, who deserved any money. Oh, and Tonks, be gentle with him." Tonks, sitting at one end of the table was whipping tears from her eyes. " The wonderful Weasley's, 7,000 Galleons for six wonderful people and let's hope the other one comes around." The entire Weasley family was staring opened mouthed at the misty form of Sirius Black. " My sweet Hermione Granger. I bestow upon you complete access to the Black library and 1,000 gold galleons. Keep the boys in line for me. Ron Weasley, in the Black attic you will find an entire Chudley Cannon's Collector's line, have fun with it. Gred and Forge our successors in mischief making, in my room is a copy of the formulas for all the Marauder's inventions. Hope it's helpful." The misty Sirius paused and took a deep breath. "Remus," Remus looked up hungrily at his best friend, " Moony, my good friend. Bet your glad to be rid of me." Sirius laughed but unconvincingly. Remus just stared. " I obviously leave to you the rest of the Marauder memorabilia. You and Harry are to split the rest of the Black fortune; this includes The Noble and Ancient House of Black. I wish to keep this house for it's current use. Both you and Harry are welcome to blow up my mother and family tree." Sirius paused and seemed to look directly at Remus. " Messrs. Moony, Padfoot, and Prongs Purveyors of Aids to Magical Mischief Makers; forever, Moony, remember that." Remus continued to stare at Sirius treasuring every second to look upon his best friends face, for the last time. Sirius shifted and looked over at Harry and then dropped his gaze. "Harry, in addition to what I listed previously I also leave to you my motorbike which is in the cellar of the Black House and your Mother and Father's pensive, which will be transferred to your vault. It covers our seventh year and when Lily was pregnant with you, as well as the short time after." Sirius looked up to Harry again. " I want to tell you I'm sorry. I should have been there for you more than I was. I am honored to be your Godfather and not because of your fame. If I had my way, and I'm sure you agree, you would never have had that scar on your forehead. You are a strong person, with a good heart, and you deserve more love in your life. I have found a slight loophole in the law. So if I may continue, Harry I will always be your Godfather. But you need another one to be there now that I can't. I herby declare Remus Joseph Lupin Godfather of Harry James Potter." Both his and Remus's jaws dropped they stared in awe at the misty form of Sirius Black. "Harry, I love you." The Misty form of his beloved Godfather swirled and flew back into the silver Pensive.
***** Hi, I am so sorry it took so long, I'm sure you're all very angry with me. I beg for your mercy and reviews. I also apologize for the length of the chapter. It was the best stopping point and was crucial to the story to end the chapter there. Send those reviews so I can add the next chapter quickly. I see a fist fight in the near future.
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