It's been two months.

But instead ..

It was like forever.

Why ?

Oh yes.

It was because ..

Without you.

I thought it was a phase thing, you know ?

A depression state when you're in your teens.

I never knew,

It would take so long,

To overcome ..

Without you.

Sometimes, I wonder ..

If I'm ever going to overcome it.

You know ?

It's been two months.

I'm ready to face forever ..

Of depression.

Without you.

Not that I want to.

I have to.

I've been so emotionless

Without you.

Today,

Is His and my sister's wedding,

My heart is empty ..

Without you.

I miss you ..

Inuyasha.

I miss you.

I need you.

I am nothing.

Without you.

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Kouga tried to talk to her. Really. He tried.

But Kagome just politely waved him off.

She tried. Really.

But she would never love Kouga the way she loved Inuyasha ..

That truly hurt.

Considering your love loved another.

It was like she was nothing now. It has been a short time since she's met him, but the young maiden knew it was more than that. She's been saying that for two months.

Two very, long months.

Two very, long, agonizing months.

Kagome could make a list.

She longed for the hanyou prince to have his eyes only on her. For a time, she thought he did. But she was just giddy. Or something.

If there was a time, where he could just wrap his arms around her and tell her that he loved her, even though he didn't mean it, she would be satisfied.

So satisfied, she might've just died right then and there.

But she won't.

Why ?

.. because that would never happen.

Kagome sighed. Her stomach was calling to her. She clutched it, hoping it would go away. But it didn't.

It didn't for three weeks.

Yes.

She hasn't eaten.

In three weeks.

Impossible ?

Indeed.

She did eat, pieces of her dinner that Kouga would bring to her everyday, in fact. But just crumbs. So it was like, not eating at all.

She didn't mind.

Hunger wasn't the first thing on her mind.

He was.

A low rumbling sound echoed in Kagome's ears, and she closed her eyes. She was so weak. So frail.

She was like a thin toothpick, with nothing but skin and bones.

Pale skin and bones.

It's been so long since she's gone out. Her natural tan didn't glow anymore.

She looked so much like Kikyou.

Oh god.

Again, her stomach growled. Kagome furrowed her brows in frustration.

Kouga should be here by now. He would always come up three times a day, sometimes four, to try to talk to her, and give her something to eat.

But today, he was late.

Kagome didn't want to move. She just wanted to sit in front of that window and think about him.

But she was so hungry. She longed for crumbs.

Sighing, Kagome got up, wrapping a thin cotton blanket around her. She had requested it, she was sick of fur. She didn't want Kouga thinking she was wearing any of his things.

Kagome walked across the fur carpet, reaching to the door slowly. She opened it and began walking down the stone spiral stairs. Man, was it just her or was there fireflies in this room ?

No wait. Polka dots. Purple ones.

Hmmm ..

Kagome sighed again. She's been sighing a lot lately. She would think about him, then about Kouga. She felt a little bad just pushing him away like that. After all, all he wanted to do was to help. No harm .. hey ?

" It's been two months, can't you let her see him for once ?! " a loud, angry voice radiated in the room right next to Kagome.

Suddenly awake, Kagome quickly darted behind the door, crouching down to listen.

" No. You know the deal, Kouga. "

So it was Kouga. Who was he with ? That voice. It sounds so .. familiar.

It's .. coldness.

Kagome gasped.

Kikyou

What was she doing here ?!

The cold voice continued, sharp and dangerous. " I cannot risk it, you know that. You can lose Kagome like this. "

The male voice, which sounded angry, suddenly dropped. Sadly. " I know that ! But she's in so much pain ! Can't I just kill the damn fur ball already ?! "

Instantly, the cold voice snapped, " The deal was done and nobody was going to get hurt ! Today is me and Inuyasha's wedding .. nothing can spoil it, or I'll skin you alive wolf ! "

" What the hell are you talking about, wench ? Kagome's hurt ! Don't you care about that ?! "

The feminine voice dropped, sounding extremely low and uncaring. " She has done nothing but ruin my entire life, and I am to suddenly care for her ?! "

" It doesn't matter ! The deal was for you to knock her out, bring her to me, and I take her to my castle and cause her to fall in love with me ! But she CAN'T ! She does nothing but sulk by the window and think about that stupid hanyou all day ! Now you're the one relaxing your ass off with that sad disgrace for a demon, probably seducing him to you ! " Kouga shouted, his voice cracking evidently. He waved his hand in front of a quiet Kikyou and glared at her. " Forget it. I'll go check on her right now. I'm already late sending her her dinner. "

Kagome closed her eyes. She could feel tears roll down her cheeks. She felt her heart was breaking again.

S-so this was what it was all about. All the lies. All the things Kouga told her .. was all a lie. I trusted him, and here he is, turning his back on me .. like ..

Kagome gasped. Inuyasha

So Inuyasha never said those things to her. It was just some cruel words Kouga and Kikyou had conjured up to hurt her. And it worked.

Kagome whimpered. She felt her heart breaking all over again. If she had known earlier, then she would've escaped the castle long ago and rush into Inuyasha's arms, explaining everything. But now, it was too late. It was Inuyasha and Kikyou's wedding ..

Today.

" Whose there ?! " Kouga suddenly yelled.

Kagome slapped her hand over her mouth and backed away from the door as quietly as possible. Kouga had heard her whimper. Oh no.

Kouga narrowed his eyes at the doorway and crouched into a fighting position.

Before he could pounce, Kikyou laid a pale hand on Kouga's shoulder. Kouga turned to look at her questioningly.

Kikyou looked at Kouga coldly and warningly. " It could be Kagome. Be careful. She cannot know. "

" Yeah, I know. " Kouga snapped and stood back up. " Leave now, Kikyou. "

Before Kikyou could protest or answer, Kouga hurried away, slamming the door behind him.

Secretly, Kouga didn't like Kikyou. At all. Now to check on Kagome ..

Kouga almost missed the pieces of broken furniture been thrown at him the minute he stepped inside Kagome's room.

" What the hell .. Kagome ?! " Kouga shouted, as he ducked from a broken shelf from a drawer.

Kouga looked at Kagome with astonished eyes. The trust Kagome had given Kouga was no more. She now looked like a frightened child, backed into a corner. She screamed at the prince to leave, as she laid her back against the wall, as if she was trying to push through it.

" Kagome .. " Kouga started gently, taking a step towards the frail girl.

" NO ! Stay away from me ! " Kagome shrieked, as her hand frantically searched for something to throw at the surprised wolf demon.

The young girl cried again, now pushing herself harshly against the stone obstruction. She let out a sob and sank to the ground, weeping sorrowfully.

Kouga took a step towards her, but froze when Kagome looked at him behind her hands. Her eyes spelt out fear and betrayal, and her small frame was shaking terribly.

Did Kouga cause all this ? This beautiful innocent girl who was once called Kagome, turned into this ? A miserable, insecure, lonely girl that he made her to be ? Oh. What did he do ?!

When Kagome noticed that Kouga was not going to move towards her anymore, she grabbed her all-too-favorite glass lamp and threw it against the repaired wall she had broken the last time she snuck out. She paid no attention to the young prince and continued bashing it, just like the first day.

And just like the first day, she bled.

Just more this time.

Kouga clenched his fists and gritted his teeth. He hated seeing Kagome like this .. she hurting herself !

Taking a long stride towards her, Kouga grabbed her wrist. " Stop this nonsense, Kagome ! "

Kouga whipped her head towards her, her raven hair flailing in all directions. Tears streamed down her dirt-covered cheeks as she spoke, trembling. " There's nothing you can do to stop me ! "

Kouga growled, and tightened his grip on Kagome, who winced. " Look at yourself, Kagome ! You haven't eaten in weeks ! You stayed in one room too long for your own good ! You didn't speak to anyone, you didn't acknowledge anyone, no matter how hard they try ! And now you're forcing yourself to bleed and .. "

" BECAUSE I LOVE HIM, KOUGA ! BECAUSE I LOVE HIM ! " Kagome screams, cutting Kouga off harshly. She grabbed onto Kouga's wrist and flung it away roughly. " DO YOU KNOW HOW IT FEELS LIKE TO BE IN A LOVE ?! "

" Kagome .. " Kouga breathed, his expression surprised. A second later, he furrowed his brows and grabbed her wrist again. " Kagome, you .. "

Kagome shook her head in disgust, " Don't ' Kagome ' me, Kouga ! You have no idea how it feels to be locked away from the one you love for two months ! Two months, Kouga ! It's been a long, painful, two months ! "

Kagome took a deep breath and looked away from the astonished wolf prince. In a much quieter and shakier voice, Kagome mumbled, " I thought I could get over him. I thought all I needed was to think about all the bad qualities he held. But I was wrong. No matter how hard I think about the mean things he did to me, all the good things seem to string along with it. He was the only one there for me. And he was the first. It's hard to just throw away your first friend. "

Kagome looked at her cut fingers and whimpered. " And your first love. "

After the last words came out of Kagome's mouth, nobody spoke.

There was no sound except for the hard breathing of Kagome, and rough wiping of tears on her cheeks.

Slowly, Kouga unwrapped his fingers from Kagome's wrist. He dropped it and looked away in Kagome's surprise.

She backed away from the prince and braced herself for anything if Kouga decided to attack her.

But he didn't.

" Go. " Kouga muttered.

Kagome blinked through her tears and looked at him in surprise. " W-what ? "

" I said, go. " Kouga repeated, this time, more forcefully.

Kagome blinked, her expression surprised. " B-but .. why ?! "

Kouga lifted his head at her slowly, his expression was tired and his eyes had lost its sparkle. " Do you love that mutt that much, Kagome ? "

Kagome slowly nodded, unsure of where Kouga was getting to.

" Y-yes. " she whispered.

Kouga nodded and looked away from her again, hiding his face and his expression. " If it makes you happy .. go to him. "

" Kouga .. " Kagome whispered, this time, happy tears streaming down her cheeks.

" Just .. just go. " Kouga said wearily, his voice losing its normal firmness.

Kagome immediately nodded and straightened her kimono, which she wore from the day she was kidnapped. She didn't want to take it off. It was the last thing it reminded her of Inuyasha. Somehow.

Kagome stepped up to Kouga, who faced the ceiling. She reached her hand up to his face and caressed it softly. " Thank you, Kouga. You'll always be in my heart. I'm sorry. "

Kouga didn't look at her, but nodded slightly. " Just go. And .. Kagome .. ? "

Kagome looked him expectantly. " Yes ? "

Kouga turned his head towards Kagome, his expression was blank. " Don't forget me. "

Kagome nodded and walked past the wolf demon and to the door. She grabbed the handle and looked back.

Kouga faced the ceiling, but his eyes were on her. He would always protect her, even though she had just broken his heart.

And for the first time in two months, Kagome smiled.

Running out of the castle, Kagome's mind was set on one thing.

Today was Inuyasha and Kikyou's wedding. Kagome had to stop it.

No matter how hard it was.

Kagome pounded her bare feet against the hard dirt and peered at the sky. Dawn was breaking. Kagome had to hurry. She didn't have a lot of time left.

She swallowed as the wind whipped her tear streaked face. She hoped she would make it there on time.

Doubts had filled her heart, and the hope left in her was just a mere spark.

But if she didn't try, she knew, she would regret it for a lifetime.

A/N : Sorry for the delay. My close auntie died of breast cancer. Hope you understand and Ceaseless Cloudy Days, I'm in grade 7, not grade 5