The truth about martinis and hormones

Chapter 15

AN: this is a short, journal from a character. I'm doing this in school and have less than twenty minuets, let's see how I do. *evil laugh* ____________________________________________________________________

Dear f*n journal

I have no one else to complain to, I'll be complaining to you from now on. Honestly, I don't know how to respond to the incident that took place two hours ago on MY side of the bed, but I'll explain how I think I feel.

Well, I can't say a lot, this truly is my fault and now, for sure, I realize I might not be capable of loving another human being; maybe I really am just a monster.

Honestly, I feel like I should be hurt, but I kind of expected this to happen. It says a lot, huh? How a girl like me gets caught in all sorts of webs, but breaks her way out of it and finally when she doesn't want to get free she has no choice. Oh god, now I'm describing my self as the prey of a vicious man eating spider.

Brooke and Lucas

Flash.B

"Opps, are you okay?" Lucas's hand cupped his mouth; he quickly jumped off the bed and picked a groaning Brooke off the floor.  

"Fine," she giggled, rubbing her head, "whoof! What a rush!"

"Were you guys going to…uh?" Haley trailed off, a slight blush coming to her cheeks, she fatigued a moment and stole an apologetic glance at Peyton, "kiss?" she finished, lightly brushing a stray hair behind her ear.

"Look's more like they were aiming for a little something more," Nathan winked at his older brother, "I guess that's the awful truth about martinis and hormones."

"Or maybe we just wanted to," Lucas glared at his sibling, who held his hands up in defense.

Nathan chuckled dryly, "hey I never said anything, you all do whatever you want, but me, I'm hitting the Jacuzzi," and walked back into the bathroom, leaving everyone in complete silence.

E.F

 LUCAS-Brooke?

I knew that for years they've had secret fantasies of one another, probably even secret rendezvous when Lucas and I broke up, but now, after all of these years? Why am I upset? Am I even upset? I don't know, maybe I'm just numb to emotion now and maybe it's about time I realize how much of a worthless, male basher I am. I can't be upset.

I mean, how could Lucas not like my BEST friend? She's smart, hilarious, sexy, fun and capable of shall I say, love? Not to mention, they did like each other before he decided to be with me years ago and look what happened with his decision. On the other hand, how could she do this to me? She is my best friend, who does she think she's fooling? Ugh. I'm so confused.

He thinks so low of me now and honestly, I can understand why, I'm not just saying this, I swear; 'I have a fiancée,' but I think I'm still hopelessly… what's that 'L' word? Sheesh, I can't even think of it!

SHIT!

.Peyton Sawyer.

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Sorry it's so short, but like I said, I only have ten minuets and you all already know it's hard for me to get on the comp at home, but remember I'll make it up to you. Review… Don't worry I'm going to go into detail about the Brooke Lucas situation…