My Bloody Princess

Chapter Fourteen: Princess

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"They Say the darkest hour is right before dawn, they say the darkest hour is right before dawn, but you wouldnt know it by me, every day's been darkness since you been gone."

Meet Me in the Morning Bob Dylan

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Kagome curled herself into the embrace Inuyasha gave her after she told him how Miroku had finally abandoned Sango. She had cried gently, and he had held her, a bit happy at the excuse TO hold her.

They were still lying on the couch, and Kagome felt utterly numb inside. She felt as if someone had twisted out her heart from her body and now it lay dead as everyone laughed at it and it curled up into a little ball, crying from the complete humiliation. ( Oo; I guess that's how I think!)

Her fingers played with his silver hair and she felt his arms curl around her waste. He was now nuzzling his nose by her ear and sighing. She could almost feel the worry that his aura possessed. It was radiating in how stiff his arms and body was.

"Are you ok, Kag? What's wrong?" He asked, knowing it would be a dumb question, but one that he really needed answered. Kagome smiled lightly, and twisted a little in his arms so she could see his face and give him a meek smile.

"Nothing is wrong, Yasha. I guess that I'm just under a lot of stress from all the fucking shit that has gone down lately. It just gets a little too much for me sometimes. I'm really alright though." She told him, but he could tell from tone and look in her eyes that she didn't mean the last part. She really wasn't alright.

He then thought of a great Idea. "Hey Kag, why don't we have Sesshoumaru buy us some air-plain tickets and have us three all go to Lanai for the weekend? We could go see the gardens there, and tour the pineapple groves... Just have some good ol' R&R. How does that sound?"

Kagome giggled slightly. His tone really did sound exited.

"That sounds like a great Idea." She told him, and then pulled herself from his grasp. He looked a little disappointed that she was leaving him, but let her go anyway.

She tried again to smile, "I'm going to take a shower, ok?"

He nodded, and looked into her eyes for a moment before she walked off. Absentmindedly, he grabbed a magazine on the coffee table and leaned back into the couch. He read the cover of it and raised an eyebrow. It was a 'Cosmo-Girl.' Obviously Kagome had been leaving her things around the house again.

"'Mary-Kate goes to facility for eating disorder.'" He read aloud. Then in mock criticism, and a bit of sarcasm,

"Oh my! Whatever will happen to out dumb bimbo of an Olsen twin?? What will poor Ashley do in the big-bad world all alone?!"

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Kagome walked slowly into the kitchen, and heard Inuyasha talking to himself. Trying to smile she stood by the counter for a moment and stared at Sesshoumaru's quality knife rack.

Sesshoumaru happened to be a food-freak, and when he found that Kagome was not a half-bad cook, he went out and bought some actual cooking supplies, and a few cook books. He was rewarded with a lot of good meals.

Kagome's gaze darkened as she remembered how completely rude she had been in front of him when her mother had came over and tried to force her to come back home. Kagome picked up a knife from the large collection and stared at her reflection on the smooth and sharp surface.

":: YOU MADE HIM LEAVE!!::"

She gently brought her pointer finger up and down the side up the knife, and felt a familiar sting as she jabbed herself. Blood trickled out of her finger in crimson beads, and Kagome put her finger into her mouth, letting her saliva wash away the blood.

":: You know very well what good people do behind closed door, mother!"

":: Why Grandpa?! Why did you leave me?!::"

":: You fucking dirty slut! I hope whoever gave you those scars gave you what you deserve!!::"

":: Change is not always a good thing, Kagome!::"

":: He gave me what I deserved...::"

Taking the knife she slowly padded her way over to the bathroom. She closed the door and pressed the lock on it, feeling a strange relief after she heard it go 'click.' Like she finally had security. 'Security?' Her mind wondered silently, 'Security from what? Inuyasha? I guess he would be sickened by the prospect the some bitch actually gets a kick out of watching herself bleed, huh.' Her mind told her as she set the knife down and dropped the clothes she had been wearing onto the floor.

She turned on the shower and put her hand out; making sure it was nice and cold. Cold water always seemed to heighten her senses, so maybe when she cut in cold water she could feel it more...

'How could things have gotten this bad?' Kagome wondered as she dug the knife into her flesh. She felt the familiar sharp sting, but wasn't relieved. She slowly dug more and more indents upon her skin, and watched in a sickening delight as the blood pooled for a second, and then was washed away from the bitterly cold water.

Kagome suddenly felt sick. Her knee's collapsed and she dropped into the bottom of the tub. Staring at the cream colors of the tub itself, she thought about many things. Things, people, and places flashed, but her eyes didn't focus on any of them.

Grabbing the knife she cut herself again, and again. She closed her eyes.

Everything suddenly went completely dark, and she could no longer feel the freezing water, or the blood seeping from her many wounds... After sitting in darkness for what felt like an eternity, Kagome finally opened her eyes.

She felt warm, and enlightened. Almost as if someone had taken all of her many burdens away, and replaced them with a life of happy times and innocent bliss.

Kagome looked around and saw the beautiful wooden room that her Grandfather used to take her in to tell her stories. The room where the sun is reflecting off everything, giving it a warm and inviting glow of life.

Tears formed in her eyes as she saw him, alive and renewed, sitting right in front of her. His gray hair held a few black strands like they always did, and his old face was creased and wrinkled, but held a happy gaze as he stared at the child in his lap.

Kagome looked down, and in a moment of shock, realized the child was her. She had small butterfly clips holding back her already long hair, and a childish outfit on. A tear ran down her cheek, and she was suddenly aware that she was no longer naked.

She was wearing a white dress, with many light layers, that would ricochet of the slightest breath of air. A soft hue of pink was held around her waste, and it flowed to the floor.

"Once upon a time, There was an enchanting princess."

She heard her grandfather's voice say. Looking up in shock, she watched him smile and nuzzled the little her. He was telling his fairy tale... This was the last time she had ever seen him alive...

She was reliving two days before the life was taken only person in her family had mattered to her. Trying not to focus on that, she listened to his story, though already memorized in her mind.

"The princess was in love you see. In love with a dazzling prince who had defeated many dragons, And was highly respected. But there was a problem."

He said, making the little Kagome look up at him is dead-anticipation. "A problem!" She whispered, her little hands coming up before her mouth.

"This prince did not love the princess back. He, instead, had chosen the princess's sister for his own. This hurt the princess, but she had never given up on her love, And even on the wedding day of her beloved prince and her sister, She smiled for him.

And stayed by his side.

This prince had always been so kind to her you see, And though he did not return her feelings, He had promised to her, on his wedding day, that they could always be friends. But his words had stung our poor princess, And she had cried for a very long time. The prince and her sister wed, and they lived happily ever after, But the princess ended up very alone and sad. So, one day the princess went to the cliff where she and the prince had first met, And-"

Kagome felt more tears sting her eyes as she heard the ominous door slam. The little Kagome had looked over her Grandpa's shoulder, and had waved to the handsome figure standing in the doorway.

"Daddy!!" She screamed, getting off her Grandpa's lap and running, full speed, at her the figure of Saru Higurashi. Saru picked his daughter up and smiled. He twirled her around and around as her Grandpa laughed. He had always had such a wonderful laugh.

"Hey my little princess!! I love you!!" Her dad called...

Kagome closed her eyes. She felt cold again, and when she opened them, only darkness greeted her. She was again alone, and naked, bleeding in the confines of her past. The fairy tale her Grandpa told her played over and over in her head. Kagome cried out, and screamed. Closing her eyes again, Kagome tried to make the darkness go away.

"Now I understand why Grandpa never got around to telling me the ending to that story." She muttered to herself, and felt her fists clench.

"It's because the princess dies. She jumps of the cliff where she first met the prince, thus becoming the bloody fucking princess, her remains lying scattered on the rocks below. She dies alone, sad and in so much pain... that's also why my father called me his princess... because he knew I would die alone."

It was so cold...

And Kagome was dimly aware of Inuyasha's voice in the back-round, pounding on the bathroom door and screaming for her to let him in. Then the sound of breaking wood and Inuyasha crying out her name.

"He knew I would die alone."

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Next Chapter: Miscarriage