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World: Movie II

Pairings: Scott/Ororo, Xavier/Magneto

Dedicated to: Nadja Lee and Leah with love

Written from Xavier's POV

Follows 'Forever'

I never will…

It's a beautiful Sunday morning, there in England, where they live. And like every Sunday morning Ororo is watering the flowers, and Scott sits there by the window, holding the baby at his chest.

I had sworn to myself I would never psychically check on them again, but I have to. Just one more time, I promise, and then I will be forever out of your lives.

I had once hoped I could be a part of your family, Scott, that there would be room for my face on your family portrait resting on the chimney. Oh, Scott, why did you leave? Why did you see me as the villain of this story?

With tears in my eyes I swear to you I am not.

With tears in my eyes I swear to you I still love you.

I never hated you for not wanting to join Magneto. I never hated you for not agreeing with our plans. It was your choice, Scott, and I could have never hated you for it.

So why did you hate me?

You abandoned me when I needed you most, but I was never mad at you because of it. You have always been like a son to me, Scott. I have always loved you. You did not have to leave…

You were not here to see the teams united, you were not here to see me and Erik back together after so long. You choose not to be a part of our family, and instead you left and formed one of your own.

I can respect that. But why cast me completely out of your life?

When I look at sweet Camilla's face I cannot help but feel tears in my eyes and think she would need a grandfather. Why not let me be one for her?

There is nothing I want more than be able to hold her at my chest, kiss those red cheeks and be able to call her grand-daughter…

Scott, I have always looked at you as my son, and not as Cyclops. Frankly, I could not care less if you were an X-Man or not. All I ever wanted since I took you in was to be a part of your life, and to be able to fill it, as you have mine.

You see, Scott, when I let you go, a small part of me was hoping you would come back, and kiss my cheeks and call me 'father' again… I do not want to give up that part of me yet, Scott… please don't make me give it up…

But you already have. And now my soul has a wound in it that not even Erick's love can cure. I miss you, Scott. I miss you presence, your touch, and your love.

I could have easily stopped you when you left, but I didn't, Scott.

Do you know why?

Because I did not want to. I had hoped you would see my benevolent gesture and appreciate it. I had hoped you would understand I could never do anything to hurt you, and that I would always protect you…

The standard procedure for anyone who suspects anything is usually a quick erasing of the person's mind, and then I can induce whatever memories I want.

You see, me and Erik have long ago agreed that any mutant is too valuable to loose, and that everyone who came to my school and got attached to it  would stay. No exceptions.

But I have made an exception for you, Scott. And the only reason for which I let Ororo go too was because the two of you were in love, and I could never bring myself to cause you so much pain as to take your love away from you again.

You have no idea how Magneto could react. And he was right to do so. I had let the our finest recruits and the best mutants in this world walk away, and haven't moved a finger –or, better said, a thought- to stop them.

He didn't speak to me for days. It was so bad I even had to postpone our wedding day. But one thing I was certain of was that Erick would, undoubtedly forgive me. I could not say the same about you, my son. I could only hope you would be able to forgive an old man and cater to him by coming home. But you never have and now I see that you never will either…

Even after this long time, I still respect and love you, son. As easily as I've tracked you down, I can make you come back home and we could become a family again. But I do not want a puppet on strings, Scott, I only want my son back, and , perhaps, my daughter and granddaughter too.

That day, three years ago, when you left, was an end of a chapter in my life, Scott. A chapter I would have given anything to be able to continue…

When you told me you were taking Ororo with you, my first thought was to say no. I did not want to let Storm leave. She was the only good choice for a leader I had except of you.

But then I sensed it… your feelings for her… it was love… true, unquestionable love. It reminded me so much of what Moira and I used to share.

You are my son, Scott, and I could not deny you what had been denied to me so long ago. I wanted you to life a happy life, next to the one you loved. And if that meant you both should be away from me… than there was nothing more I could do.

All this, I have done for you, Scott, because I love you. You cannot imagine what pain it brought me to sense that anger and hate in you, and what pain it brings me that your only memories of this school, and of me, are tainted by sadness.

Sometimes, Scott, I feel the need to reach out to you with my mind, and gently brush over yours, to tell you that I love you, and I want you back.

But each time I push that need aside, because fate choose otherwise for us.

I wonder if I will ever find anyone who I can love and who can love me back as you once could.

I wonder if I will ever find anyone who will hug me as tight as you did and call me father again.

I wonder if I will ever find anyone who can make me as proud as you did.

Ah… Scott… one look at you, and your beautiful wife, and your lovely daughter gives me the answer….

I never will…

The End