Chapter Thirteen: Abandon
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"No one's ever listening. The lines are crossed somewhere between, my head is spinning like a top, I don't know when this shit is going to stop. They always act so dirty, they keep there selves real. Why can't they find the answer to, the questions that are right in front of me?"
Out of my Head Puddle of Mudd
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During the next few days, Kagome went into chaos again.
After the encounter with her mom, she got dead drunk and OD'd on aspirin and pain pills. Inuyasha was terrified when he walked into the bathroom and found her passed out on the floor with a bottle of wine in one hand and some pills splattered on the floor.
She had to get her stomach pumped and spend a night in the hospital. Inuyasha had later asked her if she was trying to kill herself, but she had told him; "No, I simply wanted the pain to go away."
It was now Saturday. Kagome had decided that she would go over to Sango's house well Inuyasha and Sesshoumaru visited their respective mother's graves. Kagome had not told Sango about her night in the hospital, but she guessed that was for the best.
When she got to Sango's house, though, Kagome knew something was wrong almost right away.
Sango had been sitting on the couch in a black hoodie and jeans, (Which is murder to people who live in the musty climate of Hawaii, believe me!) and she was smoking cigarettes like a horse drinks water. (Bad metaphor, I know. I couldn't think of anything, really! Better stop with these damn little author blurbs now...I know they get annoying)
Kagome walked in and said a little 'hi.' Sango seemed to be shaking.
"Are you ok?" She asked, almost afraid to know the answer.
Sango looked at her, and attempted a smile. "Hey Kag! Um, do you wanna go get Henya and get really, really wasted!? I have a good 100$ we could spend! That could get us some Ecstacy or some Crack, ya know!!" Sango said in an overly-cheerful tone.
Kagome looked at her just before she sat down on the couch next to Sango and looked over at her with a small smile. From up close, Kagome could see Sango was sweating slightly, and twiddling her fingers.
"You know I quite drugs, Sango. I really can't." Kagome replied.
Sango suddenly looked very angry. Her pink-mascara eyes narrowed, and she glowered at Kagome. "You know you changed Kagome!!" She practically snarled. "And change isn't always good! You've become some sort of pussy- bitch now! Kagura was right in saying that you're not really the school's princess anymore!!"
"Oh yah!" Kagome looked at her, a little anger residing, "Well I'm not the one who's fucking pregnant mom-to-be and still smoking weed, drinking booze, and getting wasted every night!" Kagome knew that was a low-blow, and she regretted it the moment it came out of her mouth.
The room became silent for a moment, and Kagome saw Sango go really pale. She stared at Kagome for a couple seconds, and then burst into tears. Latching on to Kagome for dear life, she sobbed loudly.
Kagome was needless to say, shocked.
She had only see Sango cry 2 times in her entire life. One was when they were 4 and Sango's old surf board was smashed by some cocky surfer kids, and the other time was the day after Kohaku had committed suicide. She had not even cried when her father died, or when her ex-boyfriend of like 8 years had broken up with her. Sango never cried.
Kagome pulled her arms around her and let her sob for a little while. When she was finally calmed down a little, Sango whispered something incoherent. Kagome asked her to say it again, and what she told Kagome made her heart sink.
"He left." She had whispered. Kagome sat, a little stunned.
"What?"
"He left me!" Sango suddenly cried out again, new tears pouring down her cheeks. Sango curled herself into a ball in Kagome's arms and sobbed. Though Kagome was not very shocked that he left, she felt a great amount of sympathy for her beloved friend.
"He told me..." Sango gasped, chocking on her own breath, "That I had to take care of our child alone! What am I going to do Kag? I can't raise this kid on my own!"
Kagome wrapped her arms around Sango and whispered soothing comments. "It'll be alright... I promise. You won't have to raise it alone... Inuyasha and I are both here for you, San-Chan... I care about you so much, and we could never abandon you." Kagome told her, protectiveness and a bit of hatred going out to Miroku. Then a though went though her.
"Sango, have you told your parents you're pregnant yet?" She asked a little more softly. Sango shook her head no, than sniffed.
"I'm too afraid."
"Honey, you better them soon. You know it's going to start to show in about 1 more month..." Kagome told her smiling softly. Rubbing her back in small circles. Kagome looked over at the wind chime Sango kept in the corner of her room. She had never really looked around and truly saw what it looked like until now.
A large wooden room, a big window. A old TV with a ratty couch... That wind chime was the only thing elegant or expensive. Kohaku had bought it for her birthday, the year before he died. It was one of those blue, purple, and aqua glass one's with a small star in the center. On one of the glass pieces there was a small crack. From when Sango had accidentally dropped it. Kagome herself had glued it back together.
Sango's voice broke her thoughts of the wind chime.
"Should I get an abortion?" Sango asked, looking at Kagome.
Kagome felt her heart pull again. Sango was always such a strong and independent person. She always seemed to know just what to do at each specific time. When they were younger, Sango was always the team captains in gym, picking all of the worst athletes in the class. Somehow though, they would win anyway. The girl in front of her couldn't be her best friend. She now looked so lost, so afraid. Her soft blue eyes were broken looking, darting around at anything.
She looked so... abandoned.
"That's not my choice to make." Kagome told her, again in a soft voice. "Do what's in your heart."
Sango stared at Kagome for a little bit, as if trying to figure out what her dear Kagome meant. She then put her hand over her right breast and gave her dear friend a forced smile.
"My heart..."
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Next Chapter: Princess