Okie...I'm gonna regret doing this later, but uh...I wrote part two. It's
pretty hard to write without any direction (and no desire to give any
direction anyway =P) but hey, it's getting there. The main genre is still
going to be angst, but now I'll throw in a dash of humor and romance too.
Yeah, I know, weird combo -.-;; That last owari will have to be changed to
a TBC...but ah...whatever.
Title: Finding the Sun
Author: AznSage
Disclaimer: Don't own, don't sue.
Archived at:
-Still Time ()
-FF.net ()
Pairings: Goku+Konzen/Konzen+Goku
Rating: PG
Note: It's a Goku POV fic. This part is in Gaiden, but the events do not happen exactly as those in Gaiden because I'm not making my fic a retelling of Gaiden. There will be familiar elements, but some were taken out as well (like the hair pulled out), but they may be added later.
I was led, more like pushed, to a room nearby. Oddly enough, this hallway had seemed familiar.
"You'll be staying with Konzen Douji-sama. Kanzeon Bosatsu-sama doesn't want to risk you going anywhere where you aren't being watched, 'cause we'd be damned if we can't stop whatever trouble you're causing." The guard sneered at me in disdain, in some show of
masculine superiority, I suppose. I didn't know exactly how to respond so I stared back at him, still half-dazed from my meeting with Konzen. I could feel a goofy smile begin to make it's way out, with no means to suppress it. But I didn't care. I was happy. Happy that I had a chance to meet someone who could be my sun.
"Ch'. Fuckin' itan. One minute they're dumb, the next they're just plain stupid." He spat the words angrily at me and I had to repress the urge to knock him senseless for saying that. I may not be a god but I am most certainly not stupid or dumb. I glared back at him angrily but didn't say a word.
With a final sneer, the guard left me alone. The metal of his armor echoed in the room again and again and again, creating a rhythm from the steady beats of his steps. Hollow. The halls, devoid of any beings, allowing the echo. I shuddered at the thought of the loneliness again. But Kanzeon had seemed like a nice enough person, though, I'm sure she...or was it he?...had some ulterior motives. And Konzen...ah...my mind melted at the thought of just being in his
presence. I started to laugh uncontrollably, so hard that I couldn't even stop myself. The happiness eminating through me was unmatched by anything I had experienced before. The raw emotion that I felt scared me to the core, but I shoved that frightful feeling into a corner of
my mind, along with that strange lurking loneliness. I would feel it no more.
"What's so funny?" My head whipped around at the voice, my throat finally deciding to listen to me and stop laughing. The smile was still on my lips and my eyes shone even brighter at the sight of him.
"Konzen!" I ran up to greet him and in my rush of energy, decided to wrap my arms around the golden being. His body tensed at first under my touch and he pushed me away quickly. My heart ached from being shunned by him, but in the moment that I had looked up at him, he had
seemed genuinely sorry for doing that. Maybe it was a reflex? I hoped it was.
"Uh...That old hag told me to take care of your wounds first. She seems to think that one of your cuts have an infection on it."
I put my arms in front of me and looked at it thoroughly for the first time in days. They were stained with my own blood, from open cuts all over that I must have received from the journey into the town. The soles of my feet were cut open from my journeying as well and the dirt, mud, and mire that I had stepped through had begun to clump and collect. The clothes that were clean before were now also matted with blood that had soaked through and dried on it.
"Um...maybe just a bath is fine. The cuts will eventually heal." I tried to laugh it off but Konzen probably saw me as disgusting and filthy already anyway.
"Baka saru. The cuts would heal but if you have an infection, you'll die from it. I'll bring you to a healer after you take a bath. Come on, I told someone to draw you a bath already. The bath hall is down that way."
He pointed into the general direction of one of the wings of the building and dropped a bundle of clean clothing into my arms. "But...but...Konzen! I don't know where it is or how to get
back here! This place is too big!"
He sighed in frustration at my persistence. Frankly, it wasn't that I didn't know the place, this was in the hall that we had run into each other, that's why it looked familiar before. So if I had to, I could retrace my steps back to Konzen's room. I was definitely not going to forget where it was...how can you forget where your haven was?
"Fine, I'll take you there." Konzen looked like he was very pained to do so, but I doubted that he had anything better to do anyway. This was Tenkai, wasn't it? A place where nothingness swallows everything, including the meaning of any acts done by a single person. Or was I
wrong?
We finally reached the bath hall. That is to say we finally reached it after much swearing from Konzen at the looks that people threw at him. I assumed that by now everyone had heard that Kanzeon had given me to him, though in what context that they heard that in, I do not know. I sighed a small sigh at this. People were sure to gossip now, I was no fool about that.
The doors to the hall was flung open by Konzen and I had to gasp in awe. A large bath, or rather pool, with sakura petals floating in it was in the center of the room. Two large lion heads, one on each end of the length of the bath, spewed hot water from their mouths. There was a large white silk curtain around the bath that wasn't drawn around the fourth side, but could be, to give the bather their privacy. There were windows that lined only the top part of the walls
and were about only a foot wide, enough for the steam to billow out of the room unnoticed. The floor was a pristine white and so was the whole room. The only color in it were the two golden lion heads and the clear blue of the water in front of me.
Slowly, my muscles began to work again and I walked to the side of the bath, dropping the clean clothes there and started to rid myself of the dirty ones that I had stolen before. I was too busy to notice before but now I turned my head to see that Konzen was leaving and that small hollow feeling tingled through my body.
"Ne...Konzen..." He stopped at my call but didn't turn around to face me. "Aren't you going to keep me company?"
His body visibly tensed, then relaxed again into his usual self. "No. Bathing is not something that is done publicly. It's indecent." His icy tone saddened me. Was he not the sun? "I'll wait for you outside. Don't take too long."
"Oh...alright." I doubted he heard that tinge of disappointment in my tone and I continued to strip myself and I heard the doors click shut. Sighing, I resigned myself to the thought that Konzen was probably never going to be nice enough to truly be my sun. Trying to dissolve my sorrows, I dove into the shallow water gracefully, enjoying the feel of it surrounding me, engulfing me, purifying me. I scrubbed gently at my wounds to get out as much dirt and blood as possible out of it. Then I remembered my chains. Would they be rusted from their exposure in it? Probably not...this was, after all, the shackles of Heaven.
Finishing a quick bath, I clothed myself and stepped outside the room to meet Konzen. He looked at me and shook his head. "Don't you even know how to take a bath? You're not even completely clean! And look, your hair! It's still a complete mess!" He proved his point by
grabbing a large handful of my messy hair, or rather messy hair with a lot of dirt in it. I smiled sheepishly back at him.
"Um...oops?"
"Come on, saru." He dragged me back into the bath hall and slammed the door shut. I'm sure that if there were any gods around there, they would have probably wondered why their dear Konzen Douji-sama was going into a bath hall with his pet monkey.
He shoved me into the water and grabbed a bar of something very white sitting on the ledge of the bath. "This," he held up the bar for me to see, "is soap. You use it to wash yourself."
"Ne...Konzen..."
"WHAT?"
"I'm still wearing my clothes." He seemed to at least stop his rampage for a short while at this and acknowledged that I was still fully clothed.
"Well then, get rid of them." He coughed discreetly at this and turned around while I stepped out of the water to strip. I could swear that Konzen seemed embarassed by it but didn't comment. Must be some Tenkai thing I don't know about.
Splashing back into the water gave Konzen the cue that I had finished undressing myself and he turned back around. He looked like he had a fever or something and his gaze never wavered downward. He just stared into my eyes again and we were locked in a silent contest, the
roaring of the waters from the lion heads the only sound in the room.
Of course, I was never one to be patient and I broke the silence by playfully splashing him with water. Hey, if he calls me a monkey, I'm going to damn well act like one.
He sputtered in disbelief and glared at me for all he was worth. But he didn't really seem to mean it and just silently grabbed the soap and began to clean me. That is, only waist up.
"I'm not washing the rest of you. I'm not your servant. Tell me when you're done." He tossed the soap at me and turned around. I washed my legs carefully to avoid the cuts. I was not yet a master at wielding soap and had relished the gentle touch that Konzen had placed all
over me while cleaning me. I had never known such satisfaction that water alone could bring and sighed happily.
"Ne, Konzen, I'm done." I handed him the soap and he shifted from his previous squatting position to now sit crosslegged on the ledge.
"This," he pointed at a container, "is shampoo. It's used to wash your hair."
My eyes twinkled at the that, the edges of my mouth forming a big grin. "Will that get me hair as pretty as yours Konzen?"
"Probably not, my hair's one of a kind. But it'll at least get that dirt out of your hair. Turn around." I turned around so that my back was towards him and sat in the water. His fingers gently massaged the tresses of chocolate upon my head and relaxed me to no end. I sighed
contentedly as I had felt such calm pass over me when I closed my eyes. I would give anything to feel like this forever.
My peace was shatter when all of a sudden, Konzen pushed my head forward and shoved it into the water. My eyes snapped open frantically and I tried to push my head back up for later. But I couldn't, his hand was forcing me to stay stil while the other was still running through my hair. Eventually, his grip loosened and I popped out of the water.
"What was that for?!" I glared at him as angrily as I could, hopefully also convincingly. There was no way I was actually going to be mad at him.
"The shampoo needs to be washed out, so you use water." He stood up and crossed his arms, adding in a commanding voice. "Now come on, get dressed and we'll go see the healer."
I jumped out of the water, making sure to splash Konzen as well. He seemed to dislike getting wet. "Fine! I'll be quick!" I smirked when my hair whipped out at him and shook even more water on him.
Konzen didn't say a word in reply, but got that red tinge on his face again, then left hurriedly. Maybe I should make a note to the healer that Konzen has a fever of some sort that pops out every so often.
-TBC-
Well, comments are appreciated ^^ I wonder when Goku will find out what blushing is...*makes note to self* I don't know, but when writing this, this part seemed...longer...heheh...^^;;
Title: Finding the Sun
Author: AznSage
Disclaimer: Don't own, don't sue.
Archived at:
-Still Time ()
-FF.net ()
Pairings: Goku+Konzen/Konzen+Goku
Rating: PG
Note: It's a Goku POV fic. This part is in Gaiden, but the events do not happen exactly as those in Gaiden because I'm not making my fic a retelling of Gaiden. There will be familiar elements, but some were taken out as well (like the hair pulled out), but they may be added later.
I was led, more like pushed, to a room nearby. Oddly enough, this hallway had seemed familiar.
"You'll be staying with Konzen Douji-sama. Kanzeon Bosatsu-sama doesn't want to risk you going anywhere where you aren't being watched, 'cause we'd be damned if we can't stop whatever trouble you're causing." The guard sneered at me in disdain, in some show of
masculine superiority, I suppose. I didn't know exactly how to respond so I stared back at him, still half-dazed from my meeting with Konzen. I could feel a goofy smile begin to make it's way out, with no means to suppress it. But I didn't care. I was happy. Happy that I had a chance to meet someone who could be my sun.
"Ch'. Fuckin' itan. One minute they're dumb, the next they're just plain stupid." He spat the words angrily at me and I had to repress the urge to knock him senseless for saying that. I may not be a god but I am most certainly not stupid or dumb. I glared back at him angrily but didn't say a word.
With a final sneer, the guard left me alone. The metal of his armor echoed in the room again and again and again, creating a rhythm from the steady beats of his steps. Hollow. The halls, devoid of any beings, allowing the echo. I shuddered at the thought of the loneliness again. But Kanzeon had seemed like a nice enough person, though, I'm sure she...or was it he?...had some ulterior motives. And Konzen...ah...my mind melted at the thought of just being in his
presence. I started to laugh uncontrollably, so hard that I couldn't even stop myself. The happiness eminating through me was unmatched by anything I had experienced before. The raw emotion that I felt scared me to the core, but I shoved that frightful feeling into a corner of
my mind, along with that strange lurking loneliness. I would feel it no more.
"What's so funny?" My head whipped around at the voice, my throat finally deciding to listen to me and stop laughing. The smile was still on my lips and my eyes shone even brighter at the sight of him.
"Konzen!" I ran up to greet him and in my rush of energy, decided to wrap my arms around the golden being. His body tensed at first under my touch and he pushed me away quickly. My heart ached from being shunned by him, but in the moment that I had looked up at him, he had
seemed genuinely sorry for doing that. Maybe it was a reflex? I hoped it was.
"Uh...That old hag told me to take care of your wounds first. She seems to think that one of your cuts have an infection on it."
I put my arms in front of me and looked at it thoroughly for the first time in days. They were stained with my own blood, from open cuts all over that I must have received from the journey into the town. The soles of my feet were cut open from my journeying as well and the dirt, mud, and mire that I had stepped through had begun to clump and collect. The clothes that were clean before were now also matted with blood that had soaked through and dried on it.
"Um...maybe just a bath is fine. The cuts will eventually heal." I tried to laugh it off but Konzen probably saw me as disgusting and filthy already anyway.
"Baka saru. The cuts would heal but if you have an infection, you'll die from it. I'll bring you to a healer after you take a bath. Come on, I told someone to draw you a bath already. The bath hall is down that way."
He pointed into the general direction of one of the wings of the building and dropped a bundle of clean clothing into my arms. "But...but...Konzen! I don't know where it is or how to get
back here! This place is too big!"
He sighed in frustration at my persistence. Frankly, it wasn't that I didn't know the place, this was in the hall that we had run into each other, that's why it looked familiar before. So if I had to, I could retrace my steps back to Konzen's room. I was definitely not going to forget where it was...how can you forget where your haven was?
"Fine, I'll take you there." Konzen looked like he was very pained to do so, but I doubted that he had anything better to do anyway. This was Tenkai, wasn't it? A place where nothingness swallows everything, including the meaning of any acts done by a single person. Or was I
wrong?
We finally reached the bath hall. That is to say we finally reached it after much swearing from Konzen at the looks that people threw at him. I assumed that by now everyone had heard that Kanzeon had given me to him, though in what context that they heard that in, I do not know. I sighed a small sigh at this. People were sure to gossip now, I was no fool about that.
The doors to the hall was flung open by Konzen and I had to gasp in awe. A large bath, or rather pool, with sakura petals floating in it was in the center of the room. Two large lion heads, one on each end of the length of the bath, spewed hot water from their mouths. There was a large white silk curtain around the bath that wasn't drawn around the fourth side, but could be, to give the bather their privacy. There were windows that lined only the top part of the walls
and were about only a foot wide, enough for the steam to billow out of the room unnoticed. The floor was a pristine white and so was the whole room. The only color in it were the two golden lion heads and the clear blue of the water in front of me.
Slowly, my muscles began to work again and I walked to the side of the bath, dropping the clean clothes there and started to rid myself of the dirty ones that I had stolen before. I was too busy to notice before but now I turned my head to see that Konzen was leaving and that small hollow feeling tingled through my body.
"Ne...Konzen..." He stopped at my call but didn't turn around to face me. "Aren't you going to keep me company?"
His body visibly tensed, then relaxed again into his usual self. "No. Bathing is not something that is done publicly. It's indecent." His icy tone saddened me. Was he not the sun? "I'll wait for you outside. Don't take too long."
"Oh...alright." I doubted he heard that tinge of disappointment in my tone and I continued to strip myself and I heard the doors click shut. Sighing, I resigned myself to the thought that Konzen was probably never going to be nice enough to truly be my sun. Trying to dissolve my sorrows, I dove into the shallow water gracefully, enjoying the feel of it surrounding me, engulfing me, purifying me. I scrubbed gently at my wounds to get out as much dirt and blood as possible out of it. Then I remembered my chains. Would they be rusted from their exposure in it? Probably not...this was, after all, the shackles of Heaven.
Finishing a quick bath, I clothed myself and stepped outside the room to meet Konzen. He looked at me and shook his head. "Don't you even know how to take a bath? You're not even completely clean! And look, your hair! It's still a complete mess!" He proved his point by
grabbing a large handful of my messy hair, or rather messy hair with a lot of dirt in it. I smiled sheepishly back at him.
"Um...oops?"
"Come on, saru." He dragged me back into the bath hall and slammed the door shut. I'm sure that if there were any gods around there, they would have probably wondered why their dear Konzen Douji-sama was going into a bath hall with his pet monkey.
He shoved me into the water and grabbed a bar of something very white sitting on the ledge of the bath. "This," he held up the bar for me to see, "is soap. You use it to wash yourself."
"Ne...Konzen..."
"WHAT?"
"I'm still wearing my clothes." He seemed to at least stop his rampage for a short while at this and acknowledged that I was still fully clothed.
"Well then, get rid of them." He coughed discreetly at this and turned around while I stepped out of the water to strip. I could swear that Konzen seemed embarassed by it but didn't comment. Must be some Tenkai thing I don't know about.
Splashing back into the water gave Konzen the cue that I had finished undressing myself and he turned back around. He looked like he had a fever or something and his gaze never wavered downward. He just stared into my eyes again and we were locked in a silent contest, the
roaring of the waters from the lion heads the only sound in the room.
Of course, I was never one to be patient and I broke the silence by playfully splashing him with water. Hey, if he calls me a monkey, I'm going to damn well act like one.
He sputtered in disbelief and glared at me for all he was worth. But he didn't really seem to mean it and just silently grabbed the soap and began to clean me. That is, only waist up.
"I'm not washing the rest of you. I'm not your servant. Tell me when you're done." He tossed the soap at me and turned around. I washed my legs carefully to avoid the cuts. I was not yet a master at wielding soap and had relished the gentle touch that Konzen had placed all
over me while cleaning me. I had never known such satisfaction that water alone could bring and sighed happily.
"Ne, Konzen, I'm done." I handed him the soap and he shifted from his previous squatting position to now sit crosslegged on the ledge.
"This," he pointed at a container, "is shampoo. It's used to wash your hair."
My eyes twinkled at the that, the edges of my mouth forming a big grin. "Will that get me hair as pretty as yours Konzen?"
"Probably not, my hair's one of a kind. But it'll at least get that dirt out of your hair. Turn around." I turned around so that my back was towards him and sat in the water. His fingers gently massaged the tresses of chocolate upon my head and relaxed me to no end. I sighed
contentedly as I had felt such calm pass over me when I closed my eyes. I would give anything to feel like this forever.
My peace was shatter when all of a sudden, Konzen pushed my head forward and shoved it into the water. My eyes snapped open frantically and I tried to push my head back up for later. But I couldn't, his hand was forcing me to stay stil while the other was still running through my hair. Eventually, his grip loosened and I popped out of the water.
"What was that for?!" I glared at him as angrily as I could, hopefully also convincingly. There was no way I was actually going to be mad at him.
"The shampoo needs to be washed out, so you use water." He stood up and crossed his arms, adding in a commanding voice. "Now come on, get dressed and we'll go see the healer."
I jumped out of the water, making sure to splash Konzen as well. He seemed to dislike getting wet. "Fine! I'll be quick!" I smirked when my hair whipped out at him and shook even more water on him.
Konzen didn't say a word in reply, but got that red tinge on his face again, then left hurriedly. Maybe I should make a note to the healer that Konzen has a fever of some sort that pops out every so often.
-TBC-
Well, comments are appreciated ^^ I wonder when Goku will find out what blushing is...*makes note to self* I don't know, but when writing this, this part seemed...longer...heheh...^^;;