Hey guys, here be chappy 8. hope ya like it cuz that's how its gunna be.
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Alrighty first off, I've had it brought to my attention that some people
may be confused about m story. I've had two questions asked.
1) Why aren't Lily and James a big part of the story?
2)Why are Remus and Sirius slashed?
My answers:
1) Because this fic is mostly about Remus and Sirius, and Lily and James would just be useless filler if I made them any bigger than what they are now. I mean, don't get me wrong, they ARE going to be in my fic, they're just not going to be main characters. ^__^
2) ::sighs:: They are gay because that's how I want this fic to go. If I can't have them, then they chould have each other. lol. No, really it's because of this piccy my friend showed me (see my bio) that's of them kissing. it got me thinking, and I was all like, Dude, imagine how Remus must feel having to watch his love be killed, and not being able to really grieve openly about it. It was perfect! - ^_____^-
So, I hope that clears any confusion up!
Disclaimer: Don't own Harry Potter...Just Remus and Sirius...*evil giggle* *drool*
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~Chapter *~
~Sirius' Journal~ ~April 24, 1990~
{Prongs and Lily got married today.I'm so happy for them. Prongs looked odd, all dressed up in a tuxedo and tie. Lily, of course, looked stunning. Remus...well, lets just say he wasn't in his clothes very long after the wedding that it doesn't really matter what his tux looked like...}
"Padfoot," James said nervously as Sirius straightened his tie for the umpteenth time. "I don't know if I should do this..."
Sirius snorted. "Don't be stupid. You're just getting cold feet, Prongs. You know that Lily's your true love, and everything will be fine. Now, lets go!"
"I just don't want anything to change between you, me and Moony."
"Nothings going to change, I promise!" Sirius smiled, pushing James gently into the church.
"You'll always be my best friends, Sirius."
"And you'll always be mine, James," Sirius answered.
**
The wedding went perfectly, and the reception was a blast. The newlyweds glittered, and it was obvious to everyone that they were meant for each other. Remus hung around the edges, trying to be a wall-flower, but Sirius kept pushing him onto the dance floor.
True to his word, Sirius showed no outwards signs that anything was happening between him and Remus. He sat with him during dinner, and made sure that Remus wasn't alone. Sirius himself spent the majority of the evening dancing with Lily's friends, though he was always near Remus during these dances.
Finally, around midnight, the reception ended. Lily and James flew off into the night on his prized broomstick, and the guests left soon after. Except for Remus and Sirius.
"May I have this dance?" Sirius smiled, holding his hand out to Remus, who was sitting alone on the dance floor.
Remus looked up. "There's no music," he said softly. With a wave of his wand, Sirius comjured up a stereo. Music drifted softly through the air, and Sirius grinned at Remus.
"May I have this dance?" he asked again, extending his hand. Remus smiled, and stood up. The two danced slowly alone underneath the enchanted ceiling.
"It's a little bit funny this feeling inside
I'm not one of those who can easily hide
I don't have much money but boy if I did
I'd buy a big house where we both could live
If I was a sculptor, but then again, no
Or a man who makes potions in a travelling show
I know it's not much but it's the best I can do
My gift is my song and this one's for you
And you can tell everybody this is your song
It may be quite simple but now that it's done
I hope you don't mind
I hope you don't mind that I put down in words
How wonderful life is while you're in the world..." the radio sang as Remus and Sirius danced, lost in thier own little world. The outside world melted slowly away, all that mattered was that they were together, sharing thier first real dance.
"I sat on the roof and kicked off the moss
Well a few of the verses well they've got me quite cross
But the sun's been quite kind while I wrote this song
It's for people like you that keep it turned on
So excuse me forgetting but these things I do
You see I've forgotten if they're green or they're blue
Anyway the thing is what I really mean
Yours are the sweetest eyes I've ever seen
And you can tell everybody this is you're song
It mat be quite simple but now that its done
I hope you don't mind
I hope you don't mind that I put down in words
How wonderful life is while you're in the world
I hope you don't mind
I hope you don't mind that I put down in words
How wonderful life is now you're in the world..."
The song faded out, and Remus looked into Sirius' eyes.
"Well, thanks, Padfoot. I'll be seeing you later," he said, turing away and starting to head out of the building.
"Not so fast!" Sirius exclaimed, taking Remus by the arm. "You're coming with me." Remus looked at him inquiringly, but Sirius said nothing more, he just led Remus to a small apartment. A small table for two was set up on the balcony, candles illuminating the scene. Two glasses filled with red wine rested on rose petals, which were strewn about the table. A box of Godiva truffles lay open in the middle of the arrangement.
Remus turned and stared at Sirius, who looked immensely pleased with himself. "My uncle Alphard gave me some money after gradutation. Thought I'd treat you to something special on our anniversary!"
"Our...anniversary?" Remus said, trying to remember.
Sirius gasped in mock disgust. "Really, Moony. I'd expect you to remember anniversaries better than me. I mean," he added with a wicked smile on his face. "you're obviously the girl in the relationship."
Remus flushed, and gave Sirius the death glare. "That's not funny!"
"Aww! Don't be mad, Moony. I was only playing! Have a chocolate." He offered Remus the box of truffles. Remus, no matter how upset he was, could never pass up chocolate. Grudgingly he took a truffle, and ate it. Sirius smiled at him, and offered him a glass of wine. Warily, Remus took the glass and took a sip.
"It's good," Remus complimented awkwardly. This was a very expensive gift, and of course he hadn't gotten Sirius anything, so he felt doubly worse. "Er...do you mind if I take a bath? I'm a little sweaty from all the dancing."
"It's to the left of the bedroom," Sirius motioned, drinking his wine and watching the city below him. Remus smiled his thanks, and walked into the bathroom. Undressing quickly he stepped into the hot water, sighing happily as he sunk down into the tub. With steaming water covering his body, Remus' mind started to wander. He thought about his friends, and how odd it was going to be outside of Hogwarts.
-Graduating shouldn't change anything, I mean, Prongs, Wormtail, Padfoot and I will always be friends...and we are all in the Order, so we'll still get to see each other. And if Padfoot and I ...- he sighed mentally. Everything got mixed up when it came to Sirius. -I can't believe I forgot our anniversary...it was sweet of him to do this for me.- He smiled as he thought about the chocolate and wine. And thier dance. It was the first "thing" they had done out in public, and Remus was a little scared of what it meant. He knew that he and Sirius were meant for each other, it was obvious, but the whole thing wierded him out.
"Hey sexy," Sirius smiled, taking off his shirt. Remus yelped, covering himself with a towel. Sirius laughed, and finished undressing. "Don't bother, I've been standing here for a while," he said, as he too got into the bathtub. Remus blushed, and scooted to the far edge of the tub. "Wine?" Sirius asked, conjuring up a glass.
"I've got it," Remus replied, and a glass appeared next to him. He took a sip, and looked at Sirius. "What are you doing here?"
"Taking a bath," Sirius replied calmly. Moving next to Remus (who, by the way, was still covering himself with a towel), he rested his head on Remus' shoulder. "Happy anniversary, Moony."
"Happy anniversary, Padfoot." Remus stirred uncomfortably, his left arm causing him pain because of the way he was sitting. If he moved, his arm would stop hurting him, but that would result in him having to move tha towel, and he wasn't quite sure he wanted to do that. Still, his arm was hurting quite badly, so swallowing his modesty, he moved the towel, and quickly relieved the pain in his arm. Sirius, to Remus' slight surprise, did nothing.
"You do realize you're getting the towel you were supposed to use to dry off with wet, right?" Sirius smiled. Remus had not realized that, and now felt immensely stupid. Sighing, he placed the towel out to the side, so it could try and dry. Modesty was pretty much screwed now, Sirius had already seen him, and was going to again sooner or later. "That's better," Sirius said, kissing Remus on the chin.
Remus sighed, "I suppose..." He looked down at Sirius, and smiled. "I love you."
"Me too..."
"You love me or you love you?"
Sirius pondered on this. "Both."
Remus laughed, and stood up. "Well, I feel better." He grabbed the still soaking towel, and tried in vain to dry himself off.
"For Pete's sake, Moony," Sirius rolled his eyes. "Come with me." grabbing Remus' hand, he led him to the linen closet, grabbed a clean towel, and pushed it into his hand.
"Thank you. Er...do you have I place were I can change?"
"Theres the bedroom." Sirius showed Remus to the bedroom, and started rummaging around in his dresser.
"Um, Padfoot...do you, er, mind?" Remus said, blushing slightly. Sirius snorted, and snatching his robe, stomped out of the room. Remus shut the door behind him.
While Remus was dressing, Sirius searched the kitchen, unsure what he was hungry for. He had plenty of food, but nothing really sounded appetizing. Scratching his stomach, he shut the pantry and sat on the couch. Remus was sending him such mixed messages. -He lets me take a bath with him, but I'm not allowed in the room while he gets dressed?- Sirius sniffed moodily. -What's he playing at?-
After what seemed like an hour, Sirius finally got bored, and went back to his bedroom. Opening the door, he smiled to himself. Remus was laying in bed, sleep just starting to fall. Quietly, Sirius entered the room, and crept into bed himself. Remus stirred, turning and facing Sirius. He smiled happily, and put his arm around him. Sirius leaned in and kissed him, and Remus returned it. Boldly, Remus placed his tongue in Sirius' mouth, thier tongues touching. Sirius rolled Remus over to where he was on top, and they kissed again and again.
Sirius dark eyes met Remus', and saw that they were filled with passion and love. He smiled, and that night, he was the happiest man on Earth.
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OOOO! Ain't it great? Gotta love slashies. Cuz they are sooooo much fun! ^__^ Read and Review, pwease!
1) Why aren't Lily and James a big part of the story?
2)Why are Remus and Sirius slashed?
My answers:
1) Because this fic is mostly about Remus and Sirius, and Lily and James would just be useless filler if I made them any bigger than what they are now. I mean, don't get me wrong, they ARE going to be in my fic, they're just not going to be main characters. ^__^
2) ::sighs:: They are gay because that's how I want this fic to go. If I can't have them, then they chould have each other. lol. No, really it's because of this piccy my friend showed me (see my bio) that's of them kissing. it got me thinking, and I was all like, Dude, imagine how Remus must feel having to watch his love be killed, and not being able to really grieve openly about it. It was perfect! - ^_____^-
So, I hope that clears any confusion up!
Disclaimer: Don't own Harry Potter...Just Remus and Sirius...*evil giggle* *drool*
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~Chapter *~
~Sirius' Journal~ ~April 24, 1990~
{Prongs and Lily got married today.I'm so happy for them. Prongs looked odd, all dressed up in a tuxedo and tie. Lily, of course, looked stunning. Remus...well, lets just say he wasn't in his clothes very long after the wedding that it doesn't really matter what his tux looked like...}
"Padfoot," James said nervously as Sirius straightened his tie for the umpteenth time. "I don't know if I should do this..."
Sirius snorted. "Don't be stupid. You're just getting cold feet, Prongs. You know that Lily's your true love, and everything will be fine. Now, lets go!"
"I just don't want anything to change between you, me and Moony."
"Nothings going to change, I promise!" Sirius smiled, pushing James gently into the church.
"You'll always be my best friends, Sirius."
"And you'll always be mine, James," Sirius answered.
**
The wedding went perfectly, and the reception was a blast. The newlyweds glittered, and it was obvious to everyone that they were meant for each other. Remus hung around the edges, trying to be a wall-flower, but Sirius kept pushing him onto the dance floor.
True to his word, Sirius showed no outwards signs that anything was happening between him and Remus. He sat with him during dinner, and made sure that Remus wasn't alone. Sirius himself spent the majority of the evening dancing with Lily's friends, though he was always near Remus during these dances.
Finally, around midnight, the reception ended. Lily and James flew off into the night on his prized broomstick, and the guests left soon after. Except for Remus and Sirius.
"May I have this dance?" Sirius smiled, holding his hand out to Remus, who was sitting alone on the dance floor.
Remus looked up. "There's no music," he said softly. With a wave of his wand, Sirius comjured up a stereo. Music drifted softly through the air, and Sirius grinned at Remus.
"May I have this dance?" he asked again, extending his hand. Remus smiled, and stood up. The two danced slowly alone underneath the enchanted ceiling.
"It's a little bit funny this feeling inside
I'm not one of those who can easily hide
I don't have much money but boy if I did
I'd buy a big house where we both could live
If I was a sculptor, but then again, no
Or a man who makes potions in a travelling show
I know it's not much but it's the best I can do
My gift is my song and this one's for you
And you can tell everybody this is your song
It may be quite simple but now that it's done
I hope you don't mind
I hope you don't mind that I put down in words
How wonderful life is while you're in the world..." the radio sang as Remus and Sirius danced, lost in thier own little world. The outside world melted slowly away, all that mattered was that they were together, sharing thier first real dance.
"I sat on the roof and kicked off the moss
Well a few of the verses well they've got me quite cross
But the sun's been quite kind while I wrote this song
It's for people like you that keep it turned on
So excuse me forgetting but these things I do
You see I've forgotten if they're green or they're blue
Anyway the thing is what I really mean
Yours are the sweetest eyes I've ever seen
And you can tell everybody this is you're song
It mat be quite simple but now that its done
I hope you don't mind
I hope you don't mind that I put down in words
How wonderful life is while you're in the world
I hope you don't mind
I hope you don't mind that I put down in words
How wonderful life is now you're in the world..."
The song faded out, and Remus looked into Sirius' eyes.
"Well, thanks, Padfoot. I'll be seeing you later," he said, turing away and starting to head out of the building.
"Not so fast!" Sirius exclaimed, taking Remus by the arm. "You're coming with me." Remus looked at him inquiringly, but Sirius said nothing more, he just led Remus to a small apartment. A small table for two was set up on the balcony, candles illuminating the scene. Two glasses filled with red wine rested on rose petals, which were strewn about the table. A box of Godiva truffles lay open in the middle of the arrangement.
Remus turned and stared at Sirius, who looked immensely pleased with himself. "My uncle Alphard gave me some money after gradutation. Thought I'd treat you to something special on our anniversary!"
"Our...anniversary?" Remus said, trying to remember.
Sirius gasped in mock disgust. "Really, Moony. I'd expect you to remember anniversaries better than me. I mean," he added with a wicked smile on his face. "you're obviously the girl in the relationship."
Remus flushed, and gave Sirius the death glare. "That's not funny!"
"Aww! Don't be mad, Moony. I was only playing! Have a chocolate." He offered Remus the box of truffles. Remus, no matter how upset he was, could never pass up chocolate. Grudgingly he took a truffle, and ate it. Sirius smiled at him, and offered him a glass of wine. Warily, Remus took the glass and took a sip.
"It's good," Remus complimented awkwardly. This was a very expensive gift, and of course he hadn't gotten Sirius anything, so he felt doubly worse. "Er...do you mind if I take a bath? I'm a little sweaty from all the dancing."
"It's to the left of the bedroom," Sirius motioned, drinking his wine and watching the city below him. Remus smiled his thanks, and walked into the bathroom. Undressing quickly he stepped into the hot water, sighing happily as he sunk down into the tub. With steaming water covering his body, Remus' mind started to wander. He thought about his friends, and how odd it was going to be outside of Hogwarts.
-Graduating shouldn't change anything, I mean, Prongs, Wormtail, Padfoot and I will always be friends...and we are all in the Order, so we'll still get to see each other. And if Padfoot and I ...- he sighed mentally. Everything got mixed up when it came to Sirius. -I can't believe I forgot our anniversary...it was sweet of him to do this for me.- He smiled as he thought about the chocolate and wine. And thier dance. It was the first "thing" they had done out in public, and Remus was a little scared of what it meant. He knew that he and Sirius were meant for each other, it was obvious, but the whole thing wierded him out.
"Hey sexy," Sirius smiled, taking off his shirt. Remus yelped, covering himself with a towel. Sirius laughed, and finished undressing. "Don't bother, I've been standing here for a while," he said, as he too got into the bathtub. Remus blushed, and scooted to the far edge of the tub. "Wine?" Sirius asked, conjuring up a glass.
"I've got it," Remus replied, and a glass appeared next to him. He took a sip, and looked at Sirius. "What are you doing here?"
"Taking a bath," Sirius replied calmly. Moving next to Remus (who, by the way, was still covering himself with a towel), he rested his head on Remus' shoulder. "Happy anniversary, Moony."
"Happy anniversary, Padfoot." Remus stirred uncomfortably, his left arm causing him pain because of the way he was sitting. If he moved, his arm would stop hurting him, but that would result in him having to move tha towel, and he wasn't quite sure he wanted to do that. Still, his arm was hurting quite badly, so swallowing his modesty, he moved the towel, and quickly relieved the pain in his arm. Sirius, to Remus' slight surprise, did nothing.
"You do realize you're getting the towel you were supposed to use to dry off with wet, right?" Sirius smiled. Remus had not realized that, and now felt immensely stupid. Sighing, he placed the towel out to the side, so it could try and dry. Modesty was pretty much screwed now, Sirius had already seen him, and was going to again sooner or later. "That's better," Sirius said, kissing Remus on the chin.
Remus sighed, "I suppose..." He looked down at Sirius, and smiled. "I love you."
"Me too..."
"You love me or you love you?"
Sirius pondered on this. "Both."
Remus laughed, and stood up. "Well, I feel better." He grabbed the still soaking towel, and tried in vain to dry himself off.
"For Pete's sake, Moony," Sirius rolled his eyes. "Come with me." grabbing Remus' hand, he led him to the linen closet, grabbed a clean towel, and pushed it into his hand.
"Thank you. Er...do you have I place were I can change?"
"Theres the bedroom." Sirius showed Remus to the bedroom, and started rummaging around in his dresser.
"Um, Padfoot...do you, er, mind?" Remus said, blushing slightly. Sirius snorted, and snatching his robe, stomped out of the room. Remus shut the door behind him.
While Remus was dressing, Sirius searched the kitchen, unsure what he was hungry for. He had plenty of food, but nothing really sounded appetizing. Scratching his stomach, he shut the pantry and sat on the couch. Remus was sending him such mixed messages. -He lets me take a bath with him, but I'm not allowed in the room while he gets dressed?- Sirius sniffed moodily. -What's he playing at?-
After what seemed like an hour, Sirius finally got bored, and went back to his bedroom. Opening the door, he smiled to himself. Remus was laying in bed, sleep just starting to fall. Quietly, Sirius entered the room, and crept into bed himself. Remus stirred, turning and facing Sirius. He smiled happily, and put his arm around him. Sirius leaned in and kissed him, and Remus returned it. Boldly, Remus placed his tongue in Sirius' mouth, thier tongues touching. Sirius rolled Remus over to where he was on top, and they kissed again and again.
Sirius dark eyes met Remus', and saw that they were filled with passion and love. He smiled, and that night, he was the happiest man on Earth.
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OOOO! Ain't it great? Gotta love slashies. Cuz they are sooooo much fun! ^__^ Read and Review, pwease!