Back in his office at Hogwarts, Remus Lupin sighed. That was the last time
he had ever seen Kat Lawson. The next day, she failed to turn up for the
train back and when Dumbledore went looking for her, he returned with a
funny look on his face. It wasn't until three weeks into the summer that
Remus learned from a tearful Lily that Kat had gone and joined Voldemort's
side.
"I don't know why," Lily sobbed to him. "I really don't know why; I'll never understand it. She loved you so much!"
He hoped and prayed for many years that she would return. He wrote letter after letter to her, but could never find the courage to send them. They lay scattered on his desk at this moment and he began ripping them up slowly and tossing them into the fire. It was no use; she was gone for good.
When Remus came upon Sirius Black the previous night, Sirius carried with him the news that the Death Eaters had brought in twelve years ago upon capture. Kat Lawson had been killed by Voldemort himself, for reasons unknown to his followers. The only thing they found in Kat's possession in her chambers was a letter addressed to Remus Lupin. Unable to find him, Ministry officials tucked the letter away until they heard news that Remus was teaching at Hogwarts. Someone had brought the letter to him this morning, with deepest apologies.
Seeing his old friend had brought back so many memories and Remus was drawn to his letters today. One after the other, he threw them in the fire, watching the Marauder's Map for any intruders. The label that read 'Harry Potter' was walking up towards his office. Continuing to shred each letter several times, he threw them into the fire. "Hello Harry," he greeted, turning around to see Harry enter his office. "I saw you coming."
To say that Remus Lupin threw out every letter connected to Kat in any way would be a lie. There was one letter that had been found by the Ministry of Magic after Kat's demise and it had Remus' name on it. He carried it in his pocket as he left Hogwarts and boarded the train back to London. Almost half way there, his curiosity got the better of him and he ripped open the envelope and began to read:
Dearest Remus,
It's been far too long since your touch, your smile, your voice. I fear some days that I might not recognize you if I ever saw you again, but then your face pops into my head like a ray of sunshine on a dreary day and I cannot help the immense guilt that fills my soul. It is a battle that I fight daily and have since I saw you last.
There is no explanation for what I have done. I was weak and the Dark Lord preys on that. He offers comforts of the utmost respect and promised me a long and prosperous life if I joined him—not as a Death Eater—but joined him at his side for all eternity. At first it was glorious; spending day after day being spoiled, pampered and waited on. If that was what life was like for the Dark Lord's mistress, I can only imagine his own lifestyle. Yet I grew weary and began to long for the days when we would gather together in the common room or outside under the trees and talk for hours on end. You were always so wonderful to talk to; so easygoing and so good natured.
Nothing escapes the Dark Lord and when I revealed to him my desire to reunite with you and our old friends, he became angry with me and banished me to the highest room in his house. Luckily, I have befriended someone who, unwillingly, has agreed to have this letter delivered to you. I couldn't go without saying goodbye to you.
Remus, my dearest friend, be warned: time draws nearer and more may be lost than expected. Give my deepest love to Lily, James and Sirius but beware of those who do not fit in with the scheme. He will cast the downfall.
I couldn't rest in my grave without telling you that I love you. I will not ask for your forgiveness, nor will I ask for your sympathy. I ask merely for the love and understanding I know you are capable of possessing. Please show some compassion for the girl you once loved so long ago.
I don't know when this will reach you, if it will reach you at all, but I hope that it finds you well. Please don't hate me for being weak; sometimes I feared it was the only thing I knew.
Do take care of yourself,
With love, always and forever, Kat
"I don't know why," Lily sobbed to him. "I really don't know why; I'll never understand it. She loved you so much!"
He hoped and prayed for many years that she would return. He wrote letter after letter to her, but could never find the courage to send them. They lay scattered on his desk at this moment and he began ripping them up slowly and tossing them into the fire. It was no use; she was gone for good.
When Remus came upon Sirius Black the previous night, Sirius carried with him the news that the Death Eaters had brought in twelve years ago upon capture. Kat Lawson had been killed by Voldemort himself, for reasons unknown to his followers. The only thing they found in Kat's possession in her chambers was a letter addressed to Remus Lupin. Unable to find him, Ministry officials tucked the letter away until they heard news that Remus was teaching at Hogwarts. Someone had brought the letter to him this morning, with deepest apologies.
Seeing his old friend had brought back so many memories and Remus was drawn to his letters today. One after the other, he threw them in the fire, watching the Marauder's Map for any intruders. The label that read 'Harry Potter' was walking up towards his office. Continuing to shred each letter several times, he threw them into the fire. "Hello Harry," he greeted, turning around to see Harry enter his office. "I saw you coming."
To say that Remus Lupin threw out every letter connected to Kat in any way would be a lie. There was one letter that had been found by the Ministry of Magic after Kat's demise and it had Remus' name on it. He carried it in his pocket as he left Hogwarts and boarded the train back to London. Almost half way there, his curiosity got the better of him and he ripped open the envelope and began to read:
Dearest Remus,
It's been far too long since your touch, your smile, your voice. I fear some days that I might not recognize you if I ever saw you again, but then your face pops into my head like a ray of sunshine on a dreary day and I cannot help the immense guilt that fills my soul. It is a battle that I fight daily and have since I saw you last.
There is no explanation for what I have done. I was weak and the Dark Lord preys on that. He offers comforts of the utmost respect and promised me a long and prosperous life if I joined him—not as a Death Eater—but joined him at his side for all eternity. At first it was glorious; spending day after day being spoiled, pampered and waited on. If that was what life was like for the Dark Lord's mistress, I can only imagine his own lifestyle. Yet I grew weary and began to long for the days when we would gather together in the common room or outside under the trees and talk for hours on end. You were always so wonderful to talk to; so easygoing and so good natured.
Nothing escapes the Dark Lord and when I revealed to him my desire to reunite with you and our old friends, he became angry with me and banished me to the highest room in his house. Luckily, I have befriended someone who, unwillingly, has agreed to have this letter delivered to you. I couldn't go without saying goodbye to you.
Remus, my dearest friend, be warned: time draws nearer and more may be lost than expected. Give my deepest love to Lily, James and Sirius but beware of those who do not fit in with the scheme. He will cast the downfall.
I couldn't rest in my grave without telling you that I love you. I will not ask for your forgiveness, nor will I ask for your sympathy. I ask merely for the love and understanding I know you are capable of possessing. Please show some compassion for the girl you once loved so long ago.
I don't know when this will reach you, if it will reach you at all, but I hope that it finds you well. Please don't hate me for being weak; sometimes I feared it was the only thing I knew.
Do take care of yourself,
With love, always and forever, Kat