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Severus stood at the back of the crowd. In the front was an empty coffin. No one knew he was here, except Remus. The werewolf's eyes were full of pain. They invited Severus to come up and stand beside him where he belonged. Severus hesitated and considered leaving, but then he did. Gasps were heard and Potter and company sounded as if they wished him harm, but even they couldn't stop him from being at his husband's funeral.

Remus looked at Severus, his heart filled with sorrow. He knew somewhat how Severus felt, but not exactly.

Flashback

"Who do you think you are? I am better than you'll ever be!"

"Please Peter! I love you!" Remus pleaded with tears in his eyes. "Please!"

"No! I don't care what you feel! My master would be greatly displeased," Peter answered.

"No!" The walls of the Shrieking Shack closed in on him. Remus heard Peter mutter a spell under his breath. Remus's world went black. From above in the darkness he heard someone whisper, "I love you Remus. Don't ever forget that."

End of Flashback

Harry was in outrage. How dare that man come to Sirius's funeral, how dare he? But then Harry noticed something shocking, Snape was crying! No, he was sobbing, his entire body shaking through what appeared to be grief. Stranger still, Remus was comforting him! Dumbledore got up and began the service.

"We are here to mourn the loss of a great man, Sirius Orion Black-Snape." You could have heard a pin drop.

Black-Snape? Harry looked wildly around, suddenly panicked. What had Snape done? Sirius, as far as Harry knew hated Snape. Always looking for something to boost his popularity Harry made up his mind to find out what was going on.

"What the hell do you mean Black-Snape?" Harry asked, all eyes were on him.

"If we were in school, Mr. Potter," Snape said, getting himself more under control. "I would have to take points off from Gryffindor for sheer stupidity. I would think that the last name would be a dead give away that Sirius and I were married.

"M-married?" Harry squeaked. "You hated each other!"

"Hate is a very strange thing, Mr. Potter," Severus said, attempting to sneer but failing.

"What do you mean? Hate is simple! You hate someone, you avoid them and plague them!" Harry was angry, and he wanted to know what was going on between Snape and his godfather.

"That's what I thought, too," A strange look crossed over Snape's face.

"Mr. Potter, have you ever heard of anorexia?" Harry visibly stiffened.

"Are you trying to tell me Sirius was- was," Harry couldn't say it. Snape shook his head.

"No, I'm the one with the problem."

"Why do I care?" Harry asked coldly.

"You wanted to know what happened between Sirius and I and my disease is a key part in it."

Snape took a deep breath and said, "Mr. Potter, while Sirius would agree you deserve to know almost everything, now is not the time nor the place. Speak to me afterwards and I'll see what I can tell you." Snape turned back to look at Dumbledore who nodded and continued.

"Sirius was a strong man in life and he shall be a strong man in death where he shall be welcomed into heaven with open arms-" Harry listened but he was still troubled. He wanted to know what was going on. He couldn't wait for this funeral to be over. Not only was it his godfather's funeral but there was something wrong with Snape too.

"Please, as you go, remember Sirius as the kind man who he was, and all of his good traits," Dumbledore finished. Glad that the service was over, but unhappy because of the absence of Sirius, Harry went outside to wait for Snape.

"It'll be all right, Severus," Lupin said. Snape's eyes flickered briefly to Lupin, filled with gratitude before he swept off. His cloak, however, didn't quite have its normal billowing.

"Explain," Harry said the second Snape was beside him.

"Walk with me," Snape replied. "I don't want anyone else to overhear, not yet." Harry agreed, wanting to hear the story before anyone else.

"You know I am a spy," Snape began.

"How did you know that?" Harry asked temporarily amazed.

"I'm a spy, noticing things is what I do," Snape said dryly. "Anyway, as you know the dark lord is not kind to anyone and about a year ago, right when I returned, He decided to test my loyalty."

"He tortured you," Harry said, understanding. Snape nodded.

"I was badly hurt and Lupin's flat was the closest place. When I arrived I was horrified to find that out of all the people that could be there, it was Black."

"What happened?" Harry asked, not paying attention to where he was walking. Hr tripped on a piece of stray stone. By reflex, or perhaps for some other reason, Snape reached out and caught him by the hand.

"Continue," Harry said coldly, trying to hide the curiosity and pain in his voice.

"Black, if anything, was worse than Voldemort's torture. I won't go into details, as some of them may be…inappropriate, for a child such as you," Snape tried to add in some of his usual sarcasm and sneer but failed miserably.

"Tell me," Harry said intently. "I don't care how bad it is, after experiencing I suppose what I said came out wrong to you, you see, Sirius was nice, sickeningly so to me."

"What?" Harry gasped.

Flashback

"Snape?" Sirius asked. The bloodied figure gave a moan in reply. Sirius knelt down to get a better look.

"Holy shit…" How could anyone be so cruel to his followers? Sirius wondered. Gently, Sirius lifted up Severus' broken form. He's far too light, Sirius realized. Carefully, Sirius entered the house, trying not to move or hit any of Severus's broken bones as it was obvious his arm was broke in at least two places and Sirius had no doubt that most, if not all, of his ribs were broken as well. He lay him down on the couch in the flat with no regard for the damage Severus's blood would cause to the couch. Remus wouldn't mind, especially when he found out whose blood it was.

In truth, Sirius had been dreaming of this day for several years now, ever since he had first laid eyes on Snape. As a young student at Hogwarts it had been hard to conceal his fascination with the Slytherin. James had been the first to figure it out and ever since then, he and Lupin were able to get together and try to fix them up.

Sirius's Dream (About Severus)

Severus stood in a corner while everyone else passed him by. Sirius tried to get to him but the crowd kept holding him back.

"Severus!" Sirius cried. Severus turned to look, his eyes hollow and sad.

"Don't," came the silky voice. " I don't want to be saved." Sirius tried harder to get to him but Severus turned and disappeared.

End Dream

Sirius shot up and immediately sensed something wrong. Severus, he thought immediately. He ran over to where he had laid Severus once his wounds had been tended to as best Sirius could but found him gone. Fear gripped his heart as he rushed to the door. Just outside he found Severus trying to leave.

"Are you trying to kill yourself?" Sirius asked furiously. "You're in no condition to go anywhere!"

"Black," Snape tried to sneer, but it came more out as a grimace of pain. "You don't want me here and I have to say Lucius Malfoy would take better care of me and he's a death eater through and through." That stung Sirius but he tried not to show it.

"Fine, then stay here tonight and go to him for treatment tomorrow," Sirius said in what he hoped was a convincing tone of voice. And Snape ended up staying the night but Sirius had a feeling that it had more to do with Severus passing out right then more than anything else did. But it worked for him.

End Flashback

"Sirius wouldn't, he couldn't, he didn't," Harry stammered.

"Why not?" Snape asked with a raised eyebrow.

"Because," Harry said lamely. Snape snorted.

"How clever, Mr. Potter, but do you wish me to continue or would you prefer to have some mindless chatter. Because if you do, then I'm sure your little friends could help you with that."

"No, please continue," Harry said hurriedly.

"Very well…

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